I am aging gracefully in the world of famous books

Pei Xiang and Darcy have walked hand in hand for many years. At the end of their lives, the older Darcy passed away first. After sitting quietly for a while, Pei Xiang began to help her male god arrange his hair and collar.

"Mother……"

"Well, you guys go out first, and let Fitzwilliam and I stay alone for a while."

Pei Xiang looked at his children and grandchildren with red eyes gently, and felt that he had no regrets in this life.

After all the juniors left the room, Pei Xiang sat by the bed for a while, then she got up and walked to the dressing table, carefully looking at herself in the mirror.

This is an old woman with silver hair, her face is old but her eyes are clear, it can be vaguely seen that she was a magnificent beauty when she was young.

Now, the years have deprived her of her youthful beauty, but left her with elegance and calmness. Between gains and losses, Pei Xiang felt that she had earned it.Because no matter what she looks like, her husband in this life will love and care for her unswervingly.

Pei Xiang took out a mother-of-butterfly hairpin from the back of the jewelry box, which she wore when she first met Darcy.It was once sold by her for money, and then bought back by Darcy by accident.

This hairpin has been stored in a jewelry box that is not often opened.During the years of becoming Mrs. Darcy, she hardly had the opportunity to wear this hairpin again, because Mrs. Darcy always had brighter and more precious jewelry.

—How could proud Mr. Darcy let his wife wear old jewellery?

Putting on the hairpin with a smile, Pei Xiang took out a royal amnesty document from the interlayer of the jewelry box, and then walked back to Darcy's side.

She leaned over to look at her husband who was sleeping peacefully with his eyes closed for a while, and then kissed his forehead and lips. After that, she lay down beside him, lying side by side with him like countless nights before.

Only this time, the man next to her couldn't immediately turn sideways and hug her.

But it doesn't matter, Pei Xiang can take the initiative to hold Darcy's big hands. These big hands can no longer bring warmth, but they still make her feel reliable and attached.

In the intertwined hands of the two, the royal amnesty was sandwiched between them.

The room became quieter, and Pei Xiang's breathing gradually became lighter and shallower. After a while, it seemed that it was only for a moment, and she also fell into a long sleep forever.

When the children and the pastor entered the room again, what they saw was the picture of Darcy and his wife sleeping side by side forever...

Pei Xiang's soul slowly left Doris Gray's body.She floated in mid-air, and after taking a nostalgic glance at the Pemberley Manor below, she didn't stay any longer, but followed the call of some unknown existence and flew towards a higher and more mysterious space.

The past experiences played back scene by scene in Pei Xiang's mind.

The Grove Manor full of the shadow of death, the bustling and chaotic city of London, the vast sea as far as the eye can see, the thriving America, the banquets and dances, the majestic Pemberley Manor, and the decades she and Darcy have been together day and night...

In the quiet and dark space, Pei Xiang's soul was swaying, and his mood was ups and downs.When I have nothing to do, I can only recall the past over and over again, the beauty gradually fades into black and white, and the grief slowly turns into melancholy.

Just when she thought she had become numb and tired, the mysterious existence that made her travel through finally appeared.

"Pei Xiang, you are here, do you want to continue traveling?"

In the boundless black space, there is only a little silver light flickering. At this time, a deep and distant sound came from this silver light.

Pei Xiang was silent for a while, and then firmly answered the other party: "Yes, I choose to continue traveling."

"Then how do you choose to deal with the memories and feelings of this lifetime?"

"Deal with it?" Pei Xiang frowned, she didn't like the idea.

"Yes, deal with it. Before your soul strength reaches a certain standard, you can't carry all the emotional memories of each life and continue to travel. I can't do it, and you can't bear it either.

Therefore, every time you arrive in a new world, you can only have the complete memory of the first life and the past memory of the original body. As for the memory and feelings of the previous time travel, special processing is required. "

"Will I forget this whole life?"

Pei Xiang touched her heart, in the state of her soul, there was no beating heart here, but she knew that she was reluctant to give up those precious pasts.

