Ask for peace of mind

Chen Shuang said that she kept her money in her schoolbag all the time, before she came to play, and she lost it when she was out of the yard.All the students in the yard, including Xu Wei'an, said they hadn't found any money, and then they searched the yard again, but still couldn't find it.

In the end, when the sky was getting dark and the ground could not be seen clearly, Sun Yulan took out five yuan and handed it to Chen Shuang, and said with a smile: "The money may have fallen into a corner of my house, you take the money first, When we find you later, it will be worth what you dropped."

"Auntie, how can this be done? How can I let your house go out? Just forget it if you can't find it." Chen Shuang declined.

"Take it, since you said you lost it at my house, you can definitely find it. Go back, it's already dark, there are blisters everywhere, it's not safe to walk at night." Smiling, he stuffed the money into Chen Shuang's pocket, Sun Yulan patted her on the shoulder.

"That's fine, aunt, uncle, let's go, and come to your house to play some other day." Chen Shuang didn't refuse anymore, picked up his schoolbag, took his classmates and left.

Xu Wei'an was very disturbed because he saw Xu Limin's face was very dark.After he finished locking the courtyard door, he heard Xu Limin's suppressed anger voice: "You son of a bitch, come here and kneel for me."

The kerosene lamps were already lit in the main room, and the shadows of the lamps were everywhere. Xu Limin's face was contorted with anger. Xu Wei'an didn't dare to disobey, so he hurried to kneel in front of Xu Limin.

"Tell me, did you take other people's money?" Xu Limin turned his head away and glared at Xu Wei'an.

Xu Wei'an felt his heart was about to jump out of his throat. He instinctively felt that what Xu Limin wanted was not his answer at all, but he still muttered: "It's not me... I won't steal other people's money."

"It's not you? It's not who you are. You're alone in the yard. They lost their money. If you didn't get it, it must have been stolen by a ghost." Xu Limin's anger rose, and he raised his hand and took off his liberation shoes, holding Heel pointed at Xu Wei'an and said angrily, "I'll ask you one last time, did you take it?"

Xu Wei'an knew that his answer would not satisfy him at all, but he shook his head and repeated: "It's not me... I won't steal from others... Ah!"

Before he could finish speaking, Xu Limin slapped Xu Wei'an hard across the mouth with the heel of his shoe. "I'll make you talk hard...You can steal things and lie at a young age. I'll let you study, so that's all you've learned, huh?" As he spoke, he slapped his head and face with the sole of his shoe.

Xu Wei'an's face immediately swelled up, swollen and painful, and he wanted to cry because of the pain, but he finally held back—maybe at a young age, he understood that no one loves you, and crying is of no use.

He could only kneel down and hug his head, narrowing the area of ​​the beating, but he kept repeating: "I didn't steal other people's money...I didn't...".

Xu Limin was obviously irritated by his attitude, he broke Xu Wei'an's hand covering his head with his hands, twisted Xu Wei'an's hand with one hand and pushed him to the ground, and took a shoe with the other hand to slap Xu Wei'an's uncovered head and face. "Tell me again that you didn't take it, and tell me again that I will beat you to death."

Xu Wei'an stubbornly kept repeating: "I didn't take it..." At such a young age, he didn't know what a principle is, but he knew that it wasn't his own, so he wouldn't take it, it wasn't his own crime, and he would never will admit.However, if he didn't admit it, what he got in return was the violent beating of the furious man beside him.

His face and head were swollen and painful, his arms and hands were in burning pain, his ears were "buzzing", and he couldn't hear any sound. He shouted loudly: "I didn't take other people's money!" His voice was broken. Yes, the vocal cords are hot and painful.Xu Limin obviously didn't intend to let the neighbors around him listen to the joke. Seeing him shouting loudly, he immediately slapped him on the mouth with his shoe.He whispered, "It's not me, I didn't steal anything...".Xu Limin acted as if he hadn't heard of it, and the shoes continued to fall on his head and face without stopping.I don't know how long it took, maybe Xu Limin was tired, and the shoes finally stopped falling on his head.

