[Izzy] Career

where are we going?

Qi Ya stepped on the soil covered with cherry blossom petals, and walked forward without stopping.He wondered where exactly he was going, he thought, tossing and turning.

The person who was pulling him walked forward without looking sideways.Just like the look he had when he took him to those weird and cruel training places 20 years ago.

After so many years, and going through hardships away from home, Qi Ya once thought that this elder brother—his eldest brother—had gradually dissipated his influence on him.He has been running away from him for a long time, so long that the sunshine named Xiaojie has illuminated almost every corner of his heart. He quietly buried those gifts signed by Illumi in an unknown corner of his heart, trying to forget them .

He has come to value his friends more than his family.

He has come to value feeling more than principle.

He became fond of being lively and no longer alone.

He became approachable and no longer repulsive.

He keeps changing, trying to make himself change, it seems that the change itself has some great significance, change is like a kaleidoscope, he sees that he is different from before, but in some sleepless nights he takes off the lens and sees the edge of the lens His principle is engraved on the wall, and there is only one sentence in that principle: not the same as Illumi.

what……

his big brother.

Did he, like most younger brothers, adore and yearn for this elder brother in the distant childhood? He admired his agility, high-efficiency ability, firm will, and cold personality, and yearned to become as outstanding as him one day. The killer was praised by his parents and brought glory to the family.Did I ever vow in my young heart that I would become like my elder brother, yes, as strong as him, because to this day, my elder brother is still synonymous with strong in my mind.

Qi Ya tried his best to search in his memory, but he couldn't find a clue.The remnants of childhood have disappeared in the long river of time, and the only remaining image is the resistance or rebellion against Illumi.

He tried his best and ran forward endlessly, towards Xiaojie's direction, escaping from that—'You have to be like your big brother! ''You are a born killer, just like your big brother. ''If you work hard, you will be better than your elder brother...''You must catch up with your elder brother! '—to escape from that nightmare.

Escape the nightmare of becoming Illumi and fighting Illumi's phantom forever.

He succeeded.

In the end he became the complete opposite of Illumi.He is Qiya, completely different from the black-haired killer who regards family and principles as everything and walks alone.

Sometimes he really wanted to run up to Illumi and laugh out loud at him. "Brother, I won! Look, I didn't become you, I am Qiya, I am myself, and I will never become someone like you!"

never…

Qi Ya sneaked a glance at Illumi.

"What are you laughing at?" Illumi said expressionlessly.

Qi Ya was stunned. "Did I laugh?" He pinched his face and whispered. "I didn't laugh..."

"Your eyes are smiling." Illumi replied decisively.

It’s so sharp——Qi Ya thought dejectedly, why Illumi always has such a sharp eye for him, and can see through his thoughts at once. For the transformation department who likes to keep little secrets, this is very painful. …

"Why didn't you answer?" Illumi asked persistently.

"Uh..." Qi Ya rubbed his head and changed the subject. "I'm thinking of a friend."

"Friend?" Illumi frowned slightly.

"Well, because I heard that voice."

Sound of the waves.

It came from the wind, Qi Ya raised his head, and smelled blue with the wind.The saltiness of the sea water seems to be lapping against the embankment of the island.

Looking around, there are only cherry trees all over the mountains, and snowflake-like petals floating in the air, but the nostalgic sound of the waves is that place, so there is no mistake.

"I heard the sound of the waves from Whale Island." Qi Ya said with some confusion, "I remember the waves from that island, it has a very special smell."

"Whale Island?" Illumi glanced out of the corner of his eye. "what is that?"

Oh, by the way, Qi Ya suddenly remembered that the one with him now was only Ilumi's memory, probably the memory not long after he was born, and he probably didn't know Xiaojie.The fact that Illumi especially hates Xiaojie has always caused Qiya a headache.Qi Ya glanced at Illumi, the black-haired killer was obviously waiting for an explanation.How about taking this opportunity to let the eldest brother improve his impression of Xiaojie, Qiya thought for a moment, although it was just a memory, but if it has something to do with the power of mind, maybe it has something to do with the main body.

It would be the best if I could change Illumi's negative impression of Xiaojie through this trip!Qi Ya covered his mouth and snickered for a while.

"Ah, Whale Island is a very interesting place..." Qi Ya said.

"Fun?" Illumi's eyes became cold, "It seems that you haven't practiced well."

"...The scenery is beautiful..." Qi Ya pretended not to hear, and continued.

"The scenery of Kukulu Mountain is very good, why go to other places?" Yilumi said coldly.

"It's very free there..." Qi Ya continued, holding his breath.

"Freedom comes from laziness," says Illumi. "Sure enough, you didn't practice well, and you developed a sloppy personality."

Qi Ya paused for a moment, then continued. "The people there are also very kind, um—"

"Don't engage in unproductive small talk with people who have nothing to do with business," says Illumi. "That's a waste of time."

"Okay," Qi Ya spread his hands, he was a little angry. "At least prices are low there."

Illumi stared at him blankly. "As long as you listen to me and obediently carry out the mission, you will never be short of money."

