Yesterday

Xu Yanqing was going to invite Qin Yu to dinner. He asked Qin Yu what restaurant he liked on the phone. Qin Yu was silent for a long time, and said shyly:

"I just want to hear you play that piece again."

"Which song?" Xu Yanqing asked him with a smile.

Qin Yu tightened his grip on the phone, extremely frustrated, didn't he remember?

"I'm kidding you," Xu Yanqing seemed to guess what he was thinking, and immediately said, "Of course I remember."

They have an appointment on Saturday night.

The light in the cafe is soft, the walls are pasted with retro wallpapers, and the voices of people talking are very soft.Although Qin Yu said that he didn't need to invite him to dinner, the two still had a simple meal here, and Xu Yanqing paid the bill quietly.He said to Qin Yu: "I want to play the piece requested by the manager first, can you wait for me a little longer?"

"Okay." Qin Yu couldn't ask for more.

A microphone was fixed on the grand piano, and Xu Yanqing sang while playing.His voice is hoarse and magnetic, and they are all simple popular songs, one after another.

Qin Yu sat on a booth a few tables away from the piano. He had never heard Xu Yanqing perform so many pieces in a row. After all, that person's major was not music.The flowing soft music made him immersed and forgotten, and time became blurred.

After playing another song, Xu Yanqing lowered his hands on the keys, and his eyes passed the crowd, looking into Qin Yu's eyes.Qin Yu knew that it was their moment, as if he had already stepped down and sat beside him.

Like some afternoon.

"Are you going to the New Year's Eve party?"

In the empty music classroom, there were only the two of them.

"Well, how about you, senior?"

"I'm the host this time," Xu Yanqing blinked at him, "Come on, what song are you going to perform?"

Qin Yu silently handed him the music score.

"This one." Xu Yanqing raised his eyebrows slightly, "You actually like this song?"

"You—don't you like it?" Qin Yu curled up and stretched his fingers. This song 'Yesterday' was played and sung by Xu Yanqing when he was a sophomore in high school.

"No, this is my favorite song," Xu Yanqing said, "I just didn't expect anyone to like such an old song like me."

Hearing the words "like me", Qin Yu unconsciously raised the corners of his lips. This song is indeed his favorite song since junior high school.

"I also played this song in high school, have you heard of it?" Xu Yanqing suddenly remembered what Qin Yu had said about it.

"How about it, do you want me to give you some guidance?" Xu Yanqing sat down beside him.

Qin Yu's heart was beating briskly, probably like the tremor left by the April wind blowing the leaves, weak and uncontrollable.

Qin Yu likes music, but his family was relatively poor when he was a child, and his parents were reluctant to spend money to hire a teacher.After middle school, my father left the previous unit to start his own business, and the living conditions gradually improved, and he also bought a piano.But he missed the best time to learn the piano, and he was busy with his studies, so he could only think about it by himself and play some simple pieces casually.

Xu Yanqing was different. His mother used to be a university music teacher. After marrying into Xu's family, she left school to focus on raising her husband and raising her children.Xu Yanqing inherited his mother's talent and received a good music education since he was a child. He is more than enough to guide Qin Yu.

Qin Yu was also a smart student, and the pieces he played and sang were not difficult, and with Xu Yanqing's guidance, he made rapid progress.The performance that year was very successful.

Xu Yanqing raised his arm again, hanging lightly over the keyboard, the music flowing from his fingertips was like layers of time being peeled off.

Qin Yu couldn't tell what it was like when he watched Xu Yanqing's performance for the first time, but he remembered feeling the pain.Later, every time he was with Xu Yanqing, he would relive that pain, it was a kind of pain that was left after being burned by light and heat, it was too warm and he was afraid of losing it.

Now, when the voice and tune sounded again, he suddenly understood what the pain that Xu Yanqing brought him was—in fact, it was a budding emotion that he had never been aware of.

His eyes were moist, his lips opened and closed in accordance with the tune, and he sang along with Xu Yanqing's voice.He was afraid that the other party would discover his anomaly, so he quietly wiped his eyes with a tissue.

Liao Jing said that he had someone in his heart, but he didn't admit it.

It's not that he doesn't have it, it's that he doesn't dare to think about it.

When they went back, in Qin Yu's car, neither of them said a word, they were silent all the way.Qin Yu parked at the alley as usual, watching Xu Yanqing walk in step by step, the long shadow under the street lamp getting farther and farther away.However, just as the man was about to turn around and enter the house, he suddenly ran out of the car.

"Xu Yanqing!"

The amplified voice made Xu Yanqing startled, he stopped, and then he heard Qin Yu say, "Don't look back."

Footsteps from far to near.

After taking two steps, Qin Yu ran towards him quickly, but stopped suddenly when he reached the figure from behind, slowly stretched out his arms, and hugged him from behind.

Xu Yanqing's body stiffened, and a suppressed choked voice came from behind: "Senior, I miss you very much..."

The pain grows in my heart and takes root, even if it is so close to you, it can't be wiped away.

This is his home.

Xu Yanqing let him hug him for a long time, and then handed him a handkerchief: "Wipe it off." He turned around, and by the light of the street lamp, he saw the young man's red eyes and wet tears.

