What happened in the summer of 2020

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I went outside, and among the scattered crowd, there was no certain figure.

I checked my phone, but there was no message.

It was only after eight o'clock.

The night of Qixi Festival has just begun.

It turns out that this is the anniversary of the reunion of Cowherd and Weaver Girl after a long absence.

However, today's reunion after a long absence has complicated feelings.

I walked along the road and gradually moved away from the restaurant.

Walking through the brightly lit teaching building, I ran into a group of students coming out.

It dawned on me that my mask was missing.

I went to a small store and bought two.

Where is a certain?

Has he gone back to the hotel yet?

He was determined not to accompany me.

If it weren't for me, I would have given Canghai a gift.

He had already expected it, right?

That's why I've been so depressed for two days.

I never really took his depression seriously.

I should have put more thought into it.

I went to the avenue.

Sit on a stone bench.

Bury your face in your hands.

A certain taste remains in the palm of the hand.

I heard people passing by on the road from time to time.

There were even a few guests talking about the wedding.

Then, the path gradually became quieter.

I stood up and looked at the small road that had made me difficult. How many nights when I was in school, I walked and stopped in the shadow of the trees, troubled by some inexplicable concerns.

I used to think that I was going to be tortured crazy.

However, after so many years, there have been good times and bad times, and it's no big deal.

You can't wait until you recover to start a new life.

Now take this path again.

And there's nothing terrible about it.

Maybe it was just a simple collision with evil back then.

Many things may not need to think about.

Just stride forward.

Striding forward - I couldn't help it, and stopped again.

Because I saw a certain.

He was originally sitting on another stone bench not far away, smoking a cigarette with his head bowed.

When I walked in front of him, he raised his face, his eyes were a little embarrassed.

He crushed the cigarette butts on the ground and muttered, "I just bought the cigarettes at a small shop."

I said: I also went there to buy a mask.

He touched his pocket and said: Where is my mask?

I handed him one.

He took the mask, looked at it again and again, and was discouraged.

He said: Cang Hai was my last boyfriend.

Of course I was aware of it.

He lit another cigarette and said: I should have thought about it a long time ago, are you from the same school?I have always felt unsteady recently, and I thought I was thinking too much.But the day before yesterday, you said that you were not in the same grade as him, so I had a very bad feeling.I shouldn't have come today, as long as the three of us don't meet, you won't know and won't be bothered by these crap.

I said: It might be better not to know.

He said: It seems so now, but when you told me that you couldn't find the gift, I hesitated.

I said: Why hesitate?

He said: I think one day you will know, if after many years, your feelings for me have faded, and you may blame me very much if you know about it at that time.

after many years?

I try to imagine it.

But because I wasn't relaxed enough, I didn't imagine it.

One said: I messed up today, how long will it take for this effect to disappear?

How long?I said: I spent many years trying to forget him, but in fact, it was only since I came into contact with you that I really felt a little bit letting go of him.

One said: But I am his predecessor.Do you like me, or I like you, is there his shadow?Why do things always develop in a complicated direction!

Yes.

I also wish things were simpler.

Who doesn't crave something pure?

But it always backfires.

I said: When I first learned about the wedding today, I still thought that attending his wedding is not a bad thing. After all, seeing him get married with my own eyes is also a kind of ending.

One said: What is the result?

I looked at the sky, but the result was still very uncomfortable.

A certain person stubbed out the cigarette, pressed his hands on the rough stone bench, and looked up at the chaotic night sky.

He said: I am also very sad, how can he pretend so well?He even let me share his joy, how can he say it!

I think of the way Cang Hai talked to a certain person, and Cang Hai’s smile at the wedding. If it wasn’t for a certain person who couldn’t hold back, if it wasn’t for those heart-wrenching questions on the screen, if it wasn’t for the feeling that a certain person was holding my hand tightly, Nor would he be so sure about his relationship with Cang Hai.

One said: I am so worthless!

As he spoke, he slapped himself loudly.

I see five fingerprints on his face.

He himself was stunned.

He said: What a fool I am!I'm still under his influence!

He started cursing himself again, which reminded me of his video call with me that night when he was drunk.It turned out that these sad emotions had always been backlogged in his heart.He's not invulnerable, he's just good at hiding.

I let him lean against me.

Listening to him talking about memories about Cang Hai indiscriminately.

That is the sea that I don't know.

Or maybe it's the sea that I once imagined.

That's one that I don't know about either.

Or maybe it was someone I had dreamed about.

But, as I listened, Cang Hai and a certain person gradually blurred together in my mind.

Perhaps, we were able to attract each other in the first place because of some kind of influence from the sea?It's just that we didn't realize it at the time.

Finally, a certain one still had the idea of ​​retreating.

He said: "I thought, maybe we should take a break and clean ourselves up—

I didn't wait for him to finish, so I slapped him across the face.

He was stunned.

I looked at the fingerprints on his face.

It seemed to overlap with his original fingerprints.

Like we used to put paint fingerprints together.

He was about to cry.

We hold each other tightly.

cry.

He said: I don't want to leave you either, but my mind was messed up by him again.I now have no confidence and no courage.I love you, love you very much, but I am afraid that when I see you, I will think of him.

I said: I love you too.

He said: Why did you only hear this sentence?Didn't you hear me say that when I see you, I think of him?

I said: That's okay.

He said: How can it be okay!When you see me, you will think of him too!

He finally cried out.

I couldn't hold my tears anymore.

However, I must not cry.

We have just been together, how long is the road ahead, and how many difficulties will there be?Let us cry at most one at a time.

He held me and shook me.

Hot tears seeped down my shoulders.

I patted his back lightly.

The emotions that finally erupted gradually subsided into gasps.

I asked him softly: We can't completely forget about our ex before starting a new relationship, that would be too impractical, wouldn't it?If we're going to wait until we've completely forgotten about the sea and start over, it's too late, isn't it?

His chin pressed against my shoulder, like a nod.

I let go of him, held his arm, and looked into his red eyes.

He looked at me a little silly.

I said: We must be able to overcome obstacles, I have an idea now.

He asked stupidly: What do you think?

I said: Let's raise a Shiba Inu named Canghai.