self ferry

Waking up from a nightmare, covered in cold sweat.

Yang Yege regained his strength for a long time before supporting his body and sitting up from the sofa. The mobile phone on the coffee table was ringing.

His eyes were blurred, and he forgot where he was, so he habitually picked it up and picked it up.

"Hey?"

A middle-aged woman's voice came from the other end, with a narrow tone: "You have a cold? What's wrong with your voice?"

Yang Yege was surprised for a moment. From the corner of his eye, he saw his mobile phone lying on the end of the sofa. Only then did he realize that he had made a wrong call. Just as he was about to apologize and hang up, the other party blurted out a series of words, which made him unable to move.

"How about it? I can make a big deal, right? Mr. Xu was probably dumbfounded when he saw those photos. I heard that he resigned and his agent didn't do it anymore. Then he and Yang Yege probably It's over, why haven't you taken advantage of it, dear nephew?"

Yang Yege took the phone away in a daze, and looked at the name of the caller on the screen——Liu Shu.

What... what photo?

In a split second, his intuition told him that he had touched the core of a certain event.

"Why don't you talk? Hey... Hey? Is there no signal?" Liu Shu asked strangely at the other end: "Jin Yu, can you hear me?"

Yang Yege felt cold all over, he calmed down, and imitated Jin Yu's voice and said, "Yes, you can say it."

"Yongyi sued me, saying that you stared at him when you saw him on the set, you have to thank him, you know? He came up with this idea. Hurry up, while your Brother Yang is still sad and Mr. Xu is still abroad , it might be won after coaxing, but it will be hard to say if it is delayed until Mr. Xu comes back."

Yang Yege pressed his violently beating heart, and asked, "When will Mr. Xu come back?"

"Then who knows? The last time I met at the company, I only said that I was planning to go abroad for a while to recuperate. It seems that I was hit hard. The garage photo... tsk tsk."

"Okay, I got it." Yang Yege pretended to agree easily and hung up the phone.

Ten minutes later, Jin Yu came in with fruit, and when she saw Yang Yege sitting on the sofa with staring eyes, she froze all over.

"Yang... Brother Yang, are you awake?"

Yang Yege remained motionless.

"Are you having nightmares again?" Jin Yu put the fruit plate on the coffee table, and suddenly saw Yang Ye holding his cell phone in his hands, and his heart trembled.

In order to use the couple machine with Brother Yang, he replaced the Apple he used before and bought the same Huawei P18PLUS from Brother Yang. He just went out to wash the fruit and put it on the coffee table.

He had a bad feeling.

Sure enough, Brother Yang smiled strangely, and asked him word by word: "Jin Yu, why didn't you tell me that you are Liu Shu's nephew?"

There was an explosion in Jin Yu's head, and he broke out in a cold sweat.

He raised his head tremblingly, swallowed, and said, "She...she's just my cousin, and I don't usually get in touch with her much."

Hearing this, Yang Yege lowered his eyes as if he was thinking about something, put Jin Yu's mobile phone back on the coffee table, and said quietly: "Sorry, I got your call wrong, I apologize to you. However, the garage photo Shouldn't you give me an explanation?"

Jin Yu already knew in his heart that he was doomed, but still wanted to struggle for a while, so he explained the cause and effect of that incident.

"I hesitated at the time, because the reporter asked for 20 yuan, and decided to call later. She had already sent the photo to Mr. Xu...I'm sorry, Brother Yang, it's all my fault! I should have told you earlier...No, I shouldn't hesitate, I should buy it out immediately! When I applied for the job, I said that I would help you solve everything, Brother Yang just needs to concentrate on his work...I...I didn't do it, I'm sorry..."

Yang Yege listened silently, closed his eyes, and sighed almost imperceptibly, and said angrily, "I see, I don't blame you."

"No, it's just my fault..."

"It's okay, Jin Yu," Yang Yege's voice was very kind: "I know you tried your best, thank you very much."

"Last time I heard you call, the two reporters who clarified the facts on Weibo spent a total of [-] yuan, right? Is there anything else?"

