For the rest of his life

The human eye cannot look directly at the scorching sun.

Lu Qiong looked up at the sun, his eyes seemed to have been soaked in alkaline water, and then he felt dizzy for a while, and the bright places on the ground showed mottled black shadows, one by one, like his bleak present, suddenly on the side of the road Moving her legs, she remembered a sentence in "Qin Opera".

"His steps are heavy. He knows what is the heaviest thing in the world. It is not gold or stone, but legs."

She felt that her legs were extremely heavy.

So she pulled out her legs from the quagmire of her youthful memories, sat silently by the desk and spread out a book with an unknown title. The words in the book were strange, and she was also strange. For the first time, I saw why I was so dependent on Tang Yi.

knock knock.

Someone knocked lightly on the door.

The softer the knock on the door, the more she felt that her heart was tied up with cloth strips and couldn't help shrinking, dryly guilty, but she couldn't break free. She couldn't break free from her dependence and trust on Tang Yi. It's unfair, she pulled herself out of the darkness, Tang Yi was the only thought left in her dark world.

She couldn't put it into words, but she felt guilty.

Ever since she knew that Xu Chenmu had never changed.

The pages of the book were flipping, as if she was crying non-stop. She couldn't see anything. It seemed that she had a psychological effect or something else, and the tattoo on her shoulder felt like a needle prick.

"Lu Qiong, I won't ask anymore, don't lock yourself up—" The person outside the door waited softly for her response, "Let's go play, go fishing, or go to the movies, walk around, don't you It's stuffy inside, if you do this again, I'll break in."

"I—" She choked, stood up and was about to open the door to welcome her. The pain on her shoulders was like the scar on Xu Chenmu's forehead, showing her existence every moment. The pain was sharp, and she was in a daze for a while. The circle The tattoo seems to restart its meaning, slowly counting down, counting down to his own demise, like many years ago, counting down, and now counting down when he will die to let Xu Chenmu leave him.

She didn't want to do this at first, but her limbs seemed to be bound by an invisible net. She was frozen at the door, and the locked latch was shaking. The people outside the door were a little anxious: "Lu Qiong? Oh, if you do this again, I will run away with others Already!"

"Alright." She opened the door, smiled slightly, lowered her head and brushed past her.

"What do you call it? You somehow——ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! !" An emoji popped up in her mind, so she wiped her face and leaned forward, blocking Lu Qiong's way, looking straight at her, "Do you agree to give up or not?"

"You're so annoying." Lu Qiong said softly, "I'll be quiet for a while."

"Then I'll be quiet and right next to you. Don't leave me outside. Let me tell you, there seems to be an insurance salesman knocking on the door in the corridor just now. It's so ambiguous. If the family doesn't open the door, they will pry Lock, ah, a scream, I heard it terribly, what do you say I also met such a person..."

Xu Chenmu snapped his fingers and vividly described the story she had made up, and tried her best to let Lu Qiong look at her sincere and undeceptive eyes. Lu Qiong avoided her eyes and sat on the sofa calmly with her lips pursed. Like magic, she pulled out a thick and soft cushion and placed it on the ground. She knelt there, facing the coffee table, so that Xu Chenmu couldn't get close to her.

Xu Chenmu had no choice but to kneel on the floor and turn his head away from her side.

"Get up, it's cold on the ground." Lu Qiong's eyes were so pale that no trace could be found.

"You don't want me anymore, you still care about the cold on the ground, what can you do with me kneeling here." Xu Chenmu got up rascally, not only knelt there, but also sat down on his buttocks, propping his chin to look at Lu Qiong, Lu Qiong The inexplicable state made her feel alarmed, so she automatically had such a reaction, like instinct, her heart tightened tightly, as if she was not so tightly entwined and followed, and in the next second, Lu Qiong seemed to be in a trance. Like light smoke curling away.

"You can't remember anything. What if I am a kidnapper who plots evil, kidnaps you here, makes up a story, and now my conscience realizes that I want to let you go, will you follow me?" Lu Qiong glanced at her, She quickly looked back, and then caught a glimpse of Xu Chenmu frowning and smiling, and she didn't know what kind of twisted expression it was. It was like a dream, and she had often seen it a long time ago. She often saw Xu Chenmu in her confined space. Such a smile from Chen Mu.

She knew it was like a rope entanglement, pulling herself out of the abyss.

She dare not look at it now, she is ashamed of Xu Chenmu, she lowered her head, caught in an endless conflict, continue to be together, or let go, this is a question.

To be or not to be, that is the question.

