hat and bandage
Chapter 63
Dreams are dreams after all, and most people will have varying degrees of forgetting after waking up.
Some people say that dreams reflect the deepest desires in the heart, and some say that dreams are a warning from a physiological perspective, and there are even sayings that they are predictive. The interpretation of dreams is strange, but more people just laugh it off. , after all, no matter what, it was just a dream. In this era, unless one had the corresponding ability or personality, who would take a dream seriously?
Obviously, Zhongyuanzhong does not belong to the former, and according to his personality, he will never forget a dream.
But that was just too weird.
The last part of the dream was chaotic, as if countless fragments were intertwined, and many details could not be remembered, but there was only one point, which even Zhong could not forget——
why?
He actually dreamed that Dazai lied to him, dreamed of kissing on the bed with his lover who was originally intimate, but the intercourse that was supposed to express love was irreparably changed when he was fed a strange drug.
[You agreed, agreed to leave with me. ]
The lover rubbed against him, repeating it over and over again in that deep voice, but in contrast, no matter how much he opened his mouth, he, as the other party, was unable to answer aloud.
It was a promise I never made.
That was originally not... and impossible to agree to.
The self in the dream did not agree.
So what about your real self?
It should be just a dream, right?
Nakahara Chuya has been covering his head and thinking from time to time since he woke up. Out of almost absolute trust in his lover, such confusion made him vacillate.
It should be just a dream, right?
But the too real and too sensitive dream is like pushing the dominoes with a little bit of insignificant force, which easily breaks the original balance and directly hits the soft core.
The barriers in the memory were gradually broken, and Chuya's absolute trust in Dazai in some respects also appeared cracks.
So inevitably, doubts arose.
The self in the dream did not agree, so what about the real self?
After waking up, I recalled it because I cared too much, but I couldn’t remember the details of the scene at that time, as if the plot of a movie was forcibly cut out, leaving only the beginning and the end.
Did I really... promise you?
With such confusion, he suppressed it in his heart because of the emergency. He has endured it from daytime until now. After all, he doesn't want to speak out about these uncertain personal matters in public, especially when the battle against the combination is won. , It's really disappointing to ask such a thing.
Everyone is happy, no matter how stupid you are, you don't know how to read the atmosphere, and you have to arrange a welcome party for Kyoka at night, and you still haven't found the important ring.Even though the combination was solved, Chuya felt that things were getting busy instead.Ahh, ever since I had that dream, nothing really goes my way.
Until now, when the two of them were alone, Zhong Yuanzhong finally had the opportunity to struggle to ask the questions in his heart.
"Zhongye, you are too straightforward."
Dazai slightly opened his kite-colored eyes to look at the orange-haired young man, then leaned his upper body slightly forward, and put his handsome face directly in front of Chuya:
"It's not tactful at all."
Dazai said, but he wasn't too surprised. Zhong Yuanzhong also had this kind of personality, and it was too difficult for him to fight with others. If it was the leader's order, he would still try to cheer up and try to test others, but in the face of For those who trust, it is natural to be straightforward.
Really a stupid slug who can't turn a corner.
You are already doubting me, but you still have expectations for me inexplicably?
It's like a child abducted by human traffickers turned back to question the murderer many years later. While expressing uneasy doubts, there is still a faint reliance on the false truth woven by the villains.
No matter how much he pretended to be calm, the emotion in his eyes revealed his true thoughts.
Can't help but bend his eyebrows, the curvature of Dazai's mouth is always just right.
The black-haired man did not answer the question, but said:
"Chuya, are you already starting to regret it?"
"what are you saying?"
"Do you regret leaving with me?" Compared with Chuya's slender and slender fingers, they looked much colder, even if they were wrapped in bandages, they could feel the coolness. Dazai gently held Chuya's face with both hands, letting The other party turned his head, and then, their foreheads were pressed together, and their blue eyes met the gloomy iris.
Even the just-right smile raised at the corners of his mouth could not conceal the strong emotions that began to grow in his iris-colored eyes, no, it was from the essence of his heart.
"Do you regret it? Staying with me... Or are you tired of the life of the detective agency? Hate this kind of life? Or do you already hate me?"
The aggressive words were spoken in a gentle tone, and the smile on his face was weird and sick. The man slowly brushed his lover's cheek with his fingertips, and the warm touch conveyed the vitality of life.
"Tired? Hate? What kind of nonsense are you talking about?" Zhong also frowned, "Whether it's with you or the life of the detective agency, it's just that it's impossible to get bored anyway, let alone Hate it."
He really loves this bastard man, and he really likes the detective agency.
but--
"However, Chuka will not let go of responsibility for the sake of feelings, will he?"
Osamu Dazai seemed to see through what the young man wanted to say in advance, and spoke.
