spring ice

Anyone who has to get up in the middle of the night, moves out of the room in a daze based on instinct, almost closes his eyes and touches the wall. The skin's reaction to the cold is still a big step behind, and when he returns to bed and resumes the dream from where it left off, Seeing a shadow jumping in from the wall of one's own courtyard, one does not know whether it is a person or a ghost, one's legs would go limp on the spot.

Xiao Yu didn't sit down with weak legs, not because the shock wasn't big enough, but because she suddenly recognized who it was: "Erlang!"

"Ah, Xiao Yu." The man turned his head, and the two looked at each other, one with disheveled hair and sunken eye sockets, the other wearing a moon-white tunic, the scene was simply unsightly. "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. It's too late, everyone must be asleep, and don't want to knock on the door again. Shall I call you Hun'er?"

Xiao Yu only had time to say no, the man nodded and disappeared like a gust of wind.She thought it was a dream at first, but the next morning the more she thought about it, the more wrong it became, she ran to the west wing to see, and sure enough Gao Shang was coming out of it, beckoning her to be careful.Xiao Yu has been listening to the movement at the door all day long, but there has been no movement.

Gao Ya fell asleep in a sleepless night, and when she woke up, her vision was pitch black.It's not necessarily late, it's getting dark now, but he's not sure, wondering if it's still the night before.He sat up and looked out the window, seeing the gleaming lights, he finally made up his mind.He got out of bed, lit a red candle, and stared at the familiar furnishings on the four walls in a daze. Xiao Yu, who was passing by, saw the light on and knocked on the door quickly: "Erlang is awake?"

"Oh, you'd better not come in, I can't see anyone..." Gao Ya looked at her sloppy body, and then she felt embarrassed when she thought about it. "Please tell the cook to boil some water."

"There is water all day long!" Xiao Yu said happily, and ran to spread the word.

Gao Ya got up from the water slowly until her fingertips were wrinkled, dragged her clothes neatly, and went to the study.It's not too tidy to say it's neat, because it's a big night at home, and there is no restraint.The study room was as warm as spring, with fine pastries on display, Gao Shang was waiting for him while looking at the account book, and stood up very relieved to see him come in.

"I just said you look good in this!" He circled around Gao Ya and said. "Your sister-in-law cut this material by herself. What do you think? Don't you like this pattern? Come on, you young man, you must wear this suit when you see me in the future, otherwise you will not be allowed to enter the door! Are you a little Fat."

Gao Shanglun is a little shorter in stature, but elegant in appearance, steady in demeanor, broad-minded and fat; the two may not be reminiscent when viewed separately, but if they stand together, anyone can tell that they are brothers.Gao Ya didn't know how to answer his brother's words, so she could only say: "The Xian couple are really the best couple in the world."

"You just know!" Gao Shang said without blinking. "A few days ago I went to a banquet, and there were some celebrities and strange people here. Someone actually mentioned you and spoke highly of your paintings. There was a civet cat fishing. - Have I seen this painting before? - The capital actually Someone asked for a hundred taels to buy, and I was very proud when I heard it, so I bragged about my virtuous brother. But then I asked Lao Wu to send you some fruits. When he arrived at your house, he saw the scene was horrible, with blood on the ground. You were so frightened that you lost your mind, so you ran back and told me that you scared half your brother to death, and ran over to see, it turned out that your living ancestor still left a note by the bed."

He intended to educate and be elegant, and he couldn't help laughing as he spoke, and looked him up again.Although Gao Ya is usually listless, at this time she is particularly shameless, her eyes are dazed and lost, Gao Shang is both disappointing and distressed: "Did you suffer a lot outside?"

Gao Ya: "Yeah, I've gained weight after suffering a lot."

Gao Shang sighed: "Alright, I hope you suffer once and learn to be good." He quickly said: "I don't have to ask you to do something, as long as you are willing to suffer a loss and not learn to be good, I have no objection."

"Brother." Gao Ya said softly, goosebumps formed on Gao Shang's back, because Ge Ya Ya has almost never called him brother honestly since he was a child. "I was bullied."

There was silence, and even the candle flames were suffocating and struggling.Gao Shang thought about it and said, "Then what should I do? Shall I go and apologize?"

Gao Ya: "... Is this the image I have in your heart?!"

Gao Shang: "You should be very clear about your image in my heart."

Jokes like this are commonplace for the two brothers, but Gao Ya feels that he is extremely fragile today, like a newborn baby, he can't stand a harsh word, and almost wants to turn around and leave, but this place is where he can't even climb over the wall overnight If you want to come back, you can't backtrack so quickly. Under the mood swings, your nose feels sore. Gao Shang finally noticed it. Of course, he wouldn't be so reckless as to directly confirm it. He said in a roundabout way: "What's wrong with you?"

Gao Ya controlled it a bit, and tried her best not to sound angry with others: "It's okay, I think since the house is a mess, I should go back and clean it up."

Gao Shang let out a sigh of relief. "You want to clean up now! I asked Old Wu to clean up. You slept all day and you don't feel hungry? Anyway, go eat first. I don't know how long your friend will sleep."

