In waiting of Viel

This is already a preface.

About my past, the past I don't want to recall.

The human brain can survive for a total of 150 years, but the body ages much faster than the brain.

Why mention this?Because I want to make good use of these 150 years.

If something must be lost, I would rather lose my human body.

That is a life that has decayed and almost withered. In other words, I don't want to call it a living body.

When I was about 30 years old, my body began to age severely due to some extremely rare disease, and all I remember was that I felt as if all my life force was sucked out of me.

Because of the feasibility study work, my colleagues at the time suggested that I freeze my brain and then become an artificial human. It is ridiculous and absurd, but I have no other choice. I thought it was a success, and the machinery and organs appeared Unexpectedly normal, I think I can go on for more than 100 years, and my life will not stop here.

At first I thought so.

Then on a certain day, my body, no, to be precise, my mechanical body suddenly malfunctioned. Because of the overdose of immune rejection suppressants, my immunity was low, and I needed to take a lot of drugs almost every day. , such a breakdown should be very simple for the medical level.

However, war broke out.

I can't remember exactly which country launched a war against our country. I only remember that the people in the research institute all left for the refuge in the outer suburbs. I was the only one who insisted on not leaving. Many people persuaded me to leave. But I insisted on staying. Anyway, there was a shortage of medicines, and it would be a burden for me to go with everyone. Rather than being abandoned by everyone, I might as well stay alone and wait for the last moment of my life, so that I would feel more at ease.

The dean didn't continue to persuade after seeing this. For the sake of the overall situation, I should be abandoned.

I thought we would win, but the final result was really unexpected.

The strengths of the two countries are too disparate. Our country, which has always advocated peace, does not pay attention to the training of weapons and troops in the army and borders. The weapons are also very old, and they are almost unusable when it comes to fighting. Our country has always been a big country in scientific research. At this time, it seems particularly ridiculous, because the president has always advocated peaceful foreign affairs, which has led to the neglect of the military's armed forces and the low rate of military service.

What's even more ridiculous is that our country does not have an army to fight the opposite side head-on.

The self-defense army composed of the people is even more fragile and vulnerable.

The president was forced to kneel down to beg for peace, and was finally stabbed to death by the intruding soldiers. His death was very ugly.

I hid in the basement of the abandoned laboratory. I was lucky not to be found at first, but my body became more and more out of control, and sometimes I couldn't even control the direction I walked.

I was discovered during a soldier's inspection. I wanted to run away, but I couldn't move my body.

The soldiers noticed my strangeness, and it stands to reason that I should be executed immediately, probably because I didn't show too much sense of resistance, and the soldiers on the opposite side didn't attack me, but took me back to the barracks.

In the ruins that were shattered by the war, the white coat on my body seemed to be particularly conspicuous.

People will always have a preconceived impression of outstanding things, because of my mechanical body, I can't tell my actual age at all. People who don't know should think that I am a young doctor who has just practiced.

What is most lacking in war?

Is it food?Is it a weapon?

No, it's the medicine and the doctor.

A small box of anti-inflammatory drugs can be exchanged for several bags of food, and doctors are more precious than any other time.

In the barracks, I met Alfred, but he didn't have a name then.For a nobody, his blond hair certainly stands out.

I became a military doctor of the enemy country, and the other party would provide me with medicines. This is a mutually beneficial transaction. How could there be people who would not agree?

I don't have an obvious national concept, and I won't throw my head and blood for the country like some emotional people, and dedicating myself to the country is too noble in my eyes.

I am not a noble person, as long as there are beneficial things that are worthwhile to me, I will do them. A scum without moral concepts seems to be particularly suitable for me. I don't have any resistance. It is very good for the enemy Happy to have such obedient people willing to do things for them.

I learned a lot about them, about why wars broke out.

They are not responsible, because our country has always insisted on studying whether non-living bodies can have independent thinking and prolong the life span of the human body. This was a taboo among countries at that time.

But our dear President insisted on doing it, in private, of course, who would be foolish enough to speak out on stage.It should have gone smoothly. If it succeeds, the earth will be occupied by other non-living species. What kind of situation will that be?

After that, the country was completely cleaned up, and related researchers and materials were destroyed humanely.

I was not discovered, but I was not the person in charge of this kind of confidential content, I was kept in the dark, maybe I was their experimental subject, but I didn't know it myself.

I can't help but sigh for those passionate young people who shout for the righteousness of the country. When you know that your country is like this, how do you feel in your heart?

