I want to marry my loser [football]

(220 eight)

Unexpectedly, Gerald's topic was easier to understand than Melville's.Hearing this comment, Gerald curled his lips and said, "Because he will skip the steps that he thinks are unnecessary."

According to Melville's own level, he would take it for granted that those omitted places do not need special explanation, because they are too simple.

But other people didn't think so - this made Jiang Fan completely unable to keep up with his train of thought, and would be left behind by him halfway, at a loss.

After switching to Gerrard in the second half, the method changed, and the blond boy immediately felt much easier.

"I just said there was something wrong with what he said!" Jiang Fan patted Gerrard on the shoulder excitedly and said, "Captain! You are very good, Captain!"

"Because Melville was good at studying at the beginning. I am different. I have never understood anything and rushed all the way. So I know what people who are not good at studying are thinking." Hearing Jiang Fan's enthusiastic praise , Gerrard put the cap on the pen very calmly, and said disapprovingly: "Besides, I don't plan to rely on it for a living. It doesn't make any difference whether it's a full score or just passed, as long as you can play."

Hearing the downcastness in his tone that was different from usual, Jiang Fan observed his expression carefully, and couldn't help asking: "What's wrong?"

Gerald glanced at him, turned his gaze away again, and said with some concealment, "...it's nothing. Let's learn this today, right? I'll go roast some meat."

But as soon as he stood up, Jiang Fan grabbed his sleeve and sat down again.

Jiang Fan frowned and looked at him and said, "To be honest, what's wrong?"

Gerald fell silent.

He was silent for a moment, frowned and thought for a while, as if he was evaluating which option would be more beneficial, telling the truth or avoiding the past. After a while, he finally turned his face, looked at Jiang Fan and said, "Gregory, Have you... ever been nervous?"

This beginning... can say more and more deeply.

Realizing that his condition seems to be not very good, Jiang Fan looked at the semi-open open space, and at the friends walking not far away, thought for a while and said, "Let's find a place to talk alone?"

Gerald hesitated for a moment, but thought that he had already spoken, so why should he be afraid?So soon, he stood up and nodded: "Okay. Where are you going?"

Jiang Fan said, "Go to my room."

They walked into the house one after the other. Occasionally someone noticed it, but they only thought they were looking for the toilet or something else, and they didn't pay attention at all.

Gerald just followed behind Jiang Fan, passed the spacious living room, followed the spiral staircase to the second floor, and then stood at the door of Jiang Fan's bedroom.

He followed behind the blond boy, watched him push the door in, and saw that the interior was dominated by quiet and restrained gray, which was extraordinarily calming - the gray-blue quilt looked fluffy and soft, and the sheets were smooth, There is no wrinkle, but it shows a sense of comfort that I want to jump on it and be surrounded by the quilt.

On the round carpet of the same color beside the bed, there was a gray-blue lazy sofa. Seeing Jiang Fan walked over and sat by the bed, Gerald consciously leaned into the sofa on the carpet, and quickly I fell into the weak and boneless touch.

Jiang Fan took off his shoes and crossed his legs on the bed, indicating that he was ready and raised his chin towards Gerald, expressing the meaning of "tell me": "What's wrong?"

"You know it too." Gerald sighed long, stretched his two long legs, and showed a relaxed posture because he gained a sense of security in the closed space where no outsiders existed. "Final."

"Are you nervous?"

"Ah."

"But didn't we play against Reddin United before? We won."

Hearing this, Gerrard frowned, and said irritably: "It's better not to fight. If I don't fight, maybe I won't think about it. But you were there at that time. I know the final is against Radar After the D-League match, I can't help but think now... What if we lose if you're not here? Can we still win if you're not here? And your performance in the semi-finals of the FA Cup It's so powerful, it's so powerful that I feel... I can't find my own value."

Jiang Fan leaned towards him, and his voice softened a little: "You are a goalkeeper, how can a goalkeeper compare with a forward?"

Gerald was silent for a while, and instead of answering directly, he asked instead: "...how is Thompson?"

Thompson Jackson of the first team is the most expensive and famous goalkeeper in the world, but his high exposure in recent years is mostly due to his various mistakes.

Gerrard asked again: "Can he stop your shot?"

Jiang Fan thought about it, if he didn't use character cards during normal training...

"Out of ten shots, I can stop five or six times."

If you use a character card, you can only stop it two or three times out of ten.

If the character card is used to strengthen the basic skills...

That's basically unstoppable.

Hearing this answer, Gerrard thought about the gap between them, and smiled bitterly: "Thompson is one of the most powerful goalkeepers in the world. But do you know how miserable he has been ridiculed these years? Anything related to football From time to time, I can see all kinds of jokes mocking him... Sometimes, when I suddenly see news about him on the Internet, I will feel a sudden shock, as if they are criticizing me. I don’t know if he sees it himself, it will be What do you think?"

Jiang Fan thought of Thompson's extraordinarily taciturn appearance, so he didn't speak.

Gerrard continued: "So I was very scared. I told myself countless times that I must never make mistakes, I must never be like Thompson, I must never fall into the situation where I was ridiculed by the whole network like him, and I must never be like him. Hands and other low-level mistakes ruined the team's victory. Every time I catch the ball, I will hold it tightly in my arms, because I am very afraid that if I don't hold it firmly, they may slip out."

"The goalkeeper guards... the last lifeline of the team."