The silver light spot seemed to understand Pei Xiang's hesitation, and continued to explain:

"If you choose to continue traveling, then now, you have two choices.

One is to downplay all your feelings about the previous world and keep all the things you have learned and grown up.

The second is that I will extract all your feelings and memories of traveling through the world and store them separately.At the same time, you can choose a skill to bring to the next world, remember, there is only one. "

"Fade all the feelings? Keep all the skills?" Pei Xiang lowered his head and pondered.

"That is to say, if I choose the first method, then I will not forget everything that happened in the time travel world, but those people and things that touch my heart can no longer resonate with me, yes ?

Whenever I think of the past love and hatred, it's like watching a movie or reading a story. I can only appreciate it silently from the perspective of a bystander, and I can no longer empathize with it, right? "

The silver light spot affirmed Pei Xiang's inquiry.

"Yes, if you choose this method, I will immediately de-emphasize your emotions, so that you can start a new time-traveling life with all your knowledge and skills and objective memories without emotional burden."

This approach sounds pretty good.

But Pei Xiang secretly weighed, since in the second method, the emotional memory can be condensed, extracted and stored separately, it means that in this space, the invisible emotional power can be materialized.

If this is the case, inference in reverse, did those faded feelings disappear at will?Pei Xiang suddenly felt vigilant, and planned to ask as much as possible to understand.

"I would like to ask, where did the feelings that once belonged to me go after downplaying the feelings?"

The silver light flickered quickly: "Naturally, they were abandoned. Some became the nourishment of this space, and some disappeared silently. In short, they just can't be found again."

Pei Xiang closed her eyes, she absolutely didn't want to see her relationship with Darcy being treated like this.Like cleaning up garbage, it is sorted, absorbed and decomposed by this silver light spot.

She continued to ask in a hoarse voice: "Then the second option you mentioned, extracting all the memories and emotions, what's going on, can you tell me in detail?"

The silver light flashed, and the voice explained in a steady tone:

"Extract all, that is, you will forget everything that happened in the time-traveling world.

These memories and feelings will be condensed into memory spar, preserved by your soul.

Pei Xiang, once you choose this option, you will really forget all the past before encountering a very special opportunity.

Not only feelings, but all the things you have learned after time travel, every growth and insight you have gained will be erased.You will become the Pei Xiang who just crossed over, the immature Pei Xiang. "

After listening to the introduction of the silver light spot, Pei Xiang had already made a choice deep in his heart.

She thought that it would be good to condense her and Darcy's life into memory crystals, besides, she would be protected by her soul and accompany her on the journey.

Although she has forgotten, the beautiful feelings and precious memories always exist and are always with her.

"You just said that if you choose the second option, you will let me keep one skill?"

"Yes, only one."

Pei Xiang blinked, brewing the most innocent and friendly tone from the depths of his soul:

"Since one kind of skill can be preserved, it means that many kinds can be preserved. When you made that memory crystal, you were able to separate some things accurately, right?

Why don't you be more generous, take pity on my fragile and simple human soul, and keep some of the newly acquired knowledge for me? "

The silver light spot didn't even flicker this time, it firmly rejected Pei Xiang's bargaining:

"No, it has already consumed the energy of the space to condense the memory crystals for you. Although it is not much, it is still consumed.

If you keep more skills for you, the space nutrients generated by your travel will become negative income, which is not allowed. "

Pei Xiang listened to the words of the silver light spot calmly, and silently analyzed the information revealed in it.

——So, the act of the soul passing through can produce some kind of substance, which is the nutrient energy that this space or a certain existence depends on for survival?

—Not allowed?In other words, this silver point of light is just a clerk, and there are superiors or rules that restrain it?

——Concentrating memory crystals full of emotions will consume energy, and this Guangdian just said that if you choose to dissipate emotions, you can retain all skills and cold objective picture memories.

——And among those dissipated feelings, some will become nutrients to nourish this space, while the other part will be discarded.

