I'm in the world of comprehension swordsmanship three CP

The realm of comprehension has completely settled down and become Ye Xuanyan's main world. Ye Xuanyan has been creating his own world for so many years, and he is a little tired. In addition, Ye Chen is a little worried about the main god and Oneiroi, so he always feels that it is impossible to let it go.He simply went out together to deal with it.

Yan Se never liked to take care of these things, so he didn't follow, so only Ye Xuanyan and Ye Chen left.Sen Luo knew they were going, and followed them.

The first stop was the Lord God's Space. Upon learning that Ye Xuanyan was coming, Wu Taotao warmly welcomed him.

Ye Xuanyan naturally went directly to the main system. Since Wu Taotao appeared, the main god has not returned to the main god space.

Wu Taotao took Ye Chen and the others to visit the main god's space. Sen Luo held his arms in disgust the whole time. He didn't know how many thousands of years he stayed in this broken place. Who would want to see it again.

"How about going to your house to play? I haven't seen Junzile yet." Sen Luo suggested.He has been upset with Junzile for a long time, and when he thinks of Wu Taotao breaking up with him because of Junzile, he gets angry.

Wu Taotao thought so too, she and Sen Luo had known each other for so long, and she hadn't brought it home to see, so she invited Ye Chen and the others to play together.

Wu Taotao called his mother and said that he would bring his friends home at night.

After hanging up the phone, several people left the main god space.

Wu Taotao's mother, Qin Yifeng, heard the sound of the door opening and came out of the kitchen. She saw Wu Taotao bringing three strangers back with a gentle smile on her face. This was the first time Wu Taotao brought people back.

Qin Yifeng is a very smart woman, otherwise she would not have raised an independent, ambitious and powerful daughter like Wu Taotao.

It's not that she doesn't know that Wu Taotao has something on her mind.

Since she was a child, except for Jun Zile, she has never seen her daughter get close to anyone, not even a friend. Although she would say that she had a good time with colleagues and friends outside every day when she came home, she had never seen her so-called friends and colleagues.

She knew that her daughter had always been sensible and well-behaved. She reported good news but not bad news. Even if she was wronged outside, she would just bury it in her stomach. When she came home, she looked heartless and happy. She knew that she didn't want them to worry. , but as her mother, how could she not worry.

Hearing that she brought her friends back, she almost thought she had heard it wrong, but after confirming it again and again, she was actually moved to tears of joy.

She wanted her daughter to travel and make friends, not shut herself off.

Sometimes she also has inexplicable worries, worrying that her daughter will one day be unable to bear the pressure in her heart and choose to leave in a decisive way.

Little did she know that she had seen her daughter's dead body with her own eyes.

"Mom." Wu Taotao went up to her and gave her a big hug as soon as she came back.

Qin Yifeng teased, "Think you're still young." Her daughter is the best at acting like a baby, and when she grows up, she still loves her as much as she did when she was a child.

After Wu Taotao laughed a few times, he introduced: "This is my former colleague Sen Luo. He is the senior who I said has always taken care of me."

Qin Yifeng had heard Wu Taotao talk about Sen Luo, and knew that Sen Luo had tied her up a lot, so she quickly thanked her, which made Sen Luo feel embarrassed.

Of course, if this woman wasn't Wu Taotao's mother, he would definitely not be embarrassed at all.

"This is the younger brother of my boss's business partner, and his husband. Sen Luo has just jumped to work at his house." Wu Taotao introduced Ye Chen and the two in a very tactful way.

There is indeed nothing wrong with her description. If the main god is the boss of a large international company, then Ye Xuanyan can indeed be called his business partner, and Sen Luo, who is already under the management of Ye Xuanyan's rules, has indeed jumped to work under him.

Ye Chen didn't expect her to introduce them like this. When he first entered this world, he knew that homosexuality was not accepted by most people here. Surprisingly, Qin Yifeng didn't seem to find it strange, but entertained them very friendly.

It can be seen that Qin Yifeng is a very enlightened and generous woman.

