Su Shuang's world is collapsing [Comprehensive]

Sure enough, he felt her body tremble slightly, and her eyes widened a little.

how?Was it simply shocking at the fact?Or do you think it's just his rhetoric to deceive her?Or—I had hoped to find Hijikata-kun here, but now that hope has failed, so I feel sad? !

Countless thoughts rolled through his mind in an instant.But the next moment, he heard more ruthless words spit out from his mouth.

"It's not that the Shinsengumi here don't exist anymore. In fact...no matter who they are, they all exist. It's just...they are not the people you and I knew before."

A cold light seemed to flash across his glasses.He lowered his face even more, approached her shocked face, and said in a low and clear word:

"So, the 'Hijikata-kun' here might not know you. After all, in this 'Shinsengumi', although there is a team member with the same surname 'Kyohara', the other party is a clumsy brat. .”

He saw her pupils widen in surprise because of these few words, and the complex emotions that passed through her heart were like thin lines running down the surface of the heart, bringing out strands of pain and more pain. Inexplicable pleasure; he went on:

"Where, there is no 'Qingyuan Yuya'. Of course, there is no 'Qingyuan Yuba' either."

"Hijikata-kun is still a qualified deputy chief, but he is more paranoid and stubborn..."

"He, here in Huajie is quite famous... How long have you been here? Have you heard of it from other people? There are quite a few women who admire his appearance and reputation, and are willing to have a dewy marriage with him— —”

Before the word "Fate" came out of his mouth, he saw that her wide-open eyes suddenly dimmed a little.But she didn't yell, didn't get angry, didn't break down, she just blinked her eyes quietly, and then said: "That's enough, Mr. Shannan. This time, I didn't come for him."

Shannan:? !

All the words he had thought of - probing words, warm words, even words that made her painful - were all swept away from his mind suddenly.

He even began to hate himself for regaining this opportunity to come to this world a little bit.He didn't know if people would become weak after dying once.Rakshasa, who had been neither human nor ghost for a long time, wandered in the dark night and on the edge of the cliff. His heart, which had been tempered to be cold and hard, softened with a bang, as if suddenly poured with a pot of boiling water. Breathing heat, it becomes soft and fragile because of being hot red, and it hurts when touched——

He heard his own voice—and perhaps his expression—distort together.

"……Really."

He felt that it must not be his voice.Because it was impossible for him to make this kind of trembling, hoarse voice, as if his lips were trembling because of his enthusiasm and disbelief, and there was a hiss between words.

"Aren't you looking for Hichikata-kun?" Hearing his trembling laughing voice, he felt strange for a moment.

"I...I can create another chance for you—because it's always been like this. Your desperate appearance is simply unbearable...so—"

"...Mr. Shannan." She called him again, successfully interrupting his ugly words.

She seemed to have moved her body and turned into lying on her back.Now, she was gazing into his distorted face.Perhaps it was because he had spoken too clearly—and too awkwardly—at the last time we parted, so now he finds it particularly difficult to control the elegant, gentle, false demeanor he once had.Because they already knew that that demeanor was just a disguise, and he was far from being as calm as he appeared on the surface before—now, it seemed that she had the upper hand.

Perhaps, all along, she was the one who had the upper hand.It's just that he had concealed it too well before, and never showed it—until the final moment of parting in Sendai City came.

She stared at him, although he was under his body, but he always felt that the look in his eyes was the same as before, calm, soft, but high above; Li was already weary in the dust and fell at her feet, his body twisted because of the pain, like him in a hideous and embarrassed state.

"Don't Mr. Shannan care about his own affairs?" She asked softly.

Ah.he thought.

Sure enough, with just one word, without even needing to counter him to the ground, she had already regained the advantage and knocked him down hard.

He was gasping for breath, feeling the pain in his chest making it more and more difficult to breathe; he opened his eyes wide behind the glasses, and cold sweat gradually oozed from the corners of his forehead.The premonition of failure made him uncomfortable, but he still struggled and said:

"You don't need to care about what happens to the bloodthirsty ghost... This time I won't die so easily—"

Then he saw her eyes wide open, looking surprised; then she smiled suddenly, her expression mixed with relief and sadness.

"Bloodthirsty ghost? Is that what you've always thought? Do you think you are?"

Shannan felt embarrassed.Although he can't re-activate the Rakshasa power in his body now, he still feels that his distorted and ugly face has nowhere to hide in front of her.

