Self-inflicted self-inflicted rebirth

After leaving Huanyu Technology, it was already dark, and the stars gradually covered the night, like pearls sprinkled on a jasper plate, the sky was full of stars twinkling, looking up at the starry sky, the sky was extraordinarily clear.

The scenery outside the car window is fleeting, the bustling city night scene and the dazzling lights of thousands of houses.

The black private car drove steadily on the wide road, passed one after another weak yellow halo drunk by the night, and ignited one bright light after another.

Su Chen clenched the steering wheel, looked to the right at Su Li who was looking out the window with his hands on his chin, Su Li was somewhat quiet, his eyes were dull, and he didn't know what he was thinking about.

Su Chen skillfully opened the small drawer in the car, inside there were always a few lollipops that were too sweet to be greasy, it was not exquisite, but it was Su Li's favorite food, the sound of sparse plastic paper appeared in the car Inside, it caught Su Li's attention.

"Honey, do you want to eat?"

Beside him was Su Chen's doting voice, which seemed to have the magic power of bewitching people, making people's irritable hearts gradually quiet down.

Su Li took the candy from Su Chen's hand, squeezed it in his hand, the sparse sound stimulated Su Li's ears, looking at the road outside, Su Li casually tore off the candy wrapper, and put the candy into his mouth .

The tip of the tongue is sweet, eliminating the tastelessness or bitterness in the mouth.

Su Li looked at Su Chen, the candy was shaking in his mouth, and he called, "Brother."

"En." Su Chen looked at the road ahead, and slowed down a little to respond.

"Brother, you...why do you always put sugar in the car?" Su Li's tone was a little careless.

"Have you... checked me? Check... my family, my background, everything about me..."

The candy was still swirling in Su Li's mouth, and Su Li's eyes wandered outside the car window, as if asking casually, it didn't matter.

But Su Chen could clearly hear the sound of Su Li swallowing his saliva, he could also hear Su Li's heartbeat clearly, and his hands unconsciously clenched the candy paper. He was nervous and held his breath, he was afraid of hearing The answer he didn't want to hear.

But he had to ask...

"Why do you ask?"

Su Chen said affirmatively, "I haven't checked."

Su Chen really didn't check, because no one knew Su Li better than Su Chen, or... the previous self, no matter what happened or what didn't happen, Su Chen could clearly remember it.

Su Chen obviously looked at Su Li as if he breathed a sigh of relief, and slowly let out the breath that was stuffy in his chest.

Su Li changed his posture, avoiding Su Chen's sight, as if he was talking to himself: "Brother, I am a redundant person, or in other words, I was an accident, the blood on my body, including everything about me, even I feel sick myself, it's filthy."

Listening to Su Li's plain and casual words, Su Chen's hands unconsciously clenched the steering wheel in front of him. Su Chen pursed his lips and listened quietly.

"I was born to be inferior, I was an annoying stinky kid, I was a dead kid who didn't want to make progress, and then I became a greedy parasite in people's mouths, oh, and some bosses... shameless Biaozi."

Su Li's words paused, and Su Chen's heart seemed to stop at the same time. In this case, such a confession, putting it under the sun bloody, is actually cruel.

"Stop talking, Ah Li."

Su Chen didn't want the past to be exposed to the sun, Su Chen would rather it be buried forever in a corner, let time rot, let the long river of time erode the past, and then not be remembered by others, and his own past will also be forgotten.

"Brother, I've been thinking why you are so nice to me."

Su Chen hesitated to speak, unable to say anything.

Su Li suddenly raised his head and looked at Su Chen, his eyes were firm: "Brother, I don't want to think about it now, I don't have to seek a result, an answer for everything."

Su Chen's breathing seemed to take a beat, and she didn't expect Su Li to say such words.

"Baby, what kind of person are you? I will see with my eyes, see what you do, and feel with my heart. My Su Li has suffered a lot, so he must feel enough sweetness." Su Chen said again. He grabbed a piece of candy and stuffed it into Su Li's hand.

Su Chen looked at Su Li's face, Su Li's eyes were fearless, he would not dodge or shrink back.

What is real letting go may be when you face the past you have experienced, the whole story that you cannot bear, the facts and truths that you tried your best to cover up, after the full and complete exposure, and your heart is as still as water, No distracting thoughts, peace of mind, calm and at ease.

Even if others are in front of you, retelling your past misfortunes, pricking your heart with arrogance, but you are not sad, not hurt, and you look like a clown, but you are not shocked and calm, this is the real letting go.

"Hmph." Su Chen felt a little funny, that he was being educated by a child.

A smile bloomed on Su Li's face, shining brightly in this dark night.

"Brother, I want to work part-time after class. I don't want rust to cover my limbs and make them unable to lift."

"Yes." Su Chen agreed.

Growth may be a word, or an action, or even in the blink of an eye. Su Chen felt that Su Li might have grown up and grown up.

What is growth, growth may be the sudden enlightenment on the tortuous road.

After the fresh rain in the empty mountain, the weather is late in autumn.

The drizzle in autumn is not like the torrential rain in summer, nor the haze in spring. It keeps falling, quietly and silently.

Lying on the sofa in the living room of the small villa, listening to the drizzle in the yard, it is comfortable and cozy.

Su Li only had a two-day vacation, so Su Chen took advantage of the drizzle to move his two-day work to the villa.

"Baby, baby, come down, don't stay in the study all day long, even if you eat the book, what can you do, wash some fruit for brother."

Gradually, there was a sound from the stairs of the villa. Su Li, wearing a blue home clothes, walked down the stairs obediently.

Su Chen narrowed his eyes, and looked Su Li up and down: "Honey, are you taller after returning from military training? The pants seem a little short."

Su Li's footsteps paused, and his eyes looked along the bottom of his trousers. It really seemed to be the case.

"Come here, come here." Su Chen hooked his fingers.

Su Li nodded and walked behind the sofa, still in a daze, with a pitiful appearance.

Su Chen smiled, stretched out his hand and grabbed Su Li by the collar, pulling him down.

"do not move!"

Su Chen raised his hand to pick Su Li's chin, then stretched out his hand to touch Su Li's neck tentatively.

Su Li moved his body uncomfortably, swallowing, his Adam's apple moved up and down along with Su Li's swallowing, touching Su Chen's fingertips.

"Whoa, I'm going to grow up!"