i am your dog

There is a cemetery in the east of the village, where most of the villagers are buried after death.Surrounded by mountains and rivers, it is still a good place from the perspective of Feng Shui.Lin Xuan didn't attend the third grandma's funeral because he wanted to catch Lu Xiao. He turned around happily in the cemetery.

I have to say that this cemetery is really big enough. The whole family is gathered in an open space, and everything is next to each other. If you don't pay attention, you will lose sight of it.This made people like Lin Xuan miserable who had never been to a grave.

The old rural rules do not allow people to wander around the cemetery at night, and even if you walk around after eating, you can't let the light shine on the tombstone.Lin Xuan walked carefully, always turning his head to avoid the ghost saying hello to himself.He stomped on the snow, but he was not lonely.

Unfortunately it was too dark.

The countryside has a wide field of vision, but a ray of moonlight cannot illuminate the frosty ground.Lin Xuan shrank his body into a stick, still feeling cold.Looking up at the road far away from the cemetery, the blurred lights are already out of reach.

He thought the cemetery felt cold because it had nothing to do with him.He didn't know these people, he didn't know their past.The feeling this place brings to him is just the fear caused by the interweaving of the unknown and the strange, as well as the fabrications from the world.

When he was distracted, he walked into the ancestral grave of a rich family. There was a black figure sitting in front of the tombstone with his back turned to him, shaking when he heard the movement.It was an old man who was smoking.

Lin Xuan didn't see clearly and was so frightened that his hands shook, and the light of the mobile phone just dazzled the old man's eyes.The old man turned around abruptly, and said leisurely with his back facing him, "Young man, are you looking for someone?"

I am looking for a living person.Lin Xuan swallowed the words that came to his mouth, thankful that he was still sober and did not say it.

Maybe someone will laugh at him for being cowardly, just like he is really cowardly.He does not respect God but is afraid of ghosts, believes in science and does not deny crooked ways.It's a bit like the grass falling on both sides of the wall, it depends on whether it is the ground or not.

He controlled his trembling voice, "I want to find the Lin family's ancestral grave."

The old man waved at him to signal him to turn off the phone light.Darkness instantly enveloped the cemetery.The cold air does not climb up from the feet, but suddenly rushes from all directions, swallowing people.

Lin Xuan's heartbeat suddenly accelerated.

"Are you Bai Xue's grandson?" The old man squinted his eyes and took a puff of cigarette enjoyment, and continued without waiting for Lin Xuan's answer, "Go straight ahead, and you will arrive at a dirt slope, which is easy to recognize. Oh yes , lower the lights, don’t wake up your senior and drag you down to play poker.”

"... "

No one wants to play poker with these scumbags!

Lin Xuan didn't remember who the old man was, and he couldn't see clearly after a glance.What's more, wouldn't it be more terrifying to see clearly that it was a dead man with a hole in his head at such a time?

He turned on his phone again and walked forward.

People always say that many memories of children will gradually be forgotten as they grow older, and the same is true for the elderly.But they are obviously forgetful, but they always remember things that have nothing to do with them.They will forget their loved ones, relatives and even themselves, but they will remember some old friends.

The old man may be a friend of grandma, a neighbor, may have given him toys and snacks when he was a child, but he can't remember.

The small slope is at the easternmost side of the cemetery, with a mountain behind it and a small dry river ditch at the foot.Lin Xuan stood on the slope, looking at Dugu's figure in the open space.

Lu Xiao sat on the open space with her knees hugged, her chin resting on her knees as if she was asleep.The moonlight coated him with a layer of loneliness.He has been assimilated by this place, and he can no longer find his former shadow.

In front of Lu Xiao was the new monument erected by the third grandma.The person lying in it disabled his hands, and he would never be able to hold a pen for the rest of his life.Because he is an art student, he cherishes his hands more than anyone else, but now he can no longer use them, can't paint, and can't do anything that ordinary people do easily.

So Lu Xiao hated his grandma.

Hate her for being pedantic, hate her for not being able to tolerate herself, hate her for not accepting herself from the beginning.

But now she is dead.Sleeping underground, he will never be seen again.

Only at this time will he remember that this person has raised him for many years, made him delicious dumplings, watched fireworks with him until late, and showed off his works all over the village.

But she died.

Neither hate nor longing is meaningless to a dead person.

All she did in the end was kick herself out of the village and re-enter the society.

She let a waste into the society.

how ridiculous...

Can a person who has given up be saved by relying on favors to send him out?This is not a fairy tale, of course Lu Xiao doesn't believe it.He completely gave up on himself, and then never thought of redressing it.

So be it.

He used to say that to himself.

Lin Xuan took a few steps forward and was stopped by Lu Xiao.

"What are you doing here again?" He jumped up on his arms, looking at Lin Xuan warily.Lin Xuan jumped down and kept a certain distance from him. He felt guilty about the previous incident, and most people would not be able to do such a thing if they were not forced to do so. "Come with me, you can't hang around here for the rest of your life."

"Why?" Lu Xiao came over and put a hand on his shoulder, "She pretended to be helpless...in fact...and...very...very...wanted to help me." He frowned, never expecting that he would stutter at this moment .

This is the second expression that Lin Xuan has seen him show. It is different from the previous indifference. It is a kind of spurning and loathing towards himself that is difficult to discover, subconsciously.

I don't know since when, he has also integrated into the rustic atmosphere of the countryside.The kind of difference that can be seen at a glance.But this difference is not a compliment.

Lu Xiao quickly put his hand down.He drooped his eyes as if making up his mind and said, "You, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, be careful... catch a cold." He shut up in despair.Lin Xuan said, "Since I have given up, why don't you want to go with me?"

Lu Xiao was about to leave but was stopped by Lin Xuan abruptly.Lin Xuan's words stimulated Lu Xiao somehow.His sanity snapped.Lin Xuan only had time to stop Lu Xiao's soft punch before he fell to the ground with his legs. The weight of Lu Xiao's weight on him made him unable to move.The forehead was hit hard by something, and there were stars in his eyes instantly.

The stone that hit Lin Xuan rolled around his head.It's just that Lu Xiao can't grasp the gravity the size of a fist.Just the moment the stone hit the ground, he woke up.

The heart that had been sleeping peacefully was awakened by fear.

Lu Xiao dazedly grabbed Lin Xuan's clothes and shook them, but did not respond.Before the trembling hand touched the opponent's breath, he was punched down by the person behind him.He lay on his back, without explaining or asking, but breathed a sigh of relief.

Chen Siqi withdrew his fist expressionlessly, and raised one foot ridiculously.He said coldly, "Send him to the hospital."

Lu Xiao closed her eyes in silence, Lin Xuan's rescuers arrived.

The author has something to say:

What is the relationship between Lin Xuan and Lu Xiao? (●––●)

There are no holidays in school, and the number of words and frequency of updates will definitely decrease in the future. Although I don't think anyone reads it (wiping sweat), I still come out and say it.By the way, I would like to thank a certain angel who has been following the article (love you)