For the rest of his life

"It's very wrong to be mediocre. I will mention these things when I think about them."

The back was dim and empty, and she pressed her eyebrows and frowned. She felt that her head was hurting, and it was painful and sore. The same flustered look.

She doesn't remember what Lu Qiong looked like when she first met, she only remembers that Lu Qiong was panicked and at a loss, afraid of something under the dark cloak, she didn't know what Lu Qiong was afraid of, she turned sideways to let her sit together Down.

Because of being infected by Lu Qiong's panic and the fear that didn't seem to come from this world, she couldn't remember why she was sad at that time, when and where she first met, what she did, what she said, nothing at all. I can't remember clearly, I just feel that it is very imaginative, Lu Qiong is weighing the pros and cons for what to lose and what to choose, but emotional things can't be measured, it can only show a complete outline in the eyes of onlookers.

So she chose to suppress the matter.

Tomorrow she will forget.

She knows nothing about the enemy.

I just know that this enemy has always existed, and it was choked in my throat from the beginning, and I couldn't spit it out until the end.

"clothing."

They made peace with each other silently, Lu Qiong handed over the clothes, and the other party took them, and she was silent. She wondered why there are always things in front of her eyes in life. If she is not a person with a depression virus, then there is no need to go She relied more on Tang Yi than on Xu Chenmu, but if she hadn't been depressed, she wouldn't have had the chance to meet Xu Chenmu.

Some headaches.But there was nothing to talk about in the two rooms, so they had to wash and pack their things quietly. The bedroom had been cleaned out. There were two beds. When they had a cold war with Xu Chenmu, they threw out the big bed in a fit of anger, and the two slept in separate beds.

The one on the right is Xu Chenmu's place. Today's newly washed sheets were laid clean after drying. Xu Chenmu folded the quilt neatly according to the method he taught him once, so he turned his head and went out. Prepare to continue coding tonight.

From the beginning to the end, Xu Chenmu, who has always been talkative, remained silent, as if soaked in a water tank, unable to make a sound or get in any words.

Like 1000 million ants biting her heart, she clutched the clothes on her chest, a great loneliness gradually rose in her heart, she was enveloped by her smoky loneliness, as if she had lost Xu Chenmu.

"I'll take you to see your family tomorrow." She said suddenly, but didn't turn around to look.

Xu Chenmu remained silent, as if the family she had been thinking about before could not cause any disturbance in her heart at this moment. She was really angry and refused to pay attention to herself. Lu Qiong thought what she was doing for, what was she doing Are you making excuses for yourself, is she starting to be at a loss for the future, so she let the source of everything return to Xu Chenmu?

Let Xu Chenmu give up on himself, and let him rot like this, no one can understand, and no one can get close to him.

But, obviously, from the very beginning, when I came into contact with Xu Chenmu, I asked him first, as if praying for salvation, and asked, "It's so late, aren't you going home?"

It's so late.

Lu Qiong didn't wait for a response any longer, and went to the study room. Since she didn't bring a computer, she sorted out the ideas of the new book little by little on paper. The books were piled up in front of the desk, higher than her head, and became thicker and thicker. , Every setting must have a basis, no matter how unconstrained and unconstrained, it must be realistic and feasible, and the more feasible, the more unconstrained and unconstrained, life is inherently magical and realistic.

If you sink into your own work, you can forget about everything, including Xu Chenmu's silence.

It turned out that Shen couldn't remember anything at work.

Suddenly there were a few crisp knocks on the door, knocking, knocking, close at hand, the tip of her pen trembled, and then she began to tear up the relationship between the characters and start over. The door was closed, and she leaned forward to open it - she thought that at this time and place, there was Xu Chenmu outside the door.

So he sat down firmly again, absent-mindedly grabbed a piece of paper from the table and tore it up, horizontally and vertically, his mind was in a mess.

"Lu Qiong."

"..." He folded the paper fiercely and tore off the paper, diverting his attention, for fear that he would become weak and cause harm to Xu Chenmu because of Tang Yi. She would be a scum, she would just waver, nothing else!Her mental activities revolved around herself, criticizing and criticizing herself severely, and she was so close to hanging a broken shoe around her neck that she had a bad style of work and cheating.

