Who can think of a name for me

"This is where?"

I looked around, looking at the unfamiliar streets, people coming and going, and I stood in the crowd.I seem to be trying to find something, but what is it?What am I looking for?

Suddenly I saw a familiar figure, I chased after him without thinking, but the next second he disappeared among the crowd.I just felt a panic in my heart, I looked around, the street changed, and there was no one there!The sky began to snow, a lot of snow, and in an instant the place was completely covered with white.I couldn't suppress the fear in my heart until I heard a voice, a voice I was very familiar with!

"Doctor Lu!"

I turned around and saw Li Mo.He stood in the white snow wearing a bead gray sweater, still thin body, still pale face, and his incomparably warm smile that fascinated me the most.

I smiled back at him almost reflexively, and walked towards him.

He was always smiling, and his eyes seemed to be twinkling with stars, but every step I took, he was farther away from me; I took another step closer, and he was farther away from me.I didn't dare to go forward, I just looked at him from a distance, watched him smile at me, and slowly, he merged with the snow and disappeared!

"Li Mo!"

I yelled and gasped for breath, but I looked around carefully, only to find that I was lying on the bed, it turned out to be a dream!I closed my eyes tightly, recalling Li Mo's smile, he smiled at me standing in the snow.

I went to the window and opened the curtains. The strong light made me unable to open my eyes. When I finally got used to it, I saw that there was a vast expanse of white outside the window. It turned out that it was really snowing!

"It's snowing!" I repeated this sentence, as if I realized something in the next second, I quickly grabbed the coat that was thrown on the sofa, and ran out like crazy!

I couldn't calm down my heart. I was so scared that I didn't dare to think about anything. I just ran to the hospital as hard as I could, climbed up to the third floor without stopping, and went straight to the [-] ward.

I opened the door and looked at the empty room. I felt powerless for a moment. Leaning against the door frame, my mind went blank, and I only felt my eye sockets heat up.

"Doctor Lu!"

Li Mo's voice came from behind me, and I turned around in disbelief.He was wearing a thick cotton coat, half of his face was blocked by a gray scarf, and there were still snowflakes in his hair. He was still smiling at me at this moment.

I hugged him almost subconsciously, and held him tightly until I felt his heartbeat, his breathing, and I felt that I had finally calmed down.

"Doctor Lu? What's wrong with you?"

Li Mo asked me softly, slowly put his hand on my back, and patted me twice, as if to comfort me.

"No...it's okay." I said, secretly wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, took a deep breath, and let him go.

"where did you go?"

"Of course I went to see the snow! Doctor Lu, it's snowing outside, it's snowing a lot!" Li Mo danced like a child.

"Isn't it cold? Go out so early." As I said, I gently patted the snowflakes off his hair.

"It's cold, but I'm so happy that I forget about it!"

Li Mo smiled at me, his eye sockets were frozen pink, but his eyes became brighter.

I also smiled and touched his head, and he lowered his head shyly.

very nice!Li Mo is still there, and now he is right in front of my eyes!

"Take off your pants!"

"Ah?" Li Mo looked at me suspiciously and stood there blankly.

"What are you doing standing there? No underwear?" I glanced at him impatiently.

Hearing what I said, his face turned red instantly, but he still slowly took off his trousers, his eyes drifted, and he didn't dare to look at me.

"Go over there!"

My voice is extremely cold, maybe it's because I've been a doctor for too long, and after seeing too many lives and deaths, I can't hold the heartstrings for all patients.

"Okay, the filming is done, you can go out."

I said, looking down at the machine.

"Thank you doctor!"

Li Mo's voice was extremely low, but he could still hear it clearly.I looked up at him, his face was pale and bloodless, but those eyes were surprisingly bright.I don't know what disease he has?

After that I became his attending doctor, and I knew how serious he was, and every day he followed was tantamount to waiting for death!But I am used to seeing it, and there is no wave in my heart.

But gradually I found that he loves to laugh, whether it is to me or to the nurses around him, he always smiles.It's strange, his smile gives people a very warm feeling, like an innocent child, I never thought to see such a smile from an adult, so I started to pay special attention to him.

I found that he was always alone. He had such a serious illness, but he didn't have any relatives around him, not even a nurse!So during a ward round, I asked him, where is your family?

He was smiling at first, but now he froze.After a while, he said, "No."

"Are you an orphan?"

"No."

I didn't ask again, I thought he didn't want to talk about it, so I found another topic, "Looking at your medical records before, are you not from here?"

