independent filmmaker

Xie Lansheng and Xin Ye returned to Beijing after a two-week vacation in Los Angeles, and they also returned to reality.

Faced with his parents immediately, Xie Lansheng was quite nervous.But, this is something that must be done, without hesitation or empty space.In addition, the attitude of Xin Ye's parents made Xie Lansheng feel more at ease.

On the day Xie Lansheng came home, Xinye went to cut his hair first, then took a shower, and then put on the high-end shirt and trousers sent by the brand.He didn't wear perfume this time because old people wouldn't like it.

Xin Ye's eyebrows are too handsome, Xie Lansheng's eyes are a little straight.He walked over, leaned lightly, touched Xin Ye's waist, kissed her chin, and said, "Bei Er."

Xinye also said in a subdued voice: "Bao."

"Don't be nervous." Xie Lansheng smiled, "I won't be separated from you. My mother has never succeeded in disciplining me. I'm probably not a filial son... I don't care about my parents, I only care about myself." Whether it is filling out a volunteer application or leaving Xiaoxiang , or something else, he has never heard of his parents.

Xin Ye stared deeply, and after a while, he held his shoulder tightly with one hand and his waist with the other, and kissed him hard, without resting for a long time.

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Xie Lansheng's parents now live in a small villa. In 2001, Xie Lansheng bought a house for his parents after capturing the bear for the second time. It was not big, with two floors.He was quite happy.He knows that he is a lucky person—whether in China or the United States, those who rely on "directors" to buy houses can be considered lucky people. They have made countless stars famous, but they can only barely make ends meet.Of course, the vast majority of film directors do not have high material requirements, or even dismiss them.

The car stopped on the side of the road in the community, Xie Lansheng took Xin Ye to ring the bell.The dark red wooden door was gently pushed open by Li Jingrou, and Xie Lansheng hurriedly handed over the things in his hand: "Mom! I'm back!"

"..." Li Jingrou's two eyes looked behind Xie Lansheng.

"Mom," Xie Lansheng smiled, took out slippers for Xinye, and squatted down to arrange them one by one, "I told you yesterday that my friends would come over for dinner. Here, let me introduce you. This is Xinye, the boss of Deep Blue Pictures , the producer of "Love at First Sight", he is also the leading actor in the two films "Rooting" and "Consummation", we have known each other for 14 years."

Thinking about it, Xie Lansheng smiled again: "No, he has known me for 14 years, and I have known him for 15 years. When he won the Silver Bear Award in 1990, all major media reported it."

Li Jingrou has heard this name many times in the past 14 years.She has watched "Rooting" and "Consummation", and also watched the martial arts movie. However, when she saw the real person Li Jingrou for the first time, she was still stunned, and then she also smiled: "This is handsome! Big-name stars are different!"

It's too high, and the aura is too strong.

Xin Ye smiled, greeted him, and gave Xie Lansheng the things he was carrying in his hand to put away.He bought some expensive ones, such as wild ginseng, cordyceps, and Thai bird's nest...

"Hey!" Li Jingrou said, "This is too expensive, I can't have it!"

"No, it's not expensive." Xin Ye was still personable, ""Love at First Sight" just earned Deep Blue Pictures at least 7500 million, so what is this thing?"

"Okay..." My son is capable and able to be screened. Li Jingrou is quite happy and proud of this summer. She has contacted all the little sisters who have not been in touch with her for many years, boasting about her son. "Galaxy" can also be played after winning the award, but Xie Lansheng has no official recognition from China, so it is not above board, and Li Jingrou's generation still cares about this.

"Dad, Mom." After sitting and chatting for a while, Xie Lansheng suddenly suggested, "Shall I cook tonight? I just learned a few new dishes, you two can try it, my cooking skills are not bad now."

"No," Li Jingju said, "You can chat with the guests, I've finished shopping for vegetables with your dad."

"Hey, you two just let me cook!" Xie Lansheng pressed the two old people firmly on the sofa, straightened up, and looked at Xinye, "Xinye, let's go downstairs and go to the supermarket to buy something."

Xin Ye also stood up, nodded: "Yes."

Because he wanted to try his best to please his parents, Xie Lansheng bought a whole truckload of ingredients for this dinner.He was busy up and down in the kitchen, while Xinye was chatting with Li Jingrou.It can be seen that Li Jingrou likes Xinye very much. It is a 62-year-old old lady who simply likes young handsome guys.

