To Xia Xia

It's like covering your ears and stealing your bells, as if you can't see if you cover your head.

Li Jiashu rubbed the medicine on him, and Bai Xia trembled in pain, so that Li Jiashu didn't even dare to move, so he had to do it hastily, and after wiping him, he slapped him on the butt like a punishment, without slapping him hard , but very loud.

"Will you still be angry with me?" Li Jiashu helped him cover the quilt for fear that he would freeze.

Bai Xia's face was red, her eye sockets were also red, and there were traces of crying just now, "Don't dare."

This time he had a long memory, who knew that Li Jiashu, who was angry, was so terrifying that it seemed like he would swallow him alive.It's just that Li Jiashu guessed wrong, he didn't mean to be angry with him, he really wanted to separate from him.

No pair of brothers should be like them.

Bai Xia saw the dialogue between him and Li Jiashu on Ji Qing's computer that day. Although he didn't know where Li Jiashu had gone, but knowing that he was going back to China, he planned to break off relations with him based on Ji Qing's matter.

He was careful, Bai Xia hated this kind of person the most, and now he has become such a person.He originally planned to find a suitable time for Li Jiashu to "bump into" him and Ji Qing, and then everything would fall into place, but he didn't expect Li Jiashu to appear at a time he didn't expect.

The scene started to get out of control, everything started to get out of control, and so did his heart.

Li Jiashu was taken aback seeing him, "You're not allowed to say that kind of thing again, do you understand?"

Bai Xia nodded and shook his head, half understanding, "What are you talking about?"

"I don't like what I say." Li Jiashu said sternly.

Bai Xia should say that he knows, or admit his mistake obediently, and say that he will never say anything again.But he opened his mouth but said nothing. The 14-year-old Bai Xia never thought that he would not like Li Jiashu, nor did Bai Xia, without Li Jiashu, would his sky collapse?He didn't think so.But why can't we leave him?

Until this second, he didn't think that one day he would dislike Li Jiashu, maybe one day when both of them married someone else, he would still like him like this, just like he was 14 years old.It's just that many things in the world are not as people wish, and liking doesn't mean being able to be together.

He remembered a line from a certain movie, I can't be with you, but it doesn't mean I don't like you.When Bai Xia watched it, she thought, since she likes it, why can't they be together?Now he understands.In the face of ethics and morality, love seems too small.

He admitted that he was scared and wanted to back off.Just like he doesn't want others to say bad things about the person he likes, he can't bear the day when the feeling he prides himself on being a treasure is criticized by the world, and even becomes a synonym for abnormality and disgust in the world.

Even though Li Jiashu doesn't know the secret now, it doesn't mean he won't know it for the rest of his life.If one day he knew that he had that kind of relationship with his own brother, would he still say he likes it like he is now?

Or he will regret, feel guilty, or even feel disgusted and disgusted.

Bai Xia didn't even dare to think about it.

"What's wrong?" Li Jiashu looked at his eyes with tears again, "You really don't like me?"

Bai Xia didn't speak, but shed tears, and he heard Li Jiashu say again, "It's okay, if you really don't like me anymore, I'll let you go."

In the middle of the night, Bai Xia had a fever. His body was so cold that he instinctively burrowed towards Li Jiashu, and his whole body was roasting Li Jiashu like a small stove.

Li Jiashu turned on the lamp and woke up Bai Xia who was raving.

Bai Xia dazedly opened half of his eyes to look at him, Li Jiashu was getting dressed, "Bao, you have a fever."

Bai Xia bulged in a low voice, with a heavy nasal voice, and turned over while grabbing the quilt.Li Jiashu went to look for antipyretics, and took warm water. Bai Xia was in a daze and was given several pills by him.

When the sky was slightly bright, Li Jiashu raised his hand to touch Bai Xia's forehead, and compared it with his own temperature, it seemed that it was still burning.Bai Xia had already woken up, the fever made him feel uncomfortable all over, he had no strength at all, and felt uncomfortable no matter what.

"Uncomfortable..." Bai Xia felt that he was struggling even to speak.

Li Jiashu clamped a thermometer for him, and when he measured it, it was almost 39 degrees.

After putting the thermometer on, he got up and coaxed Bai Xia to get dressed. He kept getting under the quilt, making Li Jiashu dumbfounded.

"Let's go to the hospital."

Bai Xia didn't want to move, she shook her head, "No..."

"Baby, listen to brother." Li Jiashu said while putting clothes on him.

Ever since her grandma was hospitalized, Bai Xia has always resisted the hospital, "I don't want to go..."

His tone was so soft that Li Jiashu couldn't bear it anymore, but this matter could not be delayed, Bai Xia had no choice but dragged his heavy body to the hospital with Li Jiashu.

There was no one on the road at this time, and the two arrived in a short while.

