Ask for peace of mind

Many things happened in more than two years, for example, Xu Wei’an’s cousin Sun Yue got married, and Xu Wei’an made braids (braids made of straw and then made into straw hats) during the summer vacation and saved about ten yuan. The private money of money is enough for his two years of junior high school tuition, and he found a profitable job in junior high school. If he persists, he will probably be able to save enough for his high school tuition.

At that time, it was the mainstream concept of educating children in rural areas to raise filial sons with sticks. From time to time, there would be scenes of children running around with a smile in front, and parents chasing after them with sticks.Sometimes Xu Wei'an was beaten severely, and the scars on his body persisted for many days. When he arrived at his grandmother's house, the old lady would naturally ask about it.Xu Wei'an couldn't bear the pain and grievance at first, so he told the old lady.Later, Xu Wei'an found out that although the old lady loved him, she believed in stick education, so Xu Wei'an stopped mentioning these things.

In fact, how could the old lady believe everything the child said, and she only regarded Xu Wei'an's grievances as a child's exaggeration.The old lady also understands that there is no blood relationship, and the in-laws' family may not be very kind to Xu Wei'an, but her daughter knows that she is definitely not a heartless person, and she will not watch her raised child be wronged.The old lady had been kind all her life, but she didn't know that her daughter was forced by her husband's family to change her mind because she had no children for seven or eight years after marriage.

Because Xu Limin couldn't bear children for many years, and Xu Limin was not considerate, Sun Yulan suffered a lot.Seeing that she has no children, she can only adopt a child. Not only does she have to continue to be scolded by her mother-in-law and her husband is cold-faced, but she also has to raise Xu Wei'an, who is not related by blood, as her own child. How could Sun Yulan like Xu Wei'an?Besides, not long after adopting Xu Wei'an, Sun Yulan became pregnant. She is not superstitious like Mrs. Xu.Seeing Xu Wei'an who reminded herself of being infertile for many years and occupying the position of her child at this moment, Sun Yulan wished that he never existed.It's just that Grandma Xu is superstitious and feels that Xu Wei'an has brought good fortune to the Xu family, so she is determined not to send Xu Wei'an back, so the Xu family keeps Xu Wei'an.

The old lady is getting old, and the wife doesn't care about things. The old couple can't do the work in the field. The rations are paid by the two sons. Although the sons are very filial, the family has to support two students, and the family needs Saving money for his son to marry a wife, food is barely enough to eat, and life is hard, so the old lady didn't bring Xu Wei'an back after her daughter gave birth, but she was afraid that he would be wronged, so she could only use the excuse that she needed Xu Wei'an to do it. Do some small work, take Xu Wei'an by your side to take care of him for two or three months during the winter and summer vacations, and also reduce the burden of the daughter's rations at home.

Xu Wei'an, who was already a junior high school student, met Wen Di again at his grandmother's house during the winter vacation.

Even though Sun Lin told him that Wen Di was waiting for him at his grandmother's house when he went to pick him up at home, Xu Wei'an still felt dazed when he saw Wen Di standing on the embankment smiling and welcoming him.

"An'an, do you still remember me?" Wen Di hugged him off the bicycle, smiled and pinched his little cheek.

"Little brother?" Xu Wei'an still couldn't believe that the person he had missed for so long would appear before his eyes.

"How can An'an not remember you? Every time I come home, he will ask about you. Once he knows that you are not free to come to play, his eyes will be full of tears. The little guy who misses you, tsk, makes me want to I'm jealous of you kid." Sun Lin on the side joked.

Xu Wei'an blushed from being teased, and didn't dare to look at Wen Di's reaction, but couldn't help it, so he quietly glanced at Wen Di.

"Haha...Really? I really miss An'an too." Wen Di found it funny when he saw Xu Wei'an's reaction. He hugged him and rubbed him, which made Xu Wei'an's face even redder. I don't know if it was from embarrassment or being rubbed of.

"Okay, take An'an to the old house. I'll take the bike home and go there." Smiling at the two of them, Sun Lin pedaled away without waiting for a response.

"An An, thank you for giving me the things, I like them very much." Wen Di said, took Xu Wei'an's schoolbag, carried it on his shoulder, then took Xu Wei'an's hand, squeezed it, and pulled him towards the old house .