——In this way, the seven emotions and six desires generated by time travel are the most important. This space is collecting joys and sorrows, collecting a kind of energy generated by human emotions.

——I just don’t know, which type of emotion it needs, or all of them?

Pei Xiang secretly pondered the words of the silver light spot, while distinguishing the truth from the false.

At the same time, she was also thinking, since human emotions are a very important energy, why did this silver light point tell her that there are two choices?

——The power of the two parties is not equal. If it doesn't say anything, it will downplay my feelings when it comes up, and I can't resist.

——Why give me a chance to choose?

——Could it be that there is some kind of rule restricting the silver light point, making it have to speak clearly and clearly explain all the choices?

——Or, human emotions cannot be taken away arbitrarily, and only if the owner of the emotion sincerely agrees, can the mysterious existence deal with it, otherwise it will be powerless?

"Since I can't add a few more skills, then I choose..."

Pei Xiang paused for a moment, wondering if it was her illusion, she felt that the silver light spot became much brighter at this time, and the flickering frequency also became faster.

"I still choose the second option. Please condense the memories and feelings of my life into a precious memory crystal, and then store it in my soul."

The silver light spot dimmed a little because of Pei Xiang's words, and then it immediately persuaded her in a persuasive tone:

"Pei Xiang, are you sure you choose to forget all the past and give up all the skills and knowledge you have learned?

You have to know that once you condense the memory crystals, you will really forget what you have worked so hard to obtain.

And, while those feelings are still there, honestly, you've completely forgotten them, and they don't resonate with you anymore.

In your new life, perhaps, you will regret this choice.Because you will eventually realize that you are putting your future at risk for a forgotten past.Pei Xiang, living in the present is the most important thing. "

Pei Xiang squinted his eyes, and at this moment, he was more and more sure of the many previous guesses.

This space really values ​​human emotions. If so, she couldn't agree to the first choice.She is absolutely unwilling to turn her feelings for Mr. Darcy into nourishment for some existence.

She would rather forget everything, and let the past of herself and her lover exist intact, without being consumed, decomposed and swallowed.

As for the new life?Since she can live well the first time, she can live well the second time.

So what if you forget your new knowledge?For the soul of Pei Xiang, isn't the most important thing that belongs to Pei Xiang's first life?

The details of that life are the key to shaping her soul. As long as she is still the original Pei Xiang, she can handle all the troubles.

——What's more, I have already earned an extra life, and although I am greedy for a longer life, I can't wrong myself for eternal life.

——I live for my own pleasure, if I become numb and indifferent, why continue to live?

"I insist on my choice, please condense the memory crystals." Pei Xiang looked at the silver light spot calmly, and his tone was very firm and persistent.

The silver point of light seemed to want to continue persuading, but its light suddenly stopped, and then its tone became stiff.

"Okay, confirm the choice of human Pei Xiang, voluntarily choose to condense memory crystals, then, please choose the skills you want to keep."

"Is the selection of skills based on the various knowledge I learned in my previous life? Doesn't it include things that the original Doris Gray knew?"

Guangdian said in a business-like manner: "As long as you have mastered it, you can keep it, and after choosing this skill, it will not be forgotten in the future.

You can continue to improve on this skill, or you can stagnate.No matter what, it will always travel with you, and exist in the most reasonable form for the current world it is in. "

Pei Xiang thought thoughtfully: "That is to say, if I learned alchemy in the world of cultivating immortals, then if I continue to travel to a small world without magical power, my alchemy will become the skill of medicine, right? ?”

"Yes, you are thinking far-reachingly, you want to go to the world of cultivating immortals so soon?

Conscience warns, the more such a world is, the higher the degree of danger.And you haven't retained all the skills you learned before, and you don't have more life insights than ordinary people. If you encounter that kind of world, you will definitely feel regretful. "

"Really, then count me as unlucky." Pei Xiang shrugged, not wavered by the words of the silver light spot.