Bai Xia felt very uncomfortable, and fell asleep after taking the drip, with faint moaning from her mouth.Li Jiashu asked for leave for both Bai Xia and himself, and went out to buy breakfast for him. The two of them haven't eaten anything since last night.

When he came back, Bai Xia hadn't woken up yet. He slept until noon, and the nurse had come to change the medicine several times on the way.

He just woke up with a fit of nausea, and before he could speak, he began to retch.

This frightened Li Jiashu, and made him vomit with the trash can, and kept stroking his back.

"Is it better?"

Bai Xia rinsed her mouth and nodded, her weak appearance made Li Jiashu feel distressed.

I thought I could go back after taking an IV in the morning, but Li Jiashu was worried about him, so he had to wait until his fever subsided before going back. It took two days, Bai Xia's fever turned from high to low, but it never recovered.

It was a fine day, with no wind and the sun shining brightly.Li Jiashu asked Bai Xia to go out for a walk, but he refused, saying that he had no strength.It so happened that the doctor came in, saw Bai Xia, then glanced at Li Jiashu, and asked him to go to the office with him.

"Are you Bai Xia's?" the doctor asked.

"I'm his brother." Li Jiashu answered quickly.

The doctor looked at the young man in front of him, lowered his head and remembered something, "Has the patient ever had vomiting before and low-grade fever that persists?"

Li Jiashu shook his head, he didn't remember it, "I'm not sure."

The doctor continued: "The medical records say that he has symptoms of anemia?"

"En." Li Jiashu nodded, "It happened before."

"What about the bleeding? Has the patient had any bleeding recently?" the doctor asked again.

Li Jiashu remembered that Bai Xia was beaten up by him that day, it seemed that he had bled a lot, except that time...

The doctor reminded him, "Gums, mouth, nasal cavity, and petechiae on the surface of the skin."

"He had a nosebleed some time ago." Li Jiashu thought for a while, after the doctor reminded him, he seemed to recall that he also tasted blood when he forced Bai Xia to kiss him that day, "It seems that there is still a mouth."

The doctor nodded if he got something, Li Jiashu was a little confused by his question, "Doctor, what's wrong with him?"

"I suggest taking him for a routine blood test."

Li Jiashu was taken aback, "Blood routine?"

"Yes, these are early symptoms of blood cancer."

There was a bang in the head, and a bolt from the blue struck. Li Jiashu seemed to have experienced a century, "Blood...cancer?"

The doctor looked regretful, "Yes, but it's just a guess."

For a few seconds, Li Jiashu's brain didn't work at all, as if all the parts of his body were on strike.He was stunned for a long time before he walked out of the doctor's office and returned to the ward feeling disappointed.

"What's wrong?" Seeing that his expression was not very good, Bai Xia asked.

Li Jiashu didn't want Bai Xia to notice the abnormality, so he quickly returned to normal, "It's okay, the doctor said your resistance is too weak, and asked you to eat more things to increase your resistance."

Bai Xia looked a little more energetic than before, but I don't know if it was due to psychological reasons, Li Jiashu always felt that his face was paler than before.

"Oh." Bai Xia had already finished her IV drip at this time, and took Li Jiashu's mobile phone to look up what could increase her resistance. After checking, her little face froze, "Ah, I don't like eating these the most."

Li Jiashu remembered that Bai Xia was not a picky eater before, but then he started to be a picky eater for some reason, so he didn't want to eat it, and he didn't want to eat it. Thinking of what the doctor said just now, he realized that Bai Xia was not a picky eater, but had no appetite at all, so he lied to himself that Do not like to eat.

"I just now..." Li Jiashu sat down next to him, he planned to take Bai Xia for a routine blood test before saying, "I just made an appointment for the two of us to have a general physical examination, and we will do it later."

Bai Xia looked up at him, "Medical examination?"

"Well, it's rare to come to the hospital for a physical examination." Li Jiashu was afraid that he would become suspicious, so he made up a lie.

Bai Xia didn't have the strength to make a fuss, but since Li Jiashu had already made an appointment, she had no choice but to agree, "Okay."

An empty stomach is required for the blood draw, Li Jiashu and Bai Xia both had eaten in the morning, so they only went for the test the next day.Li Jiashu accompanied him to draw blood.

He meant the blood test, and casually checked other items, but Bai Xia didn't become suspicious.Until now he couldn't digest the doctor's words.

"Are you all right these few days?" Bai Xia asked him.

Li Jiashu was a little absent-minded, "Well, it's okay."

"Don't you have to work?"

Li Jiashu shook his head, and was actually pushed by him with the excuse of being sick.

Bai Xia remembered that he was usually very busy and had been with her these two days, and felt a little sorry, "I think I don't have a fever anymore, so I can go home."

They were still waiting in line outside for the inspection report. Li Jiashu held his hand in the dark, unable to speak a word.