During the winter and summer vacations, Xu Wei'an would receive gifts from Wendi from Sun Lin, sometimes for food, and sometimes for exquisite notebooks for study.He doesn't have a lot of money, and he can't travel far, so he can't buy any decent gifts in return, but he really wants to give Wendi something.At the suggestion of his grandmother, he took advantage of the season to pick some pagoda tree rice, dig some chestnuts, and let Sun Lin deliver them to Wen Di.

Xu Wei'an touched the tiger hat on his head, looked up at Wendi with his small face and said, "Brother Wendi, I also like the gift you gave me very much." He pointed to the hat on his head, his eyes sparkled, He proudly said: "Hey, look at the hat, it's as good as new, I've protected it well."

In fact, he didn't just get a beating for the hat.No child in Murakami owns such a beautiful hat, and he is the only one who has it. Of course, he is envied by all kinds of envy.His younger siblings were also jealous, crying and fussing when they couldn't negotiate with him. Xu Limin and Sun Yulan rarely softened their attitudes and promised to make him a new dress for the Chinese New Year as long as he gave up his hat to his younger siblings. .He has been wearing all kinds of cloth since he was a child, and some are even stitched together from the clothes of his younger brothers and sisters. Of course he is happy to have new clothes, but the tiger head hat is the only thing he has owned since he was a child, and it is It was given by Wen Di, but he didn't want to give it to others, so he didn't agree.Afterwards, the younger siblings were crying and making noise, Xu Limin's face was so ugly that he beat him up for some reason, and Sun Yulan didn't give him a good look for half a month.After Grandma Xu found out about this, she also gave him a few ear melon seeds, and called him a white-eyed wolf who was not familiar with him.He will also distribute the exquisite notebooks and pens that Wendi gave him to his younger brothers and sisters, but he is really reluctant to part with the tiger head hat.Although it was very painful and sad, but the hat was not taken away, he felt that even if he suffered a few more beatings, it was worth it.

The fluffy hat reflected his dark eyes and round face, making him look very cute. Wen Di simply let go of his hand, bent down, put his arms under his arm and hugged him, He said with a smile, "An An looks really good on it. It seems that your brother and I have good eyesight." Then he twisted Xu Wei'an's little nose, and then teased Xu Wei'an with a sullen face and wide eyes, "Say, miss me without?"

Xu Wei'an knew that Wen Di was teasing him, but he nodded seriously, hugged Wen Di's neck tightly, rested his head on the other's shoulder, and secretly smiled.The strangeness and uneasiness brought about by not seeing each other for a long time subsided a lot with the hug and amused by the other party.

Wen Di tilted her head and rubbed his little head with her cheek, patted his back with a smile, and said nothing more.

When we arrived at the old house, there was a lively meal. The old lady hadn't seen Xu Wei'an for a long time and was very concerned about it. Now that she saw her, she naturally needed to show concern.After asking about it, the old lady was busy making dinner and went into the kitchen, and Xu Wei'an became the old lady's follower. He followed the old lady around the pot and stove, making the old lady a little dumbfounded.

Wen Di thought it was funny, and of course he was a little sour. He remembered that Xu Wei'an followed him like this two years ago, which made Sun Lin talk about it sourly for a long time. Tsk, it seems that he has fallen out of favor now.

How did he know Xu Wei'an's true thoughts.Two years have passed, Xu Wei'an is still a little carrot, he has grown up and is a real man.He has grown a lot taller, only his tail was left of his thin body in his youth, and he is strong and tough in his early youth. Although he is still sincere and sincere, he has matured and restrained a lot, and he doesn't talk much.Xu Wei'an has been studying him for two years, how can he not be happy to see him, but the two years of being a stranger makes Xu Wei'an uneasy: Will Brother Wendi not like me pestering him, will he think he talks too much?So in a corner he didn't know, Xu Wei'an's small eyes aimed at him from time to time, and when he saw his head tilted, he immediately retracted his eyes, afraid that he would see him, and also afraid that he would not look at him, his heart was beating wildly, That contradiction.

Although Xu Wei'an was a little uneasy, in the old house, he returned to the sea like a fish, relaxed a lot, and the smile on his little face never disappeared throughout the night.

