Su Shuang's world is collapsing [Comprehensive]

Shannan's eyes flickered.

"Yes...I did say...you've been unbearably stupid..."

Liu Quan couldn't help but smiled wryly.Those unpleasant memories of the night before Shannan left for Sendai were completely revived in her mind at this moment.

But even if he said such fierce, cruel and ruthless things, she still wouldn't hate him.

Because he is telling the truth.Always true.

Liu Quan bit his lower lip lightly, his lips pursed slightly, showing a bitter smile.

"Yeah...but even then, it's nostalgic." She replied unexpectedly softly.

For a moment, Shannan seemed to open his eyes slightly because of surprise.But he quickly gave a low laugh and said intermittently:

"I once...wanted to help you, because of your stupid...desperate look..."

Liu Quan's eyes widened in astonishment in an instant, staring at Shannan's pale face as if in disbelief.

"Maybe... I'm not suitable for this kind of thing..." Shannan coughed, a mocking smile appeared on the corner of his lips, his eyes drifted away through Liu Quan's face, as if he was watching some memory in his memory. Same time.

For some reason, seeing his expression, Liu Quan suddenly remembered that unforgettable summer festival in the summer of the second year of Qingying.That night, when Kondo tried his best to encourage Hijikata and Yanagizumi to go to the festival again with a simple and enthusiastic smile, Hijikata once wanted to refuse.

At that time, it was Shannan who spoke with a puzzling smile on his face, and forced him to block all the reasons for Tufang's refusal.

【What kind of change has happened to Hijikata-kun's state of mind? 】

[Is it okay to let me handle it instead of Hijikata-kun? 】

[The shrine is holding a special event tonight. ...Only couples who go together can enter. 】

【...Then, what exactly is it?Mr. Tukata. 】

Sentences that Shannan had said at that time resurfaced in Liu Quan's mind.At that time, his sudden speech was full of courage, forcing Hijikata to hesitate and finally did not object to Kondo's proposal - Shannan's intervention at that time was a bit strange anyway, and she didn't understand where the strange feeling came from until today .

"Mr. Shannan...I..." Liu Quan felt that he couldn't say a word.

...Is that so...Mr. Shannan...Those...those ruthless words you said at that time, so...that's what they meant...

Ignoring such silent consideration for himself, Liu Quan felt a sense of guilt and uneasiness.She lowered her eyelids slightly, with an uneasy expression full of apology and self-blame on her face.

Shannan smiled softly, and clenched the five fingers of her right hand slightly.

"You don't have to tell me anything." He said lightly.

"Because what I want to know seems to be understood now."

For a moment, Liu Quan felt his heart beat heavily on his chest.And she couldn't even figure out where and why this emotion came from.

Dokata, who was also kneeling on the ground, held Hirasuke's hand tightly in one hand, and Shannan's hand in the other hand, and knelt beside Liu Quan silently like that.He seems to be clenching his teeth faintly, enduring the pain of saying goodbye to his companions and friends who have been fighting side by side for many years.Regarding the conversation between Shannan and Liuquan, he didn't show the slightest emotion, as if he didn't hear it at all.

Shannan's gaze flicked across Tufang's face, and finally turned to Liuquan, who was kneeling beside him with tears in his eyes.The expression on his face was calm and gentle, as if he had never looked at her so seriously before, staring at her deeply.

"I don't seem to have ever thanked you for saving me when you were in Osaka." Shannan's eyes rested on Liu Quan's face gently and peacefully, and in a quiet tone he recalled the cruel past. one day.

"Xue Ye... thank you."

"Mr. Shannan..."

Liu Quan was so sad that he could hardly speak.

Could this be what she had been looking forward to all this time, a deeper bond with others?

Taking Shannan as an example, she saw with her own eyes that his left wrist was seriously injured, she watched him drink water and turned into a Rakshasa, and she saw him change bit by bit as time went by, and it became more and more difficult. Restrain the dark, paranoid, vicious, and bloodthirsty side of yourself that belongs to Rakshasa...

Until now, she wants to watch him die with her own eyes and disappear completely from the world? !

Shannan smiled slightly at her.

"All along... I am grateful for your care and care." He said, with a long-lost sense of softness and tranquility in his tone.

"But not only did I not express my gratitude, I even spoke ill of you..."

At this moment, he should be enduring enormous pain unimaginable to ordinary people.When he was talking to the local party just now, his voice was already intermittent.But now, he seems to have returned to his normal speaking speed. Apart from his pale complexion, it is almost impossible to tell that he is a person who is dying.

...Could it be... a flashback? !

Liu Quan didn't dare to think about it anymore, and didn't know how to respond to his words, so he could only shake his head sadly.

"No...please don't say that...Mr. Shannan..."

Tears welled weakly from the eyes.

"Mr. Shannan has always been someone I respect and value..."

