My boyfriend is weak and can't take care of himself

On the second night, Tan Beiyao wore a slightly more formal white shirt and a black suit vest, holding flowers, and went to a neighbor's house with Gu Cangxing as a guest.

In addition to them, there are several other guests living nearby, all of whom are on vacation in the Maldives.

Among them was a sixteen or seventeen-year-old curly-haired boy who blinked his big gray-blue eyes after seeing Tan Beiyao, and said something in French. Gu Cangxing, who was next to him, laughed and replied something in French , the boy looked at them with wide eyes and ran away.

"what did he say?"

"Praise you for looking good."

Tan Beiyao glared at him.

"real."

The original words are "beautiful oriental beauty, you are as beautiful as the flowers in your arms, I wonder if I have the honor to get a bouquet?"

Gu Cang replied to him: "A famous flower has an owner".

Tan Beiyao moved away from him unhappily.

The host is from Italy. There are Frenchmen, Germans, and two who keep shaking their heads. They seem to be Indians. They speak all languages. Tan Beiyao has never communicated with foreigners. Gu Cangxing originally I'm worried that he will be uncomfortable, but the kid has a very strange vigor, no matter whether he understands or not, he can even talk to people with gestures.

Dinner was Italian cuisine, and two bottles of red wine were opened.

The hostess sat in a wheelchair and came to have a drink with him kindly. Tan Beiyao first glanced at Gu Cangxing before taking a sip.

Very nice.

Gu Cangxing couldn't help but rubbed his hair, and was so angry that he stepped on his foot.

"My hairstyle!" Tan Beiyao was very concerned about face. Before coming here, he combed it in front of the mirror for a long time, and even applied some hairspray for the first time.

Orientals are small in themselves, he is already 21, and he doesn't want to be treated as a child of sixteen or seventeen.

The party was held in the garden, and there were only two hallway lights turned on in the room, which were not very bright. Tan Beiyao went into the house to go to the toilet. When he came out, he didn't want to go through the living room, but wanted to go out through the back door, but he just heard the hostess Conversing in English with a Swiss guy at the party.

The Swiss, who appeared to have known him before, was asking his wife if she needed help.

The host spread his hands, "People callit Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis." (People call it ALS)

Tan Beiyao can't understand technical terms, but can understand "Iam sorry." after the Swiss doctor's silence

When he returned to the garden again, Tan Beiyao's attention unconsciously shifted to the couple.

Maldives is a holy place for tourism, and most people just come for tourism.

Even President Gu, who had the money to charter a flight here, did not exaggerate enough to buy that villa, and he only brought a suitcase and a bag when he came here.

When the neighbor next door came, it was like moving with big bags and small bags. When Tan Beiyao saw it at the door, he even vaguely saw the sofa. After moving, he would invite the nearby residents to have dinner at home, as if he wanted to spend the rest of his life here.

The hostess' hands were not steady, and she accidentally tilted the wine glass when she was holding the wine. The young husband who had been watching her by her side immediately stabilized the wine glass, and wiped the few drops of red wine that spilled out with a paper towel.

Obviously when he was at the back door just now, this young man who looked a few years older than Tan Beiyao spoke with a choked voice, but now he smiled and said something to his wife who was ten years older than him.

The wife froze for a moment and then smiled.

You can tell at a glance that this is a very loving couple.

After the party, Tan Beiyao tugged on Gu Cangxing's sleeve.

"Accompany me to the beach for a walk?"

The sea at night is deep and gentle, and there are only a few people living far apart on the beach.

The night was quiet and deserted, Tan Beiyao walked in front silently, and Gu Cangxing followed him beside him without making a sound.

Tan Beiyao was not the first to face death.

Three years ago, when he was still in the police station, the head teacher who was very kind to him came to him in the heavy rain and told him that his parents had a car accident on the highway.

It was like a bolt of lightning had struck a tree, the bark was still intact, but the inside had been ripped apart.

Tan Beiyao was not very persevering, and he tried suicide during that time, but it was luck or misfortune. At that time, there were many people watching him, and he was rescued again and again.

Later, Tan Beiyao gradually accepted the reality. He struggled in the quagmire and avenged himself in his own way, but the lost person never came back.

He often dreamed of that rainy day, of those pictures.