"After all, Chuya has been a troublesome workaholic since before. As long as the work is not finished, he is unwilling to stop. Even if I say it is an anniversary, he refuses to stop work and go out with me to celebrate." Dazai said He showed a distressed expression.
"That's because you have too many anniversaries, one-week, one-month, three-month anniversaries, first kiss anniversaries, confession anniversaries, and a bunch of messy names, too many times There's no meaning to commemorate the day." Chuya subconsciously complained.
"That's because for me, every day I spend with Zhongye is worth remembering, and I don't want to miss it at all."
The sweet words of the black-haired and kite-eyed man are easy to come by, and I have seen him say such words to women when we were not together, but it is different from the gentleness and sincerity of today. At that time, Dazai's eyes were full of hypocrisy and carelessness. Like an empty body that can only pretend to be sweet-talking, his affectionate style is just his protective color, which made Chuya disgusted and disgusted for a long time at that time.
But it's different now.
Knowing that she shouldn't be soft-hearted, she still gave in helplessly under the man's coquettish words.
"..." Zhong Yuanzhong was also almost instinctively stunned for a few seconds. Every move of the black-haired man in front of him could always easily poke the softest part of his heart, and even the entangled questioning mood became much lighter.
Zhong also trembled his fingertips.
"No, don't change the subject." Nakaya was silent for a while, and couldn't help but lean back a few inches, putting distance between him and Osamu Dazai.
He was ruthless and bit his lower lip, "Just make it clear."
"I just want to know the truth about that time."
"I can't help what happened at that time anyway. Every time I recall it, my head throbs. Until now, there are only a few fragments, but I still can't remember the specific scene at that time."
Chuya lowered his eyelashes and moved his eyes away. He pursed his lips and said, "As the other protagonist of the incident, you should still remember it? Or—"
Chuuya's voice stopped.
Or.
Osamu Dazai let out a chuckle, and the upward arc of the corner of his mouth gradually increased.
"—Or, did I move something so that you can't remember?"
Nakahara Nakaya raised his head abruptly, and what he saw was Osamu Dazai's bright smile.
It's too bright, even the corners of the mouth are raised a little higher than usual, the eyes are also curved like a crescent moon, and the eyebrows and eyes are vivid. At first glance, it looks like an optimistic person, however.
There is a bottomless abyss in Dazai's kite-colored eyes.
There was no light at all, and it was covered with a layer of creepy emotions, and the dead eyes were strangely terrifying against the bright smile that was raised.
Under this man's handsome body is a monster that is incompatible with human beings.
Zhongyuan Zhongye's heart was beating violently, and his palms under the gloves seemed to be covered with a layer of sweat.
"Kidding."
Dazai immediately smiled and narrowed his eyes again, "Chuya just agreed to me normally, because of love."
"Because Chuya loves me, he is willing to leave with me. It's just such a simple thing. Then because of too much guilt, Chuya instinctively wants to forget that time. This is the instinct of the human heart."
"Excessive emotions will affect the function of the human body, so in order to protect the human body, the brain will actively forget some things. It is precisely because of this that Chuya can't remember."
"..."
Osamu Dazai said one by one, and Nakahara Nakahara looked at the other side blankly, only feeling the unbelievable absurdity.
because of love?
The reason why I can't remember is put aside for the time being.
How could I give up everything about the Mafia because of love!
The big sister Hongye who took care of him as his own brother is his cherished family, the respectable Mori Ogai is the leader he swore allegiance to, and he also has the responsibility of being a cadre. , Overturning his past promises, and all his subordinates who trust him will also be implicated.
Also, if I leave as a cadre, the forces of the port mafia will inevitably suffer blows, and it is not an ordinary low-level person who defected. As the strongest combat force, I am not just anyone can be substituted.
The two cadres defected, and they were still well-known [Double Black]. The mafia who lost them was greatly hurt, and there were countless organizations that wanted to take advantage of the opportunity to attack them.
It's just selfishness and irresponsible abandonment of everything for the sake of one's own feelings.
That kind of love is unbearable even by Zhong.
It is impossible for a healthy human being to have only one emotion, and a healthy life will not be bound by a certain emotion and abandon everything.
He will be so attached to a certain emotion that he is like a moth to a flame, he will abandon other people who cherish him, let go of all responsibilities, and hold on to that single existence as the whole of life, such a guy , How terrible the world in his eyes is.
...how fragile.
Because it is too heavy to put your whole life on one rope, if you accidentally break it——
That person's life has completely collapsed.
The author has something to say: I'm in the middle school, and it's really easy to be sick.
I like Chuya, a supernatural body with an inhuman body that carries true and sincere humanity, and Dazai, a human being who is disqualified in the world and walks on the edge of the abyss.
But the sad thing is that Dazai is not the only one in the world in this article, he cherishes all the people who love him, and although Dazai is loved by many people, he only wants Chuya's feelings, he can only rely on Chuya survive.