Half an hour later, Xie Lansheng poked his head out: "Xinye Xinye, come and help me."

"Yeah." Xinye smiled at Li Jingrou, and went into the kitchen to help.

Some dishes in the dinner menu are Xie Lansheng's specialties, but there are also some dishes that are Xinye's specialty dishes. The two prepare them separately. However, sometimes when Xinye is free, he will hug Lansheng from behind and sniff him. s hair.

Xie Lansheng didn't take it seriously: "Why do you keep smelling it?" He didn't think he had the scent of the characters in the book, but it was boring.

Xinye said, "It smells good."

"Where does it smell good?" Xie Lansheng responded casually, "It only smells like hair oil." Although he had taken a shower before going out.

"Yes." Xinye put his arms around Xie Lansheng and said, "Lansheng tastes like my treasure."

"..." Lan Sheng's ears turned red, and he hurriedly said, "Okay, okay, let's cut the meat."

Xinye smiled and said, "Okay."

In the end, there were seven dishes and one soup for dinner, and all of them were delicious in color, fragrance and taste. Xie Lansheng's mother Li Jingrou and father Xie Bin were quite shocked.

Lan Sheng's parents wanted to turn on the TV, but their son stopped them.Xie Lansheng said: "I haven't been back for a few months, can we all have a chat?" Li Jingrou and Xie Bin both agreed.

So the four of them ate and chatted.

Talking about "Love at First Sight", talking about the super high box office, and talking about the amazing reputation, Li Jingrou and Xie Bin were really happy.

Xie Lansheng always intentionally or unintentionally said how powerful Xinye is. He said that several films of Deep Blue were in the top five box office charts all the time, that Deep Blue also covered other businesses such as real estate, that Xinye was the heir of the five-star hotel XYZ, and that Xinye was Harvard. A graduate of the economics department of the university, said that Xinye can speak English, German, Spanish and other languages. He said that Xinye won the top three in piano and tennis in the United States. "Actor, there is another Academy Award nomination...

Li Jingrou and Xie Bin were stunned when they heard this.

After drinking cup after cup, I felt that the atmosphere was almost the same, and nothing would come out of the chat any more. Xie Lansheng tightly pursed his lower lip, put down his chopsticks, clasped his hands, looked at Xie Bin, then at Li Jingrou, and said : "Dad, Mom, actually we came back today... and want to say something important."

"...Huh?" Sensing the seriousness of the atmosphere, Li Jingrou and Xie Bin were a little puzzled.

"Mom and Dad," Lan Sheng looked down at the table, then looked up at his mother, and asked, "You..."

He looked at the table again, and raised his eyes again: "You...you know 'comrade', right? Two men are together, two women are together."

"..." Li Jingrou instantly became vigilant. She looked at Xie Lansheng and said, "Yes, you mentioned it."

In the past few years, Xie Lansheng has used "Consummation" to let Li Jingrou know "comrade", and also said that "it is normal for two men and two women to like each other", "Massachusetts just announced that same-sex marriage is legal", etc. Li Jingrou was always noncommittal about things, saying "whatever they want", which made Xie Lansheng vaguely feel that his parents would accept it, but he asked Li Jingrou several times "What if I'm gay", Li Jingrou didn't want to talk about it, just said " Impossible" "Impossible".

"Mom and Dad..." Lan Sheng changed his posture, holding on to the stool he was sitting on with a few fingers. The veins on his forearm were protruding, and his fingertips were turning white, as if he wanted to crush the thin stool. generally.Seeing him, Xin Ye patted his knee lightly with his hand under the table to give him strength.

Xie Lansheng raised his head again.What he said next may hurt his parents or his lover. No matter how confident and cheerful he is usually, he will inevitably be nervous at this time, so he can only forcefully smile and put on a relaxed posture: "It's nothing, Just...just... Xin Ye and I are also 'comrades'. We have been together for ten years. Mom, do you remember? In "Consummation", I played Cai Kuan and he played Lang Ying. Actually, that movie was shot After it's over, Xinye and I will be together."

When he had finished, there was an eerie silence at the table.

It took more than half a minute for Li Jingrou to speak slowly: "You said, you have been together for ten years, which means that it is futile for us to tear it apart. We can't tear it apart."

Li Jingrou is a very typical old Beijing, with a blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, but at this moment, she tried her best to keep calm and look good.

There was no quarrel or hysteria as imagined, Xie Lansheng was overjoyed: "Mom, what do you mean..."

give up?Not dismantled?

