From cannon fodder to heartthrob after wearing a book

Chao Shen has already gone to participate in the semi-finals, and Xue Jinzhao is staying at school for the school sports meeting.

Because of his injury, he perfectly avoided all the events, even the opening ceremony was specially approved by the teacher not to participate, and he only had the opportunity to cheer and shout while sitting in the stands.

Su Qingran also postponed most of the events due to her frailty, but was finally dragged into the men's 4×100 relay race.Gu Jianzhou was physically strong, so he volunteered for three or four events, and the relay race was the same, and he was still the first.

"Remember to cheer me on."

It seems that "like me or not" is just Xue Jinzhao's fantasy, Gu Jianzhou and him have returned to the boundary of ordinary friends, and no one has the courage to break through.

Before the referee started, Gu Jianzhou took a long look at the audience, and Xue Jinzhao also waved to him.

As soon as the whistle sounded, Gu Jianzhou ran out quickly. Xue Jinzhao held up his mobile phone to take some pictures for him, and pressed and took a few pictures, but none of them failed.

It's great to look good.

Xue Jinzhao couldn't help but sigh with emotion, he also bought a few photos for Su Qingran in order to serve the water, and then privately sent them to them on WeChat.He sat close to the base camp, and the classmate brought him a drink after carrying the water: "Have a drink."

"Okay, thank you."

Xue Jinzhao took it, and the thanked classmate turned his head to look at the game, and muttered in his heart: This classmate who heard that his family is rich and has a bad temper is not so difficult to get along with?

Xue Jinzhao saw He Zhaoran passing by wearing a red school uniform, and he even wore a red hair tie. After leaving the arena, he sat in a corner and started drinking water.

He Zhaoran seems to like red very much.

As if noticing his gaze, He Zhaoran turned his head to look over. Xue Jinzhao bowed his head guiltyly to play with his phone, pretending that he wasn't looking at the other party, and a call happened to come in at this moment.

Xue Jinzhao answered the phone in a hurry.

It's Xu Yan.

"Have you watched the show?"

I watched it last week, probably it was the second public stage, and I was still busy with grouping and campaigning for the repertoire. Xue Jinzhao fell asleep after watching it for a while.

"Looked."

Xue Jinzhao felt even more guilty. He stood up from the stands, walked out and answered, "What's wrong?"

"I am at the hospital."

Xue Jinzhao's heart skipped a beat. After asking for the address, he packed his things, left the school gate and took a taxi to the hospital.When I arrived at the ward, there were still nurses standing inside to make rounds, and after taking notes, I hurried out with my notebook in my hands.

Xu Yan was lying on the hospital bed, without the filter modification, he looked much thinner and haggard than in the camera, with a bandage wrapped around his head, faintly bloodstained.Seeing Xue Jinzhao approaching, he sat up and wanted to say something. After hesitating for a long time, his eyes fell on the fruit basket on the cabinet: "Actually, I'm fine..."

Xue Jinzhao looked left and right, and found that no one was in the room, so he closed the door lightly, leaving space for the two of them to be alone: ​​"It's okay, just tell me."

Xu Yan's eyes were red, and it could be seen that he tried his best to suppress his emotions, but it was counterproductive. Tears rolled down his face, easily disintegrating his pretended strength.

"I feel like I'm not as good as Ye Songge. He has always left me behind in the rankings on the show, his popularity remains high, and his learning ability is also very good... I danced all night, he watched it a few times and he gradually learned it. Yes. Why is there such a big gap between people?"

"I don't think I can stop paying attention to these things... From the first time I shot the theme song MV, no, it was the first stage rating, after his a cappella singing came out... I felt very uncomfortable, because I knew that I didn't Not as good as him."

"I don't seem to be as good as him in everything... I can't seem to find the meaning of my existence. My participation in "Where the Stars Are" seems to be a failure in life."

"I feel like I've fallen here and I can't seem to get up."

Xue Jinzhao was surprised. Xu Yan was not like him who could accept the fate of being a cannon fodder by nature, "fall when you fall, and continue to fall when you get up".

But how would he explain it?Say "you deserve it, accept your mediocrity"?Then Xu Yan will really be hit by him so hard to get up again.

"Why did you want to be an idol in the first place? Did you get scouted or signed up yourself?"

Unexpectedly, he would ask about the past. Xu Yan was stunned for a moment, and began to recall the past. After a while, he replied: "I signed up for the company's audition."

"What kind of thoughts did you have at that time? Do you want to be popular?"

"At that time, I felt that being a celebrity was good, and I would always be liked and supported by others. I also wanted to be a celebrity, and I also wanted to be truly loved by people."