Jin Yu held back tears and shook his head, watched Yang Yege pick up his mobile phone and fiddled with it a few times, then his mobile phone rang a WeChat message notification tone, and when he opened it, he received an instant transfer of 6 yuan.

Yang Yege lowered his head, with no expression on his face, and said flatly: "Thank you these days, and I don't have much work in the future. Your salary comes from the financial side, go and settle it."

Jin Yu was still in a daze: "Brother Yang...you...are you going to fire me?"

Yang Yege shook his head, looking very tired: "No, you have always taken good care of me, and you have done a good job, but... I don't need an assistant for the time being, thank you."

Jin Yu stood on the spot for a while, tears welling up: "Brother Yang!"

"It's been hard these days, go back and rest for a while, if you need it later, I'll call you back, okay?"

Jin Yu could hear that Brother Yang's last tone was almost pleading, he couldn't say a word, and choked up when he opened his mouth.

He silently packed up his things and prepared to leave with a suitcase in his arms. He was still worried, walked to the sofa where Yang Yege was sitting, and whispered, "Brother Yang, once I leave, no one will take care of you. I'm worried." .”

"It's okay." Yang Yege took a sip of water from his cup, lowered his eyes and said calmly, "I've taken care of myself for more than twenty years, so I've come back to life."

"Then you eat..."

"I can cook, I can't starve myself."

Jin Yu really couldn't find an excuse to continue to hang on, so he could only walk out of Yang Yege's lounge step by step.

The door closed with a click, and Yang Yege shuddered, picked up the blanket and wrapped it around himself.

No one can believe it!No one can believe it except himself... Isn't Lin Zheng's lesson from the past not enough?He is really confused to believe Xu Ziyan's nonsense!What assistant are you looking for?It's safest to take care of yourself, and you can't trust anyone around you!

He raised his head, staring at the pale sky outside the window in a daze.

Xu Ziyan is abroad...

No wonder I couldn't find him anywhere, because he had gone abroad.

I don't know if I will come back or not.

He hugged himself tightly with his thin arms, resting his forehead on his knees, his whole body huddled into a shrimp.For some reason, the abdomen suddenly felt a sharp pain, as if a bug was churning inside.

***

"From the video report, there is no problem. It is probably the indigestion that is common in summer. If you feel particularly painful, it may be psychological. Have you been stressed or stressed recently?"

Yang Yege looked at the doctor's face and nodded.

The doctor thought about it and said: "Let's prescribe some yeast tablets for you first, and pay attention to regulating your emotions when you go back. Don't eat spicy or cold food, don't drink alcohol, and chew some baked bun slices when you have nothing to do. It can nourish your stomach."

"OK, thanks."

Coming out of the hospital, Yang Yege looked up at the scorching sun, the back of his neck seemed to be pricked by a thorn.

psychogenic...

Then there is no way.

General Manager Chenghua learned that Yang Yege was unwell, so he sent his assistant Liang Jie to accompany him to the hospital to see a doctor, and arranged a special car.There is no way, Chen Gong caused a sleeping fan incident, even though he killed him in the end and did not admit it, it still caused a lot of negative effects, no matter what he had to be kept in storage for a few months, under such historical conditions, Yang Yege was automatically promoted As the first brother of Senhu, he has received extraordinary attention.

Mr. Cheng gave the manager of the artist department a death order and never allowed Yang Yege to have any more problems.

"Brother Yang, are you okay?" Liang Jie greeted him with a worried face, holding a black parasol.

"It's okay." Yang Yege showed him the inspection report. He had just received a painkiller injection, and his stomach pain was basically gone, but he was exhausted. Liang Jie helped him into the nanny's car.

Halfway there, Yang Yege suddenly asked Liang Jie, "Can you get in touch with Mr. Xu?"

Liang Jie shook his head with some embarrassment: "I haven't seen Mr. Xu for a long time. On the day he resigned, I called his mobile phone, but he couldn't get through. I didn't call again after that, and I don't know if I turned on the phone."

Yang Yege shook his head with a wry smile. He called three times every morning, afternoon and evening, but so far all the phones were turned off.

