My deskmate makes me unwilling to study

This year's college entrance examination happened to be two days on the weekend. When I arrived at the school on Monday, it seemed that there was a lot of space everywhere.

Sitting down with a stainless steel dinner plate, Zhao Yiyang poked the rice grains with his chopsticks, a little unaccustomed: "It's desolate and melancholy, without the group of high school animals who rob food and food, I feel a little lonely!"

Shangguan Yu was recording the taste of the new dishes launched in the cafeteria today, adding to his imperial cuisine manual, and replied without raising his head: "You only need to pass one summer vacation, and you will become the group of 'senior seniors' grabbing food." Animals that grab food'."

Zhao Yiyang suddenly felt a lot of pressure, and almost plunged his head into the rice, acting like an ostrich who didn't want to face reality.

Xu Rui spoke rather vicissitudes: "We will also become legends in the end." Feeling that the topic was too heavy, he broadcast another new message, "By the way, isn't that tomb of clothes going to build an exhibition hall? It seems that it was hired by a company called 'Jianke'. The college entrance examination is over, and the first year of high school is about to go on vacation, and it is estimated that we will start construction when we make up classes."

Wen Xiao, who was eating, caught the word "Jianke" and vaguely remembered the name of the company Chi Ye was working with now.

In the afternoon, the class leader went to the office to get back a stack of "Intention Form for Remedial Lessons", one for every second grader in high school, which needs to be taken back and signed by the parents.The above two options, one is to agree to make up classes during the summer vacation of the second year of high school, and the other is to disagree.But everyone is open-minded - the latter option of "disagree" is a decoration.

Going home in the evening, Wen Xiao handed the letter of intent to grandma, "It was issued by the school and needs to be signed by the parents."

Grandma put on her presbyopic glasses and carefully read the content: "Remedial class time... need to make up one month's class? It's a bit long, so you only have 20 days left for your summer vacation?"

Wen Xiao nodded: "I heard from Zhao Yiyang and the others that the attached middle school has always been like this, and they also made up classes during the summer vacation of the freshman year of high school, so their progress is very fast."

Grandma picked up her usual dark green pen, signed "Agree" in the column of "Parents' Opinions", and signed "Lu Dongqing". The three characters are very strong.

Seeing that there was a stack of materials on the grandmother's hand, Wen Xiao asked casually, "Are you busy recently?"

Grandma subconsciously blocked the paper at hand, "I'm not busy, but there are some chores that need to be dealt with."

Noticing this detail, Wen Xiao recalled the few document bags he found at home two days ago, all of which were sent from Qingzhou University, with "Professor Lu Dongqing's collection" written on the back.Seeing that grandma didn't intend to continue the discussion, Wen Xiao didn't ask further questions.

After eleven o'clock, Zhao Yiyang made a video call and said, "Damn, Wen Xiao, brother Xiao! Help me! The second last question in the physics paper issued today, I think I was right, but I seem to be wrong again, on the verge of Baldhead, please answer!"

"I didn't bring back the paper." Wen Xiao picked up a gel pen and twirled it around his fingertips, recalling for a few seconds, "The question about the magnetic field? What happened when the electrons were ejected from the N-plate at time t=0 and hit the fluorescent screen?" time?"

"Damn..." Zhao Yiyang took a few seconds to recover his vocal system, "Damn it, there's not a single word missing, didn't you bring home the test paper, and you can memorize it so clearly?" He muttered comfortingly again. To myself, "I'm the one who made all the fuss, this is the boss' routine operation!"

It took 10 minutes to finish this question, and Zhao Yiyang heard the sound of "shua shua" writing. After finishing writing, he began to chat easily: "I told my mother about the school's make-up lessons, and my mother happily thought about it. Send a box of pennants to the school, and thank the school for taking me in for an extra month, so that I don't have the opportunity to block her eyes at home. Che, this is as if she is often at home. Wen Xiao, is there anything on your left? You always look over there, five or six times in ten minutes."