Wen Di's father and cousin have already been transferred to the new place, and he is studying in Yanzhou City, so he probably won't have the chance to come to Baisha County in the future.Previously, Xu Wei'an had promised to come to play again, and Wen Di took advantage of the fact that he was not busy just after entering university, so this time the winter vacation came.Because it was not convenient to live in Sun Lin's house, and the old house had a place to have a bed, the old couple also liked this polite and respectful junior, so they cleaned up the West Room where the sundries were kept and let him live there.

In the evening, Sun Yue and Sun Yang also came. Just like two years ago, several children and two old people had a lively dinner.The difference is that the standard of living is now much higher than it was two years ago.Two years ago, white noodles were scarce, and they were usually only eaten during the Chinese New Year. Nowadays, almost every family can eat white noodles on ordinary days. The son of the Sun family is filial, and he can eat well. The life of the two old people is definitely not good. will be bad.Fine grains can already provide food and clothing, so the old lady feeds dozens of chickens and ducks with coarse grains.A rooster was slaughtered for dinner, which enriched the dishes a lot.

It was cold and dark early in the winter night, after dinner, Xu Wei'an didn't go to his uncle's house to say hello, and planned to go to his uncle's house tomorrow morning.Sun Lin was also tired from riding his bicycle all day. After eating, he dragged his younger sister, who wanted to hang on and continue to make trouble with Xu Wei'an, and Sun Yue and his brother.

Xu Wei'an and Wen Di helped the old lady clean up the kitchen, while the old man washed his feet while playing with the radio that Wen Di had just brought him.

Xu Wei'an will be 11 years old next year and is still short and small, about the height of the stove, so he can't help much.He sat on a low stool in the kitchen and watched Wen Di pour clear water into the pot with a bucket, and asked the old lady to wash the dishes and wash the pot with the pre-warmed hot water in the stove, and the three chatted occasionally.The dim yellow flame of the oil lamp was blown around by the wind through the cracks in the doors and windows, and the faces of the people in the room were flickering, but Xu Wei'an just felt that the atmosphere in the room was very warm, and everyone was comfortable and relaxed Yes, it also gave him the courage to speak out what was in his heart.

"Brother Wendi, I want to sleep with you in the same bed at night, okay?" He used to sleep with his grandma and grandpa during the winter vacation, but Brother Wendi finally came here once, and he really wanted to sleep with him.

Wen Di raised his eyebrows, and said with a smile: "Okay, it seems that you are not close to me anymore, let's have a good chat in a while, and see if my charm has declined." own face.

The amusing Xu Wei'an bent his eyes and laughed, and hurriedly said, "Brother Wendi, you have to believe in yourself, your charm is the greatest, no one else can match it."

"Pfft, An'an has also learned to be slick!" Wen Di couldn't help laughing, hugged Xu Wei'an and rubbed her.

Seeing that they were amused, the old lady smiled and said, "Then you and Wendi can sleep in the same bed. Your grandpa probably finished washing his feet, so you two should wash up quickly, so you can sleep warm at night."

"Okay, I'll bring the basin." Xu Wei'an was overjoyed when he got the approval letter, and went to the main room to get the basin in a bouncing manner.

"Grandpa, I will sleep with Brother Wendi at night."

"Oh, wash up early and sit in the bed to keep warm." The old man had finished washing, and sat on the bed listening to opera on the radio.

Xu Wei'an hummed, and poured some water from the thermos bottle and the river water in the tank to adjust the temperature.

"Brother Wen Di, the water is ready, you can wash it first." Xu Wei'an called Wen Di.He is a bit shy because he eats at home and goes to sleep with grandma after dinner. At this time, grandma usually has finished washing and will not leave him hot water at all. He hasn't washed his feet for several days, and his socks are all torn Now, with his big toe exposed, he felt a little ashamed, and planned to wash after Wendi finished washing.

"Let's wash together, the hot water is running out." Wen Di moved a low stool and sat on it, took off his shoes and socks, put his feet in the water, and then sat on another stool with Xu Wei'an , lifted Xu Wei'an's feet neatly, took off his shoes, and didn't say anything when he saw his exposed toes, but after taking off his socks, he couldn't help but smile and said: "An'an, how long has it been since you washed your feet? You can sell fish now.”

Xu Wei'an's face was completely red, he bowed his waist, lowered his head and buried his head in his chest, and said nothing.

