Supernatural powers are intellectual and handicapped, how do I survive

The funeral was arranged by Fyodor alone.

Tragedy befalls this family overnight, accompanied by billowing smoke and fire, instantly destroying everything about the youth trapped in the nightmare.

Mr. Mori, who opened a clinic and was well received by the neighbors, caused a gas leak because of his negligence while cooking dinner.Misfortune led to disaster when the phone charging cable was unplugged in the middle of the night.

Akiko Yosano, who was far away, also lost contact due to unknown circumstances. In the end, the police only found a mobile phone that was so broken that the original shape could not be seen. Other than that, there were no clues.

Only people with supernatural powers can understand that even dead bodies cannot be found after dying in the barrier of nightmares.

The home where they lived for more than ten years was destroyed by a violent explosion, and now only the charred ruins of the originally warm courtyard remained.Originally an orphan, Osamu Dazai, who had no relatives other than the family that adopted him, naturally lived with his only friend Fyodor.

The young man who lost his family overnight is in an incomparably worse condition, and he is losing weight rapidly visible to the naked eye.The successive deaths of his father and sister made him unable to accept the facts, so he could only rely on the only remaining friends, and became increasingly depressed.

He didn't know how to go on the road ahead.

Nightmare stopped attacking Fyodor, and Osamu Dazai was unwilling to continue using this ability.After going through the formalities of suspending school, he can only adjust his emotions with difficulty under the care of his friends, and he doesn't know if there will be a day when he can regain his strength.

As time passed, the young man with the appearance of a sickly Russian finally remembered his identity.

From the beginning to the end, he is not a human being, but some other higher-dimensional existence.

He was supposed to be the source of this world, but he didn't know when he developed self-awareness.

It is indeed consistent with my past guesses about people with supernatural powers. It is not qualified people who can awaken their abilities, but the supernatural powers themselves choose human beings.The more luminous something called the ego is, the more likely it is to be perceived by a power that sleeps in nothingness.

In order for the world to keep going, he must draw some energy from it.

However, after death, a person with different abilities turns into a nightmare, and the first to attack is all the important existences in life.Self-awareness is trapped in the spar carrying supernatural powers, and he can only watch "self" destroy everything with his own hands, and then bring endless disasters to the world.

Feelings called despair pile up and then sink into a hell of never-ending nightmares.

The time that Nightmare can perceive is not equal to that of human beings.

This is a forced sale

Maybe it's because being alone is too lonely, and the gods who have always been observing the world in a higher dimension finally don't have to endure loneliness anymore.He doesn't even understand what human emotions are, he just follows his instincts and wants to find someone who can always be by his side.

The child who can easily catch his sight in the vast crowd and has a gentle smile may be a good choice.

Putting his consciousness into a low dimension, he woke up from a teenager who was supposed to be completely brain-dead soon.

Perhaps it was pure unskilled business that caused this behavior to go wrong.The god who lost all memory got the name Fyodor, and approached the target smoothly without being conscious.

Human life is too short, from the very beginning, he intends to infinitely prolong the life of the person he chooses to accompany him by instilling his origin.

He wanted to take the other party out of this world and go to the dimension where he should have existed.However, having observed the human world for a long time, he has seen many such scenes, and he can probably understand how reluctant human cubs who are forcibly taken away from their relatives will feel.

There are some things he can't understand, but the subconscious mind has already made a choice.

[As long as there are no other redundant dependencies, it will be fine. 】

The nightmare driven by his subconscious has already done this, and Osamu Dazai, who has lost all his family, is indeed very well-behaved and very satisfying.

He didn't want to have any social interactions, and he just curled up in that small apartment every day, rarely actively seeking food to sustain his life, and just stayed silent until dawn the next day.His insomnia became more and more serious. Even if he was fed milk mixed with sleeping pills, he would wake up in a nightmare during the rare sleep period.

It was also later that Fyodor unlocked other methods by letting the flow take its course, which made Osamu Dazai mentally exhausted every day, so that he could barely sleep well.

For this strange behavior, the young man who was much thinner than before, except for a weak resistance at the beginning, after certain things became an established fact, he never showed any reluctance.

It seems that it doesn't matter.

Soon, Fyodor found that he was not as happy as he thought.

He seemed to want to see the kid's smiling face more.