Wen Xiao's light-colored lips tightened, and the nimble pen in his hand landed on the page of the book. He lowered his eyes to look at the title, blocking all emotions: "There is nothing on the left, it is the bedroom window."

"That's it," Zhao Yiyang continued talking in the video, "Hey, I don't know if Brother Chi will come for the supplementary class."

Hearing the word "Brother Chi", Wen Xiao couldn't control the strength of his fingers, there was a slight "呲啦", the last stroke of "A" scratched the paper.

"What the hell, why is it twelve o'clock?" Zhao Yiyang exclaimed, "I hung up, I still have math homework to write! Can I still sleep tonight!"

After Wen Xiao said goodbye, he pressed hang up.

Ikeno...

Wen Xiao very slowly let go of his straight back, let himself lean back inch by inch on the hard back of the chair, and stared up at the ceiling.

Ikeno.

Tasting this name, the tip of the tongue is sweet, astringent, and slightly bitter.

Taking a long, long breath, the line of the chest rises and falls, shrinks to the extreme, and a clear sound of exhalation can be heard in the quiet bedroom.Wen Xiao bent her long legs, put her chin on her knees, curled up in the chair, her eyes were out of focus.

How long has he known him...?Transferred to Mingnan High School on February 24th, and now on June [-]th, [-] weeks, [-] days.

It's short, but it seems as long as a lifetime.

These days, every day is colorful, like sunlight refracted by a prism.

His eyelashes trembled slightly.

He hugged his knees and curled up in the chair for an unknown amount of time, until Jing Mi was startled by the ringing of the mobile phone.

Wen Xiao picked up the mobile phone that was buckled on the table, and he had already familiarized himself with the number displayed on it.

"Hey."

There was the sound of closing the door from Chi Ye. Hearing the sound, he should have just entered the house and changed into slippers.Afraid of waking Yaya up, he started to lower his voice until he entered the bedroom before returning to normal volume, "Don't ask me why it's so early today?"

Wen Xiao then asked, "Why is it so early today?"

"The things at hand are basically in the later stage. There are rules and regulations. Just make up for what is missing. There is not much to pay attention to, so today ends early and you can come back early. Uncle Zhang has taken on new things. I will try it and see if I can do it." I can’t also provide construction hardware this time, but if the negotiation goes through, I’m sure I’ll be very busy.”

"Hmm. Are you tired?"

"Not tired," Chi Ye said with a smile in his voice, "I can handle it."

"How long will you be leaving tomorrow?"

"Five, come back at seven, and send Yaya to school. By the way, I have to check her homework and recite the text."

Wen Xiao stared at his own shadow on the wooden floor, and said abruptly, "Today's intention to make up lessons for the summer vacation has been sent out."

After being quiet for a while, Chi Ye answered: "How long will it be, a month?"

"Correct."

Chi Ye's tone was pretending to be relaxed: "Zhao Yiyang and the others are howling again, they must have spent too long making up lessons while brushing up questions."

"Correct."

Ikeno tried to say a few more words, but he opened his mouth and only uttered a short syllable.

Quiet again.

Wen Xiao's throat felt aching, his Adam's apple moved as he swallowed, and the emotions in his heart collided, making him almost lose control of his emotions.

"After the college entrance examination in the third year of senior high school, several floors were completely empty, and there were many fewer people in the cafeteria. A few days before the college entrance examination, many people threw textbooks and papers downstairs. Circle. A few days ago on Children’s Day, someone proposed to celebrate the festival, saying that we are still underage and eligible for the festival, but Lao Xu rejected it. The life committee bought a lot of marshmallows last Monday, two for each person, and said that it was almost a festival. Old Xu was also given marshmallows, but only one, and the reason was that Old Xu was beyond the standard."

"Wen Xiao—"

"Cheng Xiaoning still stands at the school gate every day to check his appearance and appearance and is late. Old Xu brought the erhu to the office and wiped it several times a day. All the teachers in the office were seen doing aerobics together again, and it was discovered that the physics teacher was leading the team." Wen Xiao's voice became more and more hoarse, and at the back, his voice became even more tense, "You once said that your favorite thing is to attend school. So I will write down these things and tell you."