Wen Di saw that he looked like he wanted to be familiar, so he didn't laugh at him again.After quickly washing his feet, drying them, putting on his shoes, he added a little hot water to the basin, tested the temperature of the water with his hands, and soaked Xu Wei'an's feet in the water.After soaking for a while, Wen Di didn't dislike it, so he hugged Xu Wei'an's feet and began to scrub them. After scrubbing clean, he changed the basin of water to wash it again, and then wiped it dry.

During the whole process, Xu Wei'an bowed his waist and bowed his head in a state of cooked shrimp, motionless, playing with Wendi.

Wen Di poured the dirty water back into the house, and found that he was still in the same state as when he left, not even wearing shoes. He couldn't help laughing but felt a little distressed.

She reached out to pick him up, put him on the bed in the west room, and stroked his head: "Do you want me to help you undress?"

Xu Wei'an quickly took off his clothes and pants, got into bed, covered his head, and didn't speak.

Wen Di: "..."

The child is shy...

Wen Di took Xu Wei'an's shoes to Westinghouse, said good night to the old couple, and blew out the oil lamp in Westinghouse.Wen Di groped in the dark, took off his clothes, lifted the child's quilt, and got into the bed, then ignored the child's awkwardness, hugged him into his arms, tightened the quilt, and pressed against him He whispered in his ear: "Let's have a good talk, don't be shy, huh?"

Xu Wei'an bit his lip, his eyes were foggy, his nose was sore, but he still opened his mouth and whispered, "You found out, I feel so ashamed..."

How can Wen Di not understand his mind, when we first met, he found that the skin on his face was damaged by frost, his cheeks were chapped, red and swollen, and there was almost no good spot; dry bark.This is the skin that a child should have.The skin of the nephews in the family is delicate, smooth and elastic, and it feels like egg white.Sun Yan, who is also a rural child, has soft hands and a slightly chapped face.Xu Wei'an's condition was obviously caused by only washing with cold water in winter.Wen Di saw that he was wearing worn-out and ill-fitting cotton boots, and guessed that his feet were probably also damaged by the frost.Sure enough, he half-forcibly took off his boots, and found that his feet were also frostbitten in many places.

Wen Di rubbed his head, comforted him with a smile, "It's okay, I did that when I was young."

Xu Wei'an's wet eyes widened in disbelief.In his opinion, the clean and fresh Wen Di has almost no smoke and dust on his body, and it is hard to imagine his down-to-earth appearance.

Wen Di's face was a little hot, he gave a fake cough, and explained in a low voice: "When I was young, my parents were busy with work, and no one cared about me. I fought with people all day long, and I got dirty all the time." He was in a period of turmoil when he was young , the family is in turmoil, parents are sent to different cities, he lives with his father, and his brother lives with his mother.It's just that his father is either working or being censored all day long. He is haggard and has no energy to take care of him.Besides, his father is still a rough man at heart, and he doesn't bother to pay attention to his living conditions.His father was sent down to that small town, and he couldn't get along with the children in the neighborhood, and he often fought with others, making him messy all day long.At the beginning when he came home, his father even taught him a few words and gave him a rough tidying up. Later, he was probably tired. Every time he went home, he would get some food for his son, and he didn’t eat it himself. How can I notice other details.So Wen Di was also dirty when he was a child, and he was not clean until he was able to take care of himself.

Seeing the sincerity of what he said, Xu Wei'an believed it, and felt relieved - he won't be rejected.

At this time, the rural children were basically like him. Because of the shortage of fabrics, they had very few clothes. In winter, they basically only had a set of cotton jackets.The clothes were tattered, not easy to remove and wash, and they were worn all winter, and there was a thick layer of black oil on the sleeves and neck.

Xu Wei'an lives on campus in junior high school, and there is no thermos bottle in the school.There are very few children with thermos bottles around, and they walk with their chins up. He has a bad temper and doesn't get along well with others, so there is no hot water available.Most of the time, I just wash it casually with cold water, and it can't be cleaned.When he returns home once a week, he can wash himself well with hot water, but sometimes the house doesn’t even leave warm water for him.At the beginning, he boiled water and washed it by himself, but Mrs. Xu was so rare that he burned firewood when he was not cooking, she beat and scolded him several times.In order to keep his ears quiet, he could only use it when the Xu family had some leftovers.