At [-]:[-] in the evening, Yang Yege suddenly sat up from the bed.

Turn on the lights, turn on the computer, grab the guitar, and enter the live broadcast room.

The effect of the painkiller injection seems to have passed, and his stomach hurts again, and he can't sleep.

"Hi everyone, I'm here again." He waved his hand at the camera a little tiredly: "It's late, but I suddenly want to come up and sing a song, am I a bit willful?" (laughs)

He adjusted his posture, plucked the strings, followed closely, and the human voice floated out——

"You are strange, familiar and different in my dream

You are my dream fantasy reality immortal starry sky

The color of the eyes is you, the black and white is you

Depression and joy never end

You are my dream of losing and gaining desire and falling out of favor

You are the cage of my hesitant and decisive thoughts in my dreams

The ear is silent, it is you, the roar is you

Split and degenerate, the soles of the feet are hanging in the air..."

The chorus was supposed to continue later, but Yang Yege suddenly forgot the words, so he added a guitar solo impromptu, and when his mind cleared up, the following lyrics finally jumped out:

"You are the lonely and bustling people in my dreams who come and go in a hurry

You are the vain reality in my dream midnight neon

The desolation in the stomach is you, the hotness is you

Will filling and emptying be different..."

Stuck again...

He was in a bad state, and he was a little annoyed why he had to go live on a whim. When he missed someone, he couldn't control himself at all.

He and Xu Ziyan haven't seen each other for seventeen days.Seventeen days of silence, even a misunderstanding as big as a drop of water, will turn into a vast ocean, right?

There is probably no hope of reconciliation.

I don't know if I can meet again in this life.

Late at night live broadcast, not many viewers, only sporadic bullet screens brushing "What's wrong with Yege?"

He suddenly wanted to cry, and he lowered his head, not daring to look directly at the camera. After a while, he plucked the strings and sang again, his voice a little hoarse.

"You are my windy dream at 39 degrees

Bringing together lost feelings is dissolving...

In the dream, you are a dream, the dream becomes empty

The more you go, the more you love to dream about you..."

At the end of the song, I sat quietly for a while, raised my head and smiled at the camera, and said in a subtle voice: "Happy birthday."

Then he pulled the gate of the live broadcast room.

The time on the clock was just stuck at midnight, and it beeped.

Xu Ziyan's birthday is here, he is 29 years old.

The Nordic islands, the sky covered with dark clouds, the summer days are suffocatingly long.

Xu Ziyan's time was six hours behind Yang Yege's.

Looking around, the green cliffs and the gray-blue sea level interweave into a gorgeous picture. Several puffins stopped beside him and pecked at the bird food he scattered there.

Within a radius of twenty miles, I was alone, the world was vast and silent, and the only thing that filled my ears was the sound of crashing waves.

The watch showed 06:30 in the afternoon, Xu Ziyan sat on the wet rock and quietly turned on the phone.

Ding ding dong dong... A series of blessing text messages poured in. He looked at the piles of happy birthday one after another, unlocked them gently, and turned to the end bit by bit.

There is no Yege.

His lips moved, the corners of his eyes were red, and his hair was disheveled like a bird's nest.

His body began to feel disobedient and uncomfortable again, his breathing was disordered, he panted heavily, turned off the phone with trembling hands, closed his eyes and calmed down.

It took a long time to feel better.

Yang Yege got up early in the morning, cleaned up the house, emptied the refrigerator, fetched a basin of water for a general cleaning, then turned off the water valve, electric switch and natural gas switch in sequence, and finally covered the furniture and electrical appliances one by one with a white cloth.

Clothes and daily necessities were packed into two large suitcases, dragged into the trunk, and started the car to drive away.

He drove very slowly and took a long time to reach his destination.

By the shore of Bainiao Lake, Ruixiangyuan Villa.

He walked around the house, backed the car into the garage, and walked into the house.The housekeeper had cleaned it in advance, the windows were bright and clean, and the wooden floor had a slight aftertaste of detergent. He wandered along the corridor, opening windows one by one, and the old-fashioned furniture with feet lay quietly on the floor, as if waiting for him to come back.