Xu Wei'an was in a daze. He moved his stiff and painful arms, supported his upper body, and sat up from the ground.Under the dim light, with his swollen and blurred eyes open, he could only see Sun Yulan sitting at the dining table with a sullen face, feeding two younger brothers and sisters who were watching and smiling. The rice bowl is gone.

When the buzzing in his ears subsided and the numbness in his body passed, Xu Wei'an's hearing and pain became clear.There was a stabbing pain in his scalp and a burning pain on his face, he thought that he must be a veritable pig's head now.At the dinner table, the children were coquettish, the mother was gentle and kind, and the sound of the three people's happy conversation slowly reached his ears.It's just that the excitement is theirs, and he has nothing.His heart was empty, and he just wanted to find a place where there were no such people to cry, or to find someone to rely on for a while, and to tell the hardships and grievances of his short life.Why doesn't he have someone who loves him?

"Your father is angry because it is not easy for our family to make money. We lost five yuan for nothing. If you stole it, we would not lose anything, but you didn't steal it. We were obviously blackmailed. Do you think he can't be angry? He works so hard all year round to pay for your schooling, and you are too worrying." Sun Yulan reprimanded him coldly after the meal, interrupting Xu Wei'an's messy thoughts.

"You don't have to eat tonight, and you don't need to go to your grandma's, just kneel here and think about it." Sun Yulan cleaned up the dishes and led her smiling children into the kitchen.

Until the lights were turned off, Xu Limin and Sun Yulan didn't talk to Xu Wei'an again.

Kneeling alone in the dark hall, Xu Wei'an was so hungry, but he didn't dare to move.Sun Yulan and Xu Limin lived in the next room, and as long as he made any movement, the two people next door who were not asleep could hear it.He also suffered from severe pain, headache, eye pain, face pain, ear pain, leg pain, and there was no pain anywhere.Although he had long been used to being beaten, he still couldn't bear it somewhat because of his weak body.The only thing that is better is the season. Fortunately, it is just autumn, or I will freeze to death or be bitten to death by mosquitoes.

Clutching his uncomfortable stomach, Xu Wei'an silently recited the text he had learned a few days ago, so as not to think of any food.Only in this way can he survive the long night.

When he was wronged and sad, he would not think about grandma, and of course he would not think about Wendi, because thinking about it is useless, it will only make people want to cry, and make people more vulnerable.He often thinks about not crying this time when he is wronged. When he sees his grandma in the future, he must cry aloud to vent his grievances. It can be seen that after seeing his grandma, all his grievances disappeared, leaving only joy .When there is no one to rely on, he can only force himself to grow up and be strong. When there are people he can rely on, in order to cherish the happy time, all the past pains really become the past for him.

When he woke up in the morning, he was lying on grandma's bed. Xu Wei'an had a fever and passed out.His body was already thin and weak, plus the severe drop in temperature at night in autumn, the beatings he had suffered, and many injuries on his body, all the factors combined made his body unable to bear it.Xu Limin and his wife were going to work in the field, so they put him here with the old lady.Xu Wei'an originally thought that his grandmother would slap him for being sick, but the old lady ignored him at all.He didn't know his own image, his upper body was covered with bruises, his head and face were covered with bloodstains, and he was bruised and swollen a lot, squeezing out his big eyes.Even if the old lady wanted to do it, she had nowhere to do it.

Grandma Xu got some incense ash for Xu Weian to drink.Xu Wei'an didn't understand the effects of these earth remedies, but the feeling of drinking incense ash was really disgusting, like eating a mouthful of earth.However, he dare not object to the old lady, and he will not object. He has to be obedient and sensible to stay in this house and go to school. drop out.He wants to seize the opportunity to change the status quo, so now he has to be obedient.

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I've been convulsing ~ helpless ing