Wu Taotao took Sen Luo to see her pets. The large glass tank was covered with wood chips, flowers and plants, decorated with natural wood, and there were beautiful wooden houses and coconut houses. It can be seen that this is a pet. Cage for hamsters.

Wu Taotao knocked on the glass lightly, and a small gray camel hamster the size of a child's fist came out from under the bedding. He looked up and ran over with his feet loose. Wu Taotao skillfully took out snacks and fed them It, the smile on the corner of the mouth is gentle and natural.

"You keep such a weak pet." Sen Luo poked the little hamster with his finger in disgust. The little hamster was startled and went straight into the tunnel and disappeared.

Wu Taotao glared at him angrily, this man is too annoying.

Sen Luo was not afraid, but provocatively said: "Your mother is in the kitchen, I don't believe you dare to hit me."

Wu Taotao: "..." This person is so cheap!

Not long after, Wu Taotao's husband, Jun Zile, came back.

This is not the first time Ye Chen has heard Jun Zi Le's name.Zhou Kai once said Junzile before, Junzile is the husband of the controller Wu Taotao, and also a very special existence in the main god space. When Wu Taotao is away, he will temporarily replace her position.

It is said that he is very strong, at least stronger than Jiang Min, but whether this rumor is true remains to be verified.

At first glance, Jun Zile looks like a handsome and elegant man, with a gentle and elegant demeanor, which makes people think of the princes of ancient aristocratic families. The most eye-catching thing is the gentle smile on the corner of his mouth.

Noticing his return, Wu Taotao ran over to hug him, put his arms around his waist and acted like a baby, "Husband~ I want to hug~"

Sen Luo was rubbing his arms aside, oh my god, is this the Wu Taotao he knew, his goosebumps were all over the floor.

Jun Zile hugged her tenderly, and not only hugged her but also gave her a gentle kiss.

Their daughter Jun Sitian walked out from behind Jun Zile with a helpless expression on her face.

Mom, don't ignore her!

After hugging enough, Wu Taotao stretched out his hand to his daughter, "Tiantian, I want to hug."

Jun Sitian stepped forward and hugged her, and said with a mature look, "Give mom a hug."

"Ah, my daughter is so cute, so cute!" Every time Tiantian did this, Wu Taotao felt her heart softened, her daughter was simply too cute.

Jun Sitian has inherited the advantages of Wu Taotao and Jun Zile. She looks sweet and cute, and she likes to pretend to be an adult. It looks very interesting.

In a way, a woman like Wu Taotao who is a husband at home and who can blow other men's brains out when she goes out is actually quite scary.

And Jun Zile who can have a good time with her is also a god.

A few people got together to have a home-cooked meal. Qin Yifeng's cooking skills are very good, and Ye Chen is used to Ye Xuanyan's food, and they are absolutely good.

He picked up some dishes with chopsticks for Yechen.

Yechen rarely feels like home. He was abandoned since he was a child, and his memory of his parents has long been blurred. Only after he joined the Mingjiao did he have a place he could call home.

Later, they met Ye Chen and fell in love with each other, and where he was was home.

But it is very rare for a family to eat together like this, the only time is the New Year's Eve dinner cooked by Ye Xuanyan himself.

Although his parents have died and returned to life, he is already hundreds of years old, and he has long passed the age of needing his parents. Knowing that each other is living happily, he doesn't have so much concern and worry, and everyone spends very little time together.

"What's wrong?" Ye Chen asked curiously when he saw that he was motionless with the rice between his hands.

Yechen shook his head and said with a smile, "It's nothing."

He just felt a little emotional. He remembered that when he was a child, he was always alone and had to steal and grab food. Once he was a little weaker, he would be starved to death and beaten to death like other children.

After stepping into the path of cultivation, he got better, like a lone wolf, who keeps company with blood all day long, and competes with other wild animals for food.

The child who walked alone in his memory finally found his home.

"Mom. I want to eat meat." Jun Sitian stretched out her chopsticks, but she didn't catch her little fried meat. She puffed her face and pulled Wu Taotao's sleeve, shouting in a childish voice.

Wu Taotao picked up a piece of meat and said, "What else do you want to eat, mom will pick it up for you."