But Li Jingrou interrupted him: "Xie Lansheng, you are famous and rich now, and you don't care about your parents anymore. The two of us can't control it anymore. No, it's better to say that you never cared about your parents. So, I'm old with your parents." The couple... can only think of a way by themselves."

"...Mom?" Feeling that the atmosphere was not right, Xie Lansheng was a little flustered.

Li Jingrou went on self-consciously: "We will treat you as a son, and we will not see each other. You two will not be separated, we know, it's easy. You said it before, right? Sexual orientation can't be changed. .Okay, we can't change you, but we can change ourselves. Let's sever the relationship between mother and child, and go through the formalities tomorrow. We won't see you, miss you, and naturally we won't be sad. We will live on our own in the future, and we don't have to worry about it anymore Who is it? Your aunt Zhang has no children, and she lived a good life. We all envy her now, and everyone in the circle envy her. What's so good about raising children? Except worrying is worrying. You didn't always have Yes, after we got married, before you were gone, your dad and I were pretty good, now when we go back, it’s nothing, just treat my 36 years as blind and in vain.”

After a pause, he opened his mouth again, and said what Lansheng thought: "Oh, by the way, you bought this house, do you need us to move it out? Make it free?"

"do not……"

Li Jingrou nodded again, looking very calm: "That's right. We raised you for more than 21 years before you left for Xiaoxiang. This house should be regarded as repayment of debts, and the two of us will be regarded as earning money." She smiled: " Two people will be your babysitters, 4000 a month is not too much, right? Isn’t it kind? 21 years... It’s almost 100 million yuan. This house was 100 million yuan when you bought it four years ago. Oh, it’s just right, what a god .As for food, clothing, supplies, and money for studying and playing, forget it, the two of us don’t want it.”

Xie Lansheng was frightened, he was startled and frightened, and said, "Mom!"

Li Jingrou's voice became higher: "Don't call me 'Mom'!!!"

Xie Lansheng said again, pleadingly: "...Mom!"

Li Jingrou said sharply: "I just said don't call me 'mom'!!! You don't have a mother!!!"

After she finished speaking, she pushed the table, and the four legs of the chair made a sharp sound on the floor tiles, like some kind of animal crying.Li Jingrou turned around and left, hurriedly walking without any hesitation, while Xie Lansheng's father, Xie Bin, had always been relatively taciturn. At this moment, he just looked at his son, and after a long while sighed, unable to hide his anger and disappointment, he also followed Li Jingrou.

"Mom!" Xie Lansheng didn't dare to stop him, and followed from a distance until Li Jingrou and Xie Bin walked into the bedroom and closed the door heavily.

"Mom..." Xie Lansheng twisted the door with his hands and found that the wooden door was locked.

"..." After thinking for a while, he slowly knelt down on the floor tiles.

Xinye was stunned for a moment.He was born and raised in the United States, so he doesn't know much about the culture of "kneeling". However, just for a moment, Xinye lifted his pants, wanting to be by his side.

"Don't." Xie Lansheng raised his chin and hurriedly said to Xin Ye, "You go first. Don't let them see you again. Add fuel to the fire. It's better for me to solve it alone."

Xinye was silent for a while, finally nodded, without making a sound, squatted down, and mouthed: "Take care of yourself."

Xie Lansheng also nodded, and said, "You hurry up."

Xinye knew that his stay would not be helpful for communication, and felt powerless for the first time in his life.

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After Xinye left, Xie Lansheng was like an abandoned little beast, calling out in despair: "Mom...Mom..."

After a while, he called again: "Dad..."

For the first hour, no matter how much he called, there was no answer from the room.

Half an hour later, Li Jingrou finally responded to him, but what he could say was: "Stop making noise!!! Can you let someone rest for a while!!!"

"..." Xie Lansheng shut up.

He knew it would be difficult, but he didn't expect...

He lowered his head and squinted his eyes, a drop of tear fell on the floor tiles, and then the tears crackled like beans, falling down continuously, and after a while, there was a puddle of water on the floor tiles.He reached out to wipe, but more and more wiped.Wipe more and more.

In the room, the parents turned on the TV.On the TV, a large group of people were noisy, as if they were celebrating something, but Xie Lansheng felt extremely harsh at this moment.

At 9 o'clock in the evening, because there was no sound outside the door, Li Jingrou probably thought that Xie Lansheng had already left, so she opened the door.She was startled when she saw Xie Lansheng kneeling outside the door, but soon she regained her composure, bypassed Xie Lansheng, and went to the bathroom.