Time passed day by day, and that memory was deeply buried in his heart.

Tan Beiyao deliberately stopped thinking about it.

Slowly, the tree grew again from the dead ground, and Tan Beiyao tried his best to avoid that memory.

He thought that feeling would never appear again, but only now did he realize that he was still trapped in that rainy day and never came out.

Death is so terrible, it will extinguish the fire in Tan Beiyao's heart, making him fear death and loss.

He has a weak relationship with everyone, it is difficult to make friends, and he will not open up with others.

Because he was afraid of losing the person he didn't want to lose again.

Tan Beiyao felt that as long as it didn't start, there would be no end.

He thought that he could live without worries for the rest of his life, like a kite thrown in the glove box when he was young, alone, although he no longer had warmth, he was better than being stable and ordinary.

But there was a man named Gu Cangxing who tied a string around his body and put him back under the sun.

Tan Beiyao turned his head.

Under the dim moonlight, his lover followed him closely, as if he could stay by his side forever and for a long time.

"Gu Cang Xing."

"I'm here."

The sea breeze blows the moonlight, and fishes up the feathery memories.

"Tell me, ten years from now, will we still be walking side by side on this beach?"

"We can come on tour if you want."

"What about 20 years from now?"

"Also."

"What about 50 years?"

"Well, it shouldn't be a big problem."

"Then... 70 years from now?"

Gu Cangxing put his hands in his pockets and thought about it seriously, "I might need a crutch."

Tan Beiyao laughed, "Was I still there at that time?"

"At that time, you were only 91 years old. You should be healthier than me. Maybe you have to support me."

Tan Beiyao stopped, and the waves rolled around his feet. He looked back, and the footprints behind him were washed away by the sea, leaving nothing behind.

It's only been three years, and when he thinks about it now, his parents' voices seem a little distorted.

"Nonsense, I'm not in good health, and I probably won't live to be 90 years old." Tan Beiyao asked, "Can I live to be 80 years old?"

"From now on, if you work out with me, maybe you can become a hundred-year-old man." Gu Cangxing gently scraped his cheek, "By then, if you are not bald, your hair will be gray, and you can still wear hairspray. The most handsome little old man."

Tan Beiyao twitched the corner of his mouth, "It's a lie."

"I'm not lying to you." Gu Cangxing looked at him seriously, "I will work hard to be a [-]-year-old old man who can still hug you."

"Then you can be listed as one of the miracles of mankind." Tan Beiyao gently took his hand, and then let go, "It's impossible to hug me, but it's not bad to hug my ashes urn."

"Honey, I'm seven years older than you, theoretically it's more likely that you hug my urn."

Under the moonlight, they were here discussing who would hold whose urn, which gave Tan Beiyao a sense of absurd black comedy.

Tan Beiyao thought for a while, "The blond lady at the party today seems to be terminally ill."

"Well, ALS."

"you know?"

Gu Cangxing nodded, "I don't think the lights were turned on in the room, I was afraid you might be afraid, so I heard it when I went to find you."

Looking at him, Tan Beiyao seemed to see the young husband who was taking care of his wife with his eyelashes. He was equally considerate and they were equally loving.

"Gu Cangxing, if one day you... what should I do?"

Tan Beiyao thought that he might not be so strong, he could spend the last time with his lover with a smile on his face like that husband.

"Let me think about it." Gu Cangxing thought for a moment, "Well, I will leave you a huge inheritance and let you be a rich little widow. You can still come here to travel and rent the house we live in now. Maybe The neighbor is a handsome tall boy. You are beautiful and cute. He will fall in love with you very soon. You can go to this beach with him and look at the moon we are looking at. It is best not to think of me at that time, otherwise He's not as good at coaxing people as I am, I'm afraid you won't be able to stop crying."

"It's over, I don't seem to be able to do it." Tan Beiyao wanted to laugh, but tears fell, "I don't seem to be able to like others anymore."

Gu Cangxing looked at him, and gently wiped away his tears, "Baby, if there is a day, I hope you will take a trip first. Go to the grassland, go climbing, go to the bar and get drunk. You have to see the world. The other scenery, they are still beautiful in your eyes without me. Of course, if we are still in pain after three years, then come to me."

Tan Beiyao buried her face in his arms, "Then what if I leave first?"