Qin Yu wiped it on his face in embarrassment, avoiding Xu Yanqing's sight.

"Do you usually live alone?" Xu Yanqing asked.

"...Mmm." He still cried heavily when he opened his mouth.

"Do you want to stay at my house today?" Xu Yanqing smiled at him.

Qin Yu was too surprised to speak, but his eyes widened with sparkling eyelashes.

"I don't want to see you driving back crying," Xu Yanqing added, "Come on." Not allowing the other party to react, he took Qin Yu's wrist and stepped towards the threshold of the apartment building.

The living room was lit for Xu Yanqing who came back late.The lights in Shen Jialan's room were not turned off either, obviously she hadn't fallen asleep yet.Xu Yanqing first went to his mother's room and told her that a friend was coming, and then took Qin Yu to his own room.His bed is 1.5 meters long, barely able to sleep two people.

Qin Yu recalled the night when he shared the bed with Xu Yanqing in the off-campus apartment many years ago. At that time, he had no distracting thoughts and still suffered from insomnia for most of the night; now it is even more difficult to fall asleep.And once a certain suppressed emotion is released, it seems that it can't be stopped, and Qin Yu's nasal cavity is a little sour again.

"I've never seen you cry so much before..." Xu Yanqing lay beside him, and after washing his handkerchief, he wiped him with a tissue, "My good shirt was ruined by you." Xu Yanqing pretended to complain, with a voice is smiling.

"I'll pay you one thing." Qin Yu said sullenly, facing him sideways.

"Really?" Xu Yanqing just wanted to make a joke, but he didn't expect him to take it seriously.

"Well," Qin Yu said firmly, "Let's buy it together."

When hugging Xu Yanqing, the other party didn't push him away, and even invited him into the room, but he didn't say anything unnecessary, making Qin Yu wonder if he had guessed everything.Qin Yu still doesn't know how to tell Xu Yanqing, the only thing that is certain is that his wish to be with him will no longer be hidden.

"Okay." After Xu Yanqing responded bluntly, he suddenly reached out and pinched Qin Yu's face.

"What are you doing?" Qin Yu was startled.

Xu Yanqing's voice was still full of smiles: "You have meat, you used to have a sharp mouth and monkey cheeks."

Qin Yu touched the place he pinched, and when he put down his hand, he murmured, "But you've lost weight."

His voice was very soft, but Xu Yanqing still heard it, and he gave a "puchi" laugh: "Stop thinking about it... Can't you fall asleep? Do you want me to sing you a lullaby?"

"Never."

Qin Yu turned around and turned his back to Xu Yanqing.The bed was not big, Xu Yanqing's breath hit his neck, he didn't dare to move, and he didn't know how long it took before he fell asleep.

After July, Xu Yanqing's students began to have summer vacation, and the courses were transferred to weekdays one after another, and the weekends were free during the day.Qin Yu really asked him out to buy clothes.

South Mall is the largest shopping mall in City A. It is especially popular in summer. On weekends, it is bustling with people who are having fun, strolling or escaping the heat...everything is available.

Qin Yu took a fancy to a gray and black shirt with vertical stripes. He felt that Xu Yanqing would look very handsome in it. He wanted to buy one for each of them, but the price would be more than a thousand, and the two pieces added up to more than 3000. It's a bit expensive for me who just graduated.

"Go and try." He said to Xu Yanqing.

"This?" Xu Yanqing pulled out the price tag and took a look, "It's too expensive."

"I'll buy it." After Qin Yu finished speaking, he took out his wallet.

Xu Yanqing looked at the credit card in his hand and asked, "Is it your card?"

Qin Yu realized that what he subconsciously took out was the card given by his father, blushing with embarrassment, and quickly took it in and changed it: "Use mine." He said to himself that he would no longer rely on others, so naturally he couldn't go against it. .

Xu Yanqing saw through his thoughts: "Independence comes step by step. Since you don't want to rely on your family, you should learn how to manage money, otherwise your salary will be wasted in a few days."

No matter how good his unit is, after all, the working hours are short and the income is limited. Qin Yu also understood that what Xu Yanqing said made sense, so he reluctantly let go.

"Actually, one or two pieces of good clothes are enough," Xu Yanqing comforted him, "There are also very fashionable ones from common brands."

In the end, instead of buying a shirt, they bought two T-shirts worth more than 200 yuan.Xu Yanqing didn't ask Qin Yu to buy it for him either, Qin Yu said that he only took it as a joke to pay for the clothes, and at his insistence, the two paid their own.But the clothes were the same style and similar color, Qin Yu was very happy, he said that he would wear them with his seniors in the future.Just like this, he was happy enough, but when Xu Yanqing's gaze swept over again, his heart suddenly tightened.

Xu Yanqing was full of probing, as if seeing through everything, and ended with a casual joke: "Look at you!"

Qin Yu felt that his secret was about to be lost.

It's strange to say that when he used to like to follow Xu Yanqing ignorantly, he often felt ashamed, as if he had caused a lot of trouble to his seniors, and would always be like a younger brother who didn't grow up; Hesitant, it seems that he has found a reasonable explanation for many of his actions.

In his pure mind, liking someone is never a dirty emotion, but an awareness of the future accompanied by growth and hope.