As he said that, Jun Zile filled a bowl of soup for Wu Taotao and handed it over. The milky white fish soup was fragrant.

Sen Luo looked to the left at you, me, the loving couple Ye Chen, and to the right at the warm and happy Wu Taotao's family, and suddenly felt that he shouldn't be here.

Wu Taotao is a person who likes to play very much. There are many toys and games in the house. They are very happy to play together. Flooded.

Estimating that the time was almost up, Wu Taotao sent a few people away.

Back in the main god space, Sen Luo suddenly squeezed Wu Taotao's cheek without saying a word.

"It hurts." Wu Taotao looked at him aggrievedly, is this person crazy!

"It's right if it hurts!" Seeing her frowning eyebrows, Sen Luo burst out laughing, "That's right."

Wu Taotao slapped his hand away angrily, and glared at him, "Damn it, why are you crazy?"

"What do you mean I'm crazy? You're the one who's crazy. We've been friends for so many years. I can't tell what you look like. You're obviously not happy, and you're exhausted, but you show someone that way. Do you think you're such a gentleman? Will Le be happy? If he really likes you, how can he not be able to tell whether you are really happy or fake." Sen Luo glanced sideways, he didn't understand what Wu Taotao was thinking, he looked like The look of an idiot.

To him, being happy is being happy, being unhappy is being unhappy, so why pretend to be happy?

The arc of Wu Taotao's mouth slowly fell down, obviously she was indeed not as happy as Sen Luo said on the surface.

It had been like this for a long time, and she thought she had recovered, and when she was pregnant with Tiantian, such bad symptoms appeared again.

It's ridiculous to say that at that time, she was already an infinite god, controlling the rules, but she was troubled by a small depression. Even if she changed her body, she couldn't change such a terrible state.

so tired.

Inexplicably depressed, suddenly lonely, guilty, and insecure, she sank into the mud again.

Death is terrible, but living is a million times more terrifying to her than death, and she needs to do her best to survive.

She didn't understand why she became like this, she was obviously very happy, luckier than anyone else, why she became like this now.

She began to seek answers, to find her peers.

She found them and found that they seemed to have the same troubles as herself.

There is a child named Xia Zelan, whose experience is very similar to hers. She endured the malice of others, and her beautiful family and unlimited future collapsed because of gossip, and she suffered from bipolar disorder.

Later, her family entered a world similar to infinite horror. Her "disappointed" father died to protect her and her mother, and her mother was surrounded by zombies to protect her.

At the last moment, she replaced it with a prop, and the one who died in the hands of the zombie became her.

When she reappeared, she turned into an inhuman thing. Even if she met true love, she quickly ran away, and even split into another personality.

There is also a girl who looks very similar to Wu Taotao.

It was a girl who was born bright and bright, with a smile on her eyes and eyebrows, her lips were naturally raised slightly, and when she smiled, there was a shallow dimple on her left cheek, which was not very obvious, but very cute.

She likes to make trouble, like to dance, and can chat with boys and girls. She is bold and lively, even if her health is not very good, her laughter is also wanton in the sun.

In the bright flowers, she went to hunt butterflies to catch bees, put the little bees into jars, and put them in fresh rape flowers every day. One month passed, and the bees were still alive. She opened the jar, and the bees vibrated their wings and flew to the sky .

Seven or eight-year-old boys are always annoying, and there are always people who like to tease her. She "chased and killed" all the way annoyed, blocking people at the door of the men's toilet. The little girl is like a queen, very Only when the people inside beg for mercy are they willing to give up.

She is so smart, she does small movements in class, and can easily get high marks in the exam. Sometimes she is a little careless and is pointed out by the teacher in public. She always rolls her eyes and sticks out her tongue playfully to promise never to do it again next time.

I don’t know when, she stopped laughing, the dimples on the corners of her mouth seemed to have disappeared, and she stopped speaking loudly in class, she was always soft-spoken. The teacher said that she was too shy and shy. Ask someone to speak for her specifically.

She has become mature and sensible, her former publicity has been put away, she is reserved, she still has a smile on her face, and she still makes friends.

