Cannon Fodder Scum Gong's Whitewashing Manual

The sound was extremely loud, and there was a thick darkness in front of Chu Yan's eyes. It didn't hurt to fall on the ground, mainly because he also tripped over the sofa next to him and the water cup on the coffee table, and the scratching sound between the sofa and the floor was so loud. It was especially harsh in the quiet night.

There was a click of the door opening from the side lying on the side, and then Shen Muchuan raised his voice in the dark, "What's going on?"

Chu Yan was only dazed for a while, and then he propped himself on the sofa and planned to stand up. Because only a few small lights were turned on in the living room, the light was not very bright. He froze when he saw his next move.

He only saw that Chu Yan seemed to be at a loss for a moment, and then he groped around the armrest of the sofa with both hands for a while. His movements were very cautious, as if he was afraid of knocking something down...

Although the headlights in the living room were not turned on, although the light was not bright, and the light was very dim, it was far from being able to see things.

Shen Muchuan even stopped breathing. For a moment, it was as if a thunderbolt fell and made people's minds go blank, but his heart sank to the bottom little by little without sound, and then trembled violently. There was a wave of panic and confusion, but the body seemed to be frozen, and it was almost impossible to move at that second.

But Chu Yan didn't seem to notice his arrival, and groped around the armrest of the sofa for a while, then made a gesture to use his strength to stand up.

But watching all this, Shen Muchuan suddenly seemed to be stimulated by something, and suddenly stepped forward and grabbed Chu Yan's wrist. At the same time, the blood that stagnated in his chest rushed to his limbs. Muke, even because it was so fast, it seemed that he could still hear the friction of blood in the blood vessels.

Shen Muchuan said with difficulty: "What are you doing...?"

After he spoke, he realized that his voice was shaking violently, and there was even a bit of imperceptible sharpness and loss of control in it, and the ending tune almost broke.

Chu Yan was taken aback for a moment.

"No, it's just that I didn't stand firmly just now..." Then I realized that I pushed Shen Muchuan away and stood up by myself.

Shen Muchuan stared at him closely, half-believing, but Chu Yan's expression and expression were very normal at this time, as if what he saw just now was almost an illusion, his gaze stayed on Chu Yan's dark eyes for a while, and suddenly Recalling Chu Yan's abnormal behavior in the past period of time in his mind, his heart suddenly missed half a beat, and then he made an action that he had never imagined.

——He raised his hand and waved it tentatively in front of Chu Yan's eyes.

The meaning of this action is obvious, it is almost strange to say that it is sudden.

But before he spurned himself in his heart for being stupid, he saw a scene that broke his heart and soul.

Chu Yan just blinked, and then said apologetically, "I just wanted to drink water, but I didn't expect to wake you up."

He didn't even realize what he was doing to him.

In fact, if a person is really invisible, his eyesight will be completely distracted, but Chu Yan is different, no matter his expression or eyes, he looks no different from normal people.

It's just too normal.

Shen Muchuan's eyes trembled, he couldn't believe it, his heart was almost frozen in an ice cave, a strong sour feeling came up from his throat, and even the ability to speak and think was completely deprived.

Chu Yan didn't hear the other party's answer, and there was a look of uncertainty and confusion on his face, but it was really fleeting.

Shen Muchuan saw his reaction in his eyes, and his heart trembled silently. Finally, he couldn't restrain himself any longer, pressed his hands firmly on his shoulders, and said hoarsely: "When? Why didn't you tell me? "

His voice was mixed with many inexplicable emotions, as if rolling in the depths of his throat.

Chu Yan was silent for a while, as if he was guessing the meaning of his words. He was stunned for a few seconds, as if he wanted to refute something, but he probably felt that it was useless, and there was a blank expression on his face. His complexion was not good-looking at all, and it was even paler at this moment.

Shen Muchuan looked at him, his breathing trembled, his eyes were red, and for a moment he felt that the softest part of his heart had been stabbed severely, accompanied by paralyzing pain, constantly stimulating the beating nerve endings.

2333: [Master Host, so you...can you see it now? 】

Chu Yan smiled, 【I can see it now, but I couldn’t see it just now. 】

2333 has nothing to say, pretending to be no different from a real blind person, the host, he is really good at what he does.

Shen Muchuan changed his hands from pressing his shoulders to tightly supporting him, but his hands trembled slightly uncontrollably: "If I didn't find out, are you planning to keep this from me?"

Almost all the buried emotions poured out at this moment, both despair, pain, regret and worry.He couldn't be sure what Chu Yan was thinking. In fact, he still couldn't understand it, whether it was five years ago or now.Just like before, he originally thought that Chu Yan loved him as much as he loved him, but it was just a trip back to China, and everything deviated from what he thought...

"Or, you don't think you need to tell me at all..." Shen Muchuan said with difficulty, "You didn't think about my feelings when you did those things five years ago, so why would you now?"

The sound of cicadas was heard outside the window, and the sound was far away, but the night was as thick as black ink.Chu Yan's expression moved slightly, his lips trembled heavily, and his expression was almost pale that could not be concealed.

Shen Muchuan's chest trembled, but he couldn't bear to say any more. He tried his best to hold back the emotions in his heart, poured a cup of hot water and put it in front of him, then turned and went to the balcony.