***

Ruixiangyuan is an early high-end residential area in the Qianchuan area. After Zhuang Fan won the Golden Bird Award 18 years ago, he bought this property and lived a semi-reclusive life with his children; Zhuang Fan bought it, but Yang Ling’s name was written on the birth certificate. She decided to go back to the United States when she got divorced. The house was too troublesome to deal with, so she didn’t want it. They were all given to Zhuang Fan, and he basically left the house.The snipe and the clam gave way, Zhuang Fan thought for a second, and then transferred both properties to his son who had just grown up.

The reason why Yang Yege bought a car first after making money was also because he didn't have to worry about where to live.

He didn't want to live in Lan Guiyuan any longer, there were intimate memories of him and Xu Ziyan everywhere, it was too uncomfortable to be alone now.

He wanted to escape that kind of heart-pounding pain, and wanted to go to a place where no one could find him.

However, after much deliberation, this is the only way to escape.

This house is full of dark childhood memories, but so what?He thought, have I suffered less in these years?

He believed that the pain of losing Xu Ziyan would one day be faced directly.

When it's numb, it's all good.

The main entrance of the villa is a double heavy wooden door. Yang Yege took out the key, and suddenly remembered that when he was a child, he was most afraid of this door. When it was closed with a bang, he was going to suffer, either beating or starving .Whenever he heard that sound when he was a child, he knew that purgatory was coming, and the black fear followed him like a shadow, and he couldn't escape wherever he went.

This old house is the starting point for his sensitivity and dullness, strength and fragility...all the contradictory traits in him.

Insert the key into the lock and turn it, and with a click, the locked door can be slowly pushed open.

You see, the pain that felt like hell when I was a child, now I can easily face it at the age of 25, can't I?

No pain is unbearable.

Yang Yege put on a canvas smock, a sun hat and sunglasses, found large garden shears from the warehouse, and went to the yard alone to tidy up the flowers and trees.

The house is regularly maintained by housekeeping, but because no one has lived in it for a long time, the gardener is naturally lazy. The beautiful small courtyard in memory has become a wild garden overgrown with weeds, and the shade trees around the courtyard wall have become tall and luxuriant. , The peony that my mother likes is still there, but it grows wildly with its teeth and claws. The hollyhock seeds blown from nowhere take root and intermingle with the pink peony flowers.

After working for a long time, Yang Yege was so tired that his waist was sore and his back ached. Finally, the small yard was tidied up. A cart of fluffy hollyhocks was cleared out and thrown away. The rest of the flowers and trees had been neatly trimmed, so the gardener had to bring a lawn mower to mow it. Just a touch of the lawn.

After taking a shower, I moved out of the small round table and folding chairs in the warehouse, and sat down among the peonies and drank afternoon tea elegantly, following my mother's habit in my memory.

He was sensitively aware of a gaze falling on him, followed by a look, and found a man outside the white iron gate looking at him from a distance.

His heart seemed to stop beating for a few seconds, and at that moment he thought it was Xu Ziyan standing outside.

He walked over in a strange way, and looked across the door. He was still holding a white bone china teacup in his hand.

It's a pity that it's not Xu Ziyan, but at first glance, there is some resemblance. The other party is about thirty and a half, tall, wearing a pair of rimless glasses, and his eyes are calm and sharp, like a black pool of water.

The man stared at him blankly, and said quietly: "You...you are?"

Yang Yege smiled at him: "New tenant, nice to meet you."

"Oh... hello, hello," the man came back to his senses, and put on a polite and alienated smile: "I was confused, when I saw you suddenly, I thought it was Ms. Zhuang who came back, I'm being rude, I'm really sorry. "

Yang Yege didn't care, and kindly opened the courtyard door to invite: "You are an old friend of the old house owner, right? It's fate to be a neighbor, why don't you come in and have a cup of tea?"

***

Senhu Media Lounge.

Lin Feng handed over a contract to Yang Yege, carefully observing the other party's emotions.