Don't worry it's still HE.
Some people say that dreams reflect the deepest desires in the heart, and some say that dreams are a warning from a physiological perspective, and there are even sayings that they are predictive. The interpretation of dreams is strange, but more people just laugh it off. , after all, no matter what, it was just a dream. In this era, unless one had the corresponding ability or personality, who would take a dream seriously?
Obviously, Zhongyuanzhong does not belong to the former, and according to his personality, he will never forget a dream.
But that was just too weird.
The last part of the dream was chaotic, as if countless fragments were intertwined, and many details could not be remembered, but there was only one point, which even Zhong could not forget——
why?
He actually dreamed that Dazai lied to him, dreamed of kissing on the bed with his lover who was originally intimate, but the intercourse that was supposed to express love was irreparably changed when he was fed a strange drug.
[You agreed, agreed to leave with me. ]
The lover rubbed against him, repeating it over and over again in that deep voice, but in contrast, no matter how much he opened his mouth, he, as the other party, was unable to answer aloud.
It was a promise I never made.
That was originally not... and impossible to agree to.
The self in the dream did not agree.
So what about your real self?
It should be just a dream, right?
Nakahara Chuya has been covering his head and thinking from time to time since he woke up. Out of almost absolute trust in his lover, such confusion made him vacillate.
It should be just a dream, right?
But the too real and too sensitive dream is like pushing the dominoes with a little bit of insignificant force, which easily breaks the original balance and directly hits the soft core.
The barriers in the memory were gradually broken, and Chuya's absolute trust in Dazai in some respects also appeared cracks.
So inevitably, doubts arose.
The self in the dream did not agree, so what about the real self?
After waking up, I recalled it because I cared too much, but I couldn’t remember the details of the scene at that time, as if the plot of a movie was forcibly cut out, leaving only the beginning and the end.
Did I really... promise you?
With such confusion, he suppressed it in his heart because of the emergency. He has endured it from daytime until now. After all, he doesn't want to speak out about these uncertain personal matters in public, especially when the battle against the combination is won. , It's really disappointing to ask such a thing.
Everyone is happy, no matter how stupid you are, you don't know how to read the atmosphere, and you have to arrange a welcome party for Kyoka at night, and you still haven't found the important ring.Even though the combination was solved, Chuya felt that things were getting busy instead.Ahh, ever since I had that dream, nothing really goes my way.
Until now, when the two of them were alone, Zhong Yuanzhong finally had the opportunity to struggle to ask the questions in his heart.
"Zhongye, you are too straightforward."
Dazai slightly opened his kite-colored eyes to look at the orange-haired young man, then leaned his upper body slightly forward, and put his handsome face directly in front of Chuya:
"It's not tactful at all."
Dazai said, but he wasn't too surprised. Zhong Yuanzhong also had this kind of personality, and it was too difficult for him to fight with others. If it was the leader's order, he would still try to cheer up and try to test others, but in the face of For those who trust, it is natural to be straightforward.
Really a stupid slug who can't turn a corner.
You are already doubting me, but you still have expectations for me inexplicably?
It's like a child abducted by human traffickers turned back to question the murderer many years later. While expressing uneasy doubts, there is still a faint reliance on the false truth woven by the villains.
No matter how much he pretended to be calm, the emotion in his eyes revealed his true thoughts.
Can't help but bend his eyebrows, the curvature of Dazai's mouth is always just right.
The black-haired man did not answer the question, but said:
"Chuya, are you already starting to regret it?"
"what are you saying?"
"Do you regret leaving with me?" Compared with Chuya's slender and slender fingers, they looked much colder, even if they were wrapped in bandages, they could feel the coolness. Dazai gently held Chuya's face with both hands, letting The other party turned his head, and then, their foreheads were pressed together, and their blue eyes met the gloomy iris.
Even the just-right smile raised at the corners of his mouth could not conceal the strong emotions that began to grow in his iris-colored eyes, no, it was from the essence of his heart.
"Do you regret it? Staying with me... Or are you tired of the life of the detective agency? Hate this kind of life? Or do you already hate me?"
The aggressive words were spoken in a gentle tone, and the smile on his face was weird and sick. The man slowly brushed his lover's cheek with his fingertips, and the warm touch conveyed the vitality of life.
"Tired? Hate? What kind of nonsense are you talking about?" Zhong also frowned, "Whether it's with you or the life of the detective agency, it's just that it's impossible to get bored anyway, let alone Hate it."
He really loves this bastard man, and he really likes the detective agency.
but--
"However, Chuka will not let go of responsibility for the sake of feelings, will he?"
Osamu Dazai seemed to see through what the young man wanted to say in advance, and spoke.
"After all, Chuya has been a troublesome workaholic since before. As long as the work is not finished, he is unwilling to stop. Even if I say it is an anniversary, he refuses to stop work and go out with me to celebrate." Dazai said He showed a distressed expression.
