Cannon Fodder Scum Gong's Whitewashing Manual

"Like the bone marrow transplant you mentioned, in fact, if you can find a successful match in the chronic phase and the accelerated phase, you have a chance to be cured, even if you develop into the blast phase, you can still undergo transplantation, but... Unfortunately, it is now Completely missed the appropriate transplantation period, and the patient's body functions have gradually shown symptoms of failure, the operation at this time is actually not very effective, it just aggravates the patient's pain..."

Li Xi seemed to hear everything the doctor said clearly but didn't seem to listen to anything. Li Xi leaned back in the chair, her body was so stiff that she couldn't move, as if all the strength in her body had been exhausted.

A thick layer of black mist gradually appeared in front of his eyes, and his mind was buzzing. Li Xiding looked at the doctor and said with difficulty: "Then what do you mean...how long can he live?"

Dr. Li looked at Li Xi's reaction, and he couldn't solve the doubts in his heart. He clearly cared about this patient very much, and he looked like he had a close relationship with him, but if this is the case, then why...

However, as a doctor, he has no right to pry into other people's private affairs, but he still can't help but feel infinite regret.In the end, he just sighed for a long time, and said honestly: "It's probably about a month."

"One month..." Li Xi opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something else.

Dr. Li was terrified, but he saw Li Xi bent down suddenly, raised his hand and tightly covered his eyes.

"Mr. Li, are you feeling unwell?" Dr. Li was afraid that something might happen to him here, so he immediately stepped forward to support him, and asked hesitantly.

Li Xi shook his head, the hand that held his brow bone showed bruises, and he raised his head after a while, his eyes were bloodshot, and looked at the doctor with an indescribable gaze: "Even if you give him the best medicine, it is best medical conditions, is this not enough?"

Dr. Li choked, and after a while he smiled wryly: "Mr. Li, it would have been helpful if it had been earlier, but it is too late now."

In fact, that patient was completely dragged into such a situation. As a doctor, the last thing he wanted to see was such a situation. He was obviously a young and healthy life.

"But Mr. Li, I would venture to ask, is that patient your friend?"

"It's not your business..." Li Xi stood up staggeringly, and interrupted him: "You just need to do your best to treat him, and I will send someone to deal with the cost issue tomorrow morning."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and strode out of the office. Dr. Li watched him leave, shook his head, and muttered for a while—I really don't understand their rich people.

At the end of the dark and cold corridor is a balcony, with the slight morning light coming in from the window sill, the little nurse led Li Xi to the door of the ICU intensive care unit: "Mr. Li, this is the place. Awake."

Through the transparent glass window, in the dead silence, even the beeping of the medical equipment inside could be heard. The sound seemed very cold and regular in the dim shadows.

The little nurse didn't know about their relationship, but the aura around Mr. Li next to him was too fierce and frightening, so she didn't dare to say anything else.

"Just go and do your own thing." Li Xi stood at the door for a while before opening her mouth without turning her head.

The little nurse responded, then yawned and walked away.

Li Xi stood outside the ward for an indeterminate amount of time before taking out her phone again and reading the text message with only two words over and over again.

What exactly did he want to say? Did he regret it?Do you regret the things you did to yourself?Or is there anything else to say...

Li Xi had no way of knowing.

All the strong love and hatred seemed to become illusory at this moment, whether his love or hatred, to a person who was about to die, it was insignificant at all.

Li Xi pressed his forehead against the cold glass window, and thought in a dazed and confused way: Why didn't he find the bone marrow match earlier, if he could find it earlier, he should still be able to survive.

Liang Fangyuan came to visit Chu Yan in the morning, but at the door of the ICU ward, she saw Li Xi who was sleeping on a chair, she was surprised, and lightly patted him on the shoulder: "Young man, why did you fall asleep here? "

Li Xi woke up from a chaotic nightmare, staring blankly at Liang Fangyuan for a long time before recognizing who it was.

There are still many similarities between Liang Fangyuan's eyebrows and Liang Suici, which makes it easy to associate the relationship between the two, not to mention that Li Xi has seen her photos before.

It's just that I didn't expect the first meeting to be under such circumstances.

"I'm Sui Ci's friend... I just heard about it last night. I'm sorry."

Liang Fangyuan seemed a little surprised, showing a little happy look: "That's it, thank you for coming to see him."

After she finished speaking, she turned her eyes to the ward, looked at Chu Yan lying inside and said, "My younger brother has been a bit withdrawn since he was a child, and he is not good at socializing with others. You are the first friend who came to visit him, wait He should be happy to wake up and see."

"Really?" Li Xi smiled bitterly, he couldn't tell the relationship between the two of them, maybe they weren't even friends.