Xu Yan's expression gradually became indifferent, but his thoughts drifted back to a certain evening.

He dragged his tired body back home with a report card that was not outstanding, and the man in sunglasses who was handing out the leaflets walked up to him. The man looked him up and down, and put the leaflets in his hand for him to try.

Xu Yan took a closer look and saw that it was a leaflet for a large company recruiting trainees. He would have laughed it off in the past, but he accepted it that day and planted the seed silently in his heart.

At that time, his parents were divorcing, and the two of them tore apart their faces for the sake of property. Xu Yan couldn't get a perfect score even though he tried his best.

In fact, even if he really got a perfect score, the parents at that time would not look sideways, they were trying hard to push the custody right to the other party.

No one wants to live with him.

At that time, he seemed to have nowhere to go and homeless. He became a trainee like a life-saving straw. He went to the practice room to practice every day after school. He wanted to avoid the reality of being a mess. .

Unknowingly, time passed like this, and Xu Yan actually walked down by mistake.In the beginning, when he was young, everyone was pretentious, and with the dream of being a star, he thought that he was the top in the future. In the end, he was the only one left in the company during the same period.

Later, when he made his debut, he was the only one in the group who didn't know how to flatter him, and he never tried other people's good company/drinking. The only time he met Xue Jinzhao.

The other party was crying at the time, calling aggressively in the toilet, swearing and arguing aggressively, hung up the phone and started crying.Xu Yan couldn't bear to hand over a pack of tissues, and then saw the other party's bright eyes.

I don't know if it was from tears, or because I saw him.

Xu Yan firmly believed that it was the latter.He also was so confused for a while that he couldn't find the definition of being an idol. Everyone on stage and off stage gave him a strong sense of illusion.

But Xue Jinzhao's eyes let him understand the meaning of his existence, which is to be looked at by such a pair of eyes.

Become a person who can correctly accept the love of others and give back.Idols need to be performed. Putting on a mask under the lights to hide their imperfect self and give the audience the heat and vitality they want.

This time, at Xue Jinzhao's place, what he got was to pretend to be another person, no matter how against his will, look into Xue Jinzhao's eyes, as if he had really become an idol.

Looking at Xu Yan who was deeply immersed in the memory, Xue Jinzhao went to the bathroom to wash the knife and cut fruit for him. When a bumpy apple was peeled, Xu Yan had already withdrawn from the memory.

"At that time, I really hoped to be loved by others. At that time, I felt that no one else in the world cared about me. I felt very miserable, so I wanted to be—a person who shines on others."

Xue Jinzhao turned over the cell phone that had been facing down and held it in front of him, saying earnestly: "Actually, you have already done it."

The page displayed on the mobile phone is a mainstream social software for star chasing. Xu Yan's account has tens of millions of followers. If he clicks on a Weibo at will, the comments below are long or short, all of which express his care and love for him.

[Little Pig bathes himself today: Help!How could there be such a perfect person as Xu Yan in the world!Brother is so handsome!I will be very sad if I can't fall in love with my brother! 】

[The coriander should be in the bowl: Brother, you have worked hard!Take care of yourself too!love you bro! 】

[Matcha-flavored cake: Xu Yan is a god sent from heaven to save mankind!I really like Xu Yan so much! 】

[Love Xu Yan for 1 years: Brother, please be happy every day!Take good care of your body, we will definitely let brother debut in a high position! 】

Scribing a few random lines is an undisguised compliment, which can almost touch the beating warm heart on the other side of the screen.

"There are a lot of people who are paying attention to you now, and they all like you. They are working hard to make your debut. They have invested a lot of time and energy in you... They hope that you can become a better version of yourself. .”

"I understand."

Xu Yan nodded, but looked at him with firm eyes: "I will not let them down."

"What happened to your head injury?"

It was only when Xue Jinzhao was distracted to pay attention to his injury that Xu Yan shook his head: "I just accidentally fell down the stairs and was licking."

"Really careless?"

"Ah."

Xu Yan still buried the problem: "I won't make such a mistake again."

He looks a bit pitiful with his head down, and his thin profile doesn't look like He Zhaoran, but it reminds Xue Jinzhao of another puppy easily.

Ye Songge.

Ugh.

Xue Jinchao shook his head to throw away the fantasy, and opened the bookmarks to read him some precautions: "As an idol, there are many things to pay attention to."

"Maintain good figure management, this is your professionalism. Usually don't swear or make remarks that discriminate against any race or gender, correct your own attitude, and take your fans and work seriously, you know?"

"I see."

Xu Yan nodded, looked up at him again, his eyes were sparkling, more like a puppy: "I will definitely become a very good idol