Pei Xiang seriously thought about what she had learned in her previous life. Immediately, she thought of riding and fencing, which she had practiced for half her life. She thought rationally that she should choose one of the two.

——It must be practical, and it must be a skill that I have mastered relatively well.

——It cannot be the kind of knowledge that can be mastered quickly, but needs time to polish.

——It is best to be brand new, or have a skill that has greatly improved compared to my level before time travel.

However, before she made a concrete choice, a long but vivid memory broke into her mind.It was an oil painting, an oil painting of herself in riding clothes, with Pemberley Manor in the background, and the author of the oil painting was her Mr. Darcy.

At that time, it was the tenth year after she and Darcy were married, and they got news about Louis Bernard again. Unfortunately, it was after his death that they heard the name of the deceased again.

Bernard died, and the person who delivered the letter for Bernard did not say the specific cause of Bernard's death.The visitor looked tired, and he handed a light sheepskin bag to Pei Xiang, then nodded slightly, then turned and left.

Pei Xiang and Darcy opened the sheepskin bag together, and there was a short farewell letter from Bernard to Pei Xiang.

The letter said that half a year after he returned to France, he gradually realized that Pei Xiang had actually noticed his true identity.Realized that Pei Xiang's previous performances were all deceiving him.

However, he understood Pei Xiang's precautions and choices, and he was not going to tell Pei Xiang about this matter in his lifetime. When he was going to tell her, it was almost the end of his life.

Along with this letter, there were several crayon drawings sent to Pei Xiang. Each crayon drawing was a smiling face with a particularly ugly smile, and crooked French was written on the margin of the drawing paper—"I Laughing at you, Lucy."

Pei Xiang naturally remembered what she had said to Bernard. Unexpectedly, this man remembered it all the time, and specially drew a mocking emoticon for her.

——How about laughing at me for the rest of my life?If you die, you will be absent for many years.

Hearing the news of Bernard's death suddenly, Pei Xiang was really depressed for a few days.At that time, she was learning painting skills systematically from a teacher, so she couldn't help drawing a sketch of Bernard's half-length from memory.

She was just drawing at will, but was discovered by Darcy.

This person didn't say that he was unhappy, but in the next period of time, he kept hinting at Pei Xiang, hoping that she could draw a portrait of him in person.

At that time, Pei Xiang felt that her painting skills were not up to par, so she was willing to paint her favorite Darcy easily, because she was afraid that she would not be able to paint half of her lover's look and temperament.

However, she didn't notice Darcy's little thoughts immediately, and she didn't explain her thoughts clearly when she refused, which made the man depressed for several days.

In the end, he came up with a compromise. Since Pei Xiang didn't paint him, he would paint Pei Xiang. Thus, there was the picture of Mrs. Darcy riding a horse that was later hung in the living room.

Suddenly thinking of that past, Pei Xiang, who was floating in the black space, only felt his soul warm up.

It seemed that on a certain spring afternoon, she finally picked up the paintbrush apprehensively and painted a portrait of Mr. Darcy who was in high spirits.

At that time, the spring was warm and the flowers were blooming, the peach blossoms and the willows were green, and the sun shone on the two of them through the glass window, which was so warm and harmonious.

Mr. Darcy, who specially put on new clothes, sat by the window and looked very handsome. Pei Xiang thought from the bottom of his heart that even if she used all her painting skills, it would be difficult to fully describe the look in Darcy's eyes.

The memory of the past is so vivid, Pei Xiang, who was in the boundless darkness, could still remember the smell of flowers and paints that day, and her husband's reserved and smug smile, she suddenly made up her mind.

"I choose to keep the painting skills I learned in the last world." In the end, Pei Xiang said to the flickering silver light spot.

"Are you sure? After choosing this technique, you won't remember the people and things you encountered while learning this technique, you just know how to draw.

After I condense memory crystals for you, you may still wonder why you learned this in your previous life, or wonder why you chose to keep this skill instead of other more useful ones. "

Pei Xiang nodded, indicating that he had made up his mind.