Although it is summer, the temperature at night is a bit low. After Shen Muchuan made a phone call outside and made an appointment with a doctor, the string that had been tense seemed to break suddenly without warning. Looking at the night like a long river, However, involuntarily, bad thoughts that were almost masochistic gradually emerged in my heart.

His thoughts were messy and illogical, and memories rushed over him. In an instant, he seemed to have returned to five years ago. At that time, he was abroad, and he suddenly received the news of his parents' car accident. When he got off the plane, he called Chu Yan several times. phone calls, but none of them got through...

Or maybe it’s like returning to every night in the past five years that was as silent as it is now, as if in the mud, surrounded by thick darkness, and no light can penetrate. ...

Shen Muchuan thought about it, and then buried his head little by little, his throat was hoarse and uncomfortable, his eyes were dry, but he didn't blink.

Fate is always like this, and there is always a way to give you the most fatal blow when you least expect it.

"Kidney organ failure, vision loss, if it continues to deteriorate like this, it may be permanent blindness."

The street was full of people at noon, the city hospital was worthy of its high cost, the environment was quiet and quiet, except for the occasional footsteps and the beams of light cast from both sides in the overhead corridor, the rest was quiet.

Shen Muchuan propped his hands on the glass, looking down at the busy traffic on the street, his head became dizzy for a moment, his knees softened, he wobbled, but he held on.

He lowered his head, and it took him a long time to hear the sound of approaching footsteps. Shen Muchuan turned his head suddenly, saw Chu Yan walking over, and was stunned for a moment, staring straight into his eyes.

The noon sun shines in through the glass on all sides, it is white and dazzling.

Shen Muchuan saw him coming, moved forward a few steps, and then stopped again.

Seeing this, Chu Yan walked towards him. The half of his face below the brow bone was sunken in the shadow, but his face was almost indifferent, as if he didn't have much touch or feeling for this result.

It was as if the person who was about to go blind was not him, but a completely irrelevant person.

But he is still so young, and his life is still so long, if, if... If he really will fall into darkness from now on, he can't imagine what kind of despair it would be.

Shen Muchuan wiped his face, straightened up, tried to make his tone sound a little more relaxed, and said: "This is not the worst outcome...don't give up, I..."

He wanted to say, I will always be with you, always by your side, but he didn’t know why he didn’t continue. Maybe it was because he felt it was redundant, or maybe he felt that these words had been said too many times, maybe the other party didn’t need it, or even just wanted to say it. I feel like a burden.

What's more, the truth is always precious for the first time, and it is worthless if you say too much.

Chu Yan turned his head and looked at him for a while, but didn't answer, then turned his gaze to the outside of the glass window, silent for a long time, his lips were almost transparent in the dazzling light, and then slowly said: "Well, what did you say? That's right...that's pretty good."

"Someone told me five years ago that if you do too many bad things, there will be retribution. At that time, I didn't really believe it... Now I think it makes sense..."

Since the goodbye, this is the first time he has taken the initiative to mention five years ago.

It's just that he used the word "retribution". Shen Muchuan felt that the softest part of his heart was bitten off by a poisonous snake, and penetrated into his flesh and blood, causing his internal organs to burn from the pain.

He gritted his teeth, and his voice squeezed out from the depths of his throat: "Didn't you say that everything in the past should be let him go..."

Before finishing this sentence, Shen Muchuan didn't dare to look at Chu Yan anymore, and left without saying a word.

Because he found that he couldn't refute it.

Even if he knew that he was also a victim of that incident five years ago, he knew that maybe he was not so cruel to himself, and he knew that he had done a lot for himself.But he still couldn't mind, he would always think that if it was him, he would never bear it.

How could he have the heart to put the person he loves the most in such a dangerous situation.

The meeting at [-]:[-] am did not end until [-]:[-] noon. The board members were very stubborn and stubborn. They quarreled for two hours over the cost of a project.

The assistant put the documents on the table, "Mr. Shen, this is Lin Yu's resignation application, and he has already communicated with the HR department."

Shen Muchuan paused for a moment, as if he was recalling who it was, and then he frowned and said, "Resign?"

Lin Yu is his brother's assistant, and he has been with him for so many years, so he should have a good relationship...

The assistant saw that Shen Muchuan was not in the right place, and said, "Yes, it was brought up a few days ago, and the duties have been handed over clearly."

Shen Muchuan just nodded and didn't speak.At this moment, the phone suddenly vibrated and the screen turned on. Shen Muchuan glanced at the time, then got up and pushed the chair away, picked up the coat on the back of the chair, and said to the assistant: "Say hello to the personnel department, follow the This month's resignation allowance will be calculated for him."

The assistant nodded: "Yes."

But as soon as he pushed open the glass door, he saw a person standing at the door.

Lin Yu stood at the door with his hand still in the posture of knocking, and put his hand down when he saw this: "Mr. Shen, it's not convenient for Fang to talk."

Shen Muchuan was restless and dull in consciousness, subconsciously frowned, and his voice sank: "I have something to do right now, just talk to my assistant about work matters."

The author has something to say: I really want to apologize to the readers for not updating for so long.Graduation and work are indeed very troublesome, but it is still not the reason for me to stop updating for so long without explaining.

I should have been responsible to my readers, that is, you, but I failed to do so.

There is always a burst of enthusiasm in doing things, and it is not thoughtful.

I am a person who likes to escape, and I dare not read comments when the update is interrupted, but in fact this is a very irresponsible behavior, I admit my mistake.

So here I solemnly apologize to you.

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