No.70 days

Yang Shuyi looked at Shao Wu, as if he couldn't believe it: "You will come?"

Shao Wu stood up: "Well, that's it."

The two walked out of the hospital, and Shao Wu quickly got into a taxi parked by the side of the road. Before he closed the door, Yang Shuyi called out: "Shao Wu."

Shao Wu didn't answer, he just slammed the door shut and said to the driver: "Master, go to Jinxiu Garden."

It means running away.

The taxi started and accelerated. Shao Wu turned his head and saw Yang Shuyi standing in place through the rear window pasted with translucent advertising paper.Soon he disappeared from Shao Wu's sight, as if he was swallowed by the blurred night.

Shao Wu remembered that her mother-in-law was hospitalized in high school, and it was also in this hospital.That night he lied and begged Yang Shuyi to allow him to stay in the hospital and watch the night with him.They slept in the corridor, it was too cold, and when they woke up in the middle of the night, their noses were so cold.At that time, he couldn't imagine how Yang Shuyi persisted. Not only was it cold, but he had to change her mother-in-law's urine bag regularly and turn over... Later, Yang Long and Xiaojuan died in the earthquake, and her father-in-law died in a car accident. Zou Xin had an affair with that teacher Zhang for many years.This incident was so horrifying that Shao Wu still couldn't believe it completely, but he also knew that Yang Shuyi didn't need to lie to him.

But he couldn't figure out, how could a person's luck be so bad?

When he was about to get home, Wang Yujun sent a WeChat message, saying that there was his newly bought underwear at the bottom of the closet, and reminded Shao Wu that it was cold at night, so remember to turn on the air conditioner.

He didn't ask about Yang Shuyi, and Shao Wu didn't mention it either, but just looking at Wang Yujun's WeChat, he felt even more confused.He didn't know how to explain it when the time came, so he went to Yang Shuyi's wedding by himself.

If Zou Xin really treated him that way...then what is the difference between this wedding and the funeral of his father-in-law back then?It was nothing more than once again, when fate hit Yang Shuyi hard, he was willing to be by the side.He felt that this was indeed different from the relationship between men and women. If there was a girl who liked Yang Shuyi as much as he did, as an outsider, he would definitely not have the heart for the girl to endure those tortures.But he is a man, and Yang Shuyi and Yang Shuyi can't be lovers in this life, at least there is some friendship between men?That is, even if you can't share joys and sorrows, you can at least share hardships.

That's right.The friendship of a man, the friendship of a good brother, just like before they broke through the window paper, Yang Shuyi often hooked his shoulders like other boys.Because of this gesture, he also gave back to accompany him, accompanying him in his life, one dark moment after another.

If one day, Yang Shuyi finds another woman he loves, he will definitely, definitely not attend their wedding.

That's right.

Shao Wu took a shower, smoked a cigarette by the window, and then lay down on the bed.Although the air conditioner was turned on, Yongchuan was much colder than Zhuhai, and he was not used to it.In addition, after running around for a whole day and experiencing too many emotional ups and downs, I am not sleepy now.

Shao Wu took out his mobile phone, played two sets of Glory of Kings, and knelt down.It was nearly eleven o'clock, and the night sky outside the window was a very deep navy blue.Still sleepy, he simply clicked on the English document sent by the student, intending to correct it for her now.While conscious, he had to find something to do for himself.

At 28:[-], the room was dark and quiet, except for Shao Wu's mobile phone with a faint white light on, his breathing was very soft, and he was about to fall asleep.

In the next second, the reminders of WeChat messages sounded again and again.Shao Wu woke up suddenly, grabbed his phone, and saw the WeChat message from Longlong:

Brother, can you come to my house?

my brother is drunk

He's never been this drunk before, I'm a little scared

[position]

i can't move him

Shao Wu was in a daze for a second, and quickly replied: I will be there later

This is the first time Shao Wu went to their new home after Yang Shuyi's home was demolished.The location of the community is not very far from Jinxiu Garden, and it takes more than ten minutes by taxi.When Shao Wu got out of the car, he saw Longlong pajamas wrapped in a down jacket, shrunken from the cold, standing at the gate of the community.

"Brother Xiao Shao," her voice was a little crying, "my brother, he must have drunk a lot. I don't know why, but he still..."

Shao Wu quickly patted her on the back: "Don't worry, I'm here."