Instilling the power of the source through eating is too inefficient for a person to ascend the dimension.I need to continue to wait for unknown decades, and the accumulated strength can barely let the existence he chooses rise to the same latitude.

However, before that, the first thing he ushered in was the death of Osamu Dazai.

Staying in the low-dimensional world for a long time, Fyodor needs to cut most of his power.In addition, he needs to continuously transfer this power to Osamu Dazai, and as time goes by, the remaining energy for himself will become less and less.

Those powerful nightmares have been able to escape from his control, follow the original rules of the world, and look for prey by themselves.

Originally, he just went out to the supermarket to buy, but when he came back, he saw Osamu Dazai's bloody body downstairs in the apartment building.Fyodor, who didn't quite understand which link he had made a mistake, stood outside the cordon in a daze, and fell into silence under the constantly flashing red light on the top of the police car.

The hole dug by oneself will be finished even if you kneel down.

With his own limited power, the young man awakened the supernatural ability of time manipulation type, and kept returning to the time when he first met Osamu Dazai.

He has met the other party countless times, and countless times when the other party lost everything, he smiled and offered his arms.On thundery and rainy nights, he would hug the trembling body of the other party tightly, comfort the youth trapped in the nightmare with soft kisses, and make him forget all the pain for a short time with warmth.

After that, he has witnessed countless times that the youth is gradually going to death.Even if one avoids the temptation of the nightmare, one will die of irreversible organ failure, or other accidents that cannot be explained by common sense.

Just like the end of the world line, no matter how the process changes, the ending ushered in will not be any different.

In reincarnation, Fyodor slowly understood what the emotion he wanted to have was.It shouldn't be calculation and coercion, but to exchange sincerity for sincerity, and want to establish a healthy, strong and intimate relationship.

However, some things were beyond his control.

It is not simply reversing time that can change the fate of some people that has been written long ago.Not only Osamu Dazai, but also the fate of all those close to him.

But when Fyodor realized this, it was too late.

He has been unable to stop the pace of reversing time, even if he solves the nightmare that will affect the process in advance, the people affected will always die at a time similar to the original timeline.Even if Yosano Akiko and Yosano Akiko did not leave Yokohama when they were fighting against the nightmare named ghost, at the end of the battle it was always inevitable that Oda Sakunosuke and the other party would perish together.

Then there is Osamu Dazai's family, and the ending has not changed.

It shouldn't be like this, shouldn't he be a god?Why can't even the fate of a few human beings be changed?

Fyodor, who was rarely mentally haggard, fell into deep self-doubt, and his deep purple eyes were smudged with chaos that could destroy people's reason.Once again, he held the young man's hand that was gradually losing temperature by the hospital bed, feeling his body become stiff.

Failed again.

Suddenly he could understand Osamu Dazai's feelings after losing everything, but this kind of thought made the pale young man irritated.

The desire to destroy something swept through his heart. Since he didn't care about anything, why didn't he want to vent before returning to the starting point?Anyway, all of this will be erased, and no matter what he does, no one will remember it except himself.

The young man stroked the roulette on his left arm again, but this time he did not want to activate the ability, but took out a loaded pistol from the internal storage space.

Fyodor, whose fingertips were constantly trembling, was attracted by the black muzzle of the gun, and his heart beat faster and faster, but at this moment he stopped his movements.

He turned his head slowly, staring at Dazai Osamu who was sleeping peacefully on the hospital bed, his expression rarely revealed a sense of bewilderment.

Speaking of it, they seem to have never confirmed their relationship as lovers.

It's just because the only people who can rely on are each other. Whether there is an intimate relationship beyond friendship has long been unable to change the importance of the other party in one's life.

Like a nightmare, Osamu Dazai hates such things by personally or inducing to hurt innocent people.

Fyodor barely remembered that as early as when they first met, he had felt a strong sense of disobedience many times.It's just that after he finally recalled his identity as a god, the sense of disobedience that enveloped his heart at those moments slowly faded away.

It's like a locked box, with a secret compartment hidden in it. Inside the secret compartment is something that you really want to hide, and outside it is just something to confuse the audiovisual.The person who has painstakingly opened the box, seeing what is hidden in it, will satisfy his curiosity and stop probing, thus preserving something he really wanted to hide.

