She made herself visible only to me

A sudden fever gave the two people a buffer time to face this relationship.

Su Nian needs time to sort out Zhou Mo's liking for her, and Zhou Mo also has to face up to his true self deep in his heart.

They all need to grow.

Zhou Mo didn't come to school all day, and Su Nian sat in the last row alone, looking very disappointed.

When she didn't have a deskmate before, she didn't feel lonely. Now that Zhou Mo didn't come to school for a day, Su Nian was a little uncomfortable.

After school, she took the initiative to ask Chen Yuan to go for a run in the playground.

At seven or eight o'clock, the playground is still bustling like a vegetable market, with some running, some playing football, some talking about love, and some having candlelit lawn picnics...

Su Nian ran several laps today, but she still didn't feel tired. She was part of the school's long-distance running team in junior high school, so her physical fitness has always been good.

Every time Chen Yuan said to run downstairs with Su Nian, it was actually to meet his little girlfriend Tian Tian privately.

Su Nian is just a cover.

After running, Su Nian went to the canteen to buy soda.

The freezer at the door is already filled with all kinds of ice cream, colorful.

Summer is coming.

After buying a few packs of snacks, with a popsicle in her mouth, Su Nian walked slowly from the grocery store to the parking area.

Su Feng sent her a message in the morning, saying that the old man had gone home and asked her to go home tonight.

When passing by the grove, Su Nian suddenly remembered that one night not long ago, she and Zhou Mo eavesdropped on the couple's quarrel behind the bushes, and after being found out, they ran away and lost the one she bought at the small iron gate. skewers.

Thinking of this, Su Nian heard the voices of a man and a woman talking again in the grove, and he knew it was a young couple who hid here for a private meeting after school.

In the past, when encountering such a situation, Su Nian's curiosity would always drive her to secretly listen to a few words, but today, she walked quickly through the woods, not wanting to stop at all.

Without her, the corners would not sound good.

When this idea popped into Su Nian's head, she found that the water from the popsicle melted into the palm of her hand, which was sticky and cool.

Going forward, the fragrance of rape blossoms in the evening wind is gradually fading. Is it because spring is coming to an end?

When Su Nian arrived at the parking area, as if remembering something, she turned her head and looked in the direction of the hillside. It was pitch black, with only a shallow mountain shape showing a little outline under the moonlight.

Looking at the hillside, Su Nian recalled that she had heard Zhou Mo's heart-piercing cry there, and heard her asking herself happily, are you free tomorrow?

Xu Shi was fascinated by thinking, and Su Nian suddenly realized that someone was calling her: "A Nian? What are you doing in a daze?"

It was Ye Huan's voice. She was riding a battery scooter and waving to her at the gate of the parking area.

"coming."

Su Nian threw her schoolbag into the cart basket, and immediately got on her little electric donkey.

"What were you looking at just now?"

Ye Huan was late watching Liu Yichuan play football today, and when he went to the parking area to ride his bike, he happened to see Su Nian standing there in a daze.

"No... nothing."

Su Nian didn't want to tell Ye Huan about the relationship between her and Zhou Mo. The classmates already regarded Zhou Mo as a monster. If the news about Zhou Mo liking her got out, she would definitely be regarded as a different kind. I can't even imagine.

"By the way, where is Liu Yichuan? Have you caught him?"

Su Nian changed the topic.

When Liu Yichuan was mentioned, Ye Huan's eyes lit up instantly: "Still working hard..."

"You mean you are still in an ambiguous period?"

"That's right... I went to watch him play football after school, bought him water, and he took it."

"Fuck! He's hanging on to you..."

"No, Ah Nian, don't think that way...he used to ignore me, but now, at least he has started to improve..."

Saying that, the two of them had already arrived at the school gate by bicycle. Ye Huan and Su Nian did not take the same road after school, they always separated at the first intersection.

"By the way, Ah Nian, have you taken Jiang Yu?"

Before parting, Ye Huan suddenly asked.

Su Nian said casually: "A person like Jiang Yu, it's okay to be friends, but it's fine to be a boyfriend..."

Indeed, after getting Jiang Yu's contact information, the two chatted a few words. Su Nian always felt that although this man was handsome, he was not suitable to be a boyfriend. He always gave people the feeling of a playboy. .

"Then according to what you mean, who is suitable to be your boyfriend?"

