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Knowing Lin Luxing's misfortune, she was actually relieved, although she immediately sympathized with her.

"Yeah, I'm sorry...I don't know. How could it be...but I just wanted to...happy birthday to you."

"It's nothing." Lin Luxing sighed faintly. "Come here." She said suddenly, "Come to the coffee shop where we met last time. I do have something to celebrate with you."

Jiang Luo put down his phone, opened the closet in a panic to find skirts, and made a mess of the closet.After putting on the dress, she combed her hair with one hand, and looked up the address of the cafe with her mobile phone in the other.It was very hot in summer, and she was sweating after only a few tossings. She was in a hurry to go out, so she threw herself in front of the mirror and put on some loose powder.The sun was shining brightly outside, and a short stay would cause sunburn. Jiang Luo walked through the cicadas without hesitation, and arrived at the rendezvous point four or ten minutes later.Lin Luxing had already arrived, and there was a glass of blue soda with ice cubes in front of him.

"What to drink?" Lin Luxing asked with a smile, and handed her the menu.Jiang Luo noticed that she had done manicures, and her blood-red nails were painted with black feathers.She is wearing a white striped shirt and black wide-leg pants today. Lin Luxing looks like a mature woman.However, she seemed to be in a good mood, which was a good thing. On the way here, Jiang Luo rehearsed countless times the scene of comforting Lin Luxing who was crying bitterly. She was not good at comforting people, so she was nervous and scared.Lin Luxing's current appearance made her feel relieved.

While she was looking at the menu, Lin Luxing took out a golden-red cardboard with a strong aroma from her bag and placed it in front of her.

"I'm getting married. Jiang Luo." Lin Luxing said, "You must come, I hope you can bless me."

Jiang Luo didn't believe what she heard at first, she thought she had heard it wrong.She didn't believe it until she grabbed the thick thing like a greeting card, opened the cover with the engraved Double Happiness characters, and saw the red and white paper trimmed with gold powder and printed with dark flowers of dragons and phoenixes inside.These two points are enough to make her stunned. The names of people, places, and hotels on it, bold fonts, and clichés that have been used for a long time, are as dazzling as swords and halberds. She has a thousand arrows piercing her heart.

"Wish what? What wish?" Jiang Luo held the invitation with trembling hands, as if holding a terrible poison, she shouted: "Is this true? Lin Luxing? Why so fast? How old are you, are you crazy?" ? You don’t study anymore? Does your family agree?”

"...What's the matter with you? Today is my 20th birthday! I have reached the legal age for marriage!" Lin Luxing was suddenly unhappy, looked at her with alienated and suspicious eyes, and whispered: "Go to college It doesn’t have to be unmarried. My family also agreed with me to get married early, and I didn’t get into a good university. They hoped that I would get married as soon as possible. His family—that is, my boyfriend’s family, has good conditions and can help us. We It was settled last week."

"You clearly know." Jiang Luo didn't listen to a word of her words, and repeatedly emphasized: "You clearly know that it is impossible to continue studying after getting married, you will no longer have free time, and you will no longer have time Now, you are not a child from the mountains, you have eighteen younger brothers waiting to be raised. Think again, this is too hasty, Lin Luxing, why bother..."

"Yes." Lin Luxing cut off her words abruptly, and she said forcefully, "Yes, Jiang Luo, you are right."

"But I can't take it. You don't know what I'm living. I'm too miserable. I can't take it. If I repeat another year, I will go crazy. I always think I have everything, what should I do?" Yes, I am excellent, everything is at my fingertips, I am too proud, I now know my mistake. I have no books to study, and because of my poor exams, my family said that I have no future and can only rely on marriage In exchange for money, no, I have nothing. After I finished the exam, I knew that I would not pass the exam. I shut myself in the room every day, and I didn’t understand why I lived like this. I looked at my face and my paintings. Very good, I can't accept this ending."

