Lin Xuan of the Red Chamber

Shen's mother hugged Lin Xuan and sighed slightly, Hong Ying had something on her mind, how could she, as a mother, not see it, not to mention, she also knew about it.

"You have met your brother, what did he say?" Mother Shen looked at Hongying with concern.

Hongying looked up at Shen's mother, hesitated for a while, still didn't want to worry her mother, she said in a low voice: "Brother said, let me go to the study to meet him later"

Shen's mother breathed a sigh of relief, and went to the study, then there should be nothing wrong, after thinking about it, she urged: "Then you go quickly, don't worry about Brother Xuan, I'm here to watch, you brothers and sisters should Let's have a good talk"

Hong Ying nodded, she understood what Shen's mother meant, this knot has been between their siblings for two years, if they don't untie it, they will only push each other farther and farther, this is what no one wants to see Yes, that's why she chose to come back at this time.

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The Shen family ancestral hall is located at the west end of Shen's mansion, and it is a little far away from Anqing Hall where Shen's mother lives. It will take some time for Hongying to get there, but this is exactly what Hongying wants. She thought about it.

Unknowingly, she walked to the location of the ancestral hall. Hong Ying stood at the door, took a deep breath, and made enough mental preparations before pushing the door and walking in. She thought a lot along the way, and there were things that she had thought of before. There are also things that I didn't think of before, but anyway, what should be faced is still to be faced.

The cold and silent ancestral hall was shrouded in a gloomy atmosphere, and the cold wind blowing in constantly made the dim candles flicker on and off. Shen Yuan, dressed in black, knelt silently in front of the tablets of the ancestors of the Shen family, as if wanting to melt Into this endless cold.

Hong Ying's lips moved, she wanted to call him, but she didn't call out, but quietly walked to Shen Yuan's side, knelt down on the thin round cushion beside him, she raised her head, Looking at the tablet of Shen's father on the altar table, he was silently lost in thought.

Even though Shen's father's death has passed for many years, it has always been an indelible scar in the hearts of their brothers and sisters. They will never forget the pain of the past. This has not changed from the Shen residence until now. You can tell by the name.

Shen Yuan knelt on the spot without moving, as if he didn't feel that Hong Ying was kneeling next to him, he continued to stare at the many tablets on the altar table, silent, the two brothers and sisters did not speak for a while, each was silent in my own thoughts.

After a while, Hong Ying spoke quietly, her expression was a little sad, and her voice was extremely low: "When my father was alive, what I hoped most was that my brother could marry a wife and have children as soon as possible. Get married in a bright and beautiful way, and your life will be smooth and worry-free for the rest of your life."

Shen Yuan still didn't respond, his eyes stayed in front of him all the time, until now he didn't turn his head back once to see his once favorite sister.

Hong Ying didn't care, or rather, she didn't have the extra thought to care about it now, she looked at Father Shen's tablet in front of her, with tears flashing in her eyes.

She said faintly: "My father's wish will probably not be fulfilled in my life. If my father has a spirit in heaven, I hope he will not blame me, an unfilial daughter who is willing to fall into the past."

Hong Ying closed her eyes, letting the tears roll down her cheeks, analyzing what she did, and seriously reflecting on what she had done. This is not an easy task for anyone.

"No matter how impoverished and destitute the Shen family is, no daughter will marry someone else as a concubine." The tears in Hong Ying's eyes fell down her cheeks to the ground, and her voice was filled with unspeakable guilt and pain. .

"In the past two years, I have been thinking that if the ancestors of the Shen family knew that I was so self-sufficient and depraved, I don't know how they would react. I guess they would resent me, hate me, and tarnish the Shen family. The door lintel, lose face to the Shen family." Hong Ying has been staring at Father Shen's memorial tablet, her eyes are complicated and filled with endless pain, but in fact, what she really cares about is not what others think of her, nor is it the Shen family. How her ancestors would think of her, those people were irrelevant to her, she didn't care at all.What she cares about is always what father Shen will think of her, what Shen Yuan will think of her, what she cares about is always what her relatives think of her.