That's right, when he woke up and found himself back in the Mibu village era of the "Shinsengumi" where everyone else looked strange, after realizing that he had missed the Ikedaya battle due to injury, I also tried to use the power of Rakshasa, wanting to see if I can still exist as a swordsman in the era of repeating; but he was disappointed, he seems to be no longer Rakshasa, even if he burns his life, he cannot To regain such inhuman strength.

You can't even exchange your own combat power at the cost of your life - such a self, even in that "Shinsengumi" is still called the chief, but what is the meaning of such a life.

Moreover, the "Echikata-kun" here is also tougher.He quickly noticed that "Hijikata-kun" was vaguely wary of him—it wasn't that Hijikata had any hostility towards him or wanted to bring him down, just like what he did to Serizawa; but That Hijikata no doubt considered some of the morals he upheld as a sign of weakness, and disapproved of his attempts to influence the future direction of Kondo-kun and Shinsengumi.

After he successfully instigated Nagakura, Harada, Saito and others to jointly submit the Jianbai Letter to the Aizu feudal clan, the look of the Hijikata watching him changed from "I really don't understand what Sannan-san is thinking, this person is so difficult Do you want to communicate?" became "I can't let Sannan-san mislead Kondo-san, his thinking is too dangerous, maybe it will hurt Kondo-san at some point."

Therefore, the atmosphere he feels in the Shinsengumi now is not as good as in his previous life.Moreover, in the current Shinsengumi, there is no Kiyohara Yukiha, nor Yukimura Chizuru.The occasional women who appeared were all the female relatives of the landlord, Mr. Yagi's family, and residents of the nearby Mibu village.

In this world, there is no change like water, no Xuecun Gangdao, no thousand scenes in the wind, and no ghosts and rakshasas.Only he is the only alien, even if he becomes a "human being" again.

However, getting rid of the identity of Rakshasa did not bring him much joy of relief.In fact, he wasn't happy at all.

The direction the Shinsengumi is heading in is beyond his control, and Kondo and Hijikata no longer respect his views as they did when they were in the testing hall.Although Yongcang and Harada respect him, they are just warriors who are good at charging and attacking, and they can't affect the overall situation.Only Kokotaro Ito was as disgusting as ever, like a tarsal maggot, always ready to bite off his rotting flesh and give him a fatal blow.

And, to make matters worse this time around, there was no one in the Shinsengumi who insisted on trusting him as stupidly and persistently as she did.At the moment before he was swallowed by the darkness, she was still insisting on saying "Mr. Shannan is a gentle and kind person", saying "Mr. Shannan is the epiphyllum in this era", saying "Mr. It's a very important person."

Those words had been his last hope before he fell into the abyss, the driftwood he was desperately grabbing on before drowning in darkness.But in this era, no one said that to him so clumsily and desperately.

That's why he came to the "pontoon".He once thought that there was a reason for the existence of Huajie, and that he could get a little bit of spiritual comfort from the wine and the vain admiration of beautiful women; A burst of weariness—

Until the woman said the name "Axue".

Ashetoff.

Of course he knew that there was no such a husband in Shimabara in this era.However, he had seen a pretended "Mr. Asheta" before, who was elegant and beautiful, with an unconscious glamorous charm, but the lack of awareness and confidence in his own beauty made people Inexplicably, I felt my heart tremble even more.

It was precisely because of that inexplicable nostalgia for the past that prompted him to come here for the second time.It is precisely because of his weak attitude towards memories that he did not rationally stop himself, but repeatedly tried to find some of the same clues as in the past in the same situation, that he was able to meet her again.

But what else could he do?He can no longer even obtain sufficient right to speak and control within the Shinsengumi that exists in this world.He wasn't completely hopeless of trying to get some power back, but he suddenly felt a deep, uncontrollable exhaustion.

Although these people have the same name, the same identity, and the same life experience, they are not the companions I chose to trust and join in the first place.He didn't know why he was thrown into this world after he was wiped out, and he didn't know why there was no "Kingsuke Shannan" in this world, so he was allowed to occupy this position without any suspicion, like everyone Everyone thinks that he is that "Shannan Jingzhu" - but, he doesn't want to get to the bottom of it.

The author has something to say:

February 5:

Well, next, I will use Sannan-san's perspective to describe some scenes involving him in Hakuouki

Mainly to describe his own thoughts at the time w

So maybe it's not all a positive portrayal of the deputy chief... uh, you know hhh

Next update: every other day, at midnight on the 5th~~

感谢在2020-04-3023:51:36~2020-05-0221:43:14期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 1 Ripple Wind;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Meow Meow, Immortal Limit 1;