A Passerby in the Tuanzi Family

更新时间2010-10-2313:24:19字数：2699

The graceful figure that I saw by chance, the memory that Xing provoked and I don’t want to look back, the words of that person that day seemed to ring in my ears:

"Ai Liu is very good, maybe it's good to be with him."

The pupils lost focus, and his eyes drifted away through layers of obstacles. Tomoyo of that day appeared in front of his eyes, disappointed and sad, determined and strong.

Tomoyo...

Now I understand what it means to cherish after losing, because I found that I really like you.

It's not romantic love at first sight, it's not perfect love over time.It's just the occasional cooperation when working part-time, nodding when you meet on the street, it's just getting along with each other plainly, but your voice and smile are quietly and forever in my heart, which can't be erased.

Bit by bit when we get along, like a slide show, it keeps spinning in front of my eyes, as if I have experienced the time with you again.

"Ai Liu is very good, maybe it's good to be with him."

In a trance, this sentence rang again in my ears.At the same time, the fantasy in front of me has come to that day...

do not go……

Tomoyo's figure gradually dissipated, as without warning as when he appeared.I reached out and tried to hug her...

As if knowing what I was thinking, Tomoyo's figure disappeared even faster.

No, wait, please let me hug you, even if only for a second, even if only in an illusion...

Great.

Close your eyes gently, stroke the soft hair, feel the body temperature of the beautiful woman in your arms, so satisfied and happy.

A happy smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

"that is really good."

Although it is strange why Tomoyo's figure has not disappeared, but I dare not open my eyes, as long as the beauty in my arms really exists, it is enough, even if it is only in an illusion.

At this time, a ray of fragrance floated into my nose, and then the doctor whispered into my ears, "Let go!"

"..." I pursed the corners of my mouth tightly, instead of obeying, I tried harder instead.

"Let go!!"

There was a hint of anger in the voice, which sounded peculiar.

Strange, how come there is a sound?I can't help but have a question mark in my heart.

"Let go!!! Hand!!!"

There was a roar, and at the same time a huge force acted on my abdomen, and my whole body uncontrollably knocked down the chair behind me and fell to the ground.

"Pain Pain Pain Pain..."

Not only the abdomen, but also the back of the head and the ground had a close contact at zero distance.

"It will hurt you to death!"

I raised my head and looked at Xing with a strange expression, and found that her face was flushed, and she was playing with the corner of her clothes like a little daughter-in-law.

what's wrong?

I looked at Sister Fujibayashi, I wanted to get some hints from her, but it turned out to be more serious than Xing.

"It's weird~" muttering in a low voice, he got up from the ground, lightly patted the dust on his clothes, rearranged the chair and sat down.

The surroundings suddenly fell into an embarrassing atmosphere, no one took the initiative to start the conversation, each doing their own things.

I looked at the twin sisters with great interest, Xing imitated Fujibayashi's younger sister and played with the corner of the clothes, and Fujibayashi lowered her head, drinking a drink in small sips.

By the way, what just happened? ? ?

With that in mind, I took a sip of my drink.

As a result, my relaxed and leisurely attitude seemed to arouse Xing's disgust.

Just now she looked like a little daughter-in-law, but she instantly turned into a queen, without saying anything, just threw a big move over.

Although I am very confident in my skills, the distance between me and Xing is so close, and I haven't activated the protagonist halo, how can I avoid it? !

Naturally, I could only rub my forehead gently with my teeth bared.

He kept muttering in his mouth: "What, even if you are a queen, you wouldn't be so violent, hiss~ pain pain pain pain pain ~ ~ hiss ah ~ gaining two catties out of thin air, if pork is worth money."

Speaking of this, I secretly glared at Xing, "I curse you that you will never be able to marry... ah!!!"

"You, are you talking bad about me!" Xing suddenly turned her head and stared at me, her beautiful eyes were twinkling with suspicion, but her tone was extremely affirmative.

"You are overthinking." I said respectfully.

"Really?" Xing propped her hands on the table, leaned over, and spat out the pandan at a distance of less than 5 centimeters from me.

I quietly stared at Xing's eyes, and for a while, slowly poked forward...

Seeing Xing's pupils gradually being filled with my figure, I suddenly found that the body fragrance emanating from Xing's body seemed to be exactly the same as the "Tomoyo" who was hugging me when I was in a daze.

"Apricot~"

From an almost negligible distance, I called out in a trembling voice.

"what?"

Xing opened his mouth, and for some reason he only uttered the word ah. I guess he was either shy or embarrassed.

"That..." I thought about it carefully, and summoned up my courage, "Just now, did I hold you tightly in my arms?"

As soon as the words fell, I saw a trace of panic flashing through Xing's seriousness.

"It seems to be true, Xing, what I want to say is that if you agree, I want to be with you."

"No no no, yes..."

I looked at Xing's flustered explanation in a panic, and couldn't help but feel a little funny.

"Hmm!" Xing stopped suddenly, and then frowned, obviously trying to figure something out.

Seeing Xing's appearance, I curled my lips, trying to see something from her face, but I really couldn't see anything from that pensive face.

That being the case, I didn't bother to pay attention to what weird things this dangerous person would do, and instead chatted with sister Fujibayashi without saying a word.This is not because I have any opinion on sister Fujibayashi, but because she is too timid.

Originally, I didn’t talk much, and I was more of a listener when I was chatting with others, and I only inserted words occasionally.This is all right, two boring jars, the end result is that after chatting for a few words, there is no sound.

The atmosphere fell into silence again, which was quite normal, but I felt an inexplicable sense of frustration.

why?