Since Lin Zheng's incident happened at the beginning of the year, Lin Feng has been feeling sorry for him. He avoided Yang Yege when he saw Yang Yege in the company. Later, Mr. Xu handed over Cai Ling to him, and Lin Feng was very good at flattering people. In a few months, Cai Ling has become a little famous star.Now that Feng Shui is turning, Mr. Xu resigned, and Yang Yege returned to him.

As soon as Lin Feng made a move, he gave him the best resource.

"Who is coming to visit the class?" ", a variety show on Star TV, once a week, the ratings have continued to rise recently. The content of each episode is to invite a mysterious guest to visit a TV series or movie crew that is being filmed, express condolences to the actors, and work together with the crew to complete the show Tasks assigned by the group.Of course, the program group and the crew must have discussed it in advance, and the broadcast of the program is tantamount to promoting the other party's drama, and the average producer is happy to see the success.

Generally speaking, this kind of variety show is not very interesting, and the highlight is the interaction between the guests and the cast members. The ratings of the last two episodes have increased because they invited popular celebrities as guests.

"It is said that the mysterious mission of the program crew will only be revealed when we arrive at the place, but the director has already given me a thorough understanding. The crew filmed in the wild, which is quite difficult. After you go, you have to cook a meal for them, is that okay?"

Yang Yege nodded: "No problem."

Lin Feng was a little surprised: "You know how to cook?"

"Yes."

"Great," Lin Feng breathed a sigh of relief: "Just now I was thinking that if you don't know how to help you find a gunman to fake it."

"..." Yang Yege choked for a moment, "How can the live broadcast be faked?"

Lin Feng smiled lightly, and continued: "Also, the crew invited you to play a small role, so it should be fine."

"Ah."

"Then sign the contract first, and I'll fax it to the program team. The itinerary is to fly to Changsha tomorrow afternoon, stay there for one night, get up early the next morning to cook, and have to take it to the set before noon. It's hard work, can you bear it?"

"No problem." Yang Yege made an OK gesture, picked up a pen and signed the contract.

Lin Feng didn't seem to have expected that the signing would go so smoothly. He put away the contract and told him, "You must pay attention to safety when you get there. If you really can't do it, don't force it. Call me as soon as you encounter problems. "

"Okay," Yang Yege agreed, thought for a while, and smiled at him: "Brother Lin, thank you."

After Lin Feng left, Yang Ye Gezai watched the program carefully and felt a little empty in his stomach, so he put on sunglasses and drove out to look for food.In the past few days, following the doctor's advice, the diet is as light as boiled water. He really can't stand it anymore and wants to eat something tasty.Malatang is not good, but curry fish balls can always be eaten, right?

It was almost dinner time, he drove past a dessert shop unknowingly, and when he saw a person sitting by the window, he was startled, thinking he saw Xu Ziyan again.

Yang Yege rubbed the center of his brows, feeling a little annoyed, no matter how he looks like everyone looks like Xu Ziyan, he is also in his dreams at night, do you really miss him that much?

wrong!He suddenly came to his senses, stepped on the brakes and stopped on the side of the road, collected himself, and walked back to the door of the store just now.

That person was sitting by the glass window along the street, his figure and appearance were quite similar to Xu Ziyan's, but his brows and eyes were more open, making it easier to get close to him, not as cold and unattainable as Xu Ziyan's.

It's the eldest brother of the Xu family, Xu Zixuan.

Yang Yege parked the car and walked into the dessert shop. The air conditioner inside was fully turned on, and he couldn't help shivering.

He didn't know how to say hello, he approached the table by the window lightly, and sat down opposite Xu Zixuan.

Xu Zixuan was looking at the text message and smiling, when he noticed someone on the opposite side, he raised his head, and when he saw Yang Yege, his smile froze.

Yang Yege took off his sunglasses and raised his hand to say hello: "Xu Dong."

Xu Zixuan is the chairman of Senhu Media.

His smile froze for a moment, his expression was a little embarrassed and a little surprised, and then he broke into a bigger smile: "Yege? Why are you here?"