The Secret of Misfortune and Love

Detox, relapse, detox again, and relapse, many addicts in the circle have said similar things, since taking the first sip, it is like falling into the abyss of eternal doom, struggling to escape again and again, again and again Be tempted to push deeper into the quagmire. "Take drugs for one day, quit drugs for ten years, and want drugs for life!"

"Kyle, I'll help you!"

Facing Jiawen's kindness, Kyle directly kicked him out of the room, "I don't need it today, I met the lover of my dreams today, so I will take him as the object of my dreams."

Jiawen once proposed to fall with Nangongxue, but was rejected by Kyle. He said that he was forced to come into contact with this thing. He was not alarmist about the danger of this thing. He hoped that Jiawen could realize its danger. Dependence and tolerance, reject it, stay away from it.

"If you sneak the first sip behind my back, I swear I'll never see you again."

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"Kyle, is there nothing you believe is far from it? Can't you really knock it down?"

"Hehe, it doesn't matter anymore. The way I am now is no different from death. If there is the first bite, there will be no last bite. I will die sooner and be reborn sooner."

He is only 17 years old, but he lives like a walking dead, with no love in his life, maybe that love will never appear in this life.

At night, Nangongxue and Jiawen came to the moon bar they often go to. Although there is no explicit statement that this is a gay bar, everyone almost defaults to this in their hearts. It has been gathering gays from all over the world in Ottawa for many years, and this bar is well managed and fresh. There are few troubles and fights, whether it is to relax or hunt, it is a good place to go.

Nangongxue is a typical image of an oriental man, and his thin body is suitable for dressing up as a woman. However, the guy never thinks he is a girl. High heels, he is running counter to it.

After drinking a glass of fruit wine, Nangongxue looked aimlessly at every part of the bar, looking for something that could bring him excitement and money tonight.

Suddenly, his eyes froze in a corner where the light was dim and imperceptible. The man drank cup after cup like drinking water. His handsome and charming face changed expressions from time to time, such as a wry smile, such as helplessness, such as heartache, such as loss...

The man drank in a muffled voice, but Nangong Xue was obsessed with that man's expression. He felt his heart speed up. It was him, the man who saved him during the day, the oriental man.

Nangong Xue hesitated, wondering if sticking to her at this time would cause more impatience, because this person seemed to dislike her very much during the day.If it was normal, he would only care about so much, just how to catch the fish, but this time...

Watching the man staggeringly go to the bar to check out, Nangongxue smiled wryly and posted it. After watching him for so long, she even rejected the good things that other people invited. Are you a coward now?

The man frowned tightly at the bar. After he touched his pocket, it seemed that he went out without any money.

It's a godsend, Nangongxue leaned over in a desperate manner, and paid for Han Ling's drink with a smile on his face, a total of three thousand Canadian dollars!Being rich is self-willed, but I am poor!

"Hey, uncle, did you come here by car or by taxi, you drink so much, how about I take you back?"

The man looked impatient, and said coldly, "No need."

Then the man seemed to be thinking about something, and then he smiled. This smile made Nangongxue feel a pain in his heart, because what he saw in the man's smile was pain. "Uncle, you laughed so ugly just now!" Nangong Xue actually said it, frowning, "There is a saying in China, Xiaobi..." He couldn't remember the original sentence, even though there was I have studied Chinese because I am Chinese, but I have not been in contact with it all year round, and I am still not very proficient.

"Laughing is uglier than crying!" The man added, and Nangongxue opened her eyes very excitedly.

"Uncle, you are Chinese! I am Chinese too, and my name is Nangongxue!" After Nangongxue finished speaking, she regretted it and said that she slipped her tongue. She told him that she was Japanese and her name was Shanye Hongsi.But facing the person in front of him, he didn't seem to want to use that dirty identity, but told him the identity buried in his heart.

"Okay, don't follow me anymore!" The man seemed very impatient, and beat his head hard, probably because he had a headache after drinking.

Nangongxue hurriedly followed, "Uncle, you don't have any money in your pocket, how do you go back? The winter night in Ottawa is very cold! You are wearing a thin sweater and coat. I saw you drank so much in the bar just now. I didn't eat anything, my stomach must be very uncomfortable, let's go, I'll take you to eat something."

After finishing speaking, she couldn't help saying that she pulled the man away, Nangongxue felt that she had taken the wrong medicine today, knowing that the person in front of her had no money, she would actually take out all her assets to pay him for the drink, even though she had thought about it. He is kind, clinging to such a rich man, he may get more benefits in the future, but right now that thought is really not in his mind, the first thought in his mind is just to stay with him for a while, but That's good!

Passing by a French restaurant, Nangongxue swallowed her own saliva, and smiled apologetically at the man beside her, "I'll treat you next time, I'm poor, let's go and treat you to a food stall!"

When she came to the snack street, Nangongxue found that men's tastes were really not picky, or they simply didn't like the food at the street stalls. This one didn't work and the other didn't suit her appetite. She chose a good meeting but was rejected, and finally proposed to eat Chinese food can be regarded as reluctantly agreed.