"I haven't said goodnight to you yet." Xu Chenmu's voice was soft, "You can't stay up late, go to bed early."

"..." He took a deep breath and almost blurted out his emotions, but he was still dizzy, swallowed, and continued to tear a piece of paper.

When I lowered my head, I realized that when I was in a trance, I pulled two pictures of my own good settings...

... Lu Qiong threw the paper aside, rubbed her head and looked at the door tiredly. Outside the door was Xu Chenmu, Xu Chenmu who was getting angry.

"Good night." An angry Xu Chen rubbed his temples in the evening. Lu Qiong didn't respond like this and she was very worried. She seemed to be often worried because of Lu Qiong's non-response. It seemed to happen all the time in the past seven years. At that time I will fill it up with many words, so that Lu Qiong will not feel so lonely.

I just don't know why, but she feels that now is a good time to leave blank space. The large blank space is just right, leaving room for each other to think. She is afraid that if she talks too much, she will poke at Lu Qiong's pain that she doesn't know. , the name Tang Yi became a taboo, she wrote it down, but a sharp roar sounded in her mind: "Speak out! Tell it out? Lu Qiong will be finished if you say it out! She will die without me! "

Who will die without?She suddenly felt that this was ridiculous, but she clearly remembered that she was silent. Lu Qiong was the kind of person who would die if he lost something important.

Whatever Lu Qiong grabbed at was like grabbing a life-saving straw.

Who on earth said that?Why do flickering dots of light slowly appear in her memory, connected one by one, and there are some broken lines, she thinks that one day she will remember those key points, and then the memory returns The truth, she knows why she hates, why she loves, why she hates, why she likes, why she works hard, and why she stands up.

It is expected that Lu Qiong will not respond today. She turned her head and went back to the bedroom. The lights were turned off. Through the hazy shadow, she looked at her hands, which were pale and pale, and vaguely recognized obstacles. When she hit her leg, she realized that there was a bruise on her leg that hadn't faded away. She didn't know when it happened, but now she felt a burning pain. She rubbed her leg and found a place to sit down without going back to the bedroom. , sitting on the mat where Lu Qiong was kneeling, she rubbed her legs.

Suddenly something knocked in the dark, it was the sound of closing the door.

A figure floated out of the study, as if seeing everything clearly at night, moving coquettishly, suddenly, stopped in front of the table, turned around, as if watching something.

"Why don't you sleep?" Lu Qiong's voice was hoarse.

"My leg hurts. It seems to hit the corner of the table. I'll sleep in a while. Don't you want to type? Go to sleep, it's not good to stay up late." Xu Chenmu lowered his head, even though she couldn't see Lu Qiong when she raised her eyes, Every ray of light in the dark night was gathered, but I still couldn't see the other person's face clearly. The owner of that face slowly approached me, kneeling and sitting on the soft cushion under me, squeezing her to the side Suddenly, he almost fell to the ground.

The waist was pulled back suddenly, and she was caught off guard. When she was pulled back, her head flicked and hit Lu Qiong's forehead with a bang, ah, it hurts, and her head hurts too.

Panicked, he stopped rubbing his legs, and groped to touch Lu Qiong's forehead, but it came so suddenly that he didn't have time to see where his nose was and where his eyes were, so his hands touched Lu Qiong's lips blindly, I was so shocked that my internal organs began to dance, trembling, and the hand was grabbed.

"Don't mess around."

"Ah, I'm sorry, is your head hurting?" Xu Chenmu found the position right now, rubbed Lu Qiong's forehead that was bumped by him, and blew, thinking why he was so naive, so he withdrew his hand embarrassingly, "You …Let go of me, why don’t I sit on it… I’m almost sitting on your lap on such a place as big as a grain of rice…”

"I'm looking for medicated oil." Lu Qiong's voice was a little cold, Xu Chenmu took this opportunity to sit on the sofa, the pain in her leg seemed to be forgotten, she stared blankly at the figure with a pair of cat's eyes , found the small bottle accurately, then sat beside him, dabbed a little on his palm, held the bottle with the other hand, and only freed his index finger to dab on his leg.