Scan the access control, enter the community, and go upstairs.Longlong was crying so hard that Shao Wu didn't have time to think about anything.Entering the door, Yang Shuyi's coat, shoes, and keys were all scattered at the door, in a mess.There was an obvious smell of alcohol in the air, and Shao Wu's heart ached, wondering how much Yang Shuyi had drunk.

"He, he's in the house," Longlong's voice shrank, "in the bedroom."

Shao Wu followed Longlong, stepped over the scattered clothes, and arrived at the door of the bedroom. Longlong reached out and twisted the door open.

Shao Wu was stunned.

He didn't expect Zou Xin to be there.

Yang Shuyi was lying on the bed with his eyes closed, without a quilt, and even the belt was still tied around his waist.And Zou Xin was wearing a very long brown nightdress, and he was lazily nestling on the beanbag beside him.

I haven't seen her for a few years, but she is still beautiful, but with short hair and long hair, she is no longer so vigorous, showing a bit of mature beauty.

"You're here." Zou Xin said.

Shao Wu looked at her complicatedly, not knowing what to answer.

"I asked Longlong to call you here, it's late at night, thank you." She got up, walked towards Shao Wu casually, then walked around him, and touched Longlong's head.

"Hey, my wallet is on the coffee table," she said softly to Longlong, "Go to the convenience store downstairs and have some snacks, okay? Don't leave the neighborhood, it's too late."

Longlong anxiously said: "Sister, I won't go."

"Be obedient, you don't need to meddle in these matters," she hugged Longlong, and said with a smile, "Give us some private space, we'll be fine in a while."

A few minutes later, Longlong left.

Yang Shuyi had already opened his eyes, his dark eyes were staring at the ceiling, as if they were empty.It was impossible to tell how drunk he was.

"He kept calling your name just now," Zou Xin sat back on the sofa, still curled up his legs as before, and said lazily, "He went looking for you, didn't he?"

"...how much did he drink?"

"How do I know, it's the first time I've seen him drunk like this," Zou Xin sighed softly, "I kept calling you by your name, gave him some water, and stopped talking."

Shao Wu walked over and patted Yang Shuyi's arm: "Shuyi?"

Yang Shuyi didn't move, just let out a murky "hmm".

Zou Xin asked, "Do you know about that?"

"understood."

"It's true that I didn't do it properly," Zou Xin said, "but he's not a good guy either."

"..."

Seeing that Shao Wu didn't speak, Zou Xin got up and walked out of the house, and came back soon, holding Yang Shuyi's cell phone in his hand.In front of Shao Wu, she unlocked the phone and said, "Look."

A slender and fair index finger clicked on the "Weather" app on the phone.

Zou Xin swiped left, followed by the weather forecast of Yongchuan District. She snorted and swiped left again.

There are two Chinese characters on the screen, which Shao Wu naturally recognizes.

Zhuhai.

"When we broke up, were you together?"

"No..." Shao Wu stared blankly at the phone screen, "No."

"That's it, you said that if you do get together and he's not in love with you, then that's fine—but he's not with you at all, is he? He still thinks he's a straight guy and needs to get married , he has to pass on the family line to the Yang family, and his mother-in-law has to watch him start a family. But you say, what is this, is this self-deception? While he is with me, he can’t help but look at the weather forecast over there , so affectionate?"

Shao Wu met Yang Shuyi's gaze, and the two gazes were so calm that there was no ripple.Shao Wu almost wanted to pull up his collar and ask him, why?

Could it be that Yang Shuyi was also watching the weather in Zhuhai when he clicked on Yang Shuyi's almost blank circle of friends again and again?But the weather - what about the weather in Zhuhai?During those sweltering rainy days and bright sunny days, he never gave him a call.

"Of course, I have no position to accuse him of being unfaithful." Zou Xin threw the phone on the bed, "I just think he is like this, which makes me look down on him. He obviously, obviously loves you to death, he dare not admit."

Shao Wu's heart was shocked, and he said in a low voice: "He said that he is sincere to you."

"It doesn't matter," Zou Xin sneered, and continued, "I know you like him for many years. But you know Shao Wu, I always think that there are two types of people in this world, and one type is really 'alive' In layman's terms, it means daring to love, daring to hate, and being loyal to yourself, even if you are stupid, cheap, and loyal to yourself-we belong to this category. The other category has never 'lived' at all, like ants, their whole life Just because of some unknown things, muddle along, never know what they want, or they know but dare not admit it, cowardly, selfish, boring——Yang Shuyi belongs to this category."