Nangongxue swears that besides Jia Wen, this man is the only one he cares about all these years, and even specially bought him a drink that can relieve the stomach discomfort of drunkenness, and ran back to the rented house to give it to him because he was afraid that he would be cold. Bring your clothes over.

This night is really interesting, it seems that I haven't had this kind of experience of being alive in a long time.Nangong Xue is as happy as a child at the moment, but in fact he is really just a child.

Although she knew in her heart that her dirty and dilapidated place was not suitable for taking a man back, Nangongxue didn't know why, she just wanted to take him back, it had nothing to do with love - love had nothing to do with money, she just wanted to stay with him for a while longer.

"You're living in a real embarrassment!" Sure enough, this was the first comment the man gave after he came to his place.

"Haha uncle, you can barely stay for one night. I'll borrow the landlord's tablet computer downstairs for you to use. You can find your friend's contact information and leave tomorrow."

Nangongxue went out with a grin, and met Jiawen head-on. He hadn't seen such a bright smile on Nangongxue for a long time, so he couldn't help being very surprised. "Hey, Kyle, I have a guest. I have some money to earn today. Remember to treat me!"

"Shut your mouth, Jiawen, this is my friend, I'll borrow the landlord's tablet for him to use!" Nangongxue hated iron and steel, and kept winking at him. Subconsciously, he didn't want men to treat him as a prostitute. kind of person, despite the truth.

Unexpectedly, Jiawen actually bought a tablet today, and Nangongxue accompanied him to the room to get it. Jiawen's face was not very good-looking, as if his very good friend suddenly had another good friend, then he would have a reaction similar to jealousy.

"Ang, he is the one who saved me during the day and gave me a wad of money, but unfortunately, the money was spent on him again tonight, and he didn't bring any money when he went to drink."

"Oh, God, you're so crazy." As for the money wasted, Jiawen couldn't accept it at all, and said that he wanted to knock Nangongxue's head open to see if the nigga next door pulled black shit into it!

Nan Gongxue explained that she wanted to put a long line and catch big fish. Jiawen said it depends on your performance. If the fish escapes, it depends on your addiction. If you don’t have money to buy ice, it depends on whether you go to the toilet to eat shit.

Taking the tablet computer, Nangongxue went back excitedly, eager to see the man's smiling face, but he miscalculated, and when he entered the room, he saw the man lying on the broken sink in the bathroom, vomiting fiercely, and his heart ached. For a moment, maybe many people have long forgotten the feeling of heartbeat, but the feeling of heartbeat is really wonderful, you will love each other, you will be worried, and you will keep making up fictional scenes when you are with that person in your mind.

The way he looked at himself was a little frightening, Nangongxue didn't care about anything, she hurried over to pat him on the back to relieve, but the man pushed away her words of concern, and even pushed him down, he said, "Get lost Come on, don't touch me!"

"Uncle, I borrowed the computer!" Nangongxue was a little aggrieved, as if she had been stabbed by a knife, she was a little at a loss, the man's attitude towards him was very relaxed before, why is it so suddenly?

"I'll figure it out on my own, without your help. Hehe, that's what the so-called earning money means, but I really disappointed you. Although you tried every means to lure me here, I'm not interested in your body."

Nangongxue followed his gaze and saw that the drawer at the head of his bed was open, and his face turned pale immediately. The things inside... were flirtatious things that some customers wanted. It turned out that the man looked at those .

"Uncle, it's not what you think. I just want to help you, and I don't have that kind of idea." Although it is true that he tried his best to win the attention and favor of the other party and brought him here, but it was really just pure thought. It's just staying with him, if he doesn't have this kind of thought, if he doesn't, how dare he expect it?

"Don't talk to me, cheap and dirty bedbug-like creature, I'll feel disgusting if I stay here for a second longer."

The man slammed the door and left, leaving Nangongxue stunned in place. He kept thinking about the man's disgusted expression and bitter words in his mind. He said he was a creature like a bedbug, hehe, no, it should be Yeah, you're a creature like a sewer rat, right?Dirty, wretched, and diseased.

There was some soreness in my heart, and my legs and feet were a little numb, but even so, I still had thoughts in my heart thinking that it was so cold outside, he was wearing such thin clothes, what should I do if I was sick?What if I can't get in touch with his friends?He has no money on him...

After leaving the door, Jiawen came up to ask worriedly, and the black man next door also came out to join in the fun, "Hey, Kyle, I'm not sure, there's no money to be made!"

Jia Wen was a little horrified by Nangong Xue's sad smile, because in the past, no matter how helpless and sad Nangong Xue was, she would never show such a smile that was uglier than crying. "If you don't have it, you don't have it. The money of that kind of person is too clean, and I can't afford it. Hmph, eat your instant noodles, nigga!"

After speaking, Nangong Xue had already cleared up her expression, and was about to go out with her usual indifferent and indifferent expression.

"Kyle, where are you going?" Jiawen was worried.

"It's okay, I'll walk alone, don't worry, I'll be back later."

"Okay, then you pay attention to safety."

After leaving the rented room, Nangongxue hid in the dark, following the figure of the man in front of her in this winter night, something in her heart shattered little by little...