He sighed, "So once we make a mistake, we can't forgive ourselves. What hurts us the most is that all the goals seem to be powerless and unstoppable at the moment of shooting, but the moment after the shooting In an instant, every goalkeeper will be annoyed to find that it can be thrown out so easily. As long as the hand is stretched a little longer, and the jump is higher..."

"Goalkeepers can't make mistakes because they are the last hope for the team. Everyone wants their goalkeeper to be as invisible as if he is not on the pitch, because that means there is no danger at the back. But when the goal is broken, it is the goalkeeper's fault. All eyes were like saying - why can't you block this goal?"

"When I was training, I have always been very strict with myself, be careful, and never be careless. But as the competition becomes more and more important, and the victory becomes less and less sure, I really feel...very scared."

Looking at his heavy and downcast side face, Jiang Fan said softly: "It is definitely not the goalkeeper's fault that a team loses."

"But, 'If the goalkeeper saves that ball, maybe you won't lose', people will think so?" Gerrard sneered, "Gregory, you are talented, strong and powerful." People like you have probably never worried, struggled, or experienced this...fear of failure, right? You look so confident, as if as soon as you play, you must firmly believe that you can win."

He turned his head, the faint fragility in the brown eyes was as moving as the young buds struggling hard to emerge from the cracks under the boulder.

"So, have you... been nervous?"

Jiang Fan was quiet for a while.

"Of course I was nervous," he said. "When Bradley showed up and the coach asked me to go one-on-one with him, I was so nervous! I was like, what if I lose? It's embarrassing. , you all say that I am a genius, that I am extremely talented. If I lose to Bradley, won’t you be disappointed? Maybe I will be laughed at--"What a genius, nothing more" or something like that of."

Gerrard suddenly showed a look of doubt: "You? Nervous? Was I okay at the scene? You were nervous and kicked Bradley 3:0? Why didn't you go to heaven?"

Jiang Fan let out an "oops" and jumped out of bed with a look of "don't care about such trivial things".

He probably felt that the distance was too far before, so he sat next to Gerrard, patted him on the shoulder, and said seriously: "Because there is no way. If I have used all my strength, I can only lose if I lose. The solution, just accept it. You too, as long as you give full play to your strength, there is nothing to regret about the result. Don’t be nervous, don’t be afraid, instead of wasting time worrying about what others think, it’s better to focus on yourself. It doesn’t matter if you fail once, life is still long, think of a way, and it’s good to win back later.”

"What if I've been off that day?" Gerrard looked into his eyes, "What if I couldn't concentrate, what if I got nervous, what if... what if I could have saved that ball and I made a mistake? "

Jiang Fan looked back and said affirmatively: "That's your real strength. It's not a mistake, it's not nervous, it means that your real strength is like this. Just like a wooden barrel, people don't judge it by the highest barrel wall Its capacity is only calculated by the lowest plank. How much strength you can exert shows how much strength you have. It is better to say that at other times, you are performing supernormally.”

If you think about it this way, knowing that you will definitely be able to exert your full strength, you will no longer be worried about your performance.

"Don't be afraid, captain." Jiang Fanrou said: "Be more confident. Maybe we are not as talented as we think, but...you have trained for so long, have been strict with yourself for so long, and worked hard for so long. Entered the Lanzhou Club, was the captain of the youth team, and went all the way to the finals of the youth competition with your teammates... You are definitely not as vulnerable as you think."

"Don't be afraid of failure, don't be afraid of anything. If someone attacks you online, you come to me."

Gerrard was touched, and a little amused: "Are you a hacker?"

"No. But I can talk with you, distract you, and give you courage." Jiang Fan grinned, "I will always be with you. Then you will find that, compared with reality, Friends support, no matter how many people attack on the Internet, they are nothing. They may not be qualified to appear in your field of vision throughout their lives, but they can affect your life thousands of miles away with casual nonsense? How can you let this Something fucking happened?"

Seeing his smiling face, Gerald was silent for a moment, then he stretched out his arms and hugged him tightly.

He patted Jiang Fan's back fiercely, and said in a vicious voice: "Actually, I hate you, Gregory. I'm a genius or something, I'm so disgusted that I want to vomit. Although I look like your friend, all day long Just kidding with you, in fact, I think all the time in my heart, when can I save all your shots."

"Wow, that's too much."

"Yeah, it's too much." Gerald paused, and couldn't help laughing again, "But you bastard, your existence itself is already a huge harm to me, you Isn't it too much?"

Jiang Fan hesitated to speak, and finally gave up his defense and sighed: "...All right."

"However," Gerald raised his hand to ruffle his hair, and then patted him on the back lightly, "you are a good friend... I am very glad to know you."

"...What you said, it feels like we are about to part."

Hearing this, Gerald laughed "haha" and let him go, "Okay, then—thank you."

Jiang Fan shook his hair, smoothed the messed hair, and sighed, "You're welcome. Just don't rub my hair all the time next time. What if I go bald?"

Gerald stood up and patted his chest: "If you are bald, come to me."

They all knew that this conversation was over.So the two walked out of the house, preparing to go back to the courtyard to find other friends.

Jiang Fan asked doubtfully as he walked, "Can you grow hair?"

"No, but I can also support you and give you the courage to live bald."

Jiang Fan: "..."

Jiang Fan: "Get lost."

作者有话要说：感谢在2019-11-2020:06:34~2019-11-2022:39:00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: I am a passerby;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：噗通跳下河36瓶；倚杖听江14瓶；瓶子5瓶；氪金是缓慢而持久的4瓶；番茄味佐助2瓶；阿秀白1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!