Shannan suddenly smiled slightly, and his gaze on her became calm and gentle.

"...Thank you. It's a bit late to say this, but..."

He took a hard breath.Until this time, I allowed myself to show a little bit of the fragility and pain of dying.

"At the end of my life, I was able to see you... and Hichikata-kun, and to be able to... say goodbye to you well. It's really... great..."

For some reason, this sentence hit Liu Quan's heart in an instant.Big teardrops scrambled out of her eye sockets, slid across her cheeks, fell down the arc of her jaw, and rolled down on him.

"Mr. Shannan...Mr. Shannan..."

Apart from repeating his name, she couldn't utter a word.Her heart hurt like it was about to burst, and the intense pain compressed her heart into a small ball, making it difficult for her to breathe.

"……what."

To her surprise, Shannan actually softly responded to her call.His face was already as white as his hair, and a layer of iron gray slowly appeared between his brows—anyone who saw it would think that the owner of this face could not live any longer .

He smiled and looked at Liu Quan who was crying bitterly.

"At the end... please take my wakizashi... take it..." he said with difficulty, he no longer had the strength to remove the small sword from his waist by himself, nor did he have the strength to look away It serves as a gesture; he just gazes at Liu Quan's tearful face, smiling serenely and peacefully.

"That year... Didn't everyone propose... to collect money... to give you a... threat...?" He finally couldn't force himself to suppress the growing pain rising from his body, and he spoke intermittently .

Liu Quan let out an ah, and suddenly remembered the incident Shannan mentioned.

It was after the Ikedaya Incident and the Change of the Forbidden Gate, the Aizu Domain and the Shogunate rewarded meritorious service, and distributed rewards of varying amounts to the cadres and team members of the Shinsengumi who participated in the operation.But at that time, because he was worried that if Liu Quan was too prominent, there would be a danger of someone who wanted to discover her identity as a woman, he deliberately removed her name when submitting the award list.

Later, Harada said that cute and beautiful gadgets such as hair pins are the best things to give to girls—just like the things that Shannan gave to Chizuru back then—but they were quickly rejected by everyone because the team Because of the business relationship, it is impossible for Liu Quan to restore women's clothing, and it is impossible for Liu Quan to wear any hairpins.

Then Shinpachi suggested in a puzzled way that everyone pooled money and partnered to send Liu Quan a wakizashi as a thank you for her contributions.Although Liu Quan resolutely declined at that time, and proposed to use sakura cakes instead as a gift-later, she did receive all kinds of wagashi and small sweets from everyone as a thank you gift, including sakura cakes, gold flat candy, etc. Waiting for small things; however, Shannan, who was also present when everyone was discussing, really didn't give her anything.

At that time, Liu Quan thought it was normal—Shannan injured his left wrist, he couldn’t draw his sword, and he couldn’t go out in battle. If he didn’t participate in these two operations, he wouldn’t be rewarded, so why don’t you join the group of guys who got the bounty The procession of delivering sweets and refreshments is nothing more than normal.

...It was only today that she realized that he had always remembered that incident.

Moreover, he intends to leave his Wakizashi to her as a farewell gift.

Why didn't he choose to leave his sword to her?Is it because his previous knife was broken and caused his tragedy today, isn't it a good omen or some pleasant memory for her?

"I..." She wriggled her lips, feeling as if there was a huge hard lump stuck in her throat, every time she took a breath, every time she uttered a word, the hard lump would slide up and down, rubbing against the soft flesh in her throat, and soon put it there The torture was bloody and bloody, and the pain was unbearable.

She freed one hand, slowly stretched it towards Shannan's waist, and gently pulled the small Taidao together with the scabbard from Shannan's belt, holding it tightly in her hand.

The last time she touched this wakizashi was the night when she drank water in Shannan.At that time, Shannan grabbed her hand and wanted to pull it out, so that she could kill herself who was crazy because of the poison of Chang Ruo Shui.Although she desperately refused this to happen at the time, who would have known that years later, it would finally be transferred from his hands to hers before his life was about to die?

"I will always cherish...the gift that Mr. Shannan gave me." She finally squeezed out this sentence, feeling that her voice was so dry that it didn't feel like she was speaking it herself.

Shannan's brows that were tightly frowned because of pain slowly relaxed.

"Thank you." He finally said simply.

"...Thank you...for always...believing that I am...a good person..."

Tears choked Liu Quan's throat.

The author has something to say:

February 5:

The soundtrack of this chapter: It is still the ED of "Hakuoki Snow Flower Record", the ED of the Souji chapter, "Dream-atruelovetale-".The lyrics are simple. . .Everyone must be a mother.

You can go to NetEase Cloud to search for the playlist of "Su Shuang's World is Collapsing", and this song is among them.Sorry for the inconvenience~~