How should I survive in a different world as a reincarnated villain?

My mind went blank, and by the time I realized it, I had already said "Sir, it is impossible to marry a shameless woman like you!"

Similarly, I can't forget the way she looked at me at that time, the expression of disbelief at first and then gradually turned into anger, which made me wonder how to face her for a long time.

Of course, we broke up after sending her away. Thinking about it carefully, my reputation among the nobles will become worse and worse, and she should be part of it.

Does this count as self-inflicted?

By the time I realized it, I had become the isolated one at the tea party. Although I could not say that I was not invited to all kinds of banquets, as long as I went, I would receive the attention of others. I don't know whether to want me to hear or not to hear the volume speaking bad things about me.

Unfortunately, they didn't say who it was, but from their conversation, I could clearly tell that it was me.

In fact, this kind of exclusion is not uncommon among nobles. I am not the first and I will not be the last.

But because of the weak power, I am the only one on my side, even if I still have the status of the first prince's fiancee, it is very unwise to face so many nobles directly, so I chose to be patient, but it was a coincidence It makes those old nobles feel good about me, and they often compare me with the juniors in the family.

Anyone who is trampled on by Bila like this will be angry, listen to the elders nagging too much, even if they didn't hate me very much before, they will have to change their minds this time, and it gradually becomes an endless loop.

It would be a lie to say that I am not lost, even I feel sad because I am so unpopular among my peers, but after being comforted by my husband, I let it go, especially after knowing that someone is trying to get him from me After this poached but was rejected by my husband, I also began to dislike those people.

They don't make friends with me because they have no vision, and who else, if you want to get close to Mr., you must first establish a good relationship with me, but she chose the most stupid way. Forever lost the chance to see Mr.

As long as I'm here, they won't even want to see Mister!

forever!Don't even think about it!

After dealing with the problem of being isolated, I was still not very happy, because I found that I seemed to have unreasonable thoughts about my husband.

this is not right.

It's not because of unequal identities, or too much age difference. If I really care about these things, I won't be tempted. As long as I can change my identity, I dare to pursue my husband, but I love Gwyneth Cecil .

That Agnes Cecil who was destined to be the fiancée of the first prince from birth.

As long as I don't break off my engagement with the first prince for a day, I won't be able to show my feelings for my husband on the bright side. Once someone finds out that I have such thoughts, it's fine if the royal family doesn't want to pursue it. Once it is pursued, not only My family will be implicated because of me, and my husband can't escape unless he can leave this place and never come back.

Therefore, I acquiesced to what those people said, and I was voluntarily accused of being the fiancee of a prince and looking down on other people. No matter what, it was better than being rumored that I fell in love with other men and brought the first prince It's good to have a green hat.

According to reliable gossip, the first prince lost his affection for me because he believed those rumors, and would never contact me unless it was necessary, but I don’t care what he thinks of me. More gossip content makes me a little annoyed, listening to them all day long about my love for the first prince is really frustrating, obviously the person I like is in my own home...

Later, after being pulled aside by Pell, that is, the noble lady who broke up with me at the banquet, and had a brief exchange, I realized in a trance that I was not as smart as I thought. Emotions are well hidden.

And the reason why the rumors that I love my tutor did not spread is also because Pere hid it, just like I did not tell other people about her gaffe that day, we both tacitly protected the existence of Mr. stand up.

This matter was not unexpected, rather I had thought about it long ago, but she would pick it up and talk about it, which still made me feel a sense of anger from embarrassment.

Maybe we chose to do this for different reasons, but it annoys me to think that she has that kind of heart for her husband.

The husband is so good, how can she match him?

I, who was only interested in counting Pell's shortcomings, just ignored the soreness in my heart and the moist feeling in the corners of my eyes.

Thinking about it now, I was really jealous of Pere at that time, even now, I still envy her character of daring to speak and do, if it wasn’t for the same person hidden in my heart, we might be able to become very good friends.

No, we were good friends, but I pushed them away because of my own selfishness.

But I don't regret it.

Finally came the day when I was kicked out.

I'm afraid no one knows how long I've been waiting for a day.

Not only because I can finally be free, no longer bound by the rules and regulations among nobles, but also because I am finally no longer the fiancée of the first prince.

Only in this way can I express my love openly.