Su Nian, as a naked face control, blurted out: "The first is naturally to be handsome, the second is to have a good brain, and the third is..."

After a pause, she said, "I haven't thought about it yet, I'll tell you when I think about it..."

Ye Huan: "..."

"Goodbye."

After saying goodbye to Ye Huan, Su Nian quickly turned around a street corner and rode towards the railway family courtyard.

After arriving home, Su Nian just took out an apple from the refrigerator and gnawed on it after taking a shower, when she heard the notification sound of the WeChat message on her mobile phone.

"Have you decided yet?"

Su Nian looked at the short sentence, just entered a line "Ah Mo, stop joking", then hurriedly deleted it, and replied: "We will meet tomorrow."

Without waiting for Zhou Mo's reply, Su Nian turned off her phone and put it on the living room table.

The gas stove at home can't always turn on, so I put a lighter on the kitchen table.

After Su Nian successfully touched the lighter from the kitchen, she quietly walked to the balcony.

The snoring of the old man in the bedroom next door reached Su Nian's ears through the bedroom door. She knew that grandma would sleep very hard in the first half of the night when she went to bed at night, so she lighted a cigarette on the balcony without worry.

In order not to disturb grandma, she gently closed the sliding door on the balcony and opened the window again, so that the smell of smoke could dissipate in the air imperceptibly along with the cool wind in early summer.

After taking two bites of the apple, it was not sweet, so Su Nian put it aside.

She sucked on the cigarette in her hand one by one, and then exhaled a wisp of white smoke from her mouth.

The night at ten o'clock is suitable for listening to the wind.

There seemed to be a few stars hidden in the sky in the distance, but they were so dim that they couldn't be seen clearly.

Tonight's moon seems to be drunk, hiding behind dark clouds and refusing to show up.

The crabapple flowers on the window sill are tightly closed, and they seem to have fallen asleep.

Su Nian just stood quietly on the balcony smoking a cigarette in her hand, she smoked half, Feng half smoked.

Looking at the cigarette between his fingers, Su Nian wondered when he learned to smoke.

Did it start when you saw a gangster at the school gate with a cigarette in his hand?

Or was it when her friends in the bar handed her the first cigarette?

She can't remember.

All she knew was what being a bad girl was supposed to be like.

How can a girl who doesn't smoke be a bad girl?

Therefore, even though she felt uncomfortable in her throat, she still chose to burn the whole cigarette before putting it down.

What Su Nian didn't know was that cigarettes couldn't take away her distress, and neither could the wind blow away her irritability.

Because there is no antidote for youth, there is nowhere to escape.

When Su Nian woke up in the morning, she turned on her mobile phone. The strange thing was that Zhou Mo didn't send herself any more messages.

On the way to stop the car and go to the classroom, Su Nian was thinking about how to explain to Zhou Mo that she didn't like her, but just moved.

Unexpectedly, when she arrived in class, the first thing Su Nian saw was that there were a few more copies of "Sprouting" on her desk, all of which were the latest ones, because she hadn't been to the bookstore much recently and had forgotten to buy them.

There was still no one in Zhou Mo's seat.

Is the disease still not cured?

Su Nian put down her schoolbag, stared at the few "Sprouts" for a while, then walked out of the classroom and secretly went to the women's toilet.

In order to prevent Gao Li from discovering that she was carrying a mobile phone, she could only go to the women's restroom to call Zhou Mo.

"Hello? Ah Mo?"

A gentle female voice rang on the phone: "Are you?"

"I'm Zhou Mo's classmate, Su Nian."

"Are you looking for Momo? She's still sleeping."

Su Nian finally recognized Zhou Mo's mother's voice on the other end of the phone.

"Auntie? Ah Mo, is she still ill?"

"The fever is gone...but I need to stay for a few more days to observe..."

"So that's how it is..."

Su Nian suddenly remembered that Lin Lan had said that Zhou Mo was not in good health.

"Thank you for caring about Momo."

"Should...should..."

Su Nian was suddenly at a loss.

She didn't even know when she hung up the phone, squatting alone in the women's toilet, listening to the sound of the bucket flushing, feeling overwhelmed.

Back on the seat, Su Nian put the magazine on the table.

Zhou Mo didn't come to class, so who put these books here?

Ignoring this question, Su Nian decided to visit Zhou Mo in the hospital after school.