"That's because you have too many anniversaries, one-week, one-month, three-month anniversaries, first kiss anniversaries, confession anniversaries, and a bunch of messy names, too many times There's no meaning to commemorate the day." Chuya subconsciously complained.
"That's because for me, every day I spend with Zhongye is worth remembering, and I don't want to miss it at all."
The sweet words of the black-haired and kite-eyed man are easy to come by, and I have seen him say such words to women when we were not together, but it is different from the gentleness and sincerity of today. At that time, Dazai's eyes were full of hypocrisy and carelessness. Like an empty body that can only pretend to be sweet-talking, his affectionate style is just his protective color, which made Chuya disgusted and disgusted for a long time at that time.
But it's different now.
Knowing that she shouldn't be soft-hearted, she still gave in helplessly under the man's coquettish words.
"..." Zhong Yuanzhong was also almost instinctively stunned for a few seconds. Every move of the black-haired man in front of him could always easily poke the softest part of his heart, and even the entangled questioning mood became much lighter.
Zhong also trembled his fingertips.
"No, don't change the subject." Nakaya was silent for a while, and couldn't help but lean back a few inches, putting distance between him and Osamu Dazai.
He was ruthless and bit his lower lip, "Just make it clear."
"I just want to know the truth about that time."
"I can't help what happened at that time anyway. Every time I recall it, my head throbs. Until now, there are only a few fragments, but I still can't remember the specific scene at that time."
Chuya lowered his eyelashes and moved his eyes away. He pursed his lips and said, "As the other protagonist of the incident, you should still remember it? Or—"
Chuuya's voice stopped.
Or.
Osamu Dazai let out a chuckle, and the upward arc of the corner of his mouth gradually increased.
"—Or, did I move something so that you can't remember?"
Nakahara Nakaya raised his head abruptly, and what he saw was Osamu Dazai's bright smile.
It's too bright, even the corners of the mouth are raised a little higher than usual, the eyes are also curved like a crescent moon, and the eyebrows and eyes are vivid. At first glance, it looks like an optimistic person, however.
There is a bottomless abyss in Dazai's kite-colored eyes.
There was no light at all, and it was covered with a layer of creepy emotions, and the dead eyes were strangely terrifying against the bright smile that was raised.
Under this man's handsome body is a monster that is incompatible with human beings.
Zhongyuan Zhongye's heart was beating violently, and his palms under the gloves seemed to be covered with a layer of sweat.
"Kidding."
Dazai immediately smiled and narrowed his eyes again, "Chuya just agreed to me normally, because of love."
"Because Chuya loves me, he is willing to leave with me. It's just such a simple thing. Then because of too much guilt, Chuya instinctively wants to forget that time. This is the instinct of the human heart."
"Excessive emotions will affect the function of the human body, so in order to protect the human body, the brain will actively forget some things. It is precisely because of this that Chuya can't remember."
"..."
Osamu Dazai said one by one, and Nakahara Nakahara looked at the other side blankly, only feeling the unbelievable absurdity.
because of love?
The reason why I can't remember is put aside for the time being.
How could I give up everything about the Mafia because of love!
The big sister Hongye who took care of him as his own brother is his cherished family, the respectable Mori Ogai is the leader he swore allegiance to, and he also has the responsibility of being a cadre. , Overturning his past promises, and all his subordinates who trust him will also be implicated.
Also, if I leave as a cadre, the forces of the port mafia will inevitably suffer blows, and it is not an ordinary low-level person who defected. As the strongest combat force, I am not just anyone can be substituted.
The two cadres defected, and they were still well-known [Double Black]. The mafia who lost them was greatly hurt, and there were countless organizations that wanted to take advantage of the opportunity to attack them.
It's just selfishness and irresponsible abandonment of everything for the sake of one's own feelings.
That kind of love is unbearable even by Zhong.
It is impossible for a healthy human being to have only one emotion, and a healthy life will not be bound by a certain emotion and abandon everything.
He will be so attached to a certain emotion that he is like a moth to a flame, he will abandon other people who cherish him, let go of all responsibilities, and hold on to that single existence as the whole of life, such a guy , How terrible the world in his eyes is.
...how fragile.
Because it is too heavy to put your whole life on one rope, if you accidentally break it——
That person's life has completely collapsed.
The author has something to say: I'm in the middle school, and it's really easy to be sick.
I like Chuya, a supernatural body with an inhuman body that carries true and sincere humanity, and Dazai, a human being who is disqualified in the world and walks on the edge of the abyss.
But the sad thing is that Dazai is not the only one in the world in this article, he cherishes all the people who love him, and although Dazai is loved by many people, he only wants Chuya's feelings, he can only rely on Chuya survive.
Don't worry it's still HE.
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