Cannon Fodder Scum Gong's Whitewashing Manual

Shen Muchuan's movements were stiff, and he turned around slowly.

This scene has been repeated countless times in his mind, and he once thought about what kind of happiness it would be if he could hear it one day.But time has changed and things have changed. Under such circumstances, he finally heard Chu Yan say it with his own ears, but he only felt sour and distressed.

Shen Muchuan looked down and landed on the hand he was holding tightly to himself. He held it very hard, as if he was afraid that he would break free.

It was as if a giant whale had turned over in his heart, and his entire soul was being shaken. Shen Muchuan could hardly react, and could only be passively pulled by Chu Yan, unable to answer anything.

The air froze for a few seconds, Chu Yan didn't hear Shen Muchuan's words, his lips trembled, a little bit of uncertainty gradually appeared in his eyes, and his voice sounded obviously unstable: "Am I too sudden? I scared you... ..."

Shen Muchuan shook his head, the choked sound in his throat was almost uncontrollable, he slowly bent down and hugged Chu Yan into his arms, shaking his head: "No..."

I just feel sorry for...

Shen Muchuan sat at the door of the director's office, his back was tensed, and his whole body was so stiff that it seemed to be broken.

He has tried to contact various domestic and foreign experts in this area these days, but he still cannot stop Chu Yan from deteriorating his eyesight. He has always refused to accept this fact, but the prediction in his heart is so strong that it is even unavoidable. There is no buffer left.

At this moment, the door of the office was pushed open, and Shen Muchuan got up immediately. His expression was calm, and there seemed to be no change or turmoil on his face. Only the hand hanging by his side was clenched into a fist. Because of the force, the veins on the back of the hand All are rooted.

"Doctor, how are you?"

The director shook his head: "The rate of deterioration is faster than we imagined, and you and the patient had better be mentally prepared."

Be mentally prepared.

What preparation?Never... can't see it?

"It's not just invisible, what I mean is that the patient's other organs have gradually begun to fail, so you have to be mentally prepared, maybe..."

The doctor couldn't help but sighed when he said this: "There may be other complications..."

Shen Muchuan stared straight at the doctor, as if he didn't hear anything, and his consciousness seemed to be plunged into thick darkness, becoming a little dull.

"What do you mean?"

"Mr. Shen..."

"Other complications?" This sentence was like a muffled thunder, and Peng Di exploded in Shen Muchuan's mind, tearing up all the last layer of hope.

So what else was there to be taken from him besides sight?

Shen Muchuan breathed heavily, and stayed in place for a long time, and in the end he didn't know how he got back to the ward.

After the examination, Chu Yan's hospital gown hadn't been changed yet, and he was sitting by the window alone. The warm light came in from the glass window and shone on his bloodless face, showing an indescribable fragility.

Shen Muchuan walked over, bent down and hugged him silently, as if he could draw infinite courage from this embrace, as if all the fear and anxiety were not worth mentioning at this moment.

Chu Yan was stunned for a moment, and let him hold her. After a long time, she calmly said: "It's okay, I can feel it myself, and I'm getting used to it now..."

Shen Muchuan was completely choked up and speechless.

I don't know how long it took, Shen Muchuan gradually realized that something was wrong with the person in his arms, almost...putting all the weight on himself...

Shen Muchuan was suffocated in his heart, and looked down, but saw that his eyes were half closed, his chest was slightly heaving, his cheeks were pale, and the hair on his forehead was already wet with cold sweat. He stretched out his hand and found that his close-fitting clothes were also slightly covered Sweaty.

Shen Muchuan paused, breathing tremblingly: "What's wrong with you? When, why didn't you say it?"

Chu Yan smiled comfortingly at him, shook her head and said, "I'm just a little sleepy, don't be nervous."

Shen Muchuan's chest heaved for a while, and he couldn't help but blame himself. He was very tired after the checkup today, and he didn't eat anything, so he didn't realize it at all: "Then rest for a while, I'll get you Have something to eat."

After finishing speaking, he put Chu Yan back on the bed, and found that he was extremely exhausted, and fell into a deep sleep almost as soon as he got into bed. Shen Muchuan stood by the bed for a while before covering him with the quilt, and then closed it very lightly. door.

As soon as the door closed, 2333 saw Chu Yan opened his eyes, and asked himself to watch a movie.

2333 had nothing to say for a while, and reminded after a while: [This movie will be charged, you can only try the first 5 minutes. 】

Chu Yan decisively spent [-] points to buy a membership.

When Shen Muchuan came in, he found that Chu Yan was not asleep, so he walked over, frowned and asked, "Can't sleep?"

Chu Yan followed the direction of the voice, the corners of his lips curved, and there was a faint smile in his eyes: "Well, I remembered the past."