Then he won't be happy when he wakes up and sees himself...

"Yeah." Liang Fangyuan turned to look at him: "But he usually wakes up in the afternoon, I think you should go back and rest now."

Liang Fangyuan could clearly see that he came here last night, his eyes were obviously black and his face was visibly haggard, so he was inevitably a little moved.

Do you usually wake up in the afternoon?

Li Xi's heart suddenly twitched, he called himself when he was the only waking moment, and he called for two days in a row, but he didn't answer.

He choked up a bit: "Then I'll come and see him in the afternoon..."

-

Li Xi came over at 12:30 noon. Liang Fangyuan was not there when he came, and Chu Yan was still awake.

There are too many instruments in the ward, Li Xi can only see the respirator covering most of his face, and the hand resting on the bed sheet.

He waited at the door for a while, and the vice president heard the sound and came over, and accompanied him carefully: "Mr. Li, do you want to arrange a room for a while, and we will tell you when the patient inside wakes up."

He still can't figure out whether Mr. Li has enmity or love with the person inside, so he doesn't know what to do.

If there is love, then the best medical resources will be waiting for him, and he will definitely be able to give him the best hospitalization experience comparable to a five-star hotel.If there is any grudge... then it doesn't matter, anyway, they are all people with one foot in the coffin.

"You can just spend more time on him, don't worry about me."

After hearing this sentence, the vice president understood it almost instantly, staring at Li Xi's sinking face, said repeatedly: "Don't worry about this, we will try our best to treat every patient."

Li Xi nodded, without a trace of extra emotion on his face.

The deputy dean is also a person with good eyesight. Knowing that he meant that he didn't want to be disturbed, he left after a few polite words.

After waiting for more than two hours, the nurse came to tell him that Chu Yan was awake. After swiping the authorization card, Li Xi was asked to put on a sterile suit and enter the ICU.

The surrounding temperature was a bit low, Li Xi walked over, only to find out how thin he had become in just two months, it was so frightening.

On the hospital bed, Chu Yan slowly turned her head and stared at Li Xi for a long time before finally seeming to recognize him.

Li Xi stood in front of the bed, staring at him condescendingly: "When did it happen?"

Chu Yan watched him open his mouth, and the respirator was immediately covered with a layer of white mist. He raised his hand and took off the oxygen mask by himself, his chest rose and fell slightly, but his tone was very ordinary: "About a month ago, now I want to It's ridiculous to think about it..."

Li Xi's eyes were quiet, and seeing him turn his gaze to himself, he gasped and said: "You come, do you have anything to say?"

He seemed extremely tired, and there was no blood on his lips. After waiting for a long time before Li Xi opened his mouth, he smiled slightly, lowered his eyes lightly and said, "Forget it, it's probably not a good thing, I still don't want to listen to it." gone."

The smile was so short that Li Xi wasn't even sure if it could be considered a smile. He originally thought that his heart was so painful that it was numb, but at this moment, it seemed that a cold steel needle had pierced into the flesh and blood. A kind of piercing pain, almost all the air in the lungs is taken away, making it painful to even breathe.

Li Xi closed her eyes and opened them again, her fists were clenched until her knuckles turned white, and it took her a while to hear her own difficult and hoarse voice: "Live well...I just hope you...live well..."

But the words were too pale, and all he could say over and over again was - live well.

In the chaotic mind, there was only one clear idea left.

Chu Yan was stunned for a moment, didn't speak for a while, and then sighed a long time. He said that people who are about to die have good words. He felt that even playing cannon fodder and slag attack should conform to this natural law, so he just nodded: " I see."

Li Xi didn't know why, subconsciously opened his mouth and wanted to say something more, but saw that he had already closed his eyes.

Except for the medical staff, no one else could stay in the ICU for a long time. Li Xi was able to go in because the hospital made an exception for him. After staying there for about half an hour, he was invited out by the nurse.

Li Xi watched the nurse put the oxygen mask back on for him, and said anxiously: "Next time, you can't take it off by yourself, it's very dangerous, you know?"

From then on, Li Xi came to see him every afternoon, but Chu Yan woke up less and less. Even when he was awake, he seldom spoke when Li Xi sat beside him.

Every time Liang Fangyuan came over, he could see Li Xi leaning against the door of the intensive care unit, his gaze made people feel unspeakably uncomfortable.

"Don't be sad, I think Xiaoci doesn't want to see you, a good friend, sad for him." Liang Fangyuan has long accepted this fact, only thinking that Li Xi might not be able to accept the news at first, so Sometimes I can't help but comfort him.

Seeing my younger brother in so much pain now, sometimes I even have a thought, since there is no hope, it is better to get rid of it as soon as possible, after all, it can save some suffering.

