stardust

"Daoist Xiao Xingchen, I brought the wine over here." Xue Yang patted the doorway outside Xiao Xingchen's door.

Xiao Xingchen opened the door.

The two sat at the table, Xue Yang put the wine on the table, picked up two wine glasses, and poured some warm wine respectively.

Xiao Xingchen silently picked up the cup and drank it. Although he didn't like to drink and wasn't suitable for drinking, he didn't know what else he could do besides drinking.

Xue Yang took out an amber candy from his neck, took it off, and handed it to Xiao Xingchen.

Xiao Xingchen took the sucrose with a little surprise, and then took off the sucrose from his neck, and it really was the same.He returned the two candies to Xue Yang.

Xue Yang held the candy and said, "There should still be differences between the two candies." He poured spiritual power into the two candies, and sure enough, the word "Xue Yang" appeared in Xiao Xingchen's candy. The words "Xiao Xingchen" are displayed on Yang Yang's candy.

"You recognized me a long time ago?" Xiao Xingchen asked as if he understood something.

"Yes. In that jade store, my amber candy suddenly glowed, so I looked for it and saw you and Yue'er walking together from a distance." Xue Yang took a sip of his wine.

"I don't know why when I saw you, things from my previous life came to my mind. At that time, I was shocked. It turned out that I made the three of you suffer so much. I don't know this life, do you still remember? Me? I asked sister Qing to keep Yue'er, to see your reaction." Xue Yang poured another glass of wine.

"How could I not know you? Your appearance hasn't changed, and Zichen and I have never left this world." Xiao Xingchen also took a sip of wine.

"That's why Yue'er stayed? She should have discovered me earlier than you. Who the hell is she? She is so young, but her spells are so high, she can actually bring the dead back to life." Xue Yang seemed to be asking Xiao Xingchen.

"He is my brother's daughter, and also my master's disciple of Baoshan Sanren. She has already saved me once. In order to save me, she left her parents and went down the mountain to find me. She stayed with me for three years. She was going back to the mountain to accompany her father. Mother, but now she has completely disappeared...how should I explain to her parents?" Xiao Xingchen seemed to be talking to himself.

Xue Yang was silent for a while, then suddenly asked: "Yue'er's lover is you, right?"

"I don't know, she never said it. You see, her heart is so white that she can't see anything clearly. Maybe this is the realm of a person who has attained the Tao. All our thoughts come from the heart , even though we keep our mouths shut, we are still very clear. Maybe we have not yet attained the Tao, so we can’t see the mind of those who have attained the Tao.” Xiao Xingchen said softly, as if to refute.

"But I know, she understands me. She has always helped me see my heart clearly." Xiao Xingchen continued, picked up the glass and drank a glass of wine, sweet and bitter, the person who understood him best in this world is no longer there .

"Your heart? Do you still want to save this world? The bright moon is clear and the wind is light and the starry dust is bright, but it also means that everything is sad for your heart. You are destined not to be happy, and you are destined to be very tired." Xue Yang continued drinking. Wine, the wine is a little cold.

"When I was able to see before, I judged right from wrong with my eyes, thinking that what I saw was right, and never thought about looking at myself; when my eyes suddenly lost sight, I was panicked and paranoid, thinking that I could look at this world with my heart I thought I could see the world and myself clearly; now, my eyes can see and my heart can see, but I still have to rely on Yue'er to save me. What am I thinking? I am also confused." Xiao Xingchen answered irrelevant questions, with a sad face bitter.

Xue Yang refilled Xiao Xingchen's glass, "Don't think about it if you don't understand it, you are always too demanding of yourself. Why are you still looking for me?"

Xiao Xingchen drank a glass of wine, shook his head and said, "If you asked me 'why I still look for you' before, I would tell you, I just wanted to tell you 'I forgive you'...Now, now, I don’t know why I am looking for you, maybe what I am looking for is not you, but myself, a self who never forgets you—my resurrection is not complete.”

Xue Yang smiled wryly: "Yes, actually I don't need your 'forgiveness' either, I just want the candy in your hand, that is the only sweetness in this bitter world."

Xiao Xingchen took out two candies from his sleeve, handed them to Xue Yang, and said softly, "Maybe these are the last two candies. Now my heart is too bitter, and the candies won't be sweet anymore."

Xue Yang took the candy, then raised his glass and drank it down.

……

The dawn was slightly dewy, and a ray of light hit Xue Yang's face. He woke up from the hangover and lay on Xiao Xingchen's bed.

Xiao Xingchen's breath had long since disappeared from the room.

"Let's go after all. No one can save anyone, life is just reincarnation again and again." Xue Yang sighed softly.