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Zhang Nisi probably didn't expect her to reply so soon, and sent back after a few seconds: "Why didn't you open the door when I went yesterday?"

Ning Xi pursed her lips and replied, "Fever."

"Ok?"

"All right."

Zhang Nisi sent her a location: "Come find me when you are all well."

"Ah."

After a few concise conversations, they were speechless one after another.

Ning Xi sat for a long time holding her phone, feeling miserable.

The next day, she took a taxi to Zhang Nisi's house.

The sun was shining brightly, and the shadows of the trees were swaying. She suddenly remembered the past.

When she was 7 years old, her parents divorced. Ning Xi was taken by her father to Beicheng, where she studied and went to school. On weekdays, she was only taken care of by a nanny. Her father was busy with business, so she didn't see her face once a month.Mother still called at the beginning, but every time she called, she would either quarrel with her father or complain to herself about her father, gradually Ning Xi was unwilling to answer her calls.

The only person who contacts her is her brother, who will cheer her up and encourage her on the phone.

Later she knew that it was her brother that her father wanted to take away, but her mother refused.No one wanted her, she had troubles, and she stopped contacting her brother.

She couldn't get used to the food in Beicheng, she couldn't make friends in school, and her grades were very poor. The teacher tried her best, but she didn't want to learn. Parents were invited many times, but no one really came to school once.

If it wasn't for her cousin to pick her up and go back to the west city, Ning Xi thought maybe she would slowly and silently rot in this bustling city of Bei without anyone knowing.

When she returned to West City that year, she was already 15 years old.

She and her mother became very estranged, and she only wanted to be close to her cousin. After traveling around for a long time, her cousin and brother finally found a school that suited her.

She was still lonely, out of gregarious, with poor grades.

Until the age of 16, she met Zhang Nisi who had transferred from another school.

Ning Xi thought later that she was lucky to have met Zhang Nisi in her bleak youth.

Unlike herself, she quickly integrated into the class and became a man of the hour. The teachers and classmates liked her very much. Every time the class breaks, the corridor was full of boys from other classes who came to see her.

It was physical education class that time, she was sleeping on the desk in the classroom, someone patted her on the shoulder and said with a smile: "Why do you always hide?"

Ning Xi raised her head, and what came into view was a face that was full of vitality like a spring garden.

In high school, Zhang Nisi was the only person who approached her and her only friend. It was because of her that Ning Xi had the focus of life and the enthusiasm for learning.

Zhang Nisi is the most popular girl in the school. She is the beauty of the school and has excellent grades. She can play the piano well. There is no shortage of friends around her.

And for some reason, she just saw herself.

Such an excellent person, to be her friend can't be a poor student, and can't fail to pass the university entrance exam.

In her third year of high school, Ning Xi asked her what school she wanted to go to, and would she stay in Xicheng?

Zhang Nisi said that she will take the college entrance examination, but she may not be able to go to university in China. Her family hopes that she will study abroad.

"Why, do you want to go to the same university as me?" Zhang Nisi teased her with a smile.

"I will stay in West City and take an exam at West City University. I will wait for you." Ning Xi said.

Zhang Nisi was startled, then laughed, she didn't answer whether she was going or not, the funny and gentle appearance was deeply engraved in Ning Xi's heart.

She performed normally in the college entrance examination and was admitted to the Faculty of Liberal Arts of Xicheng University. She waited, but she didn't wait for Zhang Nisi, and she couldn't be reached by phone.

Two weeks later, she returned to the dormitory after class and saw her.

Zhang Nisi smiled and told her the situation: "My dad was very angry when he heard that I was not going abroad, and confiscated my mobile phone. It was hard to convince him. Fortunately, he was willing to explain the situation to the counselor. Report late, or you won’t be able to go to school.”

Zhang Nisi poked her face: "I'm afraid you won't be able to make friends in college, so I won't worry about you."

Ning Xi couldn't help it for a while, rushed over and hugged her tightly.

Zhang Nisi was stunned.

This hug was too long and too real, and when they let go, both of them looked at each other in a daze.

I don't know who approached first, their lips touched together.

Although it was just a touch away, it was enough to shock each other.

Zhang Nisi left in shock.

Ning Xi froze in place.

They didn't meet or speak for a semester afterwards.

Ning Xi lives a life of three points and one line, classroom-library-dormitory, she carefully controls her emotions, almost living in seclusion, the university campus is as magnificent as the sea, and she is a small drop of water.

Unlike her, Zhang Nisi's life is very colorful.Ning Xi saw her busy, fulfilling and happy life, as well as her boyfriend in her circle of friends.

