rejuvenation

When I arrived at the apartment, because it was already very late at night, I plunged into the bed and didn't get up. Xiao Ke came in and turned on the heater for me before going out.

When I woke up the next day, I really slept through... The blackout curtains in the room were well drawn and it was pitch black, but the clock on the wall told me that it was 09:30 in the morning...

I'm going to be late for work... As a person who takes punctuality as my greatest virtue, this is an unbearable insult... Why didn't my alarm go off... I picked up my phone and found that when Xiao Ke took it last night He actually turned off the phone for me...

I got up and got dressed, and hurriedly called the manager, intending to explain, but the manager said with a smile: "Xiao Wu? Your father said that he still wants to take you back to celebrate the New Year, and he has already resigned from my side." .”

I:"……"

Xiao Ke opened the door and met my eyes who had just hung up the phone. He said in a deep voice, "Go down to eat when you get up. After breakfast, let's go back to City H."

The little bit of guilt I felt last night was blown away by Xiao Ke's presumptuous assertion, and I choked up and said, "Wait, why did you resign for me!"

Xiao Ke glanced at me lightly: "Because I am your guardian, because you are underage."

I jumped up angrily: "I won't go back!"

Xiao Ke took a deep breath, and slowly explained to me: "If you don't go back to the old house, I will accompany you to spend the New Year with me. It is impossible to work, and there are not many days left in the winter vacation. You have to take a good rest. Look at you. What's it like, I see you haven't eaten well since boarding, I don't want you to be unable to keep up with your study progress because of malnutrition."

I was taken aback by the word malnutrition, but he closed the door and backed out.

I went to the bathroom to wash my face and looked in the mirror... It didn't seem that I was very thin. In fact, I was somewhat similar to me before, but this time I was a little taller than before. Probably, Xiao Ke was comparing me with when I was in junior high school. The baby fat was still there, and I ate a lot while practicing Taekwondo, so I was a bit fatter. After I came to high school, I put down Taekwondo. The food in the cafeteria was a little uncomfortable, and the weather was hot.

It is not to the extent of malnutrition, Xiao Ke is too nervous.

My heart was sour, but Xiao Ke was really kind to me, and it was precisely because of this that I was so eager to avoid him.

After breakfast, I was escorted into the car by Xiao Ke and returned to City H. Both of us were silent along the way.The airtight air is awkward in the confined space, and it's cold and dusty outside, the vast expanse is dark and gloomy, and there is no scenery at all. Sitting in the passenger seat, I almost suffocate to death.

He slept so deeply at night that he was so energetic that he couldn't fall asleep now.

Xiao Ke suddenly said, "Your father and I are lovers."

I was taken aback and looked at him. He looked at the road ahead indifferently and didn't look at me: "You must have understood this point, although I don't know what Guansheng left for you."

I was silent, Xiao Ke continued: "I met him again when I was in college. He is just like you now, thin and indifferent. Although he can smile at people, he refuses people thousands of miles away. I worked hard to get close to him." he."

So that's how he looked at me?But I don't think I'm indifferent, do I?Mainly, I don’t know what to say to others. I can’t keep up with the topics of my peers. What fun games to play? I can’t connect, what a boring person I am, only Xiao Ke doesn’t think I’m boring, and he often listens to me very attentively. He is obviously a taciturn person, but he can guide my topic and make me talk unconsciously. A lot of words.

Xiao Ke said lightly: "But if his barrier is really opened, he will accept it completely, without reservation, without bottom line, and give me everything he has with his own hands, and love me with all his sincerity. I."

My ears are slightly red, I have nothing, to be honest, when we were together, it was Xiao Ke who spoiled me, I didn't seem to do anything, I really like him, but I have nothing, only a heart, this A heart is completely useless to many people.

Xiao Ke said softly: "I didn't cherish him in the end. He is a sensitive and self-respecting person. My decision to marry is already an insult to him. He left me. I didn't expect his forgiveness, but I just hope He can live a better life in the future - but he didn't, he left you to me, I am willing to do my best to complete his entrustment, but this does not include feelings, all my love is It was given to him."

My eyes were hot and I didn't dare to look at him, but he turned his head and looked at me: "Do you understand? You have been precocious since you were a child, and I shouldn't use the thinking of children to deal with your emotional problems simply and roughly. My apologies, now that I see you as an adult, I want you to understand that I belong, that I have given my life to your father, even though he is no longer around. Me and you I can only be a father and son. I hope you can handle this relationship from the perspective of a mature man. I can't accept you, and you won't give up on yourself for this, alienate me, and give up the years we have been together. Darling."

It was a long time before I choked up and said, "If you are so affectionate, why did you give up on him? You obviously got married in a fake way, didn't you?"

He turned his face and glanced at me, obviously surprised that I knew the truth about his marriage, but he didn't ask, and it took a long time before he explained: "Because I was too weak at that time, I couldn't protect him and defend the relationship we couldn't tolerate in the world. love."

I was taken aback, and he continued to explain: "My status is inherited from my ancestors. I tried my best to use my own ability to prove that I could stand on my own without their help, and then my marriage was independent, but at that time we were still too old. Young, I can't do it. Once I decide to be with him, as the weaker party, he will inevitably be angered and retaliated by my elders, and I can't guarantee that he won't be hurt at all. When my love is only When I can bring him harm, I have no right to stand by his side. You probably don’t understand how much harm will happen if you walk on this road. In addition to public opinion, a lot of pressure will make us vulnerable. Simply put , he may no longer be able to find a better job, become notorious, encounter frame-ups, frame-ups, etc. inexplicably, power can easily destroy all his prospects just to force him to give up, and when he finds out that all of these are Because of me, our relationship will eventually be shattered. Of course, unless I become strong and fearless, but that time is too long, and I don’t know if I can do it, so we broke up. Let him be reluctant to leave, it is better to let him think that I am really married, cut off his hope, maybe he can start a new life faster."

I stopped talking, and only asked after a long time: "So, you won't accept Guan Linfeng anymore?"

Xiao Ke looked at me inexplicably: "Guan Linfeng is just my good friend and business partner, he is not interested in the same sex."