dinner for three

It's been too long since I left home, but my mother's pale but painful crying is as vivid as if it happened yesterday. It's not so much that I don't want to think about the whereabouts of my only relative in the world, it's better to say that I dare not think about it.In order to let the man who was cornered by gambling debts let his sick mother go, his life was pointed in a completely different direction.

In the calm air, only Gu Miao's panting, Xu Linfeng's soft comfort and Xu Yifan's silence remained.

Watching the two hugging with cold eyes, Xu Yifan didn't seem to have any extra emotions. He just said "I see" and went upstairs. When he heard the door of the upstairs room being closed heavily, Gu Miao broke free from Xu Linfeng's arms. embrace.From the joy of knowing that his mother was still alive, he fell into the difficulty of making a choice again, but before he could say his answer, Xu Yifan let go.

——Looks like you can't stay here anymore, is there anything else you have to take with you?

——Your mother is not in this city, I have already bought a plane ticket for you, so I can take you to see her now.

I wanted to try to save the situation, but when I heard the words of the verdict, I quietly looked at the stairs, looking at the house where I lived for three months, everything from the carpet to the sofa, from the plants by the bed to the vases on the table. It was Xu Yifan who brought him the soft and warm color, but at this moment, those fresh feelings seemed to fade away, and all of them seemed to have nothing to do with him.

——You don’t have to worry about things at the school, you can continue to come back to work, and it’s completely fine if you don’t want to.

——I have already found someone for you who can directly take over your position, so you don't have to worry about delaying the students' classes.

This man, as expected, is still the same as before. He is thoughtful and comprehensive in everything he does. He has already calmly thought out all the retreats for himself, or cut off all the retreats for himself. After all, in his hands, There is what Gu Miao wants most.That is the only family affection that Gu Miao can expect in this world. Even a bystander can guess which is more important.

There was no farewell, no explanation, but just as he was about to leave, the upstairs door was opened impatiently again.

It was a brand new luggage bag, and Gu Miao's most precious teacher qualification certificate. Without any extra words, he handed the certificate to Gu Miao. The luggage bag contained some clothes that Gu Miao had worn. Including his favorite pants shirt and coat.

——Anyway, if you don’t take it away, you have to throw it away. Why don’t you take it all away.

Originally, I wanted to add the sentence "It saves me from being upset when I see it", but I swallowed it when I caught sight of Gu Miao's hurt eyes.

--Um……

A little gratefully, he took out a slightly thicker coat from the inside, lowered his head and slowly put it on, only to find that the person in front of him had long since disappeared.With a self-deprecating smile, Gu Miao came out carrying the bag and sat on the co-pilot of Xu Linfeng's car, unable to hide his disappointment.

He is obviously an inferior person who has been exchanged by countless people as a playful pet, but he is not used to unfamiliar seats by subtle influences.

Even though he was a despicable winner, Xu Linfeng felt lucky that Gu Miao had chosen him for the time being.When the car drove out of the villa full of memories without hesitation, no one saw the silent figure standing behind the curtains on the darkened balcony on the second floor.

In this way, even if it is over, Gu Miao can finally reunite with his family, and finally reunite with the person he really likes.

But no matter how I hinted at myself in my heart, the pain of being slowly stripped away was so vivid that I felt the pain trembling.

I rushed to the city where my mother lived overnight, and it was already early morning when I arrived at the hospital.Unlike the former lover who would never finish talking with him, Gu Miao just sat quietly in his seat at this time.Unconsciously, he turned his head and immersed himself in his own thoughts. He didn't know what he was thinking, maybe he was thinking about his family, maybe he was thinking about Xu Yifan.

There was a hint of fatigue in his expression, and occasionally he caught Xu Linfeng's concerned eyes, but he just looked away helplessly.Suppressing drowsiness and rushing to the hospital, tears burst into tears when she saw her mother's sleeping profile through the glass of the single ward.

My mother, who has depended on me since I was a child, has always been weak, but looking at it now, I don’t know if it’s because of overthinking, even if I get good treatment with Xu Linfeng’s help, the condition is considered to be within the controllable range. It was thinner before.Looking at Gu Miao who was leaning against the glass in the silent corridor of the hospital, and then covering his face and crying bitterly, Xu Linfeng had mixed feelings.

Did Gu Miao, who thought she had lost everything, cry so heartbreakingly when she was abandoned by herself?

A man who has always been kind, gentle to the point of being cowardly, has been experiencing sadness that his peers have never experienced. In his 30 years of life, he has not had any special joy. Even if there is some good luck, it is really rare. Like sarcasm.

Crying and crying gradually seemed to be unbearable, squatting on the ground, in the spacious corridor, there were only two lonely figures.His crying was silent, and it was obvious that he was trying his best to suppress his emotions, afraid of disturbing the sleeping patient.But it was also for this reason that people felt even more distressed. Xu Linfeng, who was squatting halfway beside him, walked over to him, gently embraced his shoulders, took out the tissue he was carrying, and patiently Wipe his tears for him until his mood gradually calms down.

As if he was afraid that Xu Linfeng would take him away again, he kept his eyes fixed on the patient on the bed, and after a while he looked at Xu Linfeng beggingly, asking in a low voice if he could wait here until she woke up.There was still some time before dawn, Xu Linfeng comforted him softly, and agreed to his request.Wanting Gu Miao to have a good rest, Xu Linfeng planned to take him into the ward to wait, but saw the flustered expression on the other side's face. Since he insisted on staying in the corridor, Xu Linfeng had no intention of going back to spend the night.

Even if I want to see my mother again, I don't want her to see me.Even though knowing that her whereabouts were missing had caused my mother to worry a lot, letting her see herself and what she had been through would probably only make her condition worse.

After the huge emotional ups and downs and the consequences of the physical exhaustion of the previous day, Gu Miao was no match for the sleepiness in the sad mood.Unlike Gu Miao who was waiting for his mother to wake up, Xu Linfeng was waiting for Gu Miao to fall asleep unsuspectingly in front of him.Even though he had already come here with himself, Xu Linfeng could only feel sad while pretending to be smiling because of his defensiveness from beginning to end.

But now, he can finally let him rest on his shoulder, at least from the surface, he will still rely on him.

How can the broken things be put together into something that has never experienced waves, and what can I do to make Gu Miao let go of his guard against himself who has already seen his mind clearly?He held his hand with a guilty conscience, and regret flooded like a tide.

Even though his eyes were slightly sour, he couldn't convince himself to look away from Gu Miao's body again.