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"Since you are so determined, then I won't say anything more. But I always feel that there is a vast sea of ​​people, and it is not easy for you and me to meet in the dark. Anyway, there are only three days left in this week. How about this? After three days, If your heart is still the same, I respect your decision. - Pineapple"

Although what I saw was only a text message, it was right next to my ear, as if Pineapple was speaking these words to me.

In the past two days, when I am free, I will sit at my desk and look through the text messages and chat records between me and Fengli repeatedly. When I see this one, I will always fall into deep memories. Then a person was in a daze silently.

Every time, I like to recall from the beginning: the coincidental online conversation, the unintentional game chat, the expected rendezvous meeting, the golden lobby with the sound of the piano, the fragrant and fragrant love room, the twin cities connecting lovers The train,... until the one I held in my hand—the medicine delivery paper bag with pineapple's handwriting on it.

Close your eyes and think about it, everything, every scene makes me feel the wonder of fate, and many, many things make me feel very moved. ... But, but, but ... why, we still come to this point?

Maybe the relationship between us developed too fast, maybe later, when we encounter such a thing again, we can get through it smoothly.However, when it comes to personal privacy, trust and respect, this is a matter of principle. It is difficult to change the nature of the country, and it is difficult to change the nature of the two people.

Maybe it's because I'm too afraid of losing this love, because it is very beautiful to me and makes me obsessed, so if it goes wrong, I will be very painful.If one day, this love makes me unable to extricate myself, but I want to lose it again, then I...then I would rather cut off contact with it now, rather than bear this sporadic fear.

Thinking of this, I felt that my decision to break up was right.

Opening my eyes, I saw the line of words - "Remember to take your medicine on time, and call me if you need anything." Tears finally flowed down uncontrollably.

Sunday, today is the agreed deadline, if Fengli contacts me, I will tell him that my decision has not changed.But when will he contact me?

In the morning, he didn't contact me.

At noon, he didn't contact me either.

In the afternoon, he still didn't contact me.

Because I was afraid of missing him contacting me, when I drove back to school from home in the afternoon, I held my mobile phone in my hand all the way, and turned on the screen from time to time to see if I missed anything.

Cell phone and electricity.

Cell phone, there is a signal.

The phone is not broken.

Why, he hasn't contacted me yet?

"Ahang, are you not going to self-study?" The roommates in the dormitory were about to go to self-study, and the boss asked me before leaving.

"Well, I won't go today." I got up to send them out, and said goodbye to them temporarily with a smile.

Turning around, I was thinking about what to do to pass the time tonight, when the text message on my phone rang.

He hurried over to pick up the phone on the table, it was from Fengli.

"Honey, text me back when you have time, and if I have something to tell you, I'll call you. —— Pineapple"

Hmm... I didn't hesitate when I opened the message just now, but now, I'm a little at a loss.

Honey?Why is he calling me that again?Didn't we have a bad fight before?But I have to admit that when I received his text message, my heart was still lifted and I was a little excited.Hey, but aren't we going to talk about breaking up?What am I so excited about,...

Forget it, it's all a matter of time, I just don't want to think about it so much, and reply to him directly now.

"I'm free now, what's your business? - Sailing"

Almost as soon as I sent the text message, his call came.

"Hey, are you sailing?" Judging from the tone of her voice, it seemed that Pineapple was in a good mood today.

"You call me on your cell phone, the number is correct, who else would it be if it wasn't me?" While talking, he put on a straight face, pretending to be nonchalant, but this is just a call, in fact, the other party can't see me .

"It's your cell phone, or someone else picked it up, such as encountering a thief, or kidnapping or something?" Fengli, as usual, made fun of me whenever she found a chance.

"Crow's mouth, don't you have something to do? If you have something to talk about, hang up if you don't have anything to do." I didn't want him to gossip anymore, so I changed the topic back as soon as possible.

"Okay, I have something to say." Fengli cleared her throat, "My mom and I came out."

"What does it mean to come out?" That's when I actually heard the word for the first time, and didn't even know exactly which words it was.

"It's me who told my parents that I like boys." Fengli said very solemnly, "and I also told them that I have a lover of my own now."

"What?" For a while, this news really felt like a bang.

"Please listen to what I have to say before making a decision." Fengli waited for a while, saw that I hadn't spoken, and continued, "Since you proposed to break up, to be honest, it's not that I haven't thought about breaking up. When I was working It’s okay, but whenever I’m alone, I’ll start to miss you, and think about the details of the two of us together. Although we haven’t known each other for a long time, we always feel so compatible. I think we are the legendary love at first sight It is not easy for people who are in love to meet, not to mention that we are this kind of people, and it is even more difficult to meet true love for the first time in love."

Feng Li became more and more excited as he talked on the other end of the phone, and I could vaguely feel his sincerity on the other end of the phone.

"I don't want to give up this fate, especially after this incident happened. In the days when we didn't communicate with each other, I found that without you, my life has lost a lot of color. Maybe after breaking up, we will meet new objects, but I I can't be sure if I will love him as much as I love you. I think you will think the same way, so please don't give up our relationship easily."

After Fengli said this, she was silent for a while, and then I asked softly, "Have you finished what you want to say?"

"Basically that's what it means, let's talk about it first." I could hear Fengli's emotion was still a little excited, "I'm sorry, I'm a little emotional, so I don't know what to say now."

"First of all, let me ask you, how did you tell your parents about those things?" I swallowed after I finished speaking.

"Actually, ever since I met you, I've been looking for opportunities to talk to them, because I think you are the person I'm looking for in this life. It's just that after this happened, I thought more clearly, so I decided to tell them about it. Let’s make a declaration, a declaration of love—to them and to myself. If we are still together in the future, I don’t want us to be an underground relationship.”

Every word Fengli said at this moment is deeply melting my heart.

——Unfinished, to be continued——