Qi Ya clenched his fists, a familiar sense of disgust once again filled his heart. "The mission is to go out and kill people, right?"

Illumi nodded.

"..." Qi Ya lowered his head and sighed softly. "Brother, I don't know whether to envy you or sympathize with you..."

"Envy? Sympathy?" Illumi said without any reaction. "tell me the story."

"Your life is to keep killing people, and you have no other pleasure." Qi Ya kicked a pebble away, and said sullenly. "If I stay at home all the time, maybe I will become like you, who regard killing as the only entertainment in life. Living a simple life may be considered a kind of happiness? But I went out with Xiaojie to see the outside world , there are many people who lead wonderful lives, to be honest, your life is as boring as a machine..."

"Oh, do you think so?" Illumi tapped the palm of his right hand with his left hand. "Sounds like I've lost myself."

"Lost myself..." Qi Ya murmured.

"You're easily influenced by the people around you," says Illumi. "I remember a cat died when I was a child, and you cried for a long time, indicating that you were sentimental and your emotional value was unstable. In fact, you never knew what you really wanted to do or what you really wanted. Because of everything we have Already given you."

Illumi bent down and touched Qiya's head. "You are a child who hasn't grown up. When you see a toy that others are playing with happily, you think that toy must be very interesting, and you want to get it."

"..." Qiya was silent, he raised his hand, trying to take Ilumi's hand away.

"Did I hit the mark, Qiya?" Illumi looked a little happy, his hand slid onto his younger brother's face, and lifted his chin. "It doesn't matter if you want other people's toys, I can give you whatever you want, but you will get bored soon after you get it, every time you get bored faster than the last time, and in the end you will lose all these superficial things I understand from the bottom of my heart that only killing people can bring you a real sense of accomplishment, because you are the best at this thing, you can do it best, you can become an expert, an elite, you can become fearsome, and No one can take that joy away from you, it is yours, the gift that has been in your blood since the moment you were born."

This feeling... Qiya took a step back involuntarily, he remembered the past many years ago, the feeling of wanting to drag him into the darkness, the person who wanted to drag him into the darkness, his brother... because he himself There is no cure, so I want to make myself exactly like him!

"Enough!" Qiya jumped away from Ilumi. "Enough is enough!"

"I got it right, Chiya." Illumi laughed. "I am the person who knows you best, better than anyone else, better than yourself, because I am your brother, I can think of all your thoughts, even what you haven't thought of..."

"Shut up!" Qi Ya yelled. "It's impossible for you to understand my thoughts, you've been trying to brainwash me and manipulate my thoughts..." Qi Ya paused, his breathing was short, he tried his best to calm his heartbeat, it was like this every time, every time It's all, and it will eventually turn into a contentious ending.

The smell of the sea breeze, mixed with the fragrance of cherry blossoms.

Come around.

Intertwined and intertwined, becoming more and more weird.

It can't be blown away.

This strong smell of blood.

Qi Ya suddenly calmed down, his heart pounding.

Boom... Press the blood to the whole body.Boom... jump clearly.

Maybe that's the only thing they can understand each other.

With the same blood.

So he always called him - big brother.No matter how much dissatisfaction, disgust and even hatred.

He thought his big brother was a stubborn man, and he looked at him, the black-haired killer, and at himself.For a long time, they always repeat the same story, like changing the name in the Grimm's fairy tale, but staged the same drama over and over again.It's almost a comedy.In the whole family, only he and Illumi, like water and fire, always quarrel, as if incompatible.

His brother, is a stubborn man.

Chiya thought.

But why not himself?The same obsession with someone or something, the same crazy paranoia, the same unreasonable.Qi Ya touched his heart, it turned out that those gifts were no longer here, they had filled every inch of his capillary and every red blood cell unknowingly a long time ago.

"It's useless." Qi Ya said softly.I don't know who to tell.

"Brother," Qi Ya smiled slightly, and raised his head towards Illumi.His blue eyes shone like gems in icy water. "The only person in this world who can convince me is Xiaojie...you, it will never be possible."

Illumi folded her hands and stared at him with those dull black eyes from three meters away.

"You're just trying to be brave," Illumi said. "Doesn't your coming here mean that you are determined to inherit the family business?"

"No, I agreed to inherit the family business only because it is my responsibility..." Qi Ya murmured. "But my idea, the life I identify with, is Xiaojie's life."

rainy night.

Two figures quickly jumped between the buildings.

The dark-haired killer stopped suddenly.

"What's the matter, Illumi?" Hisoka raised the corners of his lips. "Do you have a cold and a fever?"

Illumi pressed the back of his head with his right hand, and the sudden severe headache distorted his usually calm face a little.

He couldn't help bending down, trying to control the excruciating pain.

The lights of the high-rise buildings swept past in the distance.

He saw a dim shadow on the wet rainy ground, it looked so familiar, oh, it was himself.Tick ​​tock... The water droplets on the black hair fell on the head, it shook, and disappeared into the darkness in a trance.