Gradually, she found that she was not normal.

When did she become so shy?

She used to be the liveliest and boldest girl.

She didn't understand, so she started looking through the book.

She told herself she was just shy and just hit puberty and was a little different.

Later, she gradually realized that she began to enjoy loneliness. She liked to catch spiders in the grass of the playground by herself and put them in the jars she made. Strange to blame the spider he didn't know.

She likes a taupe spider the most. It has a chubby belly and is soft to the touch. She checked the information and found out that it is a kind of crab spider, called the mottled crab spider, and she likes the female spider.

Later, she raised a lot of spiders, and some spiders had egg sacs under their buttocks. The egg sacs broke open and crawled out small, almost transparent spiders. She watched them grow up little by little, and the small spiders became big spiders. , An unprecedented sense of accomplishment welled up in my heart.

Of course, when she rolled over, she was once bitten by a big black spider, and half of her hand was paralyzed for an hour.She didn't dare to say it, and secretly rubbed her hands on her pants, trying to regain consciousness.

During that time, she was really happy, and she seemed to have changed back to the girl who loved to laugh, make trouble and be bold.

Gradually, she became unhappy again, and opened the long-unopened ecological bottle to release all the contents inside. The insects ran from the jar to the world, and she trapped herself in the dark and dull jar.

She began to self-mutilate, her arm was scarred by shards of glass, she did not tell anyone, she had self-mutilation since the first grade of elementary school, and wrote blood books, she did not understand self-mutilation, she simply felt the wish written with her own blood Maybe it will happen.

Growing up, she knew the impossible, those wishes were simply impossible to come true.

With a smile on her face, she closed herself off, but she hoped that someone would pay attention to her. She wanted to be seen.

She seemed to suddenly become unreasonable, irritable and willful, sensitive and fragile, and finally returned to death, like a pool of stagnant water.

Nothing matters anymore, everything doesn't matter anymore, and it has nothing to do with me.

"Sometimes it feels like you don't have a heart," her mother said.

Her grandma said, "Why don't you have a smile on your face."

They seem to have forgotten that she used to be the most sensible child in the world, and she always knew how to be considerate of adults. Outsiders say that their children are half as good as yours. She was also the child who loved to laugh the most. The children played together, and the laughter filled the surroundings.

She knows the good and evil in the world, and also knows that the world is not beautiful but full of beauty.

But what did the world have to do with her?

She seemed to be having an absurd dream. When she woke up, she was in another world, without sorrow, pain, despair, quarrels and fights.

...and without her.

It's so hard, it's so hard to live in a dream, I really want to wake up.

Wu Taotao watched her collapse a little bit with his own eyes.

Standing on the newly purchased body fat scale, her weight has not changed much, and it is still about the same as before.

There was barely a smile on the corner of her mouth. Her weight did not change, and it fluctuated within a certain range as before. There was no overeating, no dieting, and no depression.

She's normal, she's not sick.

She couldn't sleep well all night, turned off her mobile phone, didn't touch anything, lay quietly on the bed, forced herself to stop all random thoughts, but her fingers were unconsciously turning on her fingertips, and when she realized her movements , it was already three o'clock in the morning.

She tried to control her hand, but half an hour later, her fingers began to move unconsciously.Finally she gave up,

Two days later, she stood in front of the supermarket shelf, her not-so-delicate makeup covering the dark spots under her eyes, she stood there for several minutes, and finally picked up a bottle of white wine, and she looked at 45 degrees.

In the evening, she drank wine, and the hot wine was poured down her throat, causing her stomach to burn and hurt. Half a glass of white wine mixed with other wines she bought rolled in her stomach.

But she smiled.

You can fall asleep when you are drunk.

"What's wrong with you? Are you sick?" The gentle colleague asked with concern.

She tried her best to keep calm, her shoulders curled up unconsciously, and the imperceptible panic and helplessness in her eyes: "It's okay, I'm fine."

She's fine, she's not sick, she's not depressed, she's normal, just like normal people.