What if, as early as the beginning of reincarnation, the memories he got were also false?

The so-called latitude of the gods only exists in his own memories. He has never been there in person since countless reincarnations.

Even though he has never seen it with his own eyes, he firmly believes that his identity is the truth.

Perhaps the truth is still hidden behind the mist, but he, who is about to fall into madness, has no energy left to track down.

Fyodor felt a long-lost sharp pain coming from the depths of his brain, and he didn't know what message it was conveying.The icy pistol fell to the ground with a crisp sound. At the same time, the young man lost his strength and knelt on the ground, covering his head, letting the cold sweat soak his clothes.

Once you start to doubt, your thinking can no longer be controlled by yourself.

Why does he call himself a god?

Why is he trapped in the never-ending maze?

Why was he captured by that one person out of 70 billion lives at the very beginning?

Stopping the endless reincarnation, some details that Fyodor has neglected for a long time are ready to emerge.

Perhaps this was a bureau from beginning to end, a despicable deception to lure him into sinking in the dream.And the ultimate purpose of this deception is to make him go crazy in reincarnation and do something irreversible to Osamu Dazai.

Then, kill each other with his own hands.

He has gone through countless such reincarnations.

Such a situation is like being trapped in the spar, falling into the nightmare itself of an endless nightmare.

It is the last gesture of the superhuman.

The young man suddenly heard a sigh.

"It's almost time to come back."

The scene in front of him was suddenly distorted, and even Osamu Dazai, who had fallen into eternal sleep on the hospital bed, was completely destroyed by the accident.

Fyodor, who stretched out his hand in vain, felt himself being caught by someone, and fell into a cold and polite embrace.The figure that had grown to adulthood at the end of reincarnation seems to have returned to the beginning due to unknown reasons, and turned into a thin and thin appearance at the age of 15.

At the same time, a large number of broken memory images swept in like a tsunami, tearing at his chaotic brain.

Compared with the previous reincarnation that lasted for an unknown number of years, this new memory made him feel very strange no matter how he looked at it.The world view alone is completely different from the common sense he possesses.

"Ugh!!" Fyodor groaned due to the severe pain. His cheeks lost all blood, his facial features, which had always been cold, were distorted, and his wide eyes were constantly trembling. All he could see was The picture that comes to mind.

Born in an ordinary family in Russia, he left all his relatives because of the power war, and insisted on walking towards a road that will never be reached by the light.In order to create a world free from sin, he needs to completely destroy the self of human beings, and to do so, he needs to eliminate the supernatural beings all over the world...

After that, he created the Rat of the Dead House, joined the Five Decays of Heaven and Man, was entangled by that annoying colleague who transcended, and knew his true life experience...

Then there is being kissed on the head by the so-called "father", and after a death, he is going to tell him something...

Drenched in cold sweat, Fyodor's heartbeat gradually subsided. He gasped for breath, then tightened his lips, looking at his hand, which was a circle smaller than his original adult figure, with a slightly gloomy expression.

Like a dream within a dream, he didn't fully wake up.

"How does it feel to be a nightmare?" Mikhail, who was wearing a pitch-black robe, had a vague smile on his lips, with an expression of interest.

"Compared to shrinking in age or turning into a mouse, it is more difficult for you to directly tamper with the memory."

"You..." Seeing the other party so frankly admitting the falsification of memory, the two different emotions in his mind interfered with each other, and Fyodor, who had a splitting headache, gradually became dangerous.

The most troublesome part was indeed related to that Osamu Dazai who looked nothing like he knew except his face.

In the too long memory of reincarnation, even if Fyodor himself didn't want to admit it, he did have too strange feelings for that young man with curly hair.The intimacy, even in a dream, left him with stomach acid rising when he was awake.

Those warm touches are too real.

"This is just part of my memory. As you guessed, people with supernatural abilities did exist in the past."

Mikhail took out a light red crystal out of nowhere, played with it in his hands, and at the same time explained the truth in a calm tone that almost stopped Fyodor's heart.

He intentionally made the other party lose his memory, and the reincarnation he personally experienced was also the past that he didn't want to recall again.

"If you want to continue to use the ability after you get it, you need the spar that fell after defeating the nightmare. And every spar was once a person with supernatural powers, so they were trapped in the eternal nightmare until they died."