I don't understand, after seeing sister Fujibayashi's careful look, looking at Xing who is still thinking about something, and then thinking about Tomoyo's character, I seem to understand.

It's not so much that I like Tomoyo, it's better to say that I like to chat with Tomoyo, it's more accurate that I want to talk to people.It's not a big deal, but because I'm a stuffy person and introverted, I don't have many friends, and I didn't have any female friends before high school...

"Let me just say, how could I be emotional, it turned out that I was misled by Tomoyo." I whispered, the voice was so small that I couldn't hear it clearly, "Because I don't want to do things that I'm sorry for others, especially I don't want girls because of me. I was sad and lost because of the reason, that's why I had a kind of "love" for Tomoyo after that day. In fact, I simply envy Tomoyo's strength... I'm really nasty! However, the deception is perfect, and the faith is very pious."

I smiled wryly, and continued to analyze: "The feelings for Tomoyo are self-deception, so what about Xing? I'm afraid it's not just guilt, but also jealousy, yes, it's jealousy! Jealous that she is more cheerful and lively than me, sunny and generous, That's why I used accidents to make my relationship with Xing more and more chaotic, and I used Xing to make myself more cheerful. That's the purpose of what I said to Xing just now, but I do seem to like it a little bit. Xing. However, after Xing fell into silence, when I tried to chat with sister Fujibayashi, I found that it had no effect at all. I was still as reticent as before. As for why it took me so long to find out, it was probably because Xing’s charm attracted me Looking at me, unconsciously ignoring this problem."

After a deep analysis of myself, I found that the actions I did without thinking were really disgusting.

"It seems that I can't help avoiding emotional problems because I am afraid that such and such actions without thinking will have bad consequences for the girl. The result... because I am afraid of hurting the other party unintentionally Deliberately ignoring the relationship between men and women will hurt each other precisely for this reason."

"When it is broken, it will not be disturbed." I suddenly remembered a sentence my grandfather said to me.

"It seems to be true. It would be great if I could make it clear earlier..." But, with my personality, can I do it?

"Explain what?" Xing's voice reached my ears.

"Ah? Oh, it's nothing, by the way, I said you take the exam..." Damn, why did you mention this, haven't you played enough! ! !

"You're beautiful!" Xing said playfully.

Great.

However, how could there be a sense of loss?

PS: This is a manuscript given to me by my brother, I am his brother.He asked me to say that since it is a manuscript, the number of words cannot be guaranteed, please forgive me.

The finale if you can live again

Decades later, when I lay powerlessly on the hospital bed, waiting for the last moment of death, what I thought about in my mind was not what I would look like after death, but life in high school.

Thinking about it now, I was really self-righteous at that time, I didn’t understand anything, I didn’t understand anything, but I just pretended that everything had been seen through by me, and I felt good about analyzing and doing some self-righteous things. Behaviors that I thought would be beneficial to the other party turned out to have no one to visit after I was hospitalized in critical condition.

"It's so sad." I smiled to myself.

Obviously I like them so much, I like the feeling of being with them, but I dare not express my thoughts because of shyness, and I bury my feelings deeply because of low self-esteem.

"What an idiot!" I said angrily.

"I don't know what happened to them..."

I closed my eyes, and what came to my mind was the moments when I was with them.

I remember that the first time I met Nagisa was because of Aunt Sanae. That scene was really dramatic. When I first arrived in that small town, someone robbed me, and then I met Aunt Sanae and the uncle’s family, and then Aunt Sanae Take pity on me, let me help at her house, so that I can get to know Nagisa formally, speaking of Nagisa’s health is really bad, I don’t know if it got better later, and now I should be sitting at home leisurely with Wujin Let's drink tea together.Later, I didn't want to trouble the uncle's family anymore, so I found a job in a bar by myself.By the way, the proprietress of the bar is really beautiful... Then it was quite dramatic. One night when I was wandering around, I met Tomoyo who was a "chivalrous man". Then I found out that Tomoyo was a child laborer who worked in the same bar as me. Later, I got to know her I have a good impression of her because of my family situation, but because of my personality and I don’t know how to express the result, I pushed such a perfect girl into the arms of others. I can only be her friend, and I don’t know her now. How are you doing?Later, Xing appeared beside me.Although the first time I met Xing was not so friendly, but these are not problems.The problem is that when I found out that I like Xing, I thought it was a sign of liking the new and loathing the old, so nostalgic, I found a lot of excuses to convince myself that I didn't like Xing, and I didn't care about Xing's thoughts.

"It's really selfish." I said, "I remember, when I found Xing's figure firmly rooted in my heart, I not only made a lot of excuses, but also tried every means to avoid Xing."

"I don't know what I thought at the time, maybe I thought that the long-term absence can make the relationship fade away. But this time is really long enough. It seems that since I came back from shopping with Xing, I haven't seen her again. It's been a while."

Not only Xing, but also Nagisa and Tomoyo and I can't see each other.

Moreover, in order to stay away completely, I left Japan after graduating from high school and came to China, a country with a vast land, abundant resources and a large population, where I spent decades alone.

At this moment, at the end of my life, I regret everything I did in high school, but it's too late.I can clearly feel the fragility of life, and it seems that in the next second, I will lose consciousness and be addicted to dreams forever.

"I regret."

"If there is an afterlife, I hope that Nagisa, Tomoyo, and Xing will still live in the same era."

"If I can live again, I hope I will no longer feel inferior or shy."

"If it's true, I don't want to regret it anymore!"

After saying these few sentences, it seems that all the vitality has been exhausted, the consciousness has become blurred, and the time limit has come.

Close your eyes slowly, the world becomes smaller and smaller...

Goodbye……

【Finish】