independent filmmaker

Qi Yong finally arrived in Beijing one week before the launch.He looked more artistic, wearing a photographer's waistcoat, black square glasses, and a bushy beard.Xie Lansheng surrounded the front and back again. Finally, Qi Yong couldn't take it anymore and scolded: "You are so annoying!" Qi Yong felt quite imposing, but then he heard Xin Ye next to him "tsk" and said, " The old men in their 40s acted like a baby when they saw Director Xie," and were stunned.

After taking Qi Yong back to the hotel, Xie Lansheng didn't let him rest, and raced against time to discuss the script of "Consummation".Film directors usually draw their own shot scripts, and sometimes they ask an artist to draw them, but they usually refer a lot to the composition opinions of photographers.It is not uncommon for photographers to take photos of them very strongly, but there are relatively few.Of course, there are also some famous directors who never draw sub-shots.

At night, because Qi Yong still had jet lag and wanted to sleep, Xie Lansheng let him go and walked into a bar by himself to "do an interview".

Its name is "Paradise Bar", it is gay, Xie Lansheng wants to have a good chat with "comrades" and collect information.The hero Caikuan in the movie is gay and likes men, but Xie Lansheng always feels that he doesn’t know enough about gays, and he is worried that his portrayal and interpretation of Caikuan will not be in place, so he wants to come to interview and listen to the experience and thoughts of comrades, Look at their every word and deed, and go deep into this marginalized group.Among the people he knew, Xinye was the only one who liked men, but Xinye was not typical.

In 1995, gay bars just appeared in Beijing, but in the past, gays could only meet each other in public places such as parks.Lan Sheng found out about "Paradise Bar" after many inquiries. He also heard that it was not a gay bar at the beginning, but an ordinary bar, because an activist wanted to hold parties regularly, and the boss was also happy to hold parties on non-rest days. Only by earning some money from it did it gather many comrades.And these people's daring to enter commercial places like bars is partly due to the "World Women's Conference" held in Beijing in September-the largest international conference held in China so far.At this conference, many European and American lesbians discussed the issue of equal rights enthusiastically. Because of their existence, intellectuals and ordinary people have been severely impacted. Rumors spread ten to ten and hundreds of times, but many people who thought that "China has no comrades" knew about this fringe group.Although only a few days later, officials conveniently moved the venue of the NGO forum from the city center to the outskirts of Beijing, and kept silent about the discussion of "comrade".

Xie Lansheng gently pushed open the two doors of "Paradise Bar" and walked in.

The light here is very dim, the ceiling, the bar and other places are diffused with pink light, which is very ambiguous. There are people sitting in twos and threes around fifteen or six tables, some are sitting with two women, some are sitting with two men, Gay Not separate from Les.Others drink by themselves.

Xie Lansheng was not very nervous, but rather eager to start the interview right away.His temperament is like this, he is not afraid of dealing with people, he can get acquainted with others every time in a few words, he is very confident in this.

He ordered the wine, looked around, and then ran to a table with the wine in his hand, and said to the only one, "Hello."

"!!!" The other party was very feminine, and the corners of his eyebrows and eyes were feminine. He looked at Xie Lansheng and said shyly, "Hello~~~"

"Uh," Xie Lansheng put his hands on the table, poked his head over, and said, "I'm a film director, and I want to make a gay film, so I came to this 'Paradise Bar' for interviews and investigations. May I ask you...you... Can you answer a few questions?"

The question was so simple and rude, and Xie Lansheng didn't know what to do. Comrades use eyes and other methods to identify each other. It is very dangerous to expose their identities to straight men, because the other party may be a policeman. Xie Lansheng was ready for the other party to say Prepare yourself not comrades.

Even now, comrades' meeting places are often "swept" by the police, and comrades are in a difficult situation.On the one hand, in the avant-garde academic world, there have been books such as "Same-Sex Love", "Homosexuality in China", "Contemporary Sexual Culture in China", and "Sexual Status in China". On the one hand, the law has not changed, and the crime of hooliganism is still committed, and the police still arrest people and detain them at random.Of course, compared to the past, the risk is much smaller. Generally speaking, you can come out the same night if you admit your mistake.

After hearing Xie Lansheng's purpose, the little gay was visibly disappointed, and he said dejectedly, "You can ask."

"Okay, thank you." Xie Lansheng asked a few gentle questions first, and then gradually got to the point: "Well, how did you find out that you are actually a comrade? What was your mood at that time?"

