For the rest of his life

Lu Qiong got up and brought her a spoon again, and took a paper towel again. Xu Chenmu hurriedly took the paper towel and wiped it himself, but it always left a mark, and continued to eat regardless, with his head buried like an ostrich, in extreme embarrassment I dare not admit that I shivered because of Lu Qiong's smile.

It seems like I have Parkinson's, how could my hands be so weak.

"Are you afraid of me?" Lu Qiong hesitated, tapping her fingers on the table uneasily.

"I didn't, I was shocked by your beauty." Xu Chen answered in a low voice, not sure if it was out of sincerity, but Lu Qiong didn't answer, she lowered her head and continued to eat, Xu Chen sighed quietly for a while : "You said I can't remember anything, am I similar to a disabled person?"

"I don't discriminate against people with disabilities."

"Oh, why are you so naughty! I want you to tell me about what I have experienced before, for example, how did I lose my memory due to a catastrophe, for example, how did I lose my memory and become such a personality The situation, I forget it every day, it’s not like making a movie requires some drama—” Xu Chenmu took the last mouthful of porridge, put down the spoon, and faced Lu Qiong with a solemn face.

"There is no need to mention the past."

"How can I hope for the future if I can't face the past?"

"Knowing the past, do you think the future will be beautiful?" Lu Qiong looked at her firmly, "I tell you? We used to be cold lovers. Do you still think our future is beautiful?" ?”

"I don't care, it's beautiful anyway, I'm full of expectations." Xu Chenmu blurted out, only to realize what kind of question he had answered, he was taken aback for a long time, and looked up at the woman, who frowned beautifully She stared at herself, and then she had to concentrate on thinking of reasons that could be prevaricated. She didn't know why she said that, wouldn't it be irresponsible to say it?

Finally, she lost half of her momentum and lowered her body: "Why are we cold? I think you are very good."

"Maybe we are too familiar." Lu Qiong pushed forward the unfinished porridge bowl, glanced at her, and sighed silently in her heart.What happened every day caught her off guard. Today, Xu Chenmu's obsession with the past is deeper than before, clear, firm, and with unquestionable wishes.

So she suddenly panicked, once she puts their former fragmented and disorganized relationship in front of her eyes, will they still be stable and peaceful in this world now?

Is there a long-term relationship in this world that can last forever?Today's Xu Chenmu made her panic, can she still regard this person as her own?Over the past few days, she saw that she was slowly remembering something, slowly remembering and then maintaining and consolidating it, breaking the initial state of mutual strangers, and after retracing the winding path of her previous life, she finally realized that, When everything is remembered, it means that the beautiful estrangement between them has disappeared, replaced by realistic contradictions and embarrassing situations between them.

"If we are too familiar and we are together all the time, then I should like you more and more, and I shouldn't be cold. I can't believe it, and I can't understand that I will be cold to you—" Xu Chenmu touched the edge of the bowl Looking up at Lu Qiong, "There is no such content in my memory, I think there must be a misunderstanding, even if according to what you said, we were cold to each other before, I must still like you, you may not like me, I may talk like this It's weird and irresponsible, but I really don't have the memory that I don't like you, you see, I don't remember anything, but I remember that you are good to me, and I want to be with you too." Xu Chen Mu Da Lala finished talking about whether he likes it or not, a bunch of words like tongue twisters, like a silent confession, flashing the color of burning clouds, a bright red lighted up in his eyes, no longer going out, and then flushed, bow your head.

Lu Qiong lowered her head and took the bowl back: "I'll tell you now, you'll forget it too. It's meaningless to say it, and you won't understand it." Holding the spoon, she took a few deep breaths and forced herself to finish eating, otherwise she would get sick how how.

So he didn't say a word afterwards, Xu Chenmu felt that there were ice cubes around him, he couldn't say anything, the atmosphere became rigid, Xu Chenmu looked at Lu Qiong, his lips moved, but he still didn't say anything Come out and finally sigh.

As soon as this breath came out, it sounded like gongs and drums, and this kind of sad emotion came out of her mouth, which was too wrong. Lu Qiong wiped her mouth and raised her eyes to look at her, and then sighed, as if catering to each other.

"I sigh, why are you sighing? What's the matter? You still sing to me. I sigh and you sigh. Then you sing along with me?" Xu Chenmu got up and rubbed his temples, and there was no other meaning in a casual sentence. , Lu Qiong pursed her lips and got up, walking in front: "You are singing."

"..." Xu Chenmu had long forgotten what he said, and followed Lu Qiong out with a stern face, pretending not to hear, and walked forward step by step along Lu Qiong's footsteps.