Seeing that Pei Xiang was so determined, the silver light spot didn't persuade him anymore, but he said a few words with emotion at the end:

"I have received many time-traveling souls like you. At the beginning, many people would be like you now, especially cherishing the memories and feelings of the human beings in the small world. I would rather give up the growth experience and lifelong talents, but also keep them. All about love.

It's a pity that many people regretted it after traveling a few more times, and asked to change the way of traveling. "

Pei Xiang raised his eyebrows: "After making a choice for the first time, and then coming back here again, can I still choose again?"

"Of course, the way we do things is very flexible."

Pei Xiang thought to himself, it seems that the side of the silver light spot really likes human feelings, otherwise, it would not release the temptation again and again like this.

However, a certain rule that binds them seems to be very strong, so that even if they are eager for nourishment, they dare not do things that are plundering or wanton deception.

"I remember your reminder."

After Pei Xiang finished speaking, she saw that the silver light spot not far away suddenly became round and bright, and the black space suddenly became brighter. She was blinded by the sudden light.

All of a sudden, Pei Xiang felt something warm slowly leave her body, her soul was sour and melancholy, and tears flowed down her unconsciously.

When the space returned to darkness again, Pei Xiang slowly opened his eyes, but before he could see the surrounding situation clearly, he saw a crystal clear fiery red stone flying towards her forehead, and disappeared in her forehead with a swish. deep in the soul.

"Okay, the memory crystals have been condensed successfully, and the selected skills have been preserved for you, Pei Xiang, it's time for you to go to the next world."

As soon as these words fell, Pei Xiang felt that a very powerful force was calling her, urging her to leave this black space.

Pei Xiang, who had already experienced time travel once, took a deep breath, and immediately followed the summoning power and drifted away.

Her thoughts gradually blurred, and her thoughts slowly became clear again. When Pei Xiang woke up from her new body, she immediately realized that she had successfully crossed over again.

--This is where?

——Why did the original body die?

——What is the current situation?

While accepting the original body's memory, Pei Xiang maintained the original body's state, relaxed and slowed down his breathing, and listened carefully to the movement around him with his ears upright.

There was a rustling sound in the house, as if someone was writing and drawing.Pei Xiang was puzzled. In the memory she received, there was no specific reason for the original body's death. It seemed that she died in a dream while falling asleep.

—There must be a special reason.

——The original body is in good health. She is a dancer purchased and trained by a wealthy family in the south of the Yangtze River. She is young and beautiful, with superb dancing skills, and there is no such thing as weak and weak...

Unable to think of the reason why the original owner died in a dream, Pei Xiang wanted to find out her current situation.

She opened her eyes slightly and looked towards the brightest part of the light.

There is a figure in front of the table, who is writing or drawing something with his head down.

— Another dancer in the same room?

——It's late at night, isn't she resting?What are you writing?Did she find out about the accidental death of the original body?

——No, it doesn't look like a slim girl from the back...

Many thoughts flashed through Pei Xiang's mind, and her eyes gradually adapted to the brightness brought by the candlelight, her vision became clear, and she could clearly see the figure in the other corner of the room.

However, seeing this, Pei Xiang almost gasped, she bit her tongue hard to keep from exclaiming.

The figure whose back was facing her was as big as a bucket, with black thorns standing on his strong back, blue skin, and dark red hair. Although he couldn't see the front, it was predictable that this must be a ferocious man with blue face and fangs. monster.

At this moment, the monster was holding a brush and drawing something on the table.Pei Xiang suppressed her fear and looked carefully with trembling eyelids. She felt that the canvas under the opponent's paws was strange, and the shape was strange and familiar.

Suddenly, with a flash of inspiration, Pei Xiang suddenly realized, isn't that shape just a spread out human skin?

—Painted skin? ! ?

Pei Xiang immediately closed his eyes, tried his best to control his chaotic heartbeat, forced himself to hold his breath, and continued to pretend to be dead.

She, she has to take it easy, the new life is a bit difficult...