"Ah," the little gay fell into deep memories, and said, "I always feel different...I want to be a girl, I like makeup, I like to be beautiful."

"Ah."

"Later, a male classmate in a senior year liked to ask me to go to the bathroom. He was very handsome, gave me things, and used his hands... I also asked me to do the same thing to him. I, I was quite scared at the time. "He said while gesturing on his upper body with his hands through the air.

"...Well." It's a bit inappropriate for children.

The little gay then said shyly, "But I really like it!"

Xie Lansheng: "..."

On the opposite side, the little gay began to share how comfortable he was, making Xie Lansheng dumbfounded.Xie Lansheng really didn't expect him to hear these things, and felt that the other party was really bold.

The other party continued: "I fell in love with my roommate for the first time in college, but later... I found out that he had a wife and children, so we broke up. Later, I accidentally broke into a toilet like that, and found that everyone... ...I only know that there are so many of the same people. That's where I met my second boyfriend."

"I see."

The two chatted for about ten minutes. Xie Lansheng was very happy after asking the question, and said, "Can I exchange contact information? It may be troublesome in the future."

"Okay!" The little gay was actually very cheerful, wrote down the phone number, and asked Xie Lansheng, "How old are you?"

Xie Lansheng replied: "I am 26."

"I'm 28!" said the other party, "Just call me 'Sister Bai' from now on!"

Xie Lansheng was stunned for a second before realizing that this was what they said, and then he smiled: "Then thank you, Sister Bai!"

"Well, you're welcome~"

Afterwards, Xie Lansheng was led by Sister Bai to chat with other people and collected more things.He went to strike up a conversation with Sister Bai and other people he didn't know, and was also struck up by others in the middle, and he didn't leave the bar with his notebook until ten o'clock in the evening.

Fortunately, no police were encountered.

Xie Lansheng didn't tell Xin Ye that he came to the bar for an interview, and he was not in a hurry to go back at this time, but walked along the main road.

He recalled what he had just heard in the bar, and found that those people had the same desires, the same love, and the same joys and sorrows as ordinary people.

It is even said that because of the edge, the same kind is hard to find, and they have more intense desires, more intense love, and more intense sorrow and joy.

Xie Lansheng is the director.The director has a soft spot for human instinct, human love, and lust, so he silently licked it.

Xie Lansheng didn't go back to sleep until it was really late.

…………

The next day it rained in Beijing in autumn.

Xie Lansheng, who had already seen the weather forecast, took the crew out to film the scene in "Consummation" where Cai Kuan Langying first met.Caikuan Langying met each other on a light rainy day, and there are not many rainy days in October. On average, there are five or six games a year. Lan Sheng is worried that one or two games after the official start on the 10st It wasn't suitable, so as soon as he saw the weather, he pulled the crew out to shoot.

Qi Yong didn't adjust to the jet lag, and only fell asleep for three hours, but he could only set off with two big dark circles under his eyes.

In "Consummation", in 1990, the protagonist only heard about the most famous "Gay Park", but he knew that other people went there to vent their desires, so he was very disgusted and stayed away from it, but he was stunned on a rainy day. I really want to try my luck and see if there are other men who just want to meet someone they love and nothing else.

And the other protagonist, Lang Ying, didn't intend to go to the "stronghold".He is also a gay man, but he has been struggling with depression.On this day, when he went out, he passed Dongdan Park twice to take a shortcut, but he could always see a thin figure in the distance.The man was holding a white umbrella, standing in front of the pavilion in the park, lonely and lonely.

Because the two passes through the park were at least two hours apart, Lang Ying was a little worried and curious, so she walked over.

The filming started.

After re-recruitment, there were still no suitable actors to appear, so Lan Sheng could only act by himself, so that he could play well.

The director of the crew took the board and shouted: "11 scene 1A scene! Action!" Today it is raining, so he has to shout loudly.Director Xie said, speak louder in noisy places, and quieter in quiet places, so as not to scare the actors.

Xie Lansheng stood in front of the pavilion.

Xinye took an umbrella and walked slowly.

When Xin Ye went under the pavilion, the camera turned to face him.Xie Lansheng is holding a white umbrella, while Xinye is holding a red umbrella. As Xinye steps up the steps, Xie Lansheng's white umbrella is gradually covered, showing less and less, and finally disappears. At the same time, from this new angle , the audience can find that there is an extra maple tree behind Caikuan, with red maple leaves on both sides, and Caikuan is completely surrounded by red, which symbolizes that Caikuan's originally pale heart has been dyed with beautiful colors.