It's been a long time since she traveled this way.Xie Lansheng also heard the sound of ping-ping-pong-pong from the living room downstairs. It was Li Jingrou cleaning up the dishes.

Half an hour later, Li Jingrou returned to the second floor, walked into the bedroom as if she hadn't seen Xie Lansheng, and closed the door again with a "bang".

In this way, throughout the night, Li Jingrou and Xie Bin went in and out of the room several times, but they never gave Lan Sheng a look.

At 11:[-], the lights in the bedroom went out.

Xie Lansheng didn't slack off and sat down.He knew that Li Jingrou and Xie Bin might open the door again at any time.

Kneeling like this all night.He has long since lost feeling in his knees, and his bones are so painful that it feels like thousands of needles are pricking him, and it seems that thousands of bees are stinging him.If it really failed, he would hold onto the floor tiles with both hands, kneel down for a while, relieve the pressure on his knees, and then straighten his back.

He didn't want to leave, he didn't want to make long-term plans and do it slowly.He always felt that today was the only way to let his parents see his sincerity and determination.If the long-term battle is not easy to use, the hearts of parents will be hardened, and the effect of being ruthless at that time will definitely be discounted.

Xie Lansheng knew that he was not the only one who was being tortured at this time.Xie Bin snored very badly, but he didn't hear any snoring all night, which meant that Xie Bin hadn't slept all night.

At seven o'clock the next morning, Li Jingrou opened the door.She did not leave this time, but calmly, even cold-bloodedly, looked down at Lan Sheng, and said indifferently: "Go, go and sever the relationship between mother and child."

Xie Lansheng just knelt straight: "No..."

Li Jingrou's voice became high-pitched, and her emotions were on the verge of collapse: "Go! Don't waste time!!!"

But Xie Lansheng is a young man, he doesn't think about it, he just wants to kneel down, Li Jingrou and Xie Bin, two [-]-year-olds, can't help it, let alone Li Jingrou is a woman.She pulled for a long time, but Xie Lansheng didn't move at all, and finally gave up, only coldly said: "Then you just kneel down. Let's go after we figure it out."

Xie Lansheng lowered his head and did not speak.

The clean sheets and quilts are hanging outside the window. It is peaceful and leisurely. It is the peaceful life of ordinary people. Their boredom and attachment to life are intertwined and entangled. But this is not the life Xie Lansheng wants. He wants the ultimate love. As much as he has gotten and enjoyed for the past ten years.

This kneeling is two nights and one day.

Xie Lansheng didn't eat, drink, sleep or rest.

In the end, it was visibly not working.His face was exhausted, his lips were chapped, his head hung down, and he didn't move much.

At six o'clock in the morning of the third day, Li Jingrou finally couldn't take it anymore. She rushed out of the room, raised her hand, pointed to the door to Xie Lansheng, and said, "Go! You get out! Don't be an eyesore here! You are not welcome in our house!"

"..." Xie Lansheng still didn't move.

Li Jingrou's emotions collapsed. She reached out to push Xie Lansheng, screaming while pushing: "Get out! Get out!!!"

Xie Lansheng raised his eyes, with red eye circles, hoarse voice, and said, "Mom..."

Li Jingrou had never seen Xie Lansheng so vulnerable.In the past, no matter what happened, he would never give in.

Seeing that Li Jingrou was willing to stand in front of him, Xie Lansheng's eyes were bloodshot, and there seemed to be a rale in his throat, and he said: "Mom, I can't help it... I really can't help it... I don't want to let you do this uncomfortable..."

Li Jingrou paused.

As he spoke, Xie Lansheng's face was full of tears again: "I...I like Xinye so much. We have been together for ten years. In these ten years, I really feel very happy...I, I can't carry on the family, but Will be very happy, very happy. Mom, the actor Liu Yao in "Consummation" has never been loved in her life. She suffered so much that she was depressed and committed suicide. When she left, she was two years younger than me now, only 34. I...I understand After living a feeling that is both earth-shattering and long-lasting, after experiencing this feeling, I can't live with it."

Li Jingrou also started to cry, she pushed Xie Lansheng, then hit Xie Lansheng, her palms fell randomly on Xie Lansheng's head, face, shoulders and chest, she said while beating: "I don't understand...I don't understand Your father and I have been honest and diligent all our lives, and we have never done anything out of the ordinary... How, how did you give birth to such a... rebellious thing! You have never heard of anything in your life, and you are against us everywhere, wanting to be angry Die us... Is it because the two of us owed you a debt in the previous life?! Why are other people's children so good and obedient?"