Li Xi shook his head, his nose was sore, as if he couldn't control his emotions anymore, he got up suddenly, turned and went straight to the bathroom.

He took a cup of water, looked up at his red eyes in the mirror, didn't go back immediately, but stayed on the balcony for a while.

Here at the end of the corridor, sunlight passes through the broad-leaved trees at the window, casting mottled shadows on the floor, so quiet that even the sound of leaves fluttering can be heard clearly.

There were footsteps coming from far and near, and it was two people talking in a low voice.

"You said what is the relationship between the patient in Ward 416 and Mr. Li? I can't understand it now, do you know? Mr. Li comes every day, and he comes all afternoon."

"It doesn't make any sense. I still feel sorry for that patient. She looks so good and young..."

"Yeah, she looks really good-looking. It's a pity, and it's a pity. I thought that even if it didn't work that time, I could wait for the next match. I didn't expect to be infected suddenly."

Li Xi was just listening casually, when he said this sentence, his heart beat violently unconsciously, and his body tensed subconsciously.

"Isn't that the case with leukemia? Some people can live for more than ten years. Let's not talk about this kind of unlucky one... Who knows that if you miss it once, you will miss it forever."

"I can't figure out what these rich people think, I really can't figure it out..."

Ding--

The elevator door opened suddenly, and the sound of footsteps sounded, blocking all voices from speaking.

The hallway was dead silent again.

After Li Xi finished listening, his mind went blank, and he was stunned for several seconds before he could react. The nerves in his head were throbbing suddenly. He took a step, but his knees softened and he staggered.He hurriedly reached out and grabbed the window sill to barely stabilize his body.

His eardrums buzzed for a while before he remembered something and strode towards the director's office.

Dr. Li was reading materials in the ward when suddenly a nurse came in and whispered something to him. Before he could finish speaking, the door slammed open.

"Mr. Li..." As soon as he spoke, he was startled by Li Xi's appearance.

Li Xi looked at the doctor intently, his originally indifferent expression seemed to be mixed with ice, and his expression looked extremely violent, so he asked, "Is there a suitable match in the first place?"

Before Dr. Li could answer, he continued to ask: "Then why didn't you arrange surgery for him in the first place? You told me that the best period for transplantation has been missed, but when the bone marrow matching appeared at that time, the surgery could be arranged Deliberately delaying the treatment is the responsibility of your hospital!"

Dr. Li was startled when he heard his accusation, he hesitated for a while before he said carefully: "At that time we... didn't know that he was your friend, Mr. Li, otherwise..."

"I don't know?" Li Xi sneered, stepped forward and grabbed his collar fiercely: "This is the attitude of your hospital towards patients, disregarding human life and still being so righteous?"

His voice seemed to be squeezed out of his throat, and his teeth were chattering: "Okay... just wait for the lawsuit and get out of jail!"

The little nurse next to her was so frightened that she took a few steps back and leaned against the corner of the wall, not daring to make a sound to stop her but also not daring to go out.

Dr. Li was sweating profusely on his back, and he didn't dare to resist even being restrained by him. He gasped and said tremblingly: "No, Mr. Li, I think you have misunderstood. The successful donor temporarily repented, in this case, there is nothing our hospital can do..."

"Temporary repentance?" Li Xi was suffocating, and asked repeatedly in a low voice.

"Yes, this is completely the freedom of the donor, but our hospital has also worked hard for a long time. It is really that the donor's request at that time was too harsh and rude... He said that he would only donate after 500 million... We originally thought Wait until there will be a new matching type...so just..."

Who would have thought that this Mr. Li would come to Xingshi to question him now? If he had known this, he should have tried everything he could to win him back then.

"We take every patient's life very seriously, Mr. Li, you really misunderstood..."

Li Xi's body froze almost immediately. Suddenly, a terrifying thought flashed through his mind, and his heart stopped beating for half a beat unconsciously. Layers of paralysis spread from the depths of his brain. He tried to suppress the beating nerve endings, tried his best to control the trembling jaw, and asked, "Did what you said happen around NO.13 of this month?"

"Wait..." Dr. Li's mind was a little blurred by his fright. Although he didn't know why, he still searched in the medical records on the table and found the HLA partner of Chu Yan and the Chinese. Type report, the date is March [-]th, and then nodded: "The donor made this request on the third day after the matching was successful, probably on the morning of March [-]th.

Dr. Li looked at Li Xi, sweating profusely on his forehead.If Li Xi really wants to sue, then I'm afraid I'm really doomed...

Li Xi kept looking at him, as if she understood his words after a while, took the matching report from his hand and read it again and again, then raised her eyes to see Dr. Li who was still wiping away his sweat with a tissue .