It was the first time she took the initiative to ask someone out, her hands trembling slightly, and she sent out an invitation, "Are you free this Saturday? Next week is my birthday, let's go out and get together, okay?"

There was no response from the other end for a long time, she became restless, uneasy, and started to think wildly. It is only natural for others to ignore her if she is so bad. The restlessness turned into collapse, and it seemed that the world would collapse in the next second.

She couldn't control her emotions, and she was crazily calling for help, please, please, just ignore me, let's go out and play together.

Please, help me, I don't want to die, I want to live.

want to live.

It's so tiring to live.

I don't want to go out anymore, so be it.

"Okay."

Thank you.

My best friend said, why don't you look very happy recently.

She smiled brightly, no, it's just that she didn't sleep well.

Happy, unhappy, happy, unhappy, happy, unhappy, happy, how can you be unhappy, you can't be unhappy.

She is very happy.

I can't be unhappy.

Her cousin asked her how she was doing, and she cried out about her grievances and breakdowns, about how she had been pretending for so many years.

I don't ask for anything, I just want this, can't I?

I can't live, I'm too tired to live

The world is beautiful, what does it matter to me.

so boring.

You're already an adult, after pretending for so many years, can't you still learn it?

If I die, everything will be fine.

They said, you have to live, you have to think about your parents.

No, life is too difficult. Without her, parents can live a better life, she is just a drag.

She knows she is sick, she needs treatment, but she can't do it, she resists treatment, resists getting better, she just wants to hide in a dark corner, do nothing, think about nothing, quietly waiting for death .

They said, you should go out more, do some exercise, and you will feel better.

No, no, no, no!no! !no! ! !

She couldn't do it, she couldn't do anything, she didn't even have the strength to eat, and she lived like a living dead.Living is so tiring. Sometimes I feel that putting my head on my neck is a pain, as if I take my head off and put it on the table so that I won’t be tired.

You are too sensitive.

I think you are fine, you usually look normal, you just think too much.

Be strong, don't be so vulnerable.

Go out more, make some friends, you are just idle and cranky.

Do not give yourself too much pressure.

How did you become like this?

Like Wu Taotao, she didn't understand why she became like this step by step.Obviously she is luckier than anyone else, she has a mother who loves her, why did she become like this, why did she turn her life into such a terrible situation, why did she want to die, she obviously wanted to live.

She obviously wanted to live.

She doesn't want to die.

They seem to be trapped in the mud, desperately grabbing the last grass on the shore, trying everything to survive.

Some people say: depression lives in the sea of ​​emotions all the time, they can control it, but they can't swim out.

Wu Taotao understood that they fell into the mud and couldn't struggle. Even when someone reached out to save them, they were hesitant, worried that the mud would dirty other people's hands.

Junzile likes her to be happy forever, Junsitian, remembering bitterness and thinking sweet, he said that she has tasted too much bitterness, and in the future there should only be sweetness.

But she failed his hopes.

Seeing Wu Taotao pretending to be strong and about to cry, Sen Luo was helpless, and he said: "Okay, okay, don't make me bully you. I don't understand what happened to you in the past, but you If you want to tell me that day, I'll be there anytime."

Ye Chen looked at Wu Taotao from a distance, tilted his head and looked at Wu Taotao, and always felt that she was a woman with a lot of stories.

After Ye Xuanyan finished solving the main system, he was about to leave.

Before leaving, Ye Chen suddenly said to Wu Taotao: "I had a great time at your house today, next time I invite you to my house, you must come."

Wu Taotao seemed to have regained his former vitality, and said with a smile, "Okay."

Ye Xuanyan glanced at Wu Taotao, he had promised Little Butterfly, he didn't know how to help Wu Taotao, but if it was Ye Chen, it must be possible.

The author has something to say:

Wu Taotao - atypical depression.After the first smiling depression was cured (active treatment), hormone secretion during pregnancy caused depression to recur.Currently diligent depression.

Xia Zelan (Xia Xiaomao) - bipolar disorder, trying to kill her cowardly self, choose to give birth to a more powerful male personality to replace her, and finally split her personality.

Wu Taotao Isotope - Depression + Anxiety, Home Treatment