"Then I will live on and see more scenery for Yaoyao."

Tan Beiyao pushed him away and gritted his teeth, "No, if I die, you will come and accompany me right away! I don't want to be alone!"

"it is good."

Tan Beiyao turned his head and continued walking. After walking for a while, he suddenly said, "Farewell. If I leave, you can live well. But don't find another person, did you hear me! You have to remember me well." , I miss me a hundred times every day, come here every year to look at the moon, remember how I am now, and then cry so hard."

"it is good."

After walking for a while, Tan Beiyao looked down at the beach and changed his mind again.

"You'd better look for it, but you need to find someone with a better temper than me, and you can't let him bully you... But you have to love me the most, you know? You love me all your life, you know?"

"it is good."

Tan Beiyao took two steps, bit his lower lip, "Farewell, you still love him the most, otherwise it would be too unfair to him. Just don't forget me, don't come to see me on my memorial day Me, come to see me on my birthday, once a year, it can be regarded as I have grown up every year. Don't think of me in normal times, or your lover will be sad. "

"it is good."

This time he only took one step, and he sighed, "Oh, forget it, you'd better forget about me..."

I remember how painful it is for a person who will never come back. Tan Beiyao has experienced it. Up to now, until this moment, he is still unable to let go of such torture, and is afraid of experiencing loss again.

Don't let Gu Cangxing experience such pain.

Gu Cangxing hugged him and patted his back lightly, "Does Yaoyao still remember our first date?"

Tan Beiyao thought for a while, "Remember. I couldn't understand the menu, so I ordered a steak like yours. It was too raw for me to eat. You asked someone to replace it with a well-cooked one, and you also ordered potatoes for me. Mud. Then we went to see a movie, it was a romance movie, you sat in the southeast corner of the cinema, let me sit in the northwest corner."

"What about the second time?"

"Well," Tan Beiyao tried hard to think back, "It seems that I ate ramen and watched a movie... Ah, no, you have a temporary job and you went back, and asked Song Ying to send me back to school, and then you will go back to school the next week. Tell him to rent a house for me."

"the third time?"

I can't remember this time, Tan Beiyao shook his head, "I can't remember."

"But there's a third time, right?"

"Correct."

Gu Cangxing looked at him, "Look, it used to exist."

"We don't remember what we ate at every meal, how our day went, all the people in our lives, or what was written in every book we read. But They existed. Death is terrible. No one is not afraid of death. It represents the loss of a life. And most people will not be remembered when they die. The imprint they leave is like footprints in the sand. Ten years, 20 years Then, it disappeared."

"But they have existed, and they will not appear because of memory loss. Just like at this moment, there are 78 billion people in the world, even if there are 77 billion or 79 billion people in the world tomorrow, but at this moment, this moon It is these 78 billion people who shine. At this moment, on this beach, there is a 28-year-old young man named Gu Cangxing and his 21-year-old lover."

Gu Cangxing took his hand, "Death can't take away anything, it just symbolizes that we can no longer have the moon of tomorrow. But you know, it doesn't make you and me disappear today. Even after 100 years, we lived The villa in my hometown has become a wilderness, the sea level has risen, and this beach has become a vast ocean, but right now, you see the moonlight, the sea, and me. Even if the earth explodes tomorrow, no one will remember it, but we are in 2022 Year, the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, the Maldives hugged each other on the beach under the moonlight. This is an eternity that cannot be reversed and cannot be changed no matter what happens in the future."

"Death is just not having anymore, but everything you have will never disappear."

"Just like you have the love of 28-year-old Gu Cangxing now, even if I die tomorrow, I just can't use the 29-year-old me to love you. But Yaoyao, no matter at any time, even 100 years later, the love of the 28-year-old person, disappeared?"

Tan Beiyao's voice was hoarse, "No."

"Death doesn't take anything away, can it?"

"Correct."

Gu Cangxing kissed him, "Are you still afraid?"

Tan Beiyao kissed her warmly and eagerly.

After the long kiss, Tan Beiyao looked at the person in front of him.

"Gu Cang Xing."

"here I am."

Tan Beiyao looked at him seriously, "I want to do something that adults can do with you now. Are you willing?"

Gu Cang laughed, "It's an honor."

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