Neither of them took the initiative to find each other.

As winter turned and spring came, Ning Xi thought that they would never meet again, and it would be nothing more than that, but at this time, there was also a boy around her who wanted to chase her.

The boy said that he often sees her in the library, can he go to read books together in the future.

She knew from the boy's words and deeds that he should have a good impression of her. She wanted to refuse, but she didn't speak because she was too lonely.

I met this boy three or four times a week, all in the library. After three months, the boy proposed to date her.

Ning Xi agreed to consider it.

At this time, Zhang Nisi appeared.

She said that she would not let Ning Xi have a boyfriend, and she broke up with her boyfriend herself, and wanted to be with her.

Then she ran over and hugged Ning Xi.

Ning Xi let her hold her in a daze, and just said: "How do you know someone wants to date me?"

"Fool, I have been paying attention to you."

The two looked at each other stupidly and kissed each other.

When they were 20 years old, they officially fell in love and officially got together.

The 36-year-old Ning Xi leaned against the car window, looking back on the past, the dots of light fell on her face.

The past is like smoke, only memories are the most beautiful.

It was always the sweetest at the beginning. They really liked each other, rented a house outside the school, and went back to live in it from time to time.That little house is their little world.

While the classmates around them were busy looking for jobs, both of them were admitted to graduate school.The emotions of outsiders have nothing to do with them, only each other can affect them.

After quarreling again and again, Ning Xi understood that she and Zhang Nisi's personalities were not suitable. They had different views on things and different ways of dealing with things. Survive from so much "different".

Zhang Nisi is the apple of the eye in the family. She has an outstanding appearance and majored in art. She is a dazzling existence at home and school. She is used to being looked up to and envied by others.

Ning Xi once thought that if it wasn't for herself, Zhang Nisi might choose the best boy in her eyes and live a happy life in the eyes of others, but after being with herself, she had to restrain herself and hide her feelings. one side.

What she needs is a love that is extremely present all the time, and she is the first, but her character is too boring to express, and many emotions are held in her heart.

Zhang Nisi couldn't get what she wanted, so she could only stimulate herself step by step.

Deliberately going on a date with someone after a quarrel, deliberately letting herself see, saying breakup, and disappearing suddenly, these are all her stress reactions from not getting the response she wanted.

The relationship between them is inherently unstable, and with the addition of external stimuli, it becomes even more precarious.

Every breakup was reconciled quickly, as good as a fake breakup, but hidden dangers were buried every time until the real one.

Although Zhang Nisi didn't really come out to her family, her family guessed it to some extent and knew of Ning Xi's existence. She repeatedly refused the marriage arranged by the family. Her father finally became impatient and resorted to his trump card. To cancel her trust fund, nor her share of the estate.

Ning Xi never asked Zhang Nisi to come out, and she only came out at home, but she could not accept Zhang Nisi's "fake marriage" proposal.

The two broke up after a fierce quarrel, and Zhang Nisi went abroad in a fit of anger.

Ning Xi seldom looks back on those two or so years. She only remembers smoking crazily, writing, and taking sleeping pills when she couldn’t sleep. She doesn’t remember how she got here. Maybe her appearance is still intact, but her heart is broken A big hole was opened, and blood was gurgling day and night.

She became more reticent, more withdrawn, more blunt.

Later Zhang Nisi came back.

They seemed to get back together naturally, just like the countless times they got back together after quarreling, but this time it was a completely different situation.

Their rifts can no longer be repaired, but they can all ignore them, unwilling to reconcile to the fact that the relationship of many years cannot be repaired.

What is the "real fruit" of love? Ning Xi feels that they have already experienced ninety-nine and eighty-one hardships, but what is the "truth"?

They don't know.

At this point, the result is self-evident.

When Ning Xi arrived at the location, she got out of the car and looked up at the high-end neighborhood where Zhang Nisi lived.This is a large one-story house that Zhang Nisi just changed two years ago. Face recognition is required to enter.

Ning Xi was not sure if her profile had been cancelled, so she called her.

"I have arrived."

The other side was silent for several seconds, and seemed to take a deep breath: "You come in directly."

"……it is good."

Zhang Nisi was silent, and then closed the line.

Ning Xi stood outside for a long time before walking in, with a very tragic mood.

The author has something to say:

They also talked about the details of their relationship. They met at the age of 16, fell in love at the age of 20, were together for 10 years, broke up for more than 2 years, and got back together for 2 years. Both of them are 36 years old.

The three-dimensional life has been very busy. In fact, I stayed up late after 11 o'clock to code the code.If the little cuties who follow the series can make up the comments, it would be really grateful.thank you~