"Then I will follow you, even if you are the kind of bad guy you said, a kidnapper, or a murderer who plots against me and wants to use me to do something, but I am in love with you, so I will follow you, you go to jail I went to visit the prison, and when you were shot, I cried out of a river, and then jumped into the river to reconnect with you on Huangquan Road—not to mention that you are still lying to me now, I remember you are a writer, I remember Woke up and posted a post-it note, I remember I was a reporter, you never lied to me, only concealed things, we went fishing, went to the resort, I saw the key, I had a promise not fulfilled, you can't lie My—" There was a burst of coolness in her knees, and she understood why Lu Qiong always said to herself, "It's cold on the ground, get up", this is definitely not the first time, and it will not be the last time, she rubbed He moved his butt with his knees, put his knees in his arms, looked up at Lu Qiong, Lu Qiong remained silent, "My mother told me that love has to be expressed, so I seem to have said many times that I like you, I am very happy I love you, it’s not nonsense, ah, wait who is my mother... Forget it, look, I think of things so fast, I’m about to remember them all, how can you not want me? "

It seems that every promise has the power of a comet brought out from the heart. The tail stretches for so long and has always taken root in the bottom of my heart. The weight is heavy. She made many promises. She said in Yilong Resort, "You like this place, we will come here." She seemed to have done something to correspond to this matter. She remembered that she wanted to settle down, so she decided to find a good job when she didn't know it. After leaving home, although the accident came unexpectedly.

Every step of fulfilling the promise was solid, so what went wrong caused Lu Qiong's originally peaceful heart to have such a big turmoil. She didn't understand, and felt that it had something to do with the "Tang Yi" that she didn't understand at all.This person's name suddenly jumped out, adding something inexplicable to the line connecting him and Lu Qiong.

"Get up, it's cold on the ground." Lu Qiong repeated, turning her head away, "I'll tell you everything, I promised you."

"Then do you still want me?" Xu Chenmu asked her with a smile, deliberately making her feel that she didn't take this matter seriously, being reckless and casual, always in such a lively posture, she raised her eyebrows She became amused, moved her face closer, let Lu Qiong take a look at her big face, but she couldn't recognize it, and laughed so hard that she couldn't help but laugh, and she didn't know what hit the point of her smile.

"Yeah." Lu Qiong nodded calmly, "I won't leave you, but you can choose to leave me."

"Why should I choose?" Xu Chenmu rolled his eyes, but he didn't notice that he actually rolled his eyes, immersed in his own beauty, unable to extricate himself, "I don't want to leave you, that's why I told you that."

"I just let you have a choice. Before tonight, I won't tell you anything, and I won't allow you to leave—" With a desolate smile, she got up and sat on the side.

So Xu Chen got up happily on his knees, sat next to her and rubbed hard, pressed the throw pillow in his arms, and looked at her intently: "Okay, from now on, I will talk to you, I chose it myself, so you can't drive me away."

What a rogue.

Lu Qiong frowned and laughed lightly, rubbing the center of her brows, feeling something stuck in her throat, opening her mouth was as difficult as trekking thousands of miles, her lips moved for a long time, but she still didn't say anything.

The light in the eyes flowed and converged into the depths of Xu Chenmu's eyes.

Xu Chenmu's eyes seemed to be fixed on her own lips, she frowned suddenly, turned her head to avoid the burning unintentional eyes, lowered her eyebrows and looked down at her hands, because her thoughts were in a mess The thread, she wants to find the end of the thread to peel the cocoon and do not know how to start, it is as elusive as the origin of everything, the world is a mess of chaos, and no one can understand the cause and effect.

My own fingers turned white, perhaps due to the light, showing a somewhat bleak color. I turned it back and forth to look at it, and the palm lines were intricate, leading to the unknown.

She staggered, her fingers were pulled, Xu Chenmu pulled her fingers back and forth like a child, the light in her eyes was like the sun, her hair was tied messily around her ears, she was not unkempt in normal times The Xu Chenmu is now fluffy with a lively and innocent look, remembering some, forgetting some, remembering without selectivity, wrapped in a huge and tolerant love.

At any rate... At any rate, I have to fulfill my promise. At any rate, at any rate, I have to wait for her to remember everything, so that the decision she makes is a decision that completely respects the other party...

Inexplicably, he found a place for himself to return to the original state, smiled gently and watched her fiddle with her fingers, scratching meaningless words on the palm of her hand, smiled, and suddenly felt a pulling force on her arm.

Xu Chenmu put her finger on his lips and kissed her lightly. After a moment, he found her lips. His breathing came and went, and something broke a string in his heart. The scars are interlaced and show a dull color in places that are not easy to be noticed.

"Don't touch me until you remember everything."

Pushing Xu Chenmu away, she heard her own voice coolly, as if announcing something.

"I just want to comfort you." Xu Chenmu sat cross-legged on the sofa and looked up at her, "I didn't want to do anything, I was suffering..."

These words still made her laugh, Lu Qiong rubbed her temples, "Try to remember everything, I'm afraid before that, I can't help but keep you selfishly, it's not fair."

"It means that if I really did something just now, you can't help but keep me forever?" Xu Chenmu successfully grasped the point, "We are not Plato..."

"Nonsense again."

For half a year, she knew that she hadn't touched Xu Chenmu like this again, except for this week's sharp turnaround, before that, she didn't even have a kiss, her body was a dry wasteland, and when the fire started, she would act irrationally , she had to put everything on the balance and weigh it, so as to measure whether she could stay by Xu Chenmu's side selfishly in the future.She has to come to her senses.

It has to be.

"I'll tell you everything."