The smile was really not obvious, faint, Shen Muchuan was slightly taken aback, seeing his relaxed look, his eyes couldn't help softening: "What?"

"I remembered when we were young...you were really naughty when you were young, and you liked to fight with others when you disagreed, but you suffered every time, so you came back with injuries..."

His eyes were full of nostalgia, and his expression was also tender like never before, as if those memories were the most beautiful thing in the world to him.Shen Muchuan recalled the letters he had read, and almost every letter mentioned the past and was related to him.

What happened in the past five years has not been mentioned a word.

In the past five years, he never dared to think about it, because he knew that it was a heart-piercing pain, but this person could think back over and over again...

Shen Muchuan looked away and asked, "Do you want to eat something?"

2333 really respected himself, the host, from the bottom of his heart. He swore that the host would never remember what happened between him and the male protagonist when they were young. After experiencing so many worlds, he probably forgot all of them.

Chu Yan shook his head and said lightly, "I'm not hungry."

Shen Muchuan looked at him worriedly: "You haven't eaten anything today, just drink a little..."

Chu Yan frowned slightly, with a distressed expression on his face.

Shen Muchuan watched, gradually feeling powerless anxiety, and asked again: "Then do you want some milk?"

If it wasn't for being able to know his inner thoughts and getting along with him for so long, 2333 would never have thought that his host would be able to do such a thing, because on the surface it really couldn't be seen: [Do you want to drink seafood porridge?At this time, you don't need to pick any more, the things in your mind are impossible for patients to eat! 】

Chu Yan hesitated for a while, then sighed lightly, and nodded as if in compromise.

Shen Muchuan was busy until the end of the month, when he was on vacation. The past few days had been raining continuously, and the gray sky was raining like a thread, and the cemeteries in the suburbs were all shrouded in this hazy rain line.

At the end of the meeting that afternoon, when I came out of the company, I encountered a traffic jam. A black Bugatti was crowded in the traffic, and it was almost impossible to move.

After a while, the assistant opened the car door and got in with an umbrella. The suit on his body was inevitably stained with moisture from the outside. He had two bouquets of pure and white roses in his arms. The rearview mirror glanced at Shen Muchuan's face, and found that he was looking out of the window expressionlessly, and there were some unspeakable sadness under the steam.

The assistant sighed inaudibly, since Shen Muchuan left M city five years ago, he has never been back, let alone the anniversary of his death every year.

He didn't know how the other party forgave Qiao Yue. After all, if he couldn't even see his parents for the last time, it would be almost a lifetime regret. Can't help it.

But the last time he went to the hospital to deliver documents to Shen Muchuan, and when he learned that Qiao Yue was blind in both eyes, he felt very delicate.

The cemetery is in the suburbs of the south of the city. The land under our feet is humid, and the air is mixed with the smell of mud and grass. The mossy path, Shen Muchuan walked along the path, but was stunned when he raised his eyes.

The sky is dark blue, the rain is thin and dense, and the air seems to be covered with a layer of faint white mist. Looking through the rain, Shen Muchuan saw a man in a black suit holding an umbrella from a distance. The man stood in front of one of the tombstones, his back was thin and lonely, and his demeanor around him was unspeakably lonely, standing there as if he had merged with the entire silent cemetery.

Shen Muchuan's heart suddenly trembled violently, and he froze in place, unable to react for a while.

Brother, what is he doing here?

The cold raindrops fell on his face. The temperature in the suburbs was already much lower than that in the urban area. The rain wetted his clothes and stuck them to his body half dry.The wind blowing gently can make people feel a bit chilly.

I don't know how long it took, the sky gradually darkened, Shen Muchuan saw that he was still standing motionless in front of the tombstone, holding two bunches of simple and elegant roses in his arms, but he didn't say a word, and the clothes on his back were soaked by the rain. It became a dark color, and it looked very embarrassing.

Shen Muchuan gritted his teeth and couldn't help taking a step forward, but just as he was about to continue walking towards him, he saw Chu Yan slowly bent down and carefully placed the bouquet in front of the tombstone.

"I'm sorry, Uncle and Aunt..." His voice was deep and hoarse, and it sounded particularly desolate and fragile, as if he was about to be lost in the sound of ticking rain around him if he wasn't paying attention.

"I was wrong five years ago, and I'm still wrong five years later."

"But... Even if I'm really wrong, I have no other choice, because I can't bear him..."

"I'm still too selfish." He said with a self-deprecating smile: "It's just because I don't want to let him bear this suffering with me."

Intermittent voices drifted into Shen Muchuan's ears with the sound of the rain, and the whole world gradually turned into an illusory background with the rain, leaving only the person in the rain.

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