Su Shuang's world is collapsing [Comprehensive]

"How long has it been since I stared at the night sky with such peace of mind...? No, it should be said, I have never felt so peaceful..."

There was a deep sigh in her soft, silent tone.

"In this world, even when I stared at the night sky occasionally, I didn't have any other thoughts except loneliness and helplessness..."

She whispered to herself, as soft as a whisper.

"...I don't know any other way to keep myself alive other than drawing a knife with these two hands to kill someone."

... Are you really asleep, Deputy Chief?If it is true, then everything I am going to say next will be regarded as a futile effort.Just like the futility I felt when I saw you and Chizuru-chan standing under the tree in the front yard of this shrine today.

"...that home where I have been living since I was conscious, I can't find anything to warm me except darkness and fear."

"Mr. Hijikata once asked me why I joined the Shinsengumi...Actually, Mr. Kondo was right at the time."

"I guess I'm just looking for a place to belong..."

"A place where you can put your heart and ideals, and when you see everyone, you can't help but smile on your face."

"I am willing to work hard for such a place."

"I must hold on to this place tightly, and nothing can make it disappear from my life..."

"Because if I lose this place, I will be alone in this world again."

"Mr. Hijikata..."

She paused slightly, her voice trembling slightly.

"I'm really sorry for hiding the truth that I'm a woman..."

"But, I will never hurt everyone here... I want to protect them more than anyone else."

"...I want to protect...you more than anyone else."

Looking from a distance, the lights outside the shrine gradually dimmed.

It may be late at night.

Under the clear and clear night sky, under the shade of green trees, there is a soft lawn exuding a fresh fragrance, and some fireflies are flying in the air.The lights in the distance turned into bright spots like night stars. The person who had to be captured from the very beginning fell asleep beside her, perhaps believing in her unconsciously. Bar.

Believe that she is a reliable companion who can completely entrust her safety in her hands when he is defenseless; although he has never said anything about it, this scene is not enough to explain everything.

"...Mr. Hijikata, thank you very much for today."

Liu Quan said with a sigh.

Compared to you, how gloomy am I, who still have to write some lines that will increase my favorability at this time...

Please forgive me, because I made an appointment with someone else, because I still want to win, because I have to let you live against your own ideals at the end, because I will definitely complete the task and save the world , because I myself, absolutely cannot fail, cannot die——

Before that, even if I really want to become a sinister female supporting role with ulterior motives, even if I really want to cheat your trust and favor, even if I want to wave the knife in my hand and splash blood on the skirt of my clothes, I will move forward, and I will not hesitate At all costs to ensure the completion of mission objectives.

It's not about pride, it's not about conscience, it's not about reputation, it's not even about proving anything.

She clenched her teeth hard, swallowing the lump that suddenly stuck in her throat.

Eye sockets suddenly wet.

Is it worth anyone to like me who is so reckless, overcoming obstacles, always having reservations, never being able to face honestly, and abandoning beautiful trust and feelings?

However, she has no turning back.From the start, there was no other choice.

She clasped her hands on her knees, and her fingers slowly twisted and clenched.

In the last world, when we parted, how did you sing the song that echoed in the campus?

[Even if lost in the stage of regret

will gradually become stronger

illuminated instinct

will glow】

【Even if it's just to cover up the surface

Also want to paint "beautiful"

even covered in mud

even if the smog

And the dazzling flame

hold in hand]

Liu Quan took a deep breath.

"...I am really... very happy to have the opportunity to stay with Hijikata-san today."

... Even if you are destined to like the really innocent and lovely little Qianhe.But, sorry, Hijikata-san, that's not allowed.

"If only there was another chance like this next time..."

...I, too, will definitely break up your official CP.Yes, I am such an ugly person.

"...No, maybe I'm unrealistically expecting that."

...In order to achieve my own goals, I ignore other people's feelings and plan to destroy other people's ideals. I am indeed a terrible woman.

"Honestly, I've always thought Hijikata-san was a scary person. Although respectable, he's always a little bit scary..."

... I am no longer worthy of the good expectations of those friends who are left in the memory, and it is impossible for me to be missed by them anymore, right?

"But, but, I...now, kind of..."