Suddenly, he opened his mouth, moved his lips, and smiled silently.

No matter how much he thought about it, he couldn't think of it... It turned out that it was actually a call for help.

He kept guessing what that person was going to say when he called him, but he never thought it was like this.

He called himself almost immediately, that is to say, as long as he saw it, he could definitely save him... Because for him, it was obviously the simplest thing.

Smiling and laughing, his tears came down: "It turned out to be like this..."

As long as I answered that call that day, or answered that call the next day, even if it was the third day, it would be fine to see that text message...but what was I doing in those few days?

"Mr. Li, what's the matter with you?"

Li Xi shook her head, her teeth were clenched tightly, the veins on her forehead were exposed, her eyes were red and she staggered two steps while supporting the table.

Dr. Li stepped forward to support him, but he pushed him away.

The whole world was spinning, it was a feeling of being submerged to the point of suffocation, as if a flood was coming from all directions, Li Xi choked up sharply a few times, then bent down suddenly, supported the table and began to retch violently.

It turned out that he was begging himself to save him...

"Mr. Li—"

"Mr. Li—"

-

Li Xi didn't show up again for a week before Chu Yan could finally confirm that her mission had been completed.

The 1551 system basked in the sun on the window sill, and couldn't help urging again: [Master Host, this world mission has been completed, let's hurry up and go to the next one. ]

Chu Yan sighed: [Okay, anyway, it can't be cured at all. ]

This semi-comatose state lasted for another three days or so. Finally, after another emergency rescue with persistent high fever, the hospital issued a critical illness notice to the relatives.

Although he knew that this day would not be too far away, Li Xi and Liang Fangyuan were caught off guard when it came.

On the day he was transferred to the general ward, Chu Yan was even allowed to watch TV for a while, which happened to be the most popular variety show in the world.

[So handsome, this look is really standard for a romantic hero. ] 1551 A face is almost pasted on the screen.

Chu Yan ignored him, talked to Liang Fangyuan who was guarding the bed for a while, and then couldn't help but fell into a deep sleep. His medical orders and property notarization had been prepared, and he was ready to leave this world at any time.

Li Xi came here that night, the ward was very quiet and dark, only a small light was on by the bedside, and the red indicator light on the medical equipment beside it flickered from time to time.

He sat quietly for a while, then slowly took one of Chu Yan's hands, and then bowed his head very lightly and reverently for a kiss.

He opened and closed his lips, unable to make a sound because of choking: Are you blaming me?

All that responded to him was silence, Li Xi rubbed his eyes, finally lowered his head and pressed his forehead tightly on the back of Chu Yan's hand, not moving for a long time.

I don't know how long this posture has been maintained, but the monitoring instrument on the side flickered twice, and the curves with different frequencies suddenly fluctuated chaotically, and then silently drew a straight line without a trace of fluctuation.

At the same time, there were messy and noisy footsteps in the corridor, the wards were pushed away, and doctors and nurses rushed in together, surrounding the bed.

"Doctor, the patient's heart stopped, pulse stopped—"

"Heart compressions—"

-

Five years later, Li's company held a general meeting of shareholders, and Li Xi donated all his shares to the Leukemia Foundation.

Regarding Li Xi, the media only know that he has a homosexual and an adopted son who studied finance in country F since he was a child. That lover is well protected and has never appeared in public, so the media treats him This move was very curious, and there were different opinions and speculations about his decision for a while.

In March, the weather is raining more and more, and the spring is strong. The trees in the cemetery in the suburbs have been washed by the rain, and they look green and lush.

Li Xi was wearing a black suit, with black gauze on his arms, and the years had dyed the hair on his temples gray. He looked at the photo on the tombstone for a while, then slowly squatted down, and took out a handkerchief from his pocket Gently wipe clean off.

He was silent for a while, and then slowly said: "I seem to have been saying sorry to you all these years."

After saying this, he paused for a moment, looked at the still young face in the photo, put his forehead on the cold and hard tombstone, and then smiled slightly, but his tone was a bit melancholy: "But this year I don't want to say This is it."

Li Xi stroked the stele lightly: "Actually, no matter what I say, you probably won't be able to hear it."

The surroundings are quiet, only the slight sound of the leaves being gently brushed by the breeze.

"Sui Ci." Li Xi said in a low voice but cautiously: "I love you..."

It seemed that he realized that his voice was too soft. He hesitated for a while, fearing that the other party might not be able to hear him, then he repeated in a murmur: "I love you..."

He sat in front of the tomb for a while, said something, and did not get up and leave until it was getting dark.

Five years later, Li Xi died in a villa in P City at the age of 39.

——The cannon fodder version is over