Gao Ya was struck by lightning, her whole body was petrified: "Friend?"

Gao Shang stared at him: "Well, Xiao Yu didn't mention it to you? Your friend also came before dawn and said there was something urgent. It's rare that you have a friend who is very attentive. I think he is dusty, so let him rest first. It's in the room next to you - Gaoya!!! What are you running!!!"

Gao Ya really couldn't run anymore.He had been running all day and night before.The shame, confusion, and remorse that follow him day and night, he can't even stop, he feels like standing on pins and needles when he stops, he has always been tolerant to himself, never against himself, very good at making excuses for himself, but hates iron There is really no excuse to make up for the failure of steel to this point. He doesn't understand why he would do such an unacceptable thing to Feng Huanyuan, and he doesn't want to know at all.He tried to stop himself from thinking about any aspect of the matter, trying to shut it down before he reacted, because at least in his confused mind he understood that resentment was useless.And as long as Feng Huanyuan doesn't care, Feng Huanyuan can understand, as if nothing happened to Feng Huanyuan, he will be able to classify this as a ridiculous dream sooner or later.As long as Feng Huanyuan can empathize a little bit with the shame he felt when he ran away, relying on the few tacit understandings he has cultivated in the past few days (maybe even this is not needed, as long as he has basic compassion), he will He should be allowed to live. This method can be said to be foolproof. After a full day of sleep and being in a safe environment within his reach, his consciousness has gradually blunted, and the initial layer has been eroded by time.But now Feng Huanyuan has chased him, and even chased him to his elder brother's house; as long as Gao Ya thinks about Gao Shang's reaction if he finds out about this matter, he can't wait to perform suicide on the spot.

It was unnecessary to run any longer, so he stopped.Feng Huanyuan was the person he least wanted to see in the world right now, but so what if he really saw him, could he eat him!With such a tragic mood, Gao Ya turned her head, and Feng Huanyuan, with his tiger tail on his back, was standing far away in the atrium, several feet away from him, as if he was on guard against him getting into trouble at any time.

Gao Ya realized that Feng Huanyuan might also be afraid that she would eat him, so she spontaneously felt apologetic, but she didn't know how to express it, Feng Huanyuan had already taken the lead. "Feel sorry."

"Why are you apologizing?"

"If I didn't do something wrong, why did you leave without saying goodbye?"

"You did nothing wrong, it was me who left without saying goodbye."

If you talk about it, every floor is like a castle in the air.The moonlight submerged the gravel road under the feet, shining a dazed stream-like silver light, and filled with a piercing chill.The dilapidated hanging bells under the eaves and the bamboo shadows repeatedly drawn by the wind try to evoke elegant memories, which are memories that no one can get in. Such scenes are familiar to him since he was a child, and they are completely protected. Way back.Feng Huanyuan chattered endlessly as soon as he opened his mouth. Although he had practiced these words fluently along the way, he still couldn't help being incoherent when he played them on the spot.

"Listen to me, elegant. You didn't take it seriously. You definitely didn't take it seriously. Even if what happened, it's not your responsibility. You want to see, we just escaped, unconscious... Maybe it's because of the injury, maybe it's because of the cold , maybe because I hit you in the head before, I was too lenient, I would die... But you don't need to feel any shame about it. It was just an accident, not a big deal... Isn't it? I didn't mean I have a lot of experience, but you must take this matter too seriously, you are still my savior, it’s just a matter of raising a finger... But it has nothing to do with the savior, even if you are not my savior..."

Gao Ya interrupted him wanting to cry but without tears.

"What if I mean it?"

He said this with a feeling that he wanted to deny it completely.He expected Feng Huanyuan to accept this kind of denial while accepting this assumption, but this was too much, so that he himself felt that he was forcing others to do so.How Feng Huanyuan will understand and answer this sentence is not a big deal. If he can say such words, he has already suffered a crushing defeat.It's amazing to think about it. There is not much space left on the table for them to deal with.He simply checkmates himself in one step.

Feng Huanyuan looked at him in astonishment. "I can't ask for more."

"Ah." Gao Ya said, the suffocation in his chest was suddenly released, and the rest was the shock that he could be so stupid.He thought Feng Huanyuan was not stupid.Feng Huanyuan stepped forward, patted him on the shoulder in a gesture of passing by.

"Now you don't have to worry."

Gao Ya felt warm in her ears. "What do I have to worry about?"

Feng Huanyuan ignored him. "Don't worry, God knows this. You know me. I will never tell anyone. If you don't believe me, I can swear a poisonous oath right now."

"I..." Gao Ya was tongue-tied, wondering if it was too much of a fuss, but he himself was making a fuss even more than Feng Huanyuan, so he didn't have the face to criticize others, and finally had to say: "I'm not afraid of this."

