[HP Draco] Attendant

1979 years.

October 27st.

The child was born.

November NO.15.

I carried the child back home. It was very cold and raining heavily, and the madeleine cake on the table was rotten. I looked at it quietly for a long time and decided to call the child Madeleine.

I cried for a long time.

December NO.20.

I wanted to strangle the child, and Bella came, and she laughed at me and left.

December 21th.

I don't want to strangle this child.

December 25th.

Merry Christmas, myself, actually felt like going crazy, and didn't.The child doesn't cry very much, but just likes to look at me quietly. She has uncomfortable blue eyes like Bock.

December 26th.

The side effect of the potion made Bock forget what happened that night, and I could raise the kid and laugh at them.

1980 years.

January [-]st.

I think I still can't let go of my emotions, and Bella is here again, reminding me that the Dark Lord wants me to show my allegiance as soon as possible, and I know what she means.

I killed two Muggles today, and when I came home with blood, I quietly looked at the child with the same green hair as me who was waiting for me to go home, and raised my wand.

January NO.15.

I want to kill this kid.

March [-]th.

I did not kill the child.

March 27.

Happy birthday, Lucy.

May 26.

It seems that Narcissa's baby is about to be born, and they seem to know about Madeleine's existence, but they haven't said it.

Recently, that child has been looking at me, as if he can understand what I am thinking.

Want to poke her eyes out.

June [-]st.

why you are my child.

June [-]th.

When the news came that Narcissa was safe, I nearly drowned the child in the water.Bella was watching, enjoying my madness.

I can't control it.

June [-]th.

Mrs. Black seems to have been crazy for some time.

July [-]th.

She calls me mom.

July [-]th.

The kid hasn't had a voice since Cruciatus was cast, but it's alive and well.

August [-]st.

She called me mother again.

September [-]th.

I'm stumped why she would be my child.

October 31.

I pushed her into the water, and with Bella watching, I quickly pulled her out.

I didn't want Bella to know that I wanted to kill the kid, it would just prove him right, that Lucy and I were two people.

December 25.

wish me a merry christmas.

I want to be happy.

1981 years.

March 27.

Happy birthday, Lucy.

April [-]th.

That kid has a heart problem.

She should have died.

June [-]st.

why you are my child.

I can't make you happy.

July [-]th.

I am crazy, I am getting more and more crazy, and sooner or later I will go completely crazy.

I want to kill this child, why does she call me mother, I can't be your mother.

August [-]th.

I killed a few more Muggles, but I don't care anymore, the Dark Lord can't give me what I want.

October 27st.

It's a bad premonition, the child is still alive, so it should be fine, I didn't expect her such a small body to withstand two or three piercing carpal bones, ha.

November [-]st.

James is dead, what a pity, Voldemort is dead, huh.

December 25.

Merry Christmas, myself.

Merry Christmas and dwindling waking hours.

1982 years.

January [-]st.

I was mad again, mentally unstable, and I found it ironic that this kid was a natural dementor.

She already knew that I wanted to kill her, and she will keep her brain closed at home from now on.

What a horrible kid.

March 27.

Happy birthday, Lucy.

May [-]rd.

I went to find the dragon, and I haven't seen him for a long time. He is still flying freely in the world of dragons as before.

He is free, what about me?

"It's ridiculous, Isabella." He seemed to have forgotten how to speak human words, and he always had a thick dragon moan when he spoke.This damned dragon's sexuality became what he wanted, and he began to laugh at people who couldn't be happy.

I hate him.

The happiness I want is too far away.

I didn't find a way to turn him back into a human, but I found a way, while still a human, without turning into a dragon.

I will transplant a strong heart to that child.

October 27.

I succeeded.

as i thought.

This is the best gift I can give this piece of meat.

November [-]th.

The kid always likes to sit outside the window and watch the people passing by.

Really annoying.

December 25.

……

What's the point of Christmas.

1983 years.

January [-]rd.

Why are you calling me mother.

March 27.

……

April [-]th.

I sometimes wonder why this child was kept.

In the beginning, I just wanted to take revenge on someone.

By now, it has lost its meaning.I started to sort out the information left by that wayward dragon. Do I need to call him grandpa? I can’t say it out loud. Damn dragon is sexual.

I want to be free.

But that wasn't there in the first place.

I will live forever under this curse from Regulus.

He was right.

He was right.

October 27.

She lived a year.

I don't know if it's because of the heart, but her body is much tougher than the average four-year-old.

An occasional vent doesn't do her much harm either.

What do I think about this kid.

I still don't understand.

I hate her, maybe; I don't hate her that much, maybe.

It's just that she is still alive, and there are reasons for me.

what.

She has the same eyes as Bock.

I want to see Lucy, it's good at a glance.

October 31.

I saw her from a distance, she stood quietly in front of James' tomb - I knew it, I knew it!

I knew she didn't mean to have a falling out with James!I am the one who knows you best!I really love you the most!I am the one!

……

Really.

November [-]st.

Appears to be stalked.

nasty feeling.

Be careful when you go out.

November [-]nd.

When he got home the child was looking at the birds in the sky.

Hate those eyes.

Hate.

……

December 25.

The Sorting Hat once told me that I could choose Slytherin or Ravenclaw, and the choice seemed difficult for him, and he left the decision to me.

Merry Christmas, myself.

1984 years.

February 21.

Moody is following me.

Dumped.

Should I change places to live?

March [-]st.

The child was sitting outside again, looking like he would run away when the wind blows.

Hope for a gust of wind.

March 27.

……

Always want to say something.

Forget it.

May [-]th.

My waking hours shortened, and when I came back to my senses, the child hid under the table and didn't seem to make a sound.

"madness."

I speak up.

Stupid kid with no ability to fight back.

October [-]st.