Shen Yuan finally reacted, he was facing the altar, the dim candlelight was reflected on his face, looming, so that Hongying couldn't see the expression on his face clearly, only his voice was very soft, as if Don't care about the general: "You are not willing to degenerate, how could my favorite sister be willing to degenerate, she just doesn't trust her brother"

Shen Yuan's words were very soft, but they echoed in Hong Ying's mind like thunder, making her heart tremble.

She turned her head suddenly, looked at Shen Yuan's expressionless face, shook her head again and again, tears in her eyes fell down involuntarily, her voice began to tremble a little: "Why do you think so, How can you think so, brother, I don't distrust you, I really don't distrust you"

Shen Yuan ignored Hong Ying's explanation, his voice was still very soft, very soft, if not in this silent ancestral hall, few people would have heard it.

"Hong Ying, for the past two years, not only you have been thinking, but I have also been thinking, why?"

Shen Yuan finally turned his head, he looked at Hong Ying's face full of tears, his face was expressionless, those eyes like cold stars were still full of oppression, but for some reason, Hong Ying felt inexplicably sad.

Hong Ying was a little flustered by Shen Yuan's gaze, and she calmed down after a while, looking into Shen Yuan's eyes, Hong Ying said seriously: "Brother, we have twins, we are the closest people in this world , I know, you have protected me since I was a child, although our growing environment is very complicated, but you have always tried your best to protect me under your wings and prevent me from being hurt in the slightest."

She looked at Shen Yuan sincerely with eyes that were as hazy as clouds, and her voice was soft and soft but extremely sincere and firm.

"Brother, I have never distrusted you, never"

Hong Ying's words were enough to move people, but Shen Yuan still didn't respond, he was calm enough and rational enough.

"Is it just like that?" Shen Yuan's voice was very quiet, not the kind of bone-piercing coldness, but it was too heavy, so heavy that Hongying couldn't bear it.

"Brother, it's not what you think. The reason why I agreed to marry Lin Ruhai as my concubine is not because I don't trust you, but because you are my brother, and you are my dearest person in this world."

There were tears in Hong Ying's eyes, she looked at Shen Yuan with endless sadness and pain, she hesitated and stretched out her hand to grab Shen Yuan's sleeve, and finally decided to bury this in her heart, it has been a long, long time to say come out.

"I have never believed what you said perfunctorily to the governor. My brother has never been the one who would betray his sister for the so-called prosperity and wealth."

Hongying turned her head to look at Father Shen's memorial tablet on the altar table, and then turned her head to look at Shen Yuan, with indescribable forbearance and pain in her eyes.

"Brother, what father wants to see most is that you can be named on the gold list, honor your ancestors, Hongying is just a girl, there is no way to help you, if it's just that, then forget it."

"But the governor's words let Hongying know, what will he do if my brother doesn't agree..." Hongying's voice became deeper and deeper, with indescribable sadness, and the candles in the ancestral hall also ignited. The constant swaying was reflected on the faces of the two, making the atmosphere even more sad and bleak.

"Hong Ying knows, Hong Ying understands what is most important to her brother, but Hong Ying knows even more what is most important to Hong Ying, Hong Ying must not become an obstacle in the way of her brother's progress, absolutely not" Hong Ying's His gaze was extraordinarily firm, and that firmness was exactly the same as that of Shen Yuan.

"No matter what elder brother says, no matter what elder brother thinks, Hong Ying believes that her decision is not wrong..."

After a while, Hong Ying let go of the hand that grabbed Shen Yuan's sleeve, and she didn't realize until today that it was not as difficult as she imagined to say what was buried in her heart.

Shen Yuan has been listening quietly by the side, without saying a word, until now, seeing that Hong Ying seemed to have finished speaking, he turned around again, looked at the altar, and remained silent.

Hong Ying only felt that there was a fire burning in her heart, she didn't understand why her brother was still like this, she couldn't restrain the complicated feelings in her heart anymore, she finally couldn't help shouting loudly to Shen Yuan.

"Brother, please don't do this again, okay? What are you thinking in your heart, Hong Ying, please tell me, no matter what it is, Hong Ying can bear it, just please don't do this again"

Shen Yuan moved when he heard the words, he turned his head, and looked at Hongying who was forced to collapse by him, in those eyes like cold stars, apart from the complexity, there was also a hint of deep disappointment hidden.