Feng Huanyuan waved his hand to stop his next words. "I know it's useless to say anything now. It's not that you don't believe it, but it's useless if you believe it. You must hate me now, wishing that I would disappear from the world immediately, and it's not necessarily against me. If you develop too fast with someone, you will I hate it, you hate being restrained so much. You must have endured it very hard these few days with me. It’s not that I didn’t know the current affairs and strike while the iron is hot. I’m afraid that you will turn your face directly. In a few days, maybe I will think of some of my merits, and I will pretend to meet each other in the future, and there may be a chance. But I have no choice. Today is October [-]."

"Nineteen." Gao Ya said, wondering why it's so cold tonight.The surface of the moonlight under my feet was frozen with a thin layer of ice, and there was a dull cracking sound when I moved my hands and feet. No matter from which angle I looked at it, autumn had passed.His most hated season is just around the corner.

Feng Huanyuan looked at him deeply, with a sincerity that could not be misinterpreted. "Come to Huashan Mountain with me. You promised me, you can't give up halfway."

"I really didn't expect that we would meet again." Feng Huanyuan said, as if he really believed that everything would be over after the night when the incident happened. , one is the panic-stricken back, each of them is very disgraceful, it is almost a pity, but it is irreparable.Now sitting opposite to each other are two brand new strangers, both of them are calm and have made some preparations, enough to deal with any changes.

"Senior brother three, I'm so happy to see you are still alive." Fu Jiya said happily, looking at him with her chin in her hand, her tender cheeks were like ripe peaches, which might rot in the next moment.Her nails are too red, not like the imperceptible dip of the petals from the inside out, but rather like a quick dip in the bright red liquid, and the color will flow down her fingers.Feng Huanyuan didn't like her dressing up like this, but he didn't have any position to criticize. He thought she would be happier knowing this concern. "Aren't you scolding me?"

"What's the use of scolding you?" Feng Huanyuan said. "And you must have your reasons for doing this. Instead of blaming you, I might as well reflect on where I was negligent, and let you make such considerations."

"Really, Third Senior Brother, I like this about you the most." Fu Jiya said, "I also hate this about you the most. Who do you think you are? A hero of the world or the king of heaven? There are many reasons, and you can say anything. It makes sense, or you are too indifferent to me, I hold a grudge, or the elder brother persecutes me, and I can't resist. But I am not for these; can't I just want to cheat you?"

"Okay, okay." Feng Huanyuan said, his tone like a helpless elder brother. "Then are you satisfied now?"

Fu Jiya laughed, she didn't know whether she didn't want to answer or she didn't bother to answer; her eyes under the heavy makeup were a bit haggard, her eyelids were wrinkled, and she was in a state of inconsistency, in and out, and when she spent everything, she might not even No bones will remain.Every time Feng Huanyuan looked at this junior sister, he felt awe, as if there was a violent spirit hidden under her appearance, which would break through this charming body at any time, so that he had to put self-preservation first in every word. "Aya, I never blamed you. No one can blame you. I know Master owes you a lot."

"I owe - I - good - much." Fu Jiya repeated these words, her face full of admiration. "Senior Brother Third, you are really good at talking."

"I was wrong." Feng Huanyuan immediately changed his words. "He's not as good as a beast."

Fu Jiya bent down with a smile. "Look, don't you want him to die at all? You know that I can't resist, but you refuse to save me. You all refuse to save me. Compared with the elder brother, you are not much better. At least he is still alive. Will avenge me!"

"He's not avenging you." Feng Huanyuan said calmly. "He's just using you. Aya, come to me. Everything he can give you, I can give you."

Fu Jiya twitched the corners of her lips: "If he can't give it to me, can you give it to me?"

Feng Huanyuan said: "The future is long, and we can discuss everything."

"I'll forget it. Are you a little sorry for him by saying that?" Fu Jiya said after a silence. "Don't you think the old guy still likes you the most? He passed the tiger tail to you quietly in the end, which shows that he still prefers you. It's ridiculous that we have worked so hard to feed him three years of ecstasy soup, and I paid myself for it. It all fell short. Third senior brother, you are really capable."

"To be honest, I didn't think of it myself. At that time, he had refused to see me for a long time." Feng Huanyuan admitted. "Based on this alone, I can't be indifferent after all. Don't you think I'm going to avenge him?"

"Even if you are really the king of heaven, you still can't reach Yuntai Peak." Fu Jiya said ruthlessly. "Including your new friend, or can you escape unscathed? But on the day of the grand ceremony, I'm afraid there will be a lot of people. It's not easy to run under the eyes of everyone. Second, accidents are prone to happen. Huashan falls to death every day for no reason."

"That depends on you. You are the only witness."

"En." Fu Jiya said, exhaling lightly.Feng Huanyuan had something to ask, and Feng Huanyuan's life was in her hands. She just felt the pleasure of life and death in a matter of a second, but it was boring, even heavy, and she wanted to hand over the power of decision to someone else. "What if I don't agree? Don't you want to go to Mount Hua?"

"I still have to go." Feng Huanyuan said. "Don't you like watching my betrayal? It's not a pity for him to die, but you can't go on like this forever. Aya, you have tortured me enough. It's not that when you want me to die, I will definitely die. The reason is not that when you want me to live, I must live."

"Understood." Fu Jiya said happily. "Senior brother, I will wait for you."