dancer on the knife

After returning to the school from the military training base, coupled with the gradual expansion of the SARS epidemic, the school also began to close the school.In order to spend my time at school, I copied and memorized articles and learned English every day.The seemingly peaceful life is actually full of ups and downs in my heart, because I don't want to be idle like this, let alone I don't have the capital to idle.So I always pay attention to the news of the SARS epidemic, hoping that the school can lift the blockade as soon as possible.

With the gradual control of the epidemic, the school has also opened up entry and exit.Thinking of all the students having jobs one by one, my heart became more impatient. Now that I can freely enter and leave the school, I don't want to sit still.Although the hotel told us that after the epidemic is under control, we will go back for training in a unified manner.But I need expenses every day, and I don’t want to spend my family’s money anymore.So I started my new round of crazy job hunting.After hitting the wall many times, and having nowhere to look for a job, he began to seek help from Uncle Yu.At that time, Uncle had transferred from a military officer to the public security system. He had stayed in Changsha for many years and had a good social circle.

On the day I went to see my uncle, it was raining and the whole earth was wet, surrounded by this deserted atmosphere, my mood was as heavy as the weather.Uncle came to pick me up by car. At the intersection of Houjiatang in Changsha, I met the uncle that my family often talked about for the first time.Uncle was still a student of his father. He joined the army and left his hometown at the age of 18. He was admitted to the military academy in the army, served in the army later, and then changed jobs. He has been away from home for many years.

Uncle took me to a restaurant for dinner, and when I walked into the box, I felt so restless.It was the first time I saw the dishes on the table, and they were a bit luxurious, just like when the head teacher took us to eat dishes in the fourth grade of elementary school when we went to the countryside to participate in the competition.I have to admit that there is still a shortage of knowledge.Uncle asked about my situation, and then introduced me to a few people at the same table, but he was too nervous to look at others carefully.After such a meeting, I have confidence in my work.Although looking for a relationship is not what I think, sometimes people still have to bow their heads to reality.

Later, my uncle called me and asked me to go to a high-end restaurant on Furong Road for dinner, and said that he would introduce me to a job.After dropping off the table, I still felt my legs shaking a little.After the boss came, he ordered some dishes that I had never heard of, and then asked me some questions.In terms of answering questions, I can answer them freely, but I am still somewhat worried.Under my uncle's introduction, I found out that this boss is a good friend of his, and he is in charge of marketing and planning in this hotel.At that time, I thought I could find a planning job, and my heart was somewhat full of expectations. After all, I still have confidence in doing text-related work.Although the society has long taught me that confidence and ability to work are two different things, under the instigation of acquaintances and relationships, I habitually began to "daydream".The boss at the back asked me to start with Brother Bao first, to get familiar with the work at the grassroots level, and then make adjustments according to the situation.Silly and naive, I thought it was Baodi, the younger brother who specializes in delivering newspapers.I was still a little happy in my heart, and I also felt that it was good to have a relationship from the bottom of my heart, and the work was settled like this.

When I went to check in, the workplace taught me a vivid lesson and asked me to pay a deposit of 200 yuan for clothing.That was the first time I heard of this term, not to mention that I didn't have 200 yuan with me.So, I directly mentioned the name of the boss, saying that the boss asked me to come directly, and didn't say anything about paying a deposit.In this way, the supervisor couldn't figure out the relationship between me and the boss, so he asked the HR department to help me complete the entry procedures.Received work clothes, shoes, work permit, and a special cabinet for clothes and shoes.

On the same day, I dragged some daily necessities from school to the dormitory, and went through all the formalities.The morning meeting started the next morning, and I was asked to introduce myself. It was a great feeling, a feeling of being valued.Then I recited the name of the dishes of the day, and some customers ordered boxes. Since I just arrived, the supervisor took me to familiarize myself with the boxes and walked into those boxes. I felt that this was too extravagant.But who called this a high-end hotel?The boxes are all named after the provincial capital cities, and I remember the locations of dozens of boxes making me dizzy.At that time, I thought it was to let me know the restaurant better, so I also needed to know the name of the box and the name of the dish. When I was assigned work later, I was asked to be a food passer. The abalone passer is called Baodi for short.At that time, I hated polyphonic characters for harming people. If I knew that I was serving as a food passer, I might not have come.After all, it was still difficult to accept the cruel reality of being a waiter after graduating from college, and the plot of professional counterparts still dominated the job search.

The business of the restaurant has been booming. Due to too many customers, it is necessary to trot to pass the dishes. It is really tiring to run to the second floor and the third floor at other times. The most important thing is to prevent the abalone from shaking out or knocking over the tray during the run , that trembling feeling is the feeling of walking on thin ice.Sometimes I need to pass on some other dishes, especially in the hall, I feel like I can't lift my head, and I'm afraid of meeting classmates or acquaintances.When encountering some tables full of dishes, the waiter needs to move the plates to make room, and I have been standing next to me with a heavy tray, feeling like my hands are going to break.When the waiter is too busy, I have to put the dishes on the table by myself. Every time I put the dishes, I worry about knocking over the plates. Once those expensive dishes are lost, my salary will be ruined.

Employees eat in the cafeteria on the first floor, and some of them also eat in the staff area upstairs, but the kitchen is still a bit messy, not to mention that everyone is standing or sitting on the steps at will, and the colleagues who welcome guests are also at this time. We are the same, revealing the truest side of human nature, very little elegance, making colored jokes, swearing, etc. Seeing these, I feel that it is difficult for me to blend in.When I returned to the dormitory after get off work, I felt that people were about to fall apart. There were dozens of people living in a large suite, watching TV, playing cards, and drinking. I was lying on the bed thinking about this environment. I really want to keep going?I can't see hope in such a position, and I can't feel the feeling of home in such a team, so I started to make a living and quit.

At the moment when I want to make a living and quit, such thoughts are devouring my heart all the time, which makes people extremely uncomfortable.And because this job was introduced by my uncle, I have to consider his feelings.At the end, I was thinking about what excuse to use to leave.Later, I submitted my resignation to the supervisor due to physical discomfort. Although the supervisor tried to persuade me to stay, I still made up my mind to go.Perhaps because of the relationship with the boss, the restaurant also readily settled my salary.In just 72 hours, from being full of expectations to being disheartened, I became a "deserter" in the workplace.When I ran away, I didn't even have the courage to explain the real reason to my uncle, nor did I say hello to the boss.Conceited and proud, I once again started a new job hunting career.