i am your dog

"Stop." Chen Siqi was pulled into his arms by Shen Jiuyan.While restraining Chen Siqi's struggle, Shen Jiuyan said, "We have already said hello to Grandma, you send Lin Xuan to the hospital first... You hurt the person, so go quickly if you don't want to go through legal procedures."

"Let go." Chen Siqi's expression showed no excitement at all, instead it was terribly cold.He broke away violently, leaving several scratches on the back of Shen Jiuyan's hand.Lu Xiao stood up and patted the snow on her body, and accurately concluded, "Madman..."

Before he could finish speaking, something pressed against his neck.Blood snaked down and slowly smudged on the collar.Lu Xiao froze, her face pale.

Chen Siqi snorted coldly and kicked him to the ground.The knife stopped suddenly a few centimeters from Lu Xiao's heart.Shen Jiuyan grabbed his wrist and twisted it forcefully, causing the knife to deviate from its original trajectory.But Chen Siqi did not let go.

The backlit face is cold and ruthless in the dark. This is not playing handsome, but the sluggishness of a person after losing his mind.Chen Siqi's chaotic pupils were condensed with a layer of ice.He looked at Lu Xiao as if he was looking at a dead person.

Shen Jiuyan squeezed his shoulder, "Si Qi, let go."

"Madman." Lu Xiao repeated jokingly, lazily prolonging the two words. "Shut up!" Shen Jiuyan roared.

He couldn't appease a lunatic, but he believed that if this lunatic killed someone here today, he would definitely regret it later.

Shen Jiuyan raised Chen Siqi up and let Lu Xiao get away.

Lu Xiao lay there motionless, repeating the word lunatic.Shen Jiuyan forgot, from a certain point of view, Lu Xiao is also a lunatic.

He can't see others living better than himself, because he was originally excellent, and he also has someone he loves deeply, but now he has nothing, so he loves to hurt others' wounds.

"Jiuye, take Si Qi away..." Lin Xuan couldn't control his paralyzed limbs, so he sat up uselessly, "Brother, help me."

Lu Xiao looked up at him, supported herself with her arms and stood up slowly.

Chen Siqi let go of the knife in his hand, and stabbed Lu Xiao with his injured hand in the air.Shen Jiuyan kicked Lu Xiao's leg, and he barely dodged it by rushing forward.

Chen Siqi shook his body holding the knife, he dropped the knife and closed his eyes and said, "Crazy people don't pay with their lives, remember that.

"With his appearance like this, he probably won't attack again.

Lin Xuan looked at him distressedly. It's not that he has never seen Chen Siqi fall ill, and he also knows why he fell into such a situation.But no one can really share even a little bit of pain for him.

Lu Xiao came over to help him, but he couldn't even say an apology, he couldn't say it, every move now would irritate Chen Siqi.

So he left in embarrassment.

Silence quietly permeated.

Chen Siqi knelt on the ground slowly.He closed his eyes calmly, like an abandoned stone tablet.

gone…

let's all go...

He is the only one left in this world.That way he doesn't have to be afraid of his own sickness.

You don't have to pretend to live like a dog.

He's not fucking human at all!

"Hehe..." Chen Siqi sneered and slowly raised his head, looking at Yue who was obscured by thin clouds.The cold wind picked up the snow on the branches, and it fell like a white gauze, tactfully falling in the air.

His eyes were misty, and tears flowed down his cheeks and wet his hair.

If a bystander happened to pass by, he would definitely say that the man does not shed tears lightly.Such a sissy will definitely not be able to marry a daughter-in-law in the future.

A person in authority has seen it, and he will be at a loss.I don't know what stimulated Chen Siqi, why he is crying now, whether he is awake or not.

The relatives who understood him have long since died, and where is the lover who understood him.

He has long lost the ability to express, he is a passerby in everyone's eyes.There is no way to tell the story all over the body.

Shen Jiuyan knelt down in front of him, holding his hand, "Tell me what are you thinking?"

Is it An Xian's relentless pursuit or is he always called a bad boy at work, who has no ability and can only rely on his physical embarrassment?

It takes courage to be close to a person, but it takes life to understand a person.

Too many people have not yet experienced the pressure of society, and they shrink back just thinking about it.

He used to be the same way.

But he knew that if he didn't take the initiative, Chen Siqi would never come to him.

He could not and would not leave room for the other party.

"Tell me what's on your mind." No escape, no struggle.Chen Siqi shook his head slightly, his chin was pinched by Shen Jiuyan, and his floating gaze had to be frozen.

He trembled in pain, "Master Jiu..."

He is a lunatic, a waste who has no acting skills but is mixed in the show business circle.He was scolded and hugged, and played by An Xian.

What does he... exactly want?

What should he...how?

Crying is a woman.People willfully listen to rumors when they can't see them.Why are all the people happy to see other people being unlucky, but squatting in the corner and covering their mouths and laughing?Why should he be deprived of everything?