Xie Lansheng choked up and replied, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

"If you are asked to enter the university of science and technology, you don't take the exam, if you are asked to stay in the studio, you don't stay, if you are asked to get married, you don't get married... When you went to film school, we worried for 5 years, afraid that you would not have a job, that you would not be able to eat... Then we were finally assigned. We were happy for a few months. Just a few months later, you resigned to make some underground movie. This time, we were worried for 15 years... 15 years! You released it a while ago As for us, we have been happy for a few months, or only for a few months, you again...again..." Li Jingrou wiped her tears with the palm of her hand, looked at the sky, and said, "What kind of injustice is this!"

Xie Lansheng just looked at each other, tears kept falling, he said: "Mom, actually, I... I'm glad I didn't obey, I got what I wanted, I got what I really love, whether it's a movie , or Xinye."

Xie Lansheng also cares about his parents and wants to listen to them, but, miraculously, he usually does his best, but every time a major decision is made, some ideas of his own, some outrageous ideas, will come up deep in his heart.

Otherwise, he would be like a clumsy log, and the flying sparks would not be able to set him ablaze.He didn't want to struggle all his life, and finally found that all struggles were futile.

And Li Jingrou has already collapsed: "You got what you want, you got what you really love, what about mom and dad?"

Xie Lansheng pulled the sides of Li Jingrou's trousers with both hands, his head was muffled, and he kept silent.

Li Jingrou pushed and pushed, cursed and cursed, all her strength dissipated, her legs went limp, and she fell in front of Xie Lansheng, she continued to push and curse, and later, Xie Lansheng hugged his mother tightly to his chest, No more talking, only constant sobbing.

Li Jingrou was also tired, she hugged Xie Lansheng back, and wept loudly, as if she wanted to vent all the grievances in her life to Xie Lansheng.

She is a mother who works very hard.

An hour later, when both of them finally calmed down, Li Jingrou stood up, wiped away tears, looked at Lan Sheng from top to bottom, and said, "Okay, get up."

"..."

Li Jingrou said again: "It is enough to bring him back once a year. The rest of the time you come by yourself, I don't want to see him all the time." After speaking, he turned and went back to the room.

"...!!!" The already dull brain finally received the information, Xie Lansheng was surprised and delighted, looked at his mother's back, and called, "Mom!"

"Also..." Li Jingrou's footsteps stopped, "You let him get up too."

Xie Lansheng didn't quite understand: "...he?"

Li Jingrou didn't speak anymore, nor closed the bedroom door, but changed her mind and went to do other things.

"..." Xie Lansheng had some doubts. He tilted his body and fell to the ground. He rubbed his knees vigorously, only to feel that his legs were useless.He kneaded for a while to make the legs straighter, and kneaded for a while to make the legs straighter again.Finally, he sat on the ground, propped his hands on the floor tiles under his body, stepped forward one after another, stood up little by little, took a step, and limped into his parents' room.

He looks out the window.

The moment Xie Lansheng looked out, his eyes widened!

He saw that in a small corner of the yard, where passers-by could not see, Xin Ye was also kneeling silently, silently accompanying him.

That place is harder and cooler, because there is less opportunity to rest even if you can see it from the window.

Xie Lansheng's heart trembled violently.

He looked at the man who was usually aloof and thought, aren't you a great actor?Isn't it Mr. Xin?How can you kneel for a day and two nights?

So humble.

Lan Sheng's eyes blurred again.With trembling hands, he pulled out his mobile phone from his trouser pocket and called Xin Ye.

Through the window, in the midsummer sun, in the gentle light, he saw Xinye put the phone to his lips.

"Xin Ye..." Xie Lansheng looked at the man kneeling on the ground from the window, and said softly, "My parents just agreed... From this moment, they are also your parents."

(Part3 "2003" End)

The author has something to say: Part3 is over!Weep bitterly!Let's send a small red envelope in the comments of this chapter!Another big chapter!

Go to part4 in the next chapter.Because everyone knows what happened after 2005, the background is simple, and there may be two or three sentences every year, but the reforms in the film and some things about Lan Sheng will still be written, and red envelopes will be given out as usual.

In addition, parents and children who are related by blood cannot sever the parent-child relationship. Li Jingrou didn't quite understand it, and was misled by TV dramas.

【2015】