"Well, I'm from the south, and I come here for treatment just to watch the snow!"

"Look at the snow?"

"Yes, look at the snow, you don't know how difficult it is to see the snow in the south! I think, if I can see a big, big snow, even if I die immediately, I won't be afraid!"

Hearing this, I understand how much he loves snow, and he will mention snow to me almost every day after that: "When will it snow?" "Will it snow tomorrow?" "It's getting colder today." Well, will it snow?"...

I understand that his eager waiting for the snow is actually because he is afraid that he will not be able to wait for the day when it snows!In fact, his condition is getting worse day by day. Recently, he has started to have frequent fevers. After finally getting down, he will return to the same old state after a while.

I took advantage of my lunch break to see him. It was very strange. I was obviously such a cold person, but I was willing to give up my precious rest time to see him. It was so strange!He fell asleep, sleeping peacefully.His face was flushed, not because his complexion had improved, but because he had a fever.

"Well, Doctor Lu?"

He woke up and wanted to sit up, but he seemed dizzy and couldn't get up for a while.I helped him sit up and put a pillow behind him.

"Thank you!" He was still very shy, looked at me and smiled, "Did you come to see me for something?"

"Nothing, just looking at you. How do you feel now?"

"It's okay, I'm just a little dizzy."

He said and pointed to his head, smiling helplessly.

I raised my hand to touch his forehead, it was very hot, just about to get the thermometer in the drawer, but he suddenly grabbed my hand and covered it tightly with both hands.

"Doctor Lu, your hands are so cold, let me warm you up! Anyway, I'm very hot now." He said, laughing a little embarrassedly.

"Ah."

I gave up the plan to get the thermometer, and let him hold my hand. His hand was soft and warm, even slightly sweating.I don't know why being held by him like this makes my heart feel warm.Looking at his smiling face, I felt scared for the first time, afraid that one day he would leave, leave this world!

From then on, I paid more attention to his condition and tried my best to control his condition, but unfortunately he was still losing weight day by day, his face became paler, and he even started to cough violently.The only thing that remains the same is his smile, bright eyes, and his expectation for a heavy snowfall.

"Cough cough..."

I beat his back lightly for him, watched his face turn red because of coughing, and couldn't tell what kind of feeling I was feeling in my heart.It took a while for him to recover, I handed him a glass of water, he drank slowly, tears leaked from the corners of his eyes, I thought, is he in pain?

"Doctor Lu, why are you here again? Didn't you just come here?" He smiled mischievously at me, "Maybe you fell in love with me?"

"Hmm." I didn't refute, nor did I intend to refute.

"Haha..." He smiled and took my hand, "Since you like me, lend me your hand. I don't know why holding your hand makes me feel less uncomfortable!"

"Really? Then you can hold it for as long as you want!"

"Really? Doctor Lu, you are such a nice person!"

He held my hand tightly and smiled brightly.

I always wished I could spend all my time on him, looking at his increasingly thin face, my heart felt as if a knife was piercing my heart, I even began to pray to God, whom I never prayed for, to give a miracle!It's a pity that the miracle didn't happen, and Li Mo got worse, and even started to cough up blood, but even so, he still smiled at me, trying his best to hide the pain he suffered.And I just became more timid, afraid to look at his face too carefully, afraid to leave him for too long, and even unwilling to go home.I was too scared, too scared to bear the torment of time!

"Lie down, I'll pour some hot water for you and burn your feet."

I told Li Mo to lie on the bed, he was too weak and cold all over.But before I went out, he grabbed the corner of my clothes. I looked back at him, and he lowered his head in embarrassment.

"You don't need hot water, just stay here with me."

His voice was very small, but I could still hear it clearly.I sat on the edge of the bed, next to him, but we didn't talk anymore, but were silent with each other.After a while, I felt his hand hold mine tightly from under the quilt, and I held it backwards, interlocking my fingers with his.

"Were you worried about me just now?" He asked.

"Ah."

"Am I not going to live long?"

"Will not."

"Did you cry just now?"

"Ah."

"For...why?"

"I had a dream. I dreamed of you. You smiled at me in the snow, but I couldn't get close to you. I could only look at you from a distance, and then you disappeared."

Li Mo didn't speak any more, but held my hand even tighter, and he looked out the window.

I also followed his gaze, the snow was still falling outside the window, flying all over the sky, and all the buildings were covered with a layer of snow, which became crystal clear under the neon lights...

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It's getting cold, remember to add clothes...