Shen Jiuyan let go of Chen Siqi's hand, Chen Siqi looked blankly at him holding his own knife, and gently drew a line of blood on the back of his hand, "If it's because of me, I apologize to you."

Beads of blood crawled out of the tiny gaps and flowed happily along the fair skin.

Chen Siqi's body trembled even more. He anxiously watched Shen Jiuyan self-harm, but did not move.

Shen Jiuyan made a second cut on the back of his hand, "If it's because of career, I'm sorry that the embarrassing news is also to increase the popularity. You have to learn to follow this rule."

"If it's because of An Xian, I'm sorry that it will take time for me to remove him."

"If it's because of Lu Xiao. As long as you don't want him to stand out, I can ruin his life."

Shen Jiuyan moved upwards along the back of his hand, cutting one knife at a time, without hesitation? "Ah!!!" Chen Siqi screamed and rushed forward, "Enough! Don't... hurt... yourself..."

He was almost madly grabbing the knife in Shen Jiuyan's hand, tearing up like a mad dog.

Shen Jiuyan threw the knife away distressedly, and hugged the trembling man tightly. "Then what about you, why do you hurt yourself and make me feel bad?" Holding Chen Siqi's injured hand to show him, the blood stains on the gauze were like a large group of blooming wintersweet.Chen Siqi withdrew his hand in an evasive manner, and kept repeating sorry, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

Chen Siqi didn't know what he should do now, should he stop or avoid, apologize or remain silent?It had been a long time since he had to think about such questions.

An Xian once ordered him to only have one person in his eyes, and to follow in the footsteps of only one person forever.He only needs to obey the orders of An Xian alone, without considering the world outside An Xian.

In fact, he has been ruined by An Xian.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." He covered his ears and curled up uncontrollably. He wanted to scream, but his brain lost the ability to control, and even the apology lost its sincerity.He also vaguely seemed to hear Shen Jiuyan stopping something, and Mickey Mouse was standing in the distance holding the injection.

"Chen Siqi control yourself, tell me what exactly do you want to express?" Shen Jiuyan stood in front of Mickey Mouse, even if he was seen at this time, so what, he was only worried about this person in front of him.

No one but a technician can control an out-of-control machine, he doesn't let him stop, even if he is crazy with him, he can't let him always be alone.

"I..." Chen Siqi murmured blankly.He didn't want to be seen, he was so ugly.The clenched fist left a row of crescents in his palm, and he curled up as hard as he could but couldn't hide his humble self.

"Chen Siqi, do you remember who I am?" Shen Jiuyan tried to hug him.In fact, Shen Jiuyan doesn't like physical contact at all, but a hug is warm, and it can surely soothe a wounded heart.

The person in the arms resisted fiercely.Shen Jiuyan ruthlessly strangled the other party's neck, and the pain of suffocation forced Chen Siqi to respond to Shen Jiuyan's question, "Master Jiu...Shen Jiuyan..."

Shen Jiuyan let him see the knife marks on the back of his hand that he had self-harmed just now, and covered his mouth to prevent him from apologizing, "This is my own injury, and it has nothing to do with you. If you can calm down, the wound on my hand is the only one." Significant."

Ten minutes, half an hour, Shen Jiuyan can wait.

His back was already wet with cold sweat, and the person in his arms curled up almost collapsed and fell into his arms. "I'm not a lunatic...Master...let me go..." His chest kept rising and falling, and his blurred eyes stayed on Shen Jiuyan's face, but Chen Siqi couldn't see who that person was, so he pulled him away when he was in the most embarrassing situation. Who is the one who let go?

No one knew how much he had to pay to walk towards him, neither did Chen Siqi himself, nor did Shen Jiuyan.

"Let me go..."

"Okay, An Xian will let you go, you are free now, you are safe." Shen Jiuyan hugged Chen Siqi, "But you can't give up on yourself."

Without answering, Chen Siqi said in a daze, "I'm not a woman...I...haven't sold myself..."

"You didn't." Chen Siqi, do you only see stains in your world?

Signaling Mickey Mouse to drive, Shen Jiuyan carefully pushed the medicine into Chen Siqi's body.Chen Siqi held his wrist, his sleeves were stained with blood.Shen Jiuyan tried to make him let go, but his wrist, which had been pinched purple, hurt very much.

"Don't go!"

Chen Siqi sat up suddenly with his eyes closed, almost falling down.Shen Jiuyan hurriedly caught the crooked body, he was still asleep, his body could not overcome the effect of the medicine, it was just the subconscious struggling for the last time.

Putting his body upright and covering him with a coat, resting his head on his lap, Shen Jiuyan held his hand to prove that he would not leave.

No matter when, people can understand each other, it is too little.

He never knew what attracted Chen Siqi to him, and made him break the shell that protected him without hesitation, revealing his most vulnerable side.This cannot be simply attributed to the broad and ethereal love or liking, but as a person who has degenerated into a beast, he is so dependent on him.

"Don't go..." The gradually steady breathing ended the previous madness.No one knows whether the price he paid for his struggle was worth it.

Because no one can see their own life and death in advance.

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