Ever since she bumped into Zhou Mo in the hospital for the first time and almost committed suicide, she always had a bad feeling when she heard the words Zhou Mo and hospital at the same time.

After school, Su Nian rode a small electric donkey to the hospital. After successfully finding out Zhou Mo's room number, Su Nian hurried up the elevator.

Strangely, Zhou Mo lived in the same room as last time, so Su Nian quickly found a place.

At the door of the ward, Su Nian saw a familiar figure.

Lin Lan was wearing a simple professional attire, looking dignified and generous. Seeing Su Nian standing at the door of the ward, she hurriedly said, "Come in, come in, you are Momo's classmate, the one who came to the hospital together last time."

"Auntie, do you remember me?"

Su Nian shyly opened the door and walked in.

On the hospital bed, Zhou Mo closed her eyes tightly, her face was pale, her lips were dry and skinned, and a bottle full of medicinal liquid was delivered to her arm along the infusion tube.

"The first time I saw you...you seem to be wearing this short skirt."

Saying that, Su Nian looked down at her skirt and nodded repeatedly.

"I still remember your name is Su Nian, right?"

Hearing this, Su Nian nodded again, and was pleasantly surprised that Lin Lan still remembered her.

"Auntie... Momo is not seriously ill, is she?"

Hearing Su Nian's question, Lin Lan sighed heavily, her gaze stayed on the hospital bed, and she said softly, "This...it's hard to say, by the way, thank you for coming to see Momo today."

From Lin Lan's eyes, Su Nian could feel the love from her mother.

"Ah Mo and I were at the same table..."

Su Nian whispered, without taking his eyes off Zhou Mo.

Lin Lan walked to the table, poured a glass of water and handed it to Su Nian: "Her father doesn't really want her to continue studying in Nanchuan Middle School."

Su Nian took it politely, with a confused expression on her face: "Why...?"

After asking, Su Nian realized that he was really an idiot for this question.

For a top student like Zhou Mo, Nanchuan is indeed not the best choice for her. She is suitable for a wider stage.

"Her father is contacting her with a foreign high school recently, and the relevant matters have been discussed almost..."

These words were like a bomb dropped in Su Nian's heart, causing her hand holding the cup to tremble unknowingly, and almost spilled the water.

Su Nian stood there, not knowing what to say, her lips moved, but she didn't say a word.

Lin Lan walked to the bedside and checked the infusion bottle carefully, then picked up her handbag and said that she was going downstairs to buy food.

In an instant, Su Nian was the only one left in the ward.

She stood silently by the hospital bed and stared at Zhou Mo on the bed. Thinking that this might be the last time she saw Zhou Mo, she suddenly felt an unspeakable pain in her heart.

It is like the mood after the fallen leaves fall from the branches in autumn, full of nostalgia and reluctance, but helpless.

Zhou Mo lay quietly on the bed, his cold face was like a piece of beautiful jade, cold but magnificent.

Su Nian just looked at her quietly, feeling that time flies by.

After waiting for a while, it wasn't Lin Lan who came back, but an elderly woman: "I am the nanny of Momo's family, Madam asked me to take care of Miss."

Lin Lan's company was temporarily busy, so Mama Liu was arranged to take care of Zhou Mo.

Su Nian waited for a long time, but Zhou Mo still didn't wake up. She looked at the sky outside and thought that grandma would be anxious if she didn't go home, so she said goodbye to Liu Ma: "Then... I'll go first..."

After closing the door, Su Nian stood at the door of the ward and stared at the person on the bed for a while, then slowly went downstairs.

On the way home, Lin Lan's words kept ringing in her ears.

Is Zhou Mo really going to study abroad?

Will she never see Zhou Mo again?

Is the relationship between them about to end before it even started?

Su Nian didn't understand.

Why is youth always so involuntary?

Everything about them is in the hands of adults, and there is really too little that they can decide.

Compared with Zhou Mo, Su Nian felt that she was too lucky.

At least, she can choose to be herself.

But, starting tomorrow, she will be the only one in the last row again.

The cool wind blew through the ends of her hair, agitating her heart that had been unable to calm down for a long time.

At that moment, she suddenly felt a little cold.

The author has something to say:

In fact, Lin Lan is really good to Momo, a very good stepmother, but Momo has been unable to let go. . .