think about love

Chapter 33

I think I am too lonely. I used to think that I could live a quiet life alone, and spent those long decades in this body called a human being.

When I met Lu Chen, I thought it would be good to have him accompany me in the short decades, especially good.But now when Lu Chen may not be able to spend time with me, I feel a little lonely, and Song Si's appearance is just right.

Let's chat and talk together.It's the first time I've been like this with others, including Lu Chen, I've never been like this with him.The feeling of being with Lu Zen is different from that of Song Si.I think it would be nice to have a friend like Song Si if Lu Chan is no stranger to me in the following boring life.I soon became brothers with Song Si, and he often came to see me when he had time, and took me, an otaku, out shopping and eating various snacks.Even though it is occasionally photographed by his fans, he can handle it well.

Lu Chen has been blocking me intentionally or unintentionally at school these days.

Today, when I was riding a small electric donkey to find Song Si, Lu Zen suddenly stopped me at the door with his car, "Let's talk." I thought about it and agreed to him, and we parked the car.Lu Chen took me to a nearby restaurant.

I have been silent all the time, and Lu Chen has been ordering dishes on his own.He kept looking at me with a smile, "I ordered a lot of what you like." I didn't say anything but just looked at him.He touched his face, "What are you looking at, do you miss me?" I opened my mouth to say something about the container, but when it came to my mouth, it turned into a bad word, "Is there something wrong? I'm in a hurry."

When Lu Chen heard this sentence, he began to frown, "I just miss you, I want to see you." I laughed at myself and said, "You are a beautiful girl, why do you still miss me? Want me as a lover?" Lu Chen held his hand He patted the table, "You rushed to see Song Si in a hurry? Are you so cheap? I just haven't looked for you for a few days."

I felt those two words "what did you say?" echoing in my mind all the time. I felt that the rose I had been keeping in my heart was growing thorns crazily on it, and it was so dense that I couldn't breathe.

Lu Chen seemed to regret the words he used just now. He wanted to hold my hand but I dodged it. I didn't know what I wanted to do, and I didn't turn around and left. I just sat there, feeling incredible. This was the first time Lu Chen scolded me.Since it's so ugly.

The pain in my heart was so real, when Lu Chan wanted to say something, I began to reflect on what I had done these years. Lu Chan just held my hand tightly and didn't speak, as if he was organizing words and didn't know what to do. say something.

Finally he said "I'm not..."

"Lu Chen?!" He wanted to explain something, but was interrupted by a gentle female voice.As I looked at the person who was walking towards us, the hand that had been holding me was released.I just feel a little ridiculous.The girl walked up to Lu Chan and sat down, put down her beautiful bag, and put her beautiful slender hands on the table, "Are you Miao Huang? I heard Lu Chan talk about you." After speaking, she shook her head hair.A very charming girl. If I didn't know Lu Chan, maybe I would be crazy for such a girl.

After the girl finished speaking, intentionally or unintentionally, she wanted to hold Lu Chan back, but Lu Chan embarrassedly rejected her.Unable to get him back, the girl didn't lose her temper and turned to me with a smile, "I'm sorry, I haven't introduced myself yet. My name is Xu Zheng, and I was childhood sweetheart with brother Lu Chen, but we were separated from him when our family moved to the United States when we were young. , we met again when my brother was in college, and we had a matchmaker's advice when we were young, and Uncle Lu and my father quite agreed with us being together, and I already have my brother's child, our wedding is in..." She hadn't finished speaking yet, when I heard what she said about having a child, I felt nauseated in my heart, I couldn't take it anymore, I hurriedly got up and ran to the toilet to retch.Tears flowed down, how could he be so embarrassed, how could he be so disgusting.

Disgusting, really disgusting, I can accept that his heart is temporarily not mine, but I can't accept that he has that kind of contact with another person when he is with me.

Someone came in. I thought it was Lu Chan, but Xu Zheng carefully handed me a piece of paper, "He is not good enough for you. He is not good enough for me either. You are not good enough. I actually treat him as a cannon. Friends and marriage partners, I didn’t expect that he really couldn’t tell who he likes, and my child is not his, I just can’t bear you to accompany him. You are so good.” After she finished speaking, she stroked my white skin lightly. Seeing the horrible face, it was like a mother stroking a child.She lowered her head and wanted to kiss me, but when I pushed her away, I spit out the word "disgusting" weakly

I slowly stood up and walked out, leaning on the wall.Seeing Lu Chen surrounded by several people, it seemed that they wanted to take him back.Lu Zen cursed a few words impatiently.When he saw me, he tried to come over but was held back by those people. I saw him like seeing what he did with that woman, and it made my stomach feel sick again.I have left this place of right and wrong.

I promised to find Song Si today, and I can't break my promise.

I rode a little donkey to Song Si’s filming base. Just when I arrived, they started to call it a day. Song Si from a distance walked over with a happy face, “I thought I couldn’t see you anymore.” I tried to smile.” How come, I agreed." Song Si thoughtfully saw my discomfort, "Come here and sit down. What's the matter?" I shook my head and said it was okay.

His kindness to me made me feel a little palpitations. It turns out that there are still people who will take care of my feelings.I thought who would be happy to marry him in the future.After a few minutes, I saw that his face darkened while looking at the phone, and then he suddenly looked at me. When he saw me looking at him, he immediately changed into a smile. I almost thought I was wrong.

"I'll take you to dinner." After finishing speaking, he picked me up, but this is a crowded place in the filming base, I broke free from his hand on my waist, "I can go." Song Si looked at me silently nodded.

I still don't feel well when eating. Fortunately, the dishes ordered by Song Si are relatively light. Although I still have a bad appetite, it is not too difficult to eat.

Later, Lu Chen faded out of my life, and Song Si also had something to do and just contacted me on the phone. His daily greetings made me feel warm in my heart. This is the second stranger who cares about me so much, grandma After I passed away, I didn't feel the care of others.

He treated me with sincerity, and of course I returned it with sincerity.

The author has something to say: I was thinking about whether to let the two be together, and I felt a little broken, it was a bit inappropriate to be together, and it was not appropriate to not be together.Alas, I am worried.Do you want to be together?