"Lang Ying" finally stood still in front of "Cai Kuan", and the stairs as an obstacle between them no longer existed.

"Lang Ying" asked: "You...have been standing for two hours, are you waiting for someone?"

"Yes." "Cai Kuan" raised his eyes to look at the other party, his eyes were full of brilliance, and replied, "I don't know...have I waited?"

At this point, after one shot, executive director Yu Qianzi said: "Good! Perfect!"

Xie Lansheng also felt good, and said: "OK, next shot. Move quickly, otherwise the rain will change and it will look fake."

Yu Qianzi: "Hi, I know!"

After filming two more dialogues, "Cai Kuan" and "Lang Ying" walked side by side on the park's avenue.

With a white umbrella and a red umbrella, Cai Kuan asked Lang Ying, "Where do you work?"

Lang Ying answered, and asked back.While talking, Caikuan put away his umbrella and dragged it to the ground, and the two of them shared an umbrella.At the end of this paragraph, Cai Kuan mustered up all his courage and said, "Let's meet again next week and have a good chat."

Lang Ying obviously hesitated, but looking at Qingli's face, he still couldn't refuse in his heart, licked his lower lip and said, "Okay."

Yu Qianzi shouted again: "OK! Cut! Director Xie is awesome! Really awesome!"

"really?"

Because Lan Sheng was in a hurry to chat with Yu Qianzi about the shooting effect, his steps took a little longer. When Xin Ye saw him, he tilted his umbrella and almost covered Lan Sheng's side, and he gradually got wet.

But Xie Lansheng didn't notice much, and only thought about "Consummation" in his mind.

It wasn't until he confirmed that there was no problem and took everyone back to the hotel that he suddenly discovered that the white shirt on the other party's body was soaked after chatting with Xin Ye about the script.

He stared blankly at each other.

Xinye's hair was a little disheveled at this time, and he pushed her back twice.

The white shirt was all wet, and it was tightly wrapped around his body, hooping out the entire upper body line.It has already become translucent, and the color of the flesh is faintly revealed in the middle of the folds. It is young, strong, muscular and elastic.The film king of Xinda has a very good skin, with broad and thick shoulders on both sides, and the shirt on both sides is dented with the collarbone, accumulating moisture, the top button is open, and his neck is shiny because of the rain.Further down, the pectoral muscles are bulging out, and even... can be seen, the eight-pack abdominal muscles are very obvious, the white shirt is tightly absorbed in the gap between the abdominal muscles, and the white shirt is separated by the body.One sleeve was dry, but the other was soaked, wrapping around Xinye's strong upper arm, forearm and wrist.

Covered in a soaked white shirt, it is more distracting than exposing the whole body directly.

Xie Lansheng was firmly attracted by the two big breasts, and was a little envious.

Quite inexplicably, he remembered the process that "Sister Bai" said last night when she found out that she was gay.At that time, Sister Bai made gestures on her upper body: "He is very handsome, he gave me things, and even used his hands... I also asked me to do the same thing to him here. I, I was quite scared at the time." "But I also feel very fond of it." ah!"

I heard it about 10 hours ago.

Thinking of Sister Bai's words, looking at Xin Ye's flesh color, and not knowing what happened, Xie Lansheng moved the tip of his right index finger hanging at the hem of his trousers for no reason.

Of course, Xinye didn't notice it, so he chuckled and asked, "What's wrong?"

Xie Lansheng raised his eyes, not daring to look directly at the other party, showing his acting skills, emptied his eyes, and said with a smile: "I just realized that you are drowned. Thank you, thank you. I'm sorry, I'm still dragging you to talk about the role. Take a hot shower quickly Go, change clothes, don't catch a cold."

Xin Ye stared at Lan Sheng opposite for ten seconds, then pinched his face, smiled lowly, and said, "Understood. Let's go."

"……Um."

After Xinye left, Xie Lansheng still felt his fingers were burning, hot, painful and itchy.

It seems to be really bewitched.

what happened……

"..." Xie Lansheng walked into the bathroom, rubbed his index finger on the roughest white towel, and finally felt better.

The author has something to say: Lan Sheng: Mom, what happened to me just now?

Mother Panda: ...I don't know.

Lan Sheng: Hey, I'm too straight, I can't understand gay psychology, and I have to go to a bar for an interview.

Panda mother: ... I feel that you are not straight.

When they are together, they probably won't be able to see...

I remember that in 1995, "Absolute Love" could already be seen in book rental agencies in the streets and alleys!But real comrades are relatively underground.