She made herself visible only to me

It has been a few days since the story of Niannian and Momo ended.

Originally, I wanted to write the postscript on the day the book was finished, but because of some other things, it was delayed again and again.

First of all, let me tell you why I wrote the story of Niannian and Momo.

Because I have always had an inexplicable liking for people who are good at mathematics.

This may have something to do with me being a math scumbag myself.

Humans always yearn for things that they are not good at.

That's why Momo's math genius was born in this way.

And then this point about mental illness, because I watched the movie "A Beautiful Mind".

I love that story so much.

The protagonist is a schizophrenic mathematician who has studied game theory and differential geometry all his life.

Eventually won the Nobel Prize in Economics.

At the award ceremony, he deeply thanked his wife.

Because only love can save everything!

The character set of Niannian has some relationship with me.

Does not like to study, has poor grades in science, likes to sleep, likes to skip classes, likes to be distracted in class, likes to read idle books, likes to eat snacks.

……

However, Niannian lived a free and easy life, very free, and very lucky.

She met Momo, the man who loved her as much as his life.

She met Qin Li, which gave her a deeper understanding of feelings.

She met Wu Sinian and finally found the right direction in life.

At the time of writing this article, my high school life has passed for a long time.

As a result, many episodes cannot be remembered, so the youthful atmosphere is not so strong.

This also has something to do with my writing style. I didn't even have an outline when I wrote an essay for the first time.

So later some readers left me a message saying that I finished too hastily.

In fact, it is also because I did not write an outline.

how to say?

At the beginning of this story, my intention was to redeem each other.

One is a scumbag who is ignorant, fights and smokes.

One is a paranoid, indifferent, stubborn academic bully.

Both of them have their own youthful troubles, and there is a place deep in their hearts that others cannot reach.

However, after experiencing some things, the two parties finally reached the no man's land in each other's hearts.

Nian Nian lacked a mother's love since she was a child, and her father ignored her.

When Momo was very young, her mother cut her wrists in front of her and committed suicide in the bathtub, bleeding a lot.

That was the nightmare of Momo's life, and from then on, Momo began to have a nervous breakdown.

Later, Lin Lan brought Lu Xi to marry into the Zhou family.

Lin Lan was kind to Momo, and Lu Xi was also kind to Momo.

But Lu Xi once kissed Momo secretly, so she disliked Lu Xi very much.

This made her mental breakdown even worse.

Apart from mathematics, she has nothing to love in life.

Until she met Nian Nian.

Nian Nian has no intentions, simply put, he is an idiot.

Fighting and drinking with people all day long.

She loves to dress up, and likes to wear small skirts, which is different from ordinary girls in the mixed society.

She is affectionate and righteous, and when her sister Ye Huan was bullied, she would have sex with others without saying a word.

There is big brother Chen Yuan playing naked together.

After a fairly normal relationship, with Jiang Yu's help, she saw through the true face of the scumbag.

Eat, drink, have fun.

And a little romantic.

It is specifically reflected in the fact that she likes to read books very much.

Early reading does not read textbooks, but prefers to read idle books secretly.

The Book of Songs Chu Ci, Tang Poetry and Song Ci, and various novels are all intelligible.

Also very kind.

After sneaking out of school by taking advantage of Lin Lan to take Zhou Mo to the hospital, she could have watched her favorite movie, but she returned to the hospital.

Before Momo committed suicide, the two of them were no different from strangers in the class.

However, in order to save Momo, she rushed up directly.

Later, Momo said that if she didn't let go, she would kill her.

At this time, Nian Nian didn't know that Momo actually had schizophrenia.

As a result, she survived the knife.

Later, because of this knife, the two became good friends.

Later, the two became tablemates.

In Niannian's heart, Momo has always been a genius.

She looked up to Momo more.

Therefore, when Momo confessed his feelings many times later, Nian Nian was actually trying to escape.

Because she was abandoned with Qin Li because of poor grades, she has always felt inferior.

What's more, she never had the slightest idea about the same sex.

Moreover, they are two completely different people.

Niannian likes milk tea and snacks.

Momo has a light diet, only loves black coffee and never drinks.

Niannian likes sunflowers.

Momo likes the Silver Queen that grows in a cool environment.

But then they went through so much together.

Only then did Niannian understand what Momo said back then:

"Fucking sexual orientation, I just know that I like you, not gender."

Momo loves mathematics, but she loves Nian Nian even more.

She can give up the leadership plan, go abroad, and her favorite mathematics for Nian Nian.

The love in this life is nothing but mathematics and you.

In Momo's heart, Nian Nian is as beautiful as mathematics.

Let’s talk about Nian Nian and Wu Sinian again.

When Wu Sinian was in high school, he liked a girl who was very similar to Nian Nian, but later committed suicide by jumping off a building due to depression.

To commemorate her, he planted her favorite peonies in the place where she jumped off the building.

In fact, peony is also known as "Jiangli".

Everything is implied.

In a sense, Wu Sinian likes Nian Nian because of his dead girlfriend.

After all, some people live forever in the summer of a certain year.

When Wu Sinian saw Nian Nian, he knew at the first sight that she was not suitable for studying science.

Later, he encouraged Niannian to study liberal arts many times, hoping that she could find her true meaning.

Including those words she said to Nian Nian are some guidance for her.

Although the last two people are not together.

However, Nian Nian has always been very grateful to Wu Sinian for pointing her out in her confused youth.

Without his encouragement, maybe Nian Nian would have rotted in the science class forever.

This is also the reason why Niannian chose to go to Yanyuan later.

He is like an older brother to Nian Nian.

After all, Niannian lacked love since she was a child, her mother didn't care, and her father didn't care.

Later, Momo chose to leave because she had to go abroad regularly for psychiatric treatment.

She was very afraid that Nian Nian would know that she was mentally ill, because she didn't want to lose her.

I don't even want to hurt her.

People with mental illness will not only harm themselves, but in severe cases, they will harm those around them when they lose control.

For details, please refer to the first time Niannian met Momo in the hospital.

Moreover, mental illness can never be cured, it can only be alleviated and controlled in the short term.

The last few chapters were written hastily.

Blame me, blame me.

Always remember, there will be reverberations.

There is only one sexual orientation in the world, and that is the direction of the heart.

Still as written in the text

People who want to read this story

always warm and pure

love and light

Thanks for being with me all the way

Rivers and lakes far away

Goodbye

--Liang Chen

The author has something to say:

I meet a lot of people.

Someone gave me a fever, I thought it was love, and it burned everything.

Someone gave me chills and disappeared from my life.

Someone makes me feel warm, but only warm.

Only you, let my body temperature rise by 0.2 degrees.

--Just this article to give me the love of my life "Yizhou".

Thank you for showing up, enough for me to like for many years.