...Maybe it's a good thing for me to leave those worlds.Because those teenagers who are always beautiful in memory deserve to know someone who is better and more sincere than me, so that we can get along well.

She finally felt that she could no longer speak.

Being trusted so much, but having to use deception to achieve her goal, this kind of deep self-loathing surged up and filled her heart in an instant.

However, before she could continue to think about it, she heard a calm voice in her ear.

"Something... what?"

Unexpectedly, Tu Fang would make a sound, Liu Quan's eyes widened in surprise for a moment.

Then, Hijikata suddenly opened his eyes and shifted his gaze to her side.

"Really, I wanted to shut up and listen to you continue, but I heard you say that I'm terrible... If you want to say it, you can just say it face to face."

Liu Quan felt that he couldn't be more surprised, and opened his mouth wide, his expression full of shock.

"W-Where did you start listening!?"

Tufang replied nonchalantly, "I just woke up."

Liu Quan felt that his brain was already knotted, so he could only respond meaninglessly: "Yes, is it...?"

...... until now, I can only believe his words.Otherwise, if you think about it carefully, it will be terrifying.

...Those words she said before...Every sentence sounds like it could kill someone!

Although when I said that, I also had a vague expectation of [ah, if the deputy chief can hear it, maybe the favorability of me will not be so low], but after all, if the other party really listens to it Only then did I realize that this was really a shameful play, and I felt extremely embarrassed after thinking about it for a while, what should I do?

Hijikata sat up straight, folded his arms, and continued to nod expressionlessly.

"To be more specific, it started when you said, 'Thank you very much for today'."

Liu Quan felt his brain explode with a bang.

"That...that..."

...There is nothing to be thankful for...!Even if what he said was true, didn't she say something embarrassing after that! ?

Probably seeing her embarrassment, a smile that was different from usual and slightly narrowed suddenly appeared on Hijikata's face.

"Then it's better if I continue to pretend to be asleep?"

Liu Quan felt that his hair was standing on end.

"Well... if you don't go back, the access control time will have passed...! I, I don't want to cut seppuku..."

Earthquake let out a laugh.

"...I won't let you cut your stomach for this kind of thing." He answered her leisurely.

Liu Quan: ...So it is still possible to cut me up for other things in the future, right?

With such thoughts in mind, Liu Quan hurriedly got up from the ground, unnaturally and quietly beat his waist and legs a few times, which had already started to go numb because he didn't dare to move just now.

The music before the end of the festival is mixed with the gentle night wind, blowing over in waves.

Hijikata also stood up right after her, and said leisurely, "Ah, the security mission really wasted a lot of effort. Did that guy Yamazaki get the wrong information?"

Liu Quan: Will Yamazaki-kun be scolded after he goes back... think of a way to save him a little bit?The Master said: Do a good deed every day, and you will be extremely happy——

"...No, thanks to Yamazaki-kun for the false information, I was saved without a knife."

Earthwork seemed a little taken aback. "……ha?"

Liu Quan touched his left waist unnaturally - there was a round fan inserted there, replacing the previous position of the saber.

"Because if it is true that another unruly rogue comes to attack, it will be too sad for me to stand aside like in the daytime, waiting for the deputy commander to rescue me with one enemy. I am not for every time I joined the Shinsengumi only after waiting for the deputy chief to come and save me."

Earthwork: "..."

His face moved slightly uncomfortably, as if he was hit by this [frank language killing].In order to hide his embarrassment that he was speechless (fog!), he took a sudden stride and walked towards the gate of the shrine.

"...I didn't think of you as that kind of person either." He muttered in a low voice.

"I haven't seen it for a while, so I don't know what unexpected things will happen. How could it be possible to stand aside and wait for others to save me? I should have known about this kind of thing..." He seemed to complain continued to mutter to himself.

Liu Quan: ...Yabai, I don't know how to continue, so why don't we just pretend we didn't hear it? !

Thinking of this, she pretended to be nonchalant, and under the restraint of the hem of the women's yukata, she ran quickly in small steps, catching up with the vice-president of the Shinsengumi who had already walked a certain distance.

The author has something to say:

February 3:

Today, I also want to thank my dear Lianlian for giving me the bazooka~~ The author Jun felt a burst of strength!There is a feeling that the brain hole is about to be opened~~(づ￣3￣)づ╭～