In the winter, washing the face, hands and feet with cold water resulted in chilblains all over the skin, and the skin on the hands and feet hardly dared to scrub hard, it was too painful.If you don't scrub, you can't wash it clean, it's dirty.Fortunately, Xu Wei'an didn't feel that there was anything wrong when everyone was dirty.It's just that now seeing Wen Di and seeing his clean and refreshing appearance, he suddenly feels ashamed.

But after hearing Wendi's dark history, he felt at ease. It turned out that everyone was like this when they were young...

Feeling that he was no longer nervous and awkward, Wen Di pulled the pillow, moved his head to his arm, and then adjusted his posture so that he could sleep more comfortably in his arms.

Xu Wei'an got rid of some sense of shame, adjusted his posture slightly along with him, and asked curiously: "Brother Wendi, what is university like? Tell me about your university life." There is not a single college student in their village For him, university is a temple, and college students are the sons of God, which he can only look up to and yearn for now.

"How to say the university, what it looks like depends on how you want to live it." Looking at his flickering eyes, Wen Di went on to say: "There are a large number of books in the university, which makes it easier and faster for you to learn knowledge. ; There are also all kinds of people, like a small society, to exercise your ability to contact the society; of course, if you plan to fall in love or something, there are many beautiful girls in the university, and the university has a lot of spare time, so you can do a lot what you want to do."

"Brother Wendi, how did you live in college?" Xu Wei'an still vaguely understands college, but he wants to hear Wendi talk about his college life.

"Ha, I'm just a freshman, and college life has just begun, so I don't have much to talk about."

"Then what are you going to do?" Don't give up.

Wen Di pinched his little nose helplessly, and said with a smile, "You still want to ask the bottom line." While thinking about it, Wen Di said, "The country's economic development is too backward, and there will definitely be big economic problems. changes. My major in college is civil engineering, and I plan to minor in economics, which may be useful after graduation.”

These are too far away for Xu Wei'an, and he can't understand them, but he will memorize them by rote and firmly remember what Wen Di said.He plans to spend his college life like Wen Di in the future.He admires Wen Di, and he wants to do what Wen Di has done, so it seems that the gap between the two of them is much smaller.

Xu Wei'an thought for a while, and asked in a low voice: "Brother Wendi, aren't you looking for a wife?" For some reason, he felt a little embarrassed when he asked, and his ears burned after he finished asking.

Wen Di replied frankly, with a smile: "I will not consider this matter for the time being, and we will talk about it when we meet a suitable one. You boy, how do you inquire about this? Could it be that you are enlightened and want to find a wife?" Said Then I reached out to touch his crotch, "Let me see, has it grown hair?"

Xu Wei'an is young, but his classmates are all thirteen or fourteen years old. Sometimes he would make a nasty joke about it, and he naturally gradually realized his shame, and hurriedly tried to stop him, but he was small and weak, so how could he stop him? Di touched twice lightly, and his shameful face turned red, but he heard Wendi say, "Oh, why are you still so small..." The shameless Xu Wei'an had no choice but to kick Wendi's feet in a muffled voice. Perplexed, he hammered it twice with his hand.

"Hehe, why are you ashamed? I remember the last time, you were still comparing me in size." Wen Di couldn't help laughing, but she was afraid that he would get angry again, so she hurriedly took his hand to tease him, "Hey, pounding so hard , Does your hand hurt? Come, let me see."

Xu Wei'an couldn't help laughing, but he thought to himself, let's touch it twice, or touch it back later.He withdrew his hand, touched the warm and hard body under his hand, and asked, "Brother Wendi, why is your body so hard?"

"Just exercise more." Wen Di stretched out his hand to touch the small body in his arms, and suggested with a smile, "You can start running with me in the morning from tomorrow. I heard from your grandma that you are weak, so you need to exercise hard."

"But...it's too cold in the morning." Although he wanted to exercise with Wen Di, but the winter morning was really cold, Xu Wei'an hesitated.

"You get hot when you run. If you don't have good health, you can't afford high school. How can you get into college, huh?"

"Okay, then call me tomorrow morning." When he heard that he couldn't study hard and go to college, he became anxious, and immediately agreed to exercise.He also wants to go to Yanzhou to go to university.

"So good." Wen Di rubbed his head, "Sleep, I'll call you tomorrow morning."

"Well, good night, Brother Wendi." Xu Wei'an rubbed Wendi's chest, listening to the strong heartbeat of the other party, and closed his eyes happily.

"Good night, Ann."

A good night's sleep.

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Finally stopped smoking~