Shao Wu was shocked by her words, and it took several seconds before he opened his mouth to refute: "But Yang Shuyi, he...he is different from us." In fact, Zou Xin was clearly just scolding Yang Shuyi, but he still couldn't help defending him—— Shao Wu thought to himself, maybe the excuse at this moment is exactly what Zou Xin said about "being cheap" or "being stupid", but he does not allow her to belittle Yang Shuyi in this way, just like he did not allow Principal Gao to use power to belittle Yang Shuyi many years ago. Yang Shuyi, this has nothing to do with love, it's just because he understands Yang Shuyi's life, which neither he nor Zou Xin can understand.

Zou Xin said sarcastically: "It's really different. As I said, he belongs to the second type of person, which is very boring."

"He can live well, let Longlong and mother-in-law live well," Shao Wu felt that arguing with her about this issue was ridiculous, but he continued, "It's not easy...not everyone can be like you, Have the capital to 'dare to love and dare to hate'."

"Yes, he is unlucky. He lived a miserable life when he was a child. He was reincarnated badly, so he became this kind of person." Zou Xin picked up the coat on the hanger and put it on his body, "But I just look down on him. No contradiction! It’s up to you if you want to go up and down, you can do whatever you want, this marriage knot is for his mother-in-law and my parents to see, I don’t care about it! But Shao Wu, I advise you—even if One day when we get divorced, it won't be your turn, he will always find a new girl, and it won't be your turn."

She didn't wait for Shao Wu's answer after she finished speaking, she left the sentence "I'll go find Longlong" and went out.

Shao Wu maintained the posture of looking back at her going out, and after a while, he replied very lightly: "I know."

Then he turned his head back and saw Yang Shuyi with his eyes closed.

When Shao Wu fell asleep, he gently grabbed his hand: "You really love me to death?"

Yang Shuyi should not.

Shao Wu pinched his fingers, without any passion, and said to himself: "I think I can understand your choice, and I can understand myself, although sometimes I do think you are quite an asshole ——You let me watch you get married, have you ever thought about my feelings?"

Shao Wu sighed, guessing that Longlong and Zou Xin would come back later, he let go of Yang Shuyi's hand.He dragged Yang Shuyi's body upwards and let him lean against the erected pillow. Drunken people tend to vomit, and they will choke when lying down.

After finishing these, Shao Wu was ready to leave.Just as he was about to get up, his wrist was suddenly grabbed.

There was only one wall lamp on in the room, half bright and half dark.

Yang Shuyi said hoarsely, "You don't want to go to our wedding."

"...don't let me go again?"

"Are you the same as her, looking down on me."

"You know," Shao Wu said, "never."

"Actually, you should look down on me. People like me, that's all." Yang Shuyi smiled shortly. "For a long time, my goal has been to let my family and I live a good life. pursuit."

He opened his eyes, his eyes full of despair.

It has been 2007 years since they met in 9. Shao Wu has seen inferiority, numbness, and entanglement in his eyes. Only this time, he saw despair.The texture of despair is actually soft, as if anyone can go up and slap and step on it, like water, no matter how disturbed it is, it will eventually return to its original shape.This is his despair.

"I used to have a dream," Yang Shuyi's voice was very muddy, "I dreamed that I was sick, seriously ill, and dying. I was very anxious in the dream. I thought I was dead. Where did Longlong go to university? The money from here? And mother-in-law, if she is sick and hospitalized, who will carry her? That is, the family members need to carry her from the ambulance stretcher to the hospital bed..."

Shao Wu closed his eyes.

"I'm sorry," Yang Shuyi continued, "my life is like this—like an ant? Before you came, Zou Xin said, it's better for her to be with Zhang, and I'll be with you, and we each play our own way. I don't want to do this... this is disgusting and unworthy of you."

Shao Wu interrupted him: "Stop talking."

"I'm sorry," he apologized again, "I know you don't want to go, so why don't you go...you're going to watch a monkey show."

"Have you ever thought about my feelings, you asked me to attend your wedding, and now you say you are not good enough for me, Yang Shuyi, have you considered my feelings?"

"..."

"Do you love me a little, a little bit? You give me an answer, whether you have it or not, you give me an answer, and then you go to get married, I know you have difficulties, you can't help it, I understand, but Give me an answer—don't hold back, tell me." Shao Wu looked at him with red eyes, facing his despair, and the thin expectation in despair.Their luck is very bad, another one becomes a demon after chasing after another, and the other becomes a karma after being burdened with burdens. This kind of love is bad for everything, only love itself is good.

"Love."

Yang Shuyi said.