The young man closed his eyes slightly, and the smile on the corner of his mouth gradually became bitter, "In comparison, the current world is better."

At least psychics don't become that kind of thing after death.

"..." Fyodor, whose appearance was restricted to 15 years old, stared at the spar that looked exactly like the crystal formed by Shibusawa Tatsuhiko's supernatural power. trembling.

He took a deep breath, "You and Dazai, what's going on?"

If everything I experienced before was not false, then Osamu Dazai in this memory is probably the current Pandora's Actor.

Is it really possible that the Transcendent with extremely bad personality was a cheerful and gentle young man in the past?

"Before I was turned into a nightmare, as you can see, I was just a simple friend."

Mikhail, who had long realized that the other party would ask such a question, straightened his expression and explained: "The time of nightmares and human beings is not equal. Maybe it is only a few minutes in reality, but for the nightmares trapped in the self-built For the nightmare in the movie, however long it takes is possible."

"It was also in that nightmare that I didn't want to recall, I discovered my feelings for him, and after that, I hurt him." The young man's sentence paused for a while, showing a meaningful expression, "The veritable blasphemy Woolen cloth."

Fyodor, who knew what the other party was referring to: "..."

Probably the content is nothing more than what I "experienced" not long ago. In short, it will make Osamu Dazai dying, and he will fall into chaos for a short time, and even after that, he will walk around him.

Mikhail shrugged, "Everything you have experienced before is also what I have experienced, including breaking through the seal of the spar on self-consciousness by relying on my own strength at this time, all of which happened in reality."

"That nightmare is not completely false. Except for the evil thoughts blooming in the bottom of my heart, and the identity of your so-called god, the rest of the content is real."

He was an ordinary patient at first, and he almost died due to an accident not long after he woke up, and then he met Dazai Osamu, who had nothing to do with the so-called origin of the world and gods.

Without thinking too much, Fyodor could understand the meaning expressed by the other party, and murmured: "Mikhail is not your name."

The man in front of him who is essentially his "father" is also named Fyodor.

"Hum..."

The young man answered vaguely, but did not deny it.

"Osamu Dazai's initial experience was just a series of tragedies constructed by coincidence."

He looked up at the pitch-black night scene outside the window. The light of the stars was too weak to be completely covered by the moonlight, and at the same time, his expression of unknown meaning was also covered.

"I wanted to wait for him to regain his strength, but the nightmare would not give us a chance. In the end, what I waited for was to witness his death with my own eyes."

Just like countless times of reincarnation, Mikhail wanted to save the other party in the past, but in the end he could only end badly, and he never succeeded once.

He couldn't hold each other's hand, passed each other's warm body temperature, and walked towards the distant place called the future.

The young man sighed slowly, and said softly: "You should have realized that the ability of me in memory is exactly the same as that of Pandora today. The only important existence left for me in the world, so the mode of ability is time manipulation, which can keep going back to the past.”

And on this never-ending journey, he, who has lost his way for a long time, is still heading towards the end of becoming a nightmare.

"So, now this is the end of you becoming a nightmare after countless failures?" Fyodor raised his hands, rubbed his temples that were still stinging, and leaned against the window with a blank expression on his face youth.

He failed to save Osamu Dazai, and went through a reincarnation time that can be counted in hundreds of years, but stepped into desperation in despair.After that, when it became a nightmare, it kept repeating the nightmare of life.In desperation, time was reversed again and again, and he was even dubbed the so-called "god", but he was still unable to protect the only person he valued.

Then what happened after that, causing the world to change and become what it is today?

Although the Rats of the Dead House is a group of thieves, their main business is intelligence transactions.Whether there are nightmares in today's world, Fyodor knows it all too well.

Is this the disappearance of a species, or does it completely change the concept of people with supernatural powers?

"Next is the beginning for you." Mikhail chuckled just as the boy-like demon fell into deep thought.

"After that, I, who returned from the nightmare state, had many incidents with Osamu Dazai. You also know that I and him, who completely changed his name to Pandora's Actor, are the source of the world today, and the one that was forged during the nightmare The gods in the memory are similar things."

"So blasphemy is not a joke. We did something to cover this universe with a new concept." The young man's expression gradually dimmed, and even his voice became hoarse.

"If you want to know what happened next, go to him, and you will know everything."