"Wen Xiao." Chi Ye's voice came out of the receiver, mixed with a weak current, and it was unknown who was hoarse than the other.

He tried to change the subject, wanting to say that the cafeteria was less crowded after the third year of high school, and that the person who was punished by Cheng Xiaoning for running around was really unlucky, and it would be too unkind to prevent Old Xu from celebrating the holidays, and the reasons given by the life committee were also very heart-wrenching——

However, these should have been discussed with Wen Xiao.It was news to me, but to Wen Xiao, it was already old news.

He seems to see the lives of the two of them as trajectories towards both sides, speeding away and constantly deviated.

Out of tune, no longer compatible.

"Chi Ye." Wen Xiao called out the name clearly, and asked him, "If you don't go to school, you can take the second exam for the college entrance examination?"

"I can take the test."

Wen Xiao continued to ask: "What about the major, 985, 211, can I take the exam?"

"can."

Wen Xiao closed her eyes: "The school you want to get into, can you?"

The sound of breathing from the receiver was intermingled with murmurs. I don't know how long it took before Chi Ye's hoarse voice sounded: "I can't pass the exam. I can't get admitted to that school."

It wasn't until something dripped on the floor that Wen Xiao realized that he was crying.He bit his lower lip tightly, without making a sound or leaking the slightest movement.

He watched helplessly that Chi Ye's life was at the end of his battle.

Their relationship is on the verge of collapse.

any idea?There is no way.

The malice of life is often rootless, but it can be pressed step by step and crushed layer by layer, making people dying and unable to struggle.

The only thing to do is to gamble with your life.

The tip of the tongue tasted the rusty taste of blood, and Wen Xiao judged bluntly that the lower lip should be bleeding.He stepped on the floor with bare feet, walked to the window, and looked at the window belonging to Ikeno from a distance, as if sparks were lit in his dark eyes.

He repeated the previous question: "Are you tired during this time?"

I don't know if I realized something, but after a few seconds, Chi Ye's voice rang in Wen Xiao's ear, very deep, like a heavy pendant: "I'm so tired, so tired that every night when I lie on the bed, I will doubt myself for a second. You will die and never wake up."

"But how can I die? Even if I really die, I have to climb out of hell."

"I watched my mother rescue that day, and I couldn't help thinking, why is it so hard and difficult, and the whole family died together, how clean and easy, isn't it?"

The ending sound was as soft as smoke, and Chi Ye smiled wryly, "But how can I have this qualification? I don't have this qualification. My mother tried hard to live on the hospital bed, and she never gave up for a moment. Ya Ya is only six years old, and she is the most beautiful woman in the world. I haven't seen anything yet. I can't find any other way except to continue...struggle and try my best to give them a hand. Wen Xiao, I can't find..."

His voice was so low that he could hardly hear: "I used to think that I was very powerful, but it turns out... I am not omnipotent."

Wen Xiao listened carefully to each word.

He stuck his fingers between his teeth, until the teeth pierced the flesh covering the joints, and bright red blood flowed down the back of the cold white hand, winding into a red blood line, he finally hid all the crying flaw.

He saw someone on the opposite side standing by the window, the warm light faded into the background, even if it was just a blurry figure, he could still draw every inch of the other person's lines in detail.

He thought that for the rest of his life, he would never like someone so much again.

If this relationship becomes a heavy chain that keeps you stuck in the mud, even though my hands are covered with wounds and blood, I must grit my teeth and take out the key, and open it for you with my own hands.

Maybe I already knew the ending at this moment, so I never said I love you.

However, now I regret that there were so many days and nights before, why didn't I say "like" and "love" a few more times to you.

Wen Xiao pulled away from the clenched knuckles, his lips and teeth were full of blood, and his mood was the same as the night of the first kiss, "Chi Ye, we--" His throat choked, and he suddenly realized that in 41 days, he had never said that they were together , Is there any reason to say the word break up.

"Let's just leave it at that."