Born to be grass

"When are you going to hide until Professor Gu's calls reach my mobile phone?" Lu Changsheng lifted Chen Zhi's quilt angrily.

Chen Zhi actually woke up a long time ago, and when he fell asleep these days, he would dream of Gu Jingyang.Gu Jingyang in the dream was always far away from him, no matter how much he shouted, Gu Jingyang never responded to him, leaving him with an indifferent back, walking further and further away.

Seeing that Chen Zhi didn't answer him, Lu Changsheng changed the subject, "Tian Renshan died yesterday."

"what?"

"He was at the Beijing Port Wharf. He planned to smuggle to the United States by boat, but I don't know where Si Ying got the news. Si Ying found him, and then killed him with a dagger. After killing someone, Si Ying did not run away. , called the police.”

Si Ying would actually kill Tian Renshan?Among the seven people, Si Ying had the lowest sense of existence, and he didn't seem to care about anything.Even if they lived in the same house, Chen Zhi hadn't spoken a few words to him for more than ten years.But, he actually killed Tian Renshan?

"Will he be sentenced for a long time?"

"Although the murder was intentional, he surrendered himself, and Tian Renshan has a special status. Don't worry, I will hire the best lawyer to defend him."

"Why is he so stupid? Since he knows Tian Renshan's whereabouts, why don't he call the police? Why bother himself." Chen Zhi really didn't understand Si Ying, whom he had never been familiar with.

"If you want to know, then you can ask him yourself. He said he wants to see you."

As expected of Father Lu, the suspect will see you as soon as he says he will.

That afternoon, Chen Zhi met Si Ying at the detention center.

Si Ying's hair was shaved to a square inch, and he was wearing a uniform prison uniform. Compared with a year ago, he had lost a lot of weight, but he was still in good spirits.

"You want to see me?"

"I heard that you have a lover now?" Si Ying didn't answer his question, but threw him a question instead.

"Eh..." Chen Zhi didn't know whether to nod or shake his head, thinking of Gu Jingyang made his heart feel sweet and astringent.

Si Ying's voice is very pleasant, that kind of clear male voice, although he is already a prisoner, his voice is still as pleasant as usual. "Among the few of us, I have always disliked you the least. I sympathize with Erli, I admire Sangque Ling, I pity Wu Zhi, and you, I hate you. Obviously doing the same dirty business as us, You are just like a piece of white paper that cannot be dyed black. When you walk on the street, you are still a youthful young man in people's eyes. But we can't, our souls are already old, like monsters in human skin, already I can't look at the world normally..."

Chen Zhi didn't know that he turned out to be like this in Si Ying's eyes.

"But I still envy you, I envy you to start again. I thought killing Tian Renshan would end my nightmare, haha, only now I realize that the one who can't let me go is myself..." Si Ying covered her face softly Laughing, but the desperation and desolation in the laughter made Chen Zhi feel heartbroken.

When Chen Zhi heard from the guard, when he stood under the sun again, he was in a daze.

The memories buried deep in his heart, warm, unbearable, and desperate, flashed before his eyes.He never knew why he was alive.He is alive only because he fears death.

Tian Renshan died, and everything was over.

He's free, he can start over, and he has plenty of life left.

How should I live my life?Chen Zhi never thought about it.