Lin Luxing stopped, tried to hold back the crying, covered his face, and smiled resignedly: "At this time, my boyfriend proposed to me, and his family disagreed, but he fought for it every day. His mother called me a □, Slut, he slapped his mother for this. No one can do this. He is the only child, and the family pampered him very much, and finally agreed to our marriage. His mother also forgave me. We started preparing for the wedding when the grades came out on the first Monday. He is about to go to Japan for an exchange in his senior year, and then he will stay in Japan to study for graduate school. He will go abroad in a few months. His family paid for me to go with him. Language school, then exams and studies. I am not crazy to marry him, I can get benefits, I am going abroad, Jiang Luo."

"So that's it." Jiang Luo squinted at her: "You got married so that you could study abroad, didn't you?"

"No." Lin Luxing said cruelly, she looked away, a little blush appeared on her face: "The main reason is that I love him, and I am willing to marry someone... who can save me from despair."

Jiang Luo's last bit of luck was finally broken. Moreover, there was a mysterious intuition, or the conceit of wishful thinking, which enabled her to be sure that Lin Luxing said this on purpose. Lin Luxing was actually not desperate, and there was nothing wrong with people like her. But desperate, she will only make others despair.She knew exactly what to do to make Jiang Luo despair.Jiang Luo couldn't stand her cruelty, she was hurt too deeply, ever since she realized her distorted feelings for Lin Luxing, she was in torment and pain all the time.In order to vent her anger, she held both ends of the invitation card and tore it from the middle of the big red happy letter, making a loud sound. She folded the fragments in half and tore them again, forcing the strong cardboard into strips. Throw it on the table.

"What are you doing!" Lin Luxing reacted and whispered sadly.

Jiang Luo didn't speak, just stared at her, she didn't know what she was going to do.The only thing that is certain is that she has never broken free from Lin Luxing's snare. The peaceful days of several months are hypocritical, and the healing of the wound is hypocritical. Her heart is festering and festering, being eaten by maggots. She herself is like a walking corpse, under the control of the witch Lin Luxing, and she will never be able to break free.Her self-control has collapsed, and now is the moment when Jiang Luo is the bravest and closest to revealing her heart. The frenzied emotion overwhelms herself, and will soon overwhelm Lin Luxing.If I watch Lin Lu hang out for a while longer, and stay in this coffee shop for a quarter of an hour, Jiang Luo will repeat the mistakes of the art festival, even worse than the art festival, she will confess, she can't bear the suffering, she will understand Tell Lin Luxing honestly what she has been through these days.She became a child in front of Lin Luxing, and obediently presented her weakness, because that weakness was the other party.

She was not completely destroyed in the end.Ten seconds later, half a minute later, she let out a snort, and then a long series of weird laughter broke the stagnant atmosphere, and Jiang Luo laughed strangely again.When she doesn't know what to do, she tends to cover it up with a smile.She laughed so hoarsely that her voice was almost creepy.She laughed and said, "I'm sorry, Lin Luxing, forgive me, I wish you well!"

Jiang Luo stopped laughing, shrugged his shoulders, pretended to be a frivolous rascal, and licked his dry lips: "But well, you should know that I don't have money to follow, I can't go. You shouldn't give it to me This invitation! I don't want it!"

The crisis went away, and things turned around in such a breathtaking fashion.Lin Luxing showed a relaxed and disappointed expression. She smiled, took the black leather bag from the chair beside her, and took out a simple wallet from it.

"I didn't expect you to contribute money to me." Lin Luxing reprimanded while counting the money. "But it's not good if you don't include red envelopes." She said to herself, counting ten pieces of 100 yuan.The pink banknotes flipped between her fingers one by one, and the bright, dirty, and sinful money shuttled between Lin Luxing's snow-white fingers and scratched her beautiful nails.Qian was hateful, and so were those nails, Jiang Luo stared blankly, this was her last insult to Jiang Luo.