I have witnessed this war with my own eyes, from the enemy's point of view.

I also saw this Alfred teenager grow up.

From an unknown soldier to a captain, the young man's eyes are red, I can't see any reason, only the instinct of the beast, every time I bandage the wound of the young man, I feel a little terrified.

Such a terrible wound made me a little terrified.That is how much pain he endured to have such a clear and heavy wound.

The boy didn't make a sound. When I was disinfected with alcohol, I saw the boy trying to endure the pain, and felt sad for him. Indeed, war will only bring pain to people. What's the point of that?

After I finished bandaging, I hugged the young man lightly. The young man let me do this unpreparedly, and then I asked him, "Can you tell me your name?"

"I don't have that kind of thing." The boy's emotionless voice sounded like a mechanical voice.

"Ah... how about you call me Alfred?" I suddenly thought of this and laughed, "Alfred is the name of a British king in the past, and he is also a hero. Of course you are also a hero."

"Alfred..." The boy kept repeating these scales until he could pronounce them proficiently. Although I couldn't hear anything from the tone, I subconsciously felt that the boy was happy.

As the boy left my tent, he asked me, "What's your name?"

I was a little surprised, but still replied: "My name is Viel."

The boy talked to me more often after that.

Sometimes I give Alfred the candy specially given to me by the cafeteria.

Seeing Alfred finally showing an expression that matches his age, I was a little happy for no reason, because he is only a child in this way, and wars and the like are not at all suitable for children of this age to experience.

The war took a little longer than I thought.It should have been about three years, because the appearance of the people and the rebels made the war last for a long time. After learning the reason for the war, all those impassioned people were ashamed, and they couldn't find any reason to protect their country, or I don't want to face the cruel reality.

Ridiculous yet sad.

We are under public opinion in this war, and there is no legitimate reason to exonerate the crime, but there are still so many people who don't know who sacrificed their lives for the country, huh.

What do they think when they face death after knowing the real reason?Are you lamenting the helplessness of your own fate, or are you indignant at the injustice of the country you protect?

Alfred became an outstanding young man, he was very good-looking, such a youthful young man opened up like a nobleman, and his blond hair was even more eye-catching.

A lot of people forget who he was, where he came from, or if he was really called Alfred.

Alfred was named after me.

He also seemed to have transformed into a hero. The captain would still dine with me. Many people did not remember such a small military doctor, and this military doctor was also a "traitor".

"Alfred...why are you looking at me all the time?" I looked at Alfred, whose eyes had been locked on me from the opposite side, feeling a little lost.I don't want to be exposed to eating under the eyes of everyone, let alone I don't have to eat.

But in case other people find out that I have a mechanical body, I will still go to the cafeteria. In fact, my stomach has long since disappeared, and the food I eat is just put in the container in my body, and I will eat it later I clean up myself after I'm done, but I only eat a little each time.

"I was wondering if you would be full after eating this little?" Alfred replied somewhat seriously.

"It's okay, I ate a little before, and I'm not hungry." I always had no way to lie in front of other people, I lowered my head and said sullenly.

"It's fine if you're not hungry." Al didn't force me, but I felt he was a little unhappy.

But I have a way to make Al feel better.

"Open your hand." I smiled and said to Al after Al finished eating, "This is for you." I put a small milk candy in Al's palm. "Sweet things make people feel better."

"Thank you." Al's face softened a little, and he didn't eat the candy right away.Instead, put the sugar in your coat pocket.

"You don't have to thank me. The war is coming to an end soon. I should thank you." I said as I cleared the plate.

"Why do you thank me?" Al tilted his head in confusion.

"Because you are fighting on the front line." I still kept a smile on my face.Although Alfred is a captain, he still rushed to the front with ordinary soldiers. I admire Alfred for this.

"This kind of thing is..." Al said indifferently.

"Is it a matter of course? I don't think so. Without you, I don't know what I would be like now?" I picked up Al's words and said it without thinking too much.

Unexpectedly, it had a different meaning in Alfred's ears.

"It's too early to say thank you." Al smiled at me, then waved to me, "See you tonight."

"Well, see you tonight." I waved my hands vigorously, wanting to see if the joints have become a little stiff due to not being lubricated for too long.

Al generally doesn't talk to other people easily, and I don't know why I am an exception.I went back to my tent and took out the whole food, it was a fake hidden compartment, unchewed food that I was trying to sneak away when no one was looking.