Around this street is a flat avenue, crossing the sidewalk to the opposite side there is a huge flower garden, where the prosperity blooms very falsely, but if you go carefully, you will find that the flowers are flourishing, which is entirely the result of the gardener's careful care. Behind the flower garden is There are strings of iron railings, and the big red banners on them celebrate the convening of a certain meeting, and the other banners celebrate that certain buildings in our community won the top prize in the city's college entrance examination. After such a long time, they have faded a lot and were torn by the wind. Come to the lower half corner.

There are already many people coming and going back and forth at the gate of the community, and the uncle who usually comes to collect waste has already come out on a tricycle, and will come again at night.

The security guard rubbed his eyes, saw a figure in the distance, and was startled: "Isn't that Miss Xu?" Then he waved his arms and shouted, and smiled warmly at Xu Chenmu as if seeing his relatives.

Xu Chenmu staggered a step in fright, subconsciously grabbed Lu Qiong's sleeve, looked over with probing eyes, Lu Qiong smiled slightly, and didn't give her an answer, so she had to pull out a smile, look at the security guard, the security guard waist The pole stood straight: "Miss Xu, are you cured? That's great!"

"Ah, yes, thank you very much. I'm fine. Look, am I not coming back?" Xu Chenmu gave a warm smile, as if that was the case, and patted the security guard. , just like they knew each other in the previous life, "How are you doing recently?"

Lu Qiong turned his head away.

"Very good! Very good, great. Do you remember what you said to me last time? It was perfect."

What did she say last time?

Xu Chenmu was stunned for a moment, and secretly glanced at Lu Qiong, who slightly raised the corners of his lips: "Your son is recovering well, I took a look when I passed the ward last time, it's everyone's credit, don't let him go." In my heart, I should."

"Yes, yes! Thank you so much for raising donations for my son, really, thank you so much!"

"Then you are busy first, let's go back first." Lu Qiong continued to speak, took Xu Chenmu's arm, showed a smile like a spring breeze, pulled Xu Chenmu in a blink of an eye, and walked in, the posture was already set When he came out, the security guard couldn't stop him: "Okay, then you are busy!"

"Bye bye" Xu Chenmu turned back, waved his hands and showed a bright smile, turned his head to look at Lu Qiong: "Have I helped him collect donations?"

"Yeah." Lu Qiong lowered her head and touched the key to make sure it was still in her pocket, "From this point of view, you are not a bad person."

"Too superficial." Xu Chenmu shook his head.

"Well?"

"It's wrong to use money to measure charity. Do you know the story of the widow's dedication?" A flash of light flashed in Xu Chenmu's mind, so he blurted out. Lu Qiong looked up at her. Come up with allusions.

Thinking slowly, time came to a standstill, and Xu Chenmu also stood in front of her and waited cautiously, as if waiting for a response at the scene of a marriage proposal, but this was a matter between two people, no one was booing, only the deep echo and Desire, obviously just a simple question, but thinking about the response, a one-man show is meaningless.

"You said."

"There is a story in the Bible. Once the Jews wanted to offer gifts to the temple. A rich man gave a lot of money, but Jesus didn't say anything when he saw it. A widow threw two small coins into the offering box. , Jesus said, she gave more than others. His disciples didn't understand it. Jesus said that it was because the widow was very poor. She had already given what she had given. Compared with others, To have a godly mind is very precious to Jesus. Just like before, you said that I made a fundraiser. Did I do it for fame, or did I really want to help him? If it was just because I was a reporter, For the sake of my good reputation, it shouldn't be mentioned at all as something to boast about..." Xu Chenmu rubbed his face suddenly, "I don't know why I brought it up, I did it for What do you do? It’s not good to be thanked by others for nothing, but for your own selfish desires.”

Lu Qiong didn't know how to explain it, because she didn't know what Xu Chenmu was thinking when he decided to do this thing. She no longer knew Xu Chenmu at that time, and there was an abyss between them at that time. .

It was just that on a drowsy afternoon, when she was reading a book with her head down, Xu Chenmu was sitting reading a newspaper, scratching something, and writing notes in a notebook. Suddenly, he raised his head, stretched out his hand and shook her leg, and shook her. Pulled from the world of books.

"Lu Qiong, the son of the security guard at the gate of our community is seriously ill, and his financial conditions are very poor. I want to help him with something." Xu Chen shook her leg in the evening.

"Don't donate everything." Lu Qiong responded to her lightly.Xu Chenmu didn't have a sense of proportion, he would always put himself in when helping others.

Xu Chenmu stood up suddenly, Lu Qiong's heart skipped a beat, and she looked up at her: "..." Because she was still arguing, she ignored her, thinking that she could do whatever she wanted, and her heart was filled with panic.

Who knew that when he went out that time, Xu Chenmu started to organize a fundraiser. The whole community was mobilized in such a mighty way that it didn't disturb the society. It was only reported in a small area at the bottom of the small newspapers. She didn't ask her for help, so she became even angrier, but there was nothing she could do.

They were indifferent to each other, so she didn't want to mention the matter related to it, she pursed her lips: "It's here."