Why do you like Mr.

Because sir is good enough.

Where is it?

Anywhere is fine.

Although Mr. will not clear all the obstacles for me like a protector, he will accompany me when I encounter difficulties and obstacles, bring me a refreshment when I feel tired, and give me a smile to face me. I said it was hard work.

Not a big deal, but it rekindled my strength to fight.

Only then will I feel that all my hard work is worth it.

Before I knew it, my life was full of Mr., and every time I did something, I would think of what he said to me. It can even be said that all the choices I made were to get Mr. Approved to do so.

Later, my husband left, and I no longer needed anyone's approval, but this habit remained until the life trajectory I had planned long ago was broken, and I finally didn't have to maintain that hypocritical aristocratic image for anyone. .

But deep down in my heart, I still hope that someone can be by my side and tell me that it is wrong to do so. Even if I am deprived of the title of nobility, I still cannot lose myself, let alone give up on myself.

So I chose to be an adventurer, because I know that my husband doesn't want me to be an adventurer.

Whether it's because it's too dangerous or I'm too weak or something else, I only know that my husband has clearly said in front of me that I'm not suitable to be an adventurer.

I just thought, as long as I became an adventurer and gained a certain reputation.Maybe it can attract the attention of my husband, and then he will come back to me and guide me back to the right path.

In fact, I don’t know what the right way is. I only know that as long as it is what Mr. thinks, I will accomplish it. Even if Mr. wants me to be the sword in his hand, I am willing to fight for this goal for him, regardless of the process. How hard it is, I am willing too.

...provided that Mr. is willing to take me with him.

If Fenrir knew what I was thinking, I'm afraid he would be very angry. After all, he has been a nobleman for 18 years, but he doesn't have the pride of a nobleman at all.

But I don't think there's anything bad about it, and even if I will be looked down upon by everyone, I have no intention of changing my mind.

Maybe it's because I don't have any sense of belonging to this world, or because I'm used to it, for me, my husband has long been the goal I hope to achieve. I don't just want his approval, I also hope to Stand by his side, the best... and the only one.

It doesn't matter even if these are intentional by Mr.

Because of this, I can confidently say to my husband that it is you who spoiled me like this, you raised me so much that I can never leave you again, you must be responsible, otherwise I don’t know what I will do.

I was also shocked when this idea first came out, but then I was relieved, I didn’t know it a long time ago, I have never been a good person, if I can return to my husband in this way, I don’t mind threatening once .

And as long as I can threaten success, it means that my husband cares about me, as long as he has me in his heart, I am satisfied, even if I am not his everything, as long as he is mine.

But if sir leaves me and chooses someone else...

I didn't dare to think about it anymore, even if it was just an idea, I couldn't bear to have other women standing beside my husband. The strong sense of crisis couldn't even make me think rationally. All I could think of was to drive them away.

At all costs, we must drive away those who dare to covet Mr.

...But what if Mr. doesn't let me?

I kept a smile on my face, but my palms had already been clenched into fists. The pointed nails pierced my palms painfully, but I never let go.

At this time, I am afraid that only pain can keep me calm.

I didn't want to scare my husband, so I didn't express all my thoughts, and stopped when I reached Pell. The subsequent self-confessions are all secrets that cannot be revealed.

I am not afraid of other things, I am afraid that my husband will hate me because of it, so if possible, I still hope to hide my true self until the day when I can no longer hide it, and then tell my husband my true thoughts.

I just hope that day will come later...

"...I never thought you would have such feelings for me."

The husband showed a troubled expression, but his eyes were still gentle when looking at me. This is probably the only thing that makes me happy.

I pretended to be relaxed and smiled, "Sir, have you ever looked in the mirror? It's really hard not to be moved by such a face that surrounds me all day long and smiles at me."

Mr. is not a person who cares about his appearance. No matter how indistinguishable he is, his figure is hard to be mistaken for a woman. Occasionally, he will not give any response when he is said to be good-looking, so I To be able to joke so naturally, because I know he won't be angry with me like this.

Sure enough, the gentleman just hooked the corners of his lips helplessly.

"That was my fault."

The author has something to say:

Without an outline, the result of letting yourself go is that the heroine is written as a sick girl... It's quite touching _(:з"∠)_