"here?"

"Ah, no, a little closer to the knee." She poked her sore spot, and it was knocked again, presumably bruises are very scary, she was a little nervous, her cold fingers walked solemnly on her leg, Then, the warmth and pain came from her legs, and she clenched Lu Qiong's clothes tightly. Lu Qiong's strength was just right, and the light in her eyes was glimpsed in the shadows, and the shadows of her eyelashes fell down, and it was dark .

"Talk to me for a while." Xu Chenmu begged in a low voice, afraid that Lu Qiong would get angry, so he closed his mouth, pursed his lips, and lowered his body to take the medicine oil, "I'll do it myself."

"Don't move around." Lu Qiongge let go of her hand, and leaned his head to look at her legs. It was clearly chaotic, and everyone was gray in the darkness. The nightdress she brought to Xu Chenmu kept lifting After going up, there was a cool night air, and the knees were sore, which awakened the memory deep in the bone marrow.

"Oh."

"What do you want to say."

"I just want to hear you talk, I can say whatever you want." Xu Chenmu smiled with his lips folded, and bowed his waist, "Why don't you turn on the light."

"No, it's good." Lu Qiong smiled gently in the dark, but she didn't express her words, as if her voice was like a cold spring, she rubbed medicated oil on Xu Chenmu, secretly thinking that this day would be spent like this, The time is long and short, and the time is too short. What happened in a moment seems to have passed a lifetime. "I'm crazy today, don't pay attention to me."

"Hey, it's okay, you're crazy and I'm stupid." Seeing Lu Qiong's self-criticism, she breathed a sigh of relief, straightened Lu Qiong's wrinkled collar, touched her protruding cervical vertebrae, and straightened the back of her head broken hair.My eyes were in a trance.

"It's hard for me to talk like this."

"Ah, I won't talk anymore, you talk to me for a while."

"Good night." Lu Qiong's eyes were unpredictable, and her voice was a little erratic, like a faint scent in the dark night.

"Wait for tomorrow—"

"What's the matter tomorrow?" Lu Qiong continued casually, satisfying her wish of "talking for a while", but after this sentence, she couldn't get an answer for a long time, turned her head, and Xu Chenmu fell asleep leaning on her body , suddenly fell into silence, she stared at her, and fell asleep casually, a little lost, but relaxed a little, and with secret thoughts, she rubbed the guy's cheek.

"Ah Lu Qiong, you secretly kissed me while I was asleep..." Xu Chenmu opened his eyes and smiled, his eyes were dazed, he didn't know when the sleepiness came, and he wiped off the corner of his skirt with a dazed smile , hooking Lu Qiong's neck, "Can't we kiss openly?"

Who kissed you!

But still staring at her with gentle eyes: "Go to sleep."

The foreheads touched and the eyes met. At this time, it seemed that it would be impossible to justify without kissing. Lu Qiong reached out and took her arm away, and got up.Xu Chenmu pulled her and fell on him, looking at her with burning eyes: "Talk to me for a while."

"Tomorrow, I'll tell you tomorrow, it's late, go to bed." Lu Qionghuai thought carelessly, patted the guy on the cheek, and was about to get up, but the neck was tightly hugged, "Get up."

"hug me."

"how old are you?"

"I'm not heavy."

"Look at how old you are, get up, get up, move your legs away."

"Stingy." Xu Chenmu pursed his lips and pressed his fingers on the back of her neck, "I want to sleep with you."

"I don't want to sleep with you."

"I'm sad."

Lu Qiong subconsciously wanted to refute again, and when Xu Chenmu said something, she said the same thing, but she didn't answer, she got up from the guy's arms, and went back to her bed to cover herself with the quilt.

Drilled in a person.

"Get off."

"No." Xu Chenmu said in a muffled voice, his hands tightened around Lu Qiong's waist, "I'll just sleep for a while. Hey, why are you crying?"

"No, I'm so happy." Lu Qiong said something very vulgar, she rubbed Xu Chenmu's hand, and put her arm around her shoulder.