The last time I went to see the man, he seemed to be moving to a lair so far away that I would never see him again.So I held the lamp and looked at him, those dragon pupils were staring at me quietly, I hate these blue eyes.

"grandfather."

I yelled and he let out a snort.

"That's ridiculous, Isabella."

He has said this countless times.

"In the first place, you should have left that home and left the UK."

He is sarcastic.

"You pass the curse on to the next generation."

he scoffed.

"You cannot be free."

October [-]th.

I hate blue eyes.

I repeated it countless times in my heart.

December [-]st.

The child has become more and more quiet recently, and seems to think that nothing will happen if he doesn't make a sound.

She got the concept of a normal family from the thoughts of people passing by, and she looked outside stupidly every day, as if she could be like others.

I thought.

It seems that I can be like others.

Uncontrollable jealousy.

Jealous of the child's bright eyes.

I'm just jealous that there's so much emotion in those eyes.

Why do you still have such eyes.

And I don't have any.

1985 years.

March [-]nd.

Moody appeared, and he angrily interrupted my last attempt to snap the kid's eyeball off. I was the one on the verge of breaking down.The child didn't seem to react, just lying on the floor, after Moody picked up the child, she looked at Moody quietly for a long time, and finally looked at me again.

She wasn't sure what to do until Moody hugged her and I cast a spell in the hut, and she hugged Moody's neck tightly.

why.

March [-]rd.

Why no one came to rescue me.

Why did someone come to rescue you.

Why did I have to be beaten by a declining family, and after finally killing my parents, I was cursed instead and lost the rationality I should have.

The Sorting Hat asked me where I wanted to go.

Do you want to be a cunning snake or a wise eagle.

I replied.

"I want to be a free eagle."

I worked hard to learn potions, fell in love with Bella, and met my favorite woman.

In the end, because of the side of the poisonous snake that he didn't choose, he fell to this point.

March tenth.

Dumbledore appeared a few days later than I thought. He reminded me not to be too persistent, but I never listened to him.

he ask me.

"What is the child's name?"

I replied.

"Madeleine."

"Why did you choose this name?"

"...because the cake is rotten."

Because I too rot.

Somewhere in me has been rotting since ages ago, and I suddenly saw right through myself when I saw that disgusting madeleine.I was crazy in the beginning, hopeless in the beginning, Lucy wouldn't go near the dirty stuff, I knew it.

"Why did you keep her?"

Dumbledore asked.

"Because I don't want to be alone."

He always had a way of keeping people honest.

My emotions are distorted. From the moment I was pregnant with her, my heart that was about to rush to the Boke house eased down.

It will be more exciting to go when you are older.

Going a little older...seems a little better.

bigger……

It was a little girl.

It eased my twisted heart more than a little bit, and it also made me crazy more than a little bit. Unable to accept this fact, I intensified and threw all the twisted past and emotional repetition on this child.

Lucius once said, I am a terrible woman.

The Hufflepuff thought I was a poor woman.

Regulus said, I am a detestable woman.

Bella said, I am a ridiculous woman.

Only I know that I am a person with nothing.

I finally have something that belongs to me, but I can't accept her. Between love and hate, I tighten my grip.

March [-]th.

Dumbledore and Moody didn't lock me up, but confined me to my home, and they seemed ready to consider Madeleine's future.

When Madeleine was brought back by Moody, she was holding ice cream in her hand. She didn't seem to know what she was doing in St. Mungo's. She just took the ice cream, held Moody's hand, and said to Moody: "This It was bought by my grandfather, I have never eaten it before."

She has bright and beautiful eyes.

When it sees me, it can turn into empty and ugly eyes.

The blue sky and the deep sea only need a moment.

June 27.

The communication with the Bork family seemed unusually long. Three months later, they were finally ready to take Madeleine over.That's right, after all, it's hard for anyone to accept that a daughter appeared out of thin air.

This means that Madeleine will soon lose the good memories of these three months and go to see her biological father.Dumbledore finally reported me to the Ministry of Magic. Before, in order to find out about Madeleine's dragon heart, he could only keep me.

"Where is her original heart?"

Dumbledore asked.

I replied, "It's broken."

June 28.

Azkaban, here I come.

When the Ministry of Magic came to get me, I thought.

When I turned my head slightly, I noticed that the eyes of the girl who was still dirty for some reason gradually brightened, and she pulled Dumbledore's robe with a hand that was a little clumsy because of being beaten too much by me.

"Am I free?"

At that moment, I smiled.

And, I know.

Sooner or later I will die at her hands.

Just like my parents died at my hands.

Just, just ah.

Madeleine...you are in luck.

Because, in your future life, there will be no me.

Even if I can leave Azkaban soon.

1989 years.

spring.

When I was young, facing the abuse of pure-blooded but poor and proud parents, my wish was to eat good cakes and not be beaten again.

Later, when I went to Hogwarts, I wanted to get a good grade and leave that house.

After meeting Lucy, I hope that Lucy can look at me a few more times, so that I can stay in those eyes that are as green as the lawn for a few more seconds. She is so attractive to me, and I fell in love at first sight.

So much so that after graduation, I also hope that she can fall in love with me and choose me instead of Boke with sky-like eyes.

It started to rain.

When I think about being in Azkaban, I always think about blue eyes.

I laughed.

It’s been a long time since graduation that I realized that freedom has never given me a choice.I can kill my parents, but I can only crawl at the feet of the Dark Lord.

The ugly house-elf and the girl with the brilliant blue eyes showed up at the house.

I remember her, she is my daughter.

And at this moment, I can choose.

I was indeed insane because of Regulus' curse, but I have never been more sober than I am now.

I picked up the knife instead of the wand.

I am free.

I died at the hands of the cake.

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The extra episode of the big bad guy(?)