"Take it, remember to come, you don't need an invitation to enter, I will wait for you specially."

Jiang Luo took the money and felt much calmer.She wanted to get out of the coffee shop quickly, but there was still an important problem to be clarified.She put the money in her small bag and asked, "Is that the man we met last time with you?"

"Which time?" Lin Luxing was puzzled for a few seconds, then remembered: "Oh, yes, it was him." She nodded: "We met this year."

Jiang Luo also nodded, but did not say goodbye to Lin Luxing.Instinct drove her out of the cafe.When she came back to her senses, she was standing at a busy intersection, the hot exhaust of the bus sprayed on her face, her hair stuck to the sides of her neck, and she was drenched in sweat, as if she had been doused by heavy rain.It was only then that Jiang Luo realized that she hadn't drank anything in the coffee shop. She was very hungry and thirsty, so she walked into a random restaurant, ordered some random dishes, and had a big meal. Many pieces.That afternoon, she set off for the train station. By God’s will, she had her ID card with her, so she could leave the city at any time and go anywhere. She bought the train ticket with the money Lin Luxing gave her. It didn’t matter where she wanted to go. , Jiang Luo randomly chose a place name from the big screen scrolling train numbers, just because it sounded nice.It was a far, far place. When waiting for the bus and after getting on the bus, Jiang Luo had to take out the ticket every few hours to look at it, otherwise he would immediately forget the destination.

It was not a satisfying trip, but a well-placed exile.The train was green and slow, extremely noisy, and salesmen were constantly scurrying up and down the aisles, selling expensive and cheap wares.The air conditioner was turned on very low, which could wake people up at night. Many people took off their shoes and socks, and threw melon seeds and orange peels on the ground.Everyone was talking, they either took this bus to go home, or traveled in groups, no one was exiled like Jiang Luo.Jiang Luo sat alone, looking out the window, the land flowed under her feet, she met and said goodbye to cities after cities.The train ran for more than 20 hours. During this period, Jiang Luo couldn't get up and move around, and she didn't talk to anyone. She listened to the noise around her ears. The huge world clearly reminded her of her loneliness. She was abandoned. There are neither lovers nor relatives here.

After getting off the car, she didn't go anywhere. After all, it was a strange city, and Jiang Luo didn't know anything about it.She took a bus and wandered around the city, switching from one route to another, and finally found a guest house with a cheap price and a relatively clean environment.Jiang Luo didn't think about safety at all. She booked a room for three days, and after getting the key, she entered the room and lay down.She just lay there for three days, didn't feel hungry at all, she went to sleep when she felt sleepy, and turned on the TV in front of the bed when she wasn't sleepy, watching various TV series to pass the time, the air conditioner was always buzzing Now, the old TV shows the love and hatred staged in different time and space, it has nothing to do with her, no matter what, everyone is loved, only she is not.On the third day, Jiang Luo got up and went downstairs to the lobby to book a room for another two days, but she fell on the carpet at the door. Fortunately, the carpet was very thick, so although she was in pain, she was not injured.She got up, knowing that if she didn't eat, she would die, so she ordered takeaway for herself.Afterwards, she lay in bed for another four days, ordering takeaway regularly every day, so as not to starve to death.She was running out of money, Jiang Luo didn't notice at all, she had no idea what to do in the future, she even thought that her life was over, completely finished, she was waiting for herself to die.Of course she didn't lose her breath. In the middle of the night on the fifth day, she was awakened by a phone call in her sleep. A string of numbers lit up on the display screen. It was Lin Luxing's phone number, and she could recite it.Jiang Luo picked it up in a daze.

"Where have you been?" Lin Luxing's voice was cold and full of sorrow, like a ghost at midnight: "Give me back my wedding gift."

After hearing her finish, Jiang Luo pressed the hang up button without saying a word, and then turned off the phone.She tossed and turned several times on the bed and fell asleep again.

In the early morning of the seventh day, when the morning light appeared on the snow-white curtains, Jiang Luo was awakened by the sound of a key opening the door. She opened her eyes in a trance, and saw that the door of the room was opened, and the bright and dazzling sunlight shone through the crack of the door. Entering, the narrow ray of light expands into a dazzling one, and the whole room is immersed in the beautiful sunrise.Then a fresh wind blew, Lin Luxing stepped into the small room from outside the door, and looked around the room where Jiang Luo lived curiously.

"Wake up." She stopped, looked at the bed, and said shyly, "I came to you... to collect debts."

Jiang Luo sat up abruptly, thinking that she was in a dream. She had indeed had a lot of nightmares in the past few days, and she was only compensated now.Jiang Luo was only wearing a single shirt, and it was wrinkled from her sleep, and his hair was all messed up, probably greasy.Her description was extremely haggard, and she was embarrassed to be seen with this haggard appearance.Lin Luxing sat down by the bed and smiled at her leisurely.

"I said it was your friend who came here to look for you. I told the front desk your name, your ID number and mobile phone number, and they opened the door for me and let me come in." She said with a smile: "The safety awareness of guest houses in small places is very poor."

"I'll report them sooner or later." Jiang Luo muttered, looking at her with dying eyes: "Are you... looking for me?"

"It's actually..." Lin Luxing said hesitantly: "It's actually our honeymoon trip, we passed by this place. Du Nasha found out that you are here, please let me come and find you." She quickly added: "Du Nasha is looking for you Many days."

"Oh yes, you are getting married." Jiang Luo's eyes dimmed suddenly: "Has the wedding been held yet? When?"

"It's not done yet, you tore up the invitation, so I don't know the date, and I forgot to tell you." Lin Luxing looked at her with pity: "He—that is, my fiance, who will not turn 22 in a few months , can’t get a certificate, so we took advantage of the summer vacation to go on a honeymoon trip first and then hold the wedding. The wedding will be on September 19, at [-]:[-] am, and I’ll send you the address later, it’s his birthday.”

"Honeymoon trip. And birthday." Jiang Luo smiled dryly, shaking his head. "No need." She waved her hand weakly: "I have classes that day. I checked the university schedule. I'm afraid I still can't go to your wedding, I'm really sorry."

"What's the matter with you? Can't you tell me?" Lin Luxing pressed Jiang Luo's hand, and looked at her face with concern: "There is really something wrong with you, why did you run away without saying hello, and didn't talk to you?" I contact?"

"It's okay. I'm okay." Jiang Luo turned her face away impatiently, she numbly repeated this spell-like words, it's the shield of the insane, used to evade polite concern and refuse everyone's help, Cut yourself off from the crowd.After a moment of silence, she still couldn't hold back, and greedily glanced at the face of Lin Luxing who was close at hand from the corner of her eye.Why does Lin Luxing always give her hope when she is about to give up her thoughts?She thought, is Lin Luxing really such a demon?Yet she was getting married, and that was ironclad evidence.This face, this hand, every inch of skin that Jiang Luo had ever admired belonged to someone else, so she could only look at it this way.Even such a malicious gaze may be judged as an unforgivable sin.

"I've been thinking about our high school days these days." Jiang Luo sighed and said, "Lin Luxing, do you remember? It was a few months ago, and it was so close. When I think back, everything is It's clear, but I can't go back. We're all grown up, you're going to get married, time flies by."

"I remember, I remember everything." Lin Luxing whispered like coaxing a child, she stretched out her hand towards Jiang Luo, opened her palm with the palm facing upwards: "However, I remember the purpose of my coming here even more, I found you with great difficulty, Please return my gift money to me."

"What should I do?" Jiang Luo fell back on the bed, put his hands behind his head, and smiled at the ceiling: "I have spent all the money."

She made up her mind to resign, at least she could retain the last bit of dignity.It doesn't matter if she returns the money to Lin Luxing later, Jiang Luo just wants Lin Luxing to understand that she will never continue to perform obediently according to Lin Luxing's arrangement.However, when she thought she had won, she suddenly felt a shadow cast from above. It was Lin Luxing who bent down and approached her.For the rest of her life, Jiang Luo would never forget the feeling of Lin Luxing's breath fluttering on her skin, her whole body tensed up, and Lin Luxing's lips almost touched her face.She couldn't see the ceiling, couldn't see the light, her eyes only had the reflection of Lin Luxing, and her pupils were occupied by this person.

"Be my bridesmaid, as compensation." Lin Luxing whispered in her ear, and squeezed her hand tightly, both hands were very wet.

Jiang Luo heard himself lose his mind and say, "Okay."

Lin Luxing left that afternoon.Jiang Luo bought the train ticket for that night. She didn't know if it was saved. The moment she walked out of the train station, she was hugged by someone. Du Nasha had been waiting in the square outside the train station for a long time. .

"Jiang Luo! I am so worried about you. I searched for you everywhere. I went to your house and knocked on the door desperately. I went five times, but no one answered me." Du Nasha cried and said frantically: "You Why are your father and your mother not here, not here!"

"Yes, Du Nasha." Jiang Luo let out a long breath, stood upright, was held in her arms, and replied blankly: "You have seen it, it is like this. My father As I said, we went away without us. My mother ran outside to have fun after work. She often locked me at home for a whole day, and I almost starved to death once because she forgot to put money in the house."

"No one cares about me, no one loves me. I once tried to please someone, thinking that I could change this fate. I tried my best, but it was still the same. Instead, she laughed at me and refused to let anyone hurt me. Opportunity. Dunasha, since no one cares about me, it doesn't matter where I go? I don't want to go to school, I don't want to read, I don't want to do anything now, I want to take a break, I will still go to school , don't worry. I'm going to Lin Luxing's wedding. Don't do these useless things for me. A person who is not cared about, she doesn't care anyway. As long as she is not dead, everyone can feel at ease. It would be even better if she died, and when people taste her misfortune, they will have a little luck in their hearts, thinking: Fortunately, I am not like this, I am better than her.”

Du Nasha showed a surprised expression. In fact, even Jiang Luo herself was surprised that she said such a long paragraph without thinking. I don't know when, she can also make so many world-weary complaints.Du Nasha looked at her seriously, and hugged her even tighter. She put her petite face on Jiang Luo's shoulder, and tremblingly said in a hateful voice: "Why do you say these things? You shouldn't say that." Yes. This proves that you have completely forgotten about me. You always forget about me. You are not an unfortunate person, because I care about you and always care about you. Jiang Luo, do you understand? Can you know my Do you mean? I haven’t had time to tell you that I was admitted. My volunteer and you fill in the same school.”

It was only then that Jiang Luo realized that Du Nasha's face was full of tears. At some point, this strong girl's eyes were red and swollen from crying.She wiped her eyes and sobbed, "I'm really scared! You're going to just disappear, I'm scared."

Jiang Luo suddenly realized.She remembered that when she asked about Du Nasha's application for the college entrance examination, Du Nasha was always evasive, and she didn't let her see it the day she filled out the application.On the contrary, it was she who told Du Nasha her wish early on, without any precautions.Thinking about it now, that's the fate. In fact, Jiang Luo already knew the ending, she just didn't want to admit that there was Du Nasha by her side, and she liked Lin Luxing.But she should understand that everything is doomed, her salvation is here, not elsewhere, and if she seeks it elsewhere, she is doomed to failure and bruises all over her body. This is the punishment for her wishful thinking.Jiang Luo looked down at Du Nasha, and Du Nasha also looked at her. Du Nasha stood on tiptoe, holding Jiang Luo's shoulders with both hands, her eyes were very sincere and sincere.

"I understand." Jiang Luo nodded, and replied slowly: "Please allow me to think about it."