What happened in the summer of 2020

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This time, Cang Hai did not reply me in time.

I became more and more suspicious, and wanted to withdraw, but felt that it would appear childish.

This kind of thing beyond my life experience made me freeze there, unable to move.

Patience was running out, and suddenly the voice chat request rang!

Ah, the sea wants voice?

I thought that sending some vague text might confuse the matter, but if it is voice chat, it seems that there is no way out.

After connecting, he said: Sorry, I just saw your explosive news when I was taking a shower!

I pretended to be calm and said: Is there such an explosion?

He said: Of course there is. I always feel that you are pure-hearted and ascetic, and I am worried that you will not be enlightened all the time.

I said: How can I have a pure heart and few desires.

He ignored this, and continued: It is a good thing to have someone you like, but why do you feel that you seem a little worried?

I said: Maybe I haven't figured out what I think.

He said: Then don’t think about it, look around first, if you get along well, you will save yourself troubles, if you don’t get along, you don’t have to worry about it.

Emmm, being told by Cang Hai, the relationship seems so simple.

However, I said: I am not sure what the other party thinks.

He said in a professional tone: I will analyze it for you, and first state the facts to me.

I blurred a certain gender, talked about the ambiguity between us, and mosaiced the key details. For example, when I went to a certain store to give him a haircut, I said that the small appliance I recommended to a certain one was out. problem, I had to be responsible for door-to-door maintenance.

Because I didn’t prepare in advance, I also found out while I was talking that the little shit between me and a certain person, if it was replaced by a man and a woman, it seemed to be love at eight times speed——

Cang Hai said: You don't have to doubt it, the facts are clear and the evidence is conclusive, you definitely have something to play!

Emmm, I said: I actually still have something to hide, and I haven't fully confessed it.

He said: Is there anything else?wouldn't have been—

I quickly said: No, I didn't have that.

He was a little disappointed, and said: That's not important, anyway, you must have something to do, so you can confess your love boldly.

Well, I said: Then I'll think about it.

He said: What else do you want?Nothing happened in the same room for the first time, which shows that you have concentration.Nothing happened the second time, which means you paid enough attention to it.But if you don't act the third time, it will make the other party feel that you are not interested, and you can only be friends forever.

Is that right?

I've wasted two chances in a daze?

It seems that there will be a third time soon - a certain one has an appointment with me to paint.

I also want to act, but I am not sure if he is gay, but what I said to Cang Hai is: I also want to act, but I am not sure whether he is married or not.

Cang Hai said: Huh?Are you kidding me?

I said: yes hahaha.

Cang Hai must have heard my guilty laughter, and he patiently counseled me for a while.

End the call with Cang Hai.

I tucked into the air conditioner.

When I get excited, I get chills easily.

I said too many unprepared things to Cang Hai just now.

In fact, my original intention of sending him a message was not to ask him to help me clarify my relationship with a certain person. I was just reckless and despicable to see his reaction to my falling in love with someone else.What I want to fix, is my long crush on him.It turned out that he advised me on my relationship.

However, this reaction is enough to show that my crush on him has always been a one-way illusion.

Now even one ten thousandth of hope is shattered.

Should I have nothing else to do from now on?

Do I have to concentrate on managing my relationship with a certain person?

not at all.

I just feel that my busy and hot mind has cooled down, and I don't want to think about anything.

I slept soundly all night.

When I woke up in the morning, the sun was shining brightly.

Looking at the time, I woke up an hour later than usual, washed up in a hurry, and went out.

Then came a busy, ordinary day.

I didn't go out to eat with a certain one at noon, but asked my colleagues to help bring a boxed lunch.

Maybe I'm paying homage to a lost crush?

do not know.

Secret love for the sea is a disease I have had for many years. Even if I have a certain medicine, it is sometimes effective and sometimes relapses.

I have no confidence, am I really completely immune to the sea now?

Is it appropriate to act on something if you are not sure you have completely let go of the sea?

How long will I have to use the sea as an excuse?

After get off work at night, crowded in the subway.

The air-conditioning of the subway is particularly strong.

Staring at the overlapping reflection of myself on the car window, I finally got a little emotional.

Then, they held hands and stood in the carriage for a long time. The crowd went down and came up again, and they had long missed the stop of home.

Later, when I heard the name of a station I had some impression of, I followed the crowd out in a daze.

Choose an exit at random to return to the ground, and find that the buildings are very low as if they have come to the edge of the city.

First, I ate rice noodles at a store in Shaxian County, and then walked for a while along the street full of hardware and board stores. At the end, there was a large building materials market.

When you walk in, you can immediately smell the chemical smell of various decoration materials.

When I came to the area where the paint was sold, I found the swatches of the brand I used before, but found that I was really a little color blind, and I couldn't tell which color was painted on the walls of my house.

I probably don't look like a paint buyer and no salesperson comes to help me out.

I can't always count on help, can I?

I cheered up, clicked on WeChat, and asked a certain person if he had bought paint.

He replied quickly, saying: I want to wait for you to go shopping together on the weekend.

I said: no need.

He said: what?do you have no time

I start a video chat.

I waved to the camera and said: I am in the building materials market.

A certain man laughed and said: You are still running around so late.

I showed him the swatches behind me and asked him which color he wanted. In order to avoid misleading him with my aesthetics, I also introduced him to the swatches of different brands of paint.

In fact, I just read it according to the brand description. As a result, two customers passed by me, thinking that I was an e-commerce anchor, and they just acted as spectators beside me.

A certain goal is very clear, saying: I want to paint exactly the same as your house.

I showed him the color palette of that brand, and said: I can't tell which color number I bought, you can see for yourself.

He said: No. 8 is the color.

Yeah?I stared at No. 8 for a few seconds, and felt that it was quite similar to No. 7 and No. 9. I said: Are you sure?You can't return it if you buy it.

The two spectators next to them whispered that they couldn't retreat, so forget it, and left pointing.

One said: That's the color, little color blindness.

I said: ok.

I thought that anyway, if the color is a little bit worse, it should not affect the use, so I bought two barrels.

Paint should not be taken on the subway, right?

I didn't know, so I called a car.

After passing the evening rush hour this time, the car arrived home soon.After all, the slum where I live is not far from the edge of the city.

At the gate of the apartment, I happened to meet a neighbor who had just returned from eating out.

He helped me carry a bucket of paint, and when he heard that I was going to paint a certain person on weekends, he asked me suspiciously: Do